Up 'til now, I thought I knew love
Nothin' to lose and it's damaged 'cause
Pattern to fall as quick as I do

I hear my alarm go off near my head and my want to scream. I at least need 5 more hours of sleep. This pregnancy is making me more tired and I looked up online and it said every woman reacts differently and that some people get really sleepy and some even feel energetic. Yay them…. I sit up quickly before I could fall asleep and try to start my day. This day feels different than any other. First, Damon knows and is really supportive which is a huge relief. Then I am also telling Bonnie and Caroline today. I'm not scared, not so much anymore. I just want to get it out there so I can cry to them about it.

I get up and look in the mirror. There is a slight bump. Not much. I wouldn't really call it a bump just a little nudge. I sigh and go over and get dressed putting on some jeans and a long sleeved white t shirt. After I am done I go downstairs and my brother and dad are talking while eating what smells like eggs.

"Hey 'Lena" My dad smiles. "I made some eggs for you guys, I don't have to go into work till 11 today but that means I will be home later" He explains.

I nod. It's a normal occurrence for my dad to have odd schedules. He is one of the best doctors in the state, he specializes in trauma surgery.

"That's fine, I might hang out with Caroline and Bonnie"

"Bye" Jeremy says and leaves without another word. That is another normal occurrence. Jeremy is the type to show what he feels by actions not words. So if he is mad he wont tell you why, he will instead yell obscenities or punch you. And if he is sad he will drink and do drugs. You get the story.

"Well there he goes" I chuckle.

"Yeah, odd ball that brother of yours is" My dad agrees.

I laugh as he sets a place of eggs and toast in front of me. Mhmm. Sounds so good I could inhale it in one go. But I don't want to draw any attention. I want to tell him myself not him figure it out by shoving my face.

"So any ideas for your 16th birthday?" My dad asks.

I gulp. That's right I am turning sixteen in about 3 weeks. And ill be 13 weeks pregnant…Never expected that for my sweet sixteenth birthday.

"I don't know…" I trail off.

"If you want to go hang out with your friends and party that's fine. I'll give you a free pass. But take it or leave it now cause I won't bring it up again" he says firmly.

No no" I say quickly. "I don't want that. Maybe a dinner? And just staying home"

My dad scowls at me a little before agreeing. "Yeah okay. If that is what you wish then you will get it" He smiles.

I look at the clock and realize I need to get going. I want to leave earlier today so I can tell Bonnie and Caroline. Yeah I should wait till after school but to be honest I don't think I can. Now that I have the courage I want to tell them so badly. I am finished eating and I start to leave.

"Bye dad" I wave.

"Bye cupcake" He waves and I am out of the door. Well, here goes nothing.

I still never returned their calls from last night because I want to tell them in person so when I reach the school 20 minutes later I search for them. After a few more minutes of walking around like a idiot I spot them talking by the picnic tables. I speed walk to them just wanting them to know. I want my best friends to know.

"Hey guys…" I walk up to them nervously.

"Elena!" Caroline stands up and runs over to hug me. "We are so sorry we just were being stupid and we will be here until you are ready to tell us" She assures.

I look at Bonnie and Caroline who are smiling and I know this is my time. I take a deep breath but a sob gets the best of me.

I have to get this out now. I have to. And I want to. I've always wanted to but ran away from my problems before but now I am ready. I take a few deep breathes before I get it out.

"I am ready to tell you now" I cry.

They both nod, not knowing what to say or expect.

I sit down on the bench of the picnic table with them across me and I play with my hands a little before I start. "I have something really bad to tell you guys…"

"What is it?" Bonnie whispers.

She already sounds supportive. I smile at the thought.

I feel a few more tears working their way down my wet cheeks. "I don't want you guys to be mad…"

"We won't be" Caroline says firmly. "Whatever it is, we are here for you. I promise"

I take another deep breath. Better get it out now. I have known these girls since the sandbox days and I never thought I would be telling them the next words I'm about to say. Ever. I thought at this age almost 16 I would be dating, having fun and partying which I got to do for a few months before I screwed it up. The next words will change our friendship forever. Not in the bad way I hope just in the sense I am on a different path than them now.

"I'm pregnant" I say boldly and look up at them too see their reactions to my news.

Caroline's jaw is hung open and Bonnie has a sympathetic look on her face. I feel a few more tears rush down and I use my jacket sleeve to wipe them away.

"Oh god Elena…." Bonnie whispers.

"I know" I cry.

I feel so much better telling them. Almost all the weight is off my shoulders. Except I still have to tell my dad and Jeremy. But I grew up with these girls. We have known each other our whole lives. I don't know what my life would be like without them. They have just always been there. Always. I know they will be disappointed and sad for me hell I am for myself. But I know with their help and support they won't leave me behind. They are just those types of people. It's nothing we expected but it's also nothing we can't get through.

"Who is the dad?" Caroline whispers after a few moments of silence.

I know she is probably dying of curiosity and maybe even a little hurt because I never said anything about a boyfriend or even a crush. She knows I can get uncomfortable around a lot of guys and I will just have fun with them and leave. So I bet she is dying to know the father because I haven't been around a guy since Mason and she knows I didn't sleep with him.

"You won't like it" I say. And I know they won't. Everyone knows Damon Salvatore is a womanizer and a huge dickehead. I mean if you want fun he is the man to go to, but for long term or seriousness he is bad bad news.

"Just tell us Elena" Caroline whispers.

"Damon Salvatore" I tell them.

Caroline's jaw is hung open again and Bonnie has her head in her hands. I know what Caroline thinks of Damon. She told me before she thinks he is hot but she is more of a Romeo and Juliet girl. She wants the full romance so she has always stayed clear of him. And Bonnie…I have heard her rant about Damon countless times. Bonnie doesn't date much she wants to save herself for the perfect man and so basically Damon is against everything she believes in. Plus one time he tried to hit on her and she almost slapped him.

I feel my tears get harder. I think were all crying at this point maybe besides Caroline who is just shocked.

"When?" Bonnie whispers after awhile.

"The back to school beach party…" I mumble.

"I wondered where you were all night!" Caroline speaks up.

"Yeah and it wasn't just once you guys….it was like all night" I say groan. I want them to know it all. Yeah ill save the graphic details but I want them to know everything. I want to be honest with them and I want my friends back.

"Oh Elena…" Bonnie says again. "Didn't you use any protection?"

"Nope" I say slumping forward and putting my head in my hands. "I was changing birth control pills around that time so they weren't effective and Damon stupid Salvatore seems to think every girl is protected so he should have to case himself" I scoff.

"Of course" Bonnie shakes her head.

"Does Damon know?" Caroline asks quietly.

"Yeah" And I see the hurt on their faces that he knows before them. "But I didn't want him to know!" I quickly add before they are really hurt. "My prenatal vitamins fell out of my bag and he saw" I explain.

"Oh god" Bonnie gasps.

"Yeah…Not exactly how I would want anyone to find out…" I trail off.

"Were you ever going to tell him?" Caroline asks.

"No, I felt like he wasn't mature and would just bolt and cause more damage than good. But when he found out he was weirdly supportive of it and ready to jump into it"

"Wait" Caroline starts. "Back up…Damon freaking Salvatore is ready to jump into being a dad?" Caroline says confused.

"Quiet Care!" Bonnie whispers.

"Whoops."

"But yeah he was and he said he was going to call around for doctors cause he wants me to be seen and make sure and I quote 'the baby doesn't have 3 heads'" I joke while wiping more tears away.

"Wow.." Bonnie says shocked.

"Yep" I agree.

"So that makes you…how many weeks?" Caroline questions.

"10 now" I reply. "But I found out around 8-9wks."

"But that means…you were pregnant for almost two months before you knew?" Bonnie asks confused.

"Yeah…About that…I was in denial for awhile and just brushed it off. Big mistake now because I am already showing a little and having crazy symptoms and I still haven't told my family…" I say nervously.

"Well we will be here for you for the whole ride. We promise" Bonnie assures me. Caroline nods agreeing.

The bell rings ending our emotional talk. I stand up and wipe the tears on my face and turn to my friends.

"Well we can talk more at lunch" I sniffle.

They nod and both huge me before we go to our separate classes. It feels so good to have them knowing now. I bet I will feel the same way with my dad. But I will take one step at a time otherwise I am going to have an emotional breakdown from everything going on and I don't think my body could take that.

My classes until lunch were slow cause I know they are thinking about questions to ask right now and I will have to answer them, don't get my wrong I want to answer anything but I also am tired of this pregnancy already. I want to fast forward 9 months. Finally the bell rings signaling lunch and I am already feeling a bit nauseas so I feel like its best not to eat otherwise ill just throw up. I walk to the cafeteria breathing in and out trying not to loose my breakfast my dad made. I spot Caroline and Bonnie in our normal table in the corner of the room and make my way over there. I missed eating here the past few days.

"Hey Elena" Bonnie says sweetly and I smile back as I sit down.

"You going to eat today?" Caroline asks as she opens up her salad she brought with her.

"No…I am feeling kinda sick all the sudden today so I am going to wait it out" I grimace.

"So you have morning sickness?" Bonnie confirms.

"Oh yeaaah. Don't you guys remember when I threw up at the mall and restaurant?"

"Oh my god!" Caroline shrieks. "And I even asked you! Wow…"

"Yeah, I really wanted to tell you guys it's just…I wanted to sort out what I thought first before I had other people telling me." I explain.

"So your keeping it?" Bonnie asks.

I sigh. "I think I am. I mean I am pretty sure but for awhile I was considering adoption but Damon is pretty firm on raising it ourselves"

"You do realize Elena you can do whatever you want?" Bonnie assures. "It is woman's rights. Don't worry about what he thinks. What do you want to do?"

"I want to have it. I know it sounds weird but I kind of already feel connected to the baby" I say sheepishly.

"Oh Elena that's good! A lot of moms aren't bonded until birth or never!" Caroline says in awe.

"Yeah I guess that is good…" I smile.

We start talking about everything. Girly stuff, pregnancy, boys, everything we missed in the couple of days we weren't talking. We haven't not talked for days since maybe 6th grade and it was because I talked to a guy Caroline had a crush on. Ha. As we are eating and talking someone approaches our table I look up and see Damon.

"Oh-wha-..Hi…." I stumble out.

"Hey" He says casually and sits down next to me.

What the hell is he doing? Yes we are having a kid together but I didn't know that means eating lunch together too. I don't know this is just weird. I don't talk to him much in school normally.

"So….?" I trail off.

Bonnie and Caroline are on the other side of the table looking awkward and curious at the same time. Wanting to know what he is going to say and see our interaction.

"Can I talk to you in the hallway about you know.." He coughs.

"You can say whatever you want here. They know Damon." I tell him.

He jumps up a little almost shocked I told someone. And he looks over at them and smiles nervously before turning back to me. "Well I guess I just wanted to let you know I called our family's OBGYN, he delivered me and my brother. So I don't know… I kinda want to keep it in the family…And she had a cancellation so I got you an appointment tomorrow" He says before panic sets across his face. "That is of course if that's what you want" He assures.

I almost want to laugh at his nervousness at making sure I am comfortable.

"Of course that works Damon. The sooner the better"

He smirks. "Alright then. And also, I'll pick you up after school to drive you home"

"Oh not that's okay, Caroline ca-"

"No" He says firmly. "I'll see you after school" He smirks and as he is about to leave he stops and frowns at me. "Why aren't you eating? Aren't you suppose to eat a lot with pregnancy?" He questions.

"Well yeah…but I am really nausea's today so I am going to pass" I smile meekly at him.

He frowns and thinks for a few moments before shaking his head. "No, you have to eat. Can't the baby starve or something?" He grows concerned.

I stop. "Uh…I actually don't know.." I say and I start getting worried too. What if it starves from me not eating?

"Then that settles it come on, lunch is on me" He says and stands up and waits for me to get up with him.

"But Damon.."

"No, come on"

"I'll just throw it up" I say bluntly to him.

"Well it's worth a shot" He shrugs.

I sigh in defeat and stand up. I turn back to Caroline and Bonnie. "I guess I'll be back soon" I nod and they smile nervously as I go and follow Damon to the lunch line.

Ew school food.

"We don't have enough time to go somewhere so what do you want?" He says and looks at me with those blue eyes that I always seems to get lost in and agree with almost whatever he says.

"I guess…a salad" I say. Mainly cause that's the safest option.

"Are you sure? Look how tiny you are…." He says unsure.

"I'm sure it will be fine, besides we are seeing a doctor tomorrow so we will ask her then. But for now a salad is the only thing I can put in my mouth"

He looks unsure but nods. We reach the salad part and I start to put things on it and Damon keeps encouraging me to put more dressing and more bacon and more everything! I swear if I actually listened to him I would be fat. After making the salad which can I say was stressful we head back to Caroline and Bonnie who are eating their lunches and talking. When they see us they perk up waiting to see what's going on.

"Hey guys" I say awkwardly and sit down with my salad.

"Well I wont intrude…But seriously try and eat Elena" He says firmly and leaves.

I feel the tension but dig into my salad trying not to starve my child. That scares me and opened my eyes I need to take care of my body now because it's not just me. I can't be selfish and forget meals anymore.

"Wow the sexual tension was amazing" Caroline blows out a lungful of air and laughs.

"Right!" Bonnie laughs.

"Whew" Caroline exclaims and pretends to fan herself.

I roll my eyes. "What sexual tension? He was just making sure I ate and telling me about the appointment?" I shrug.

"Elena you are so blind!" Caroline throws her hands up in the air in exasperation.

"What?" I say defensively.

"You two are so attracted to each other it hurts!" Caroline almost groans.

"No we aren't… I mean yeah we had sex but he is a complete ass…" I mutter.

"Still you are attracted to him and all of his bad boy glory" She gleams.

"Shut up" I mumble and shove a mouthful of salad into my mouth.

She just chuckles and Bonnie joins in with her.

Please I am not attracted to Damon I mean yeah he is good looking but to me to be attracted to someone is to also be attracted to their attitude which I am pretty sure I am not with Damon's. He is cocky, vain, arrogant, rude I mean the list goes on. But I have also learned there is another side to him that I am dying to see more of. But it doesn't make a difference if he doesn't show it a lot. He is either a asshole or demanding.

"Stay away from him" We hear a voice and look up to see Katherine Pierce.

"Excuse me?" I say in disbelief.

"Are you deaf Gilbert?" She spats. "I said stay away from him. And you know who I mean. Damon. We may not be together anymore but that doesn't mean I need your grubby little paws over him. Find someone in your own league. You know, no one" She declares and leaves.

"Wow" Bonnie says in shock.

"Territorial much?" Caroline scoffs.

"I wonder when they broke up…" I say curiously. "I mean I just saw them making out a few days ago…"

"Stay away from him Elena" Bonnie warns. "Let Katherine have him. He can't stick to one woman and you know that"

"I never said I wanted him I am just curious" I explain.

"Katherine is going to be so mad when she finds out your pregnant" Caroline laughs.

"Oh yes she will…" Bonnie agrees.

After lunch I go to my classes and try to focus as much as possible. I haven't been paying attention the past few days and we have a test coming up. I need to cram this all in my head instead of over thinking like I always do. I am suddenly nervous for the doctors appointment. I am going to see the baby and hear the heartbeat for the first time ever. It's a big thing. Its definitely something everyone remembers. I am still trying to debate if I want to tell my dad before the appointment or after. But since I really don't feel like telling everyone all in one day I'll probably do it tomorrow after the appointment.

I go to my locker after school and put my things in. I grab my bag and sling it over my shoulders before going outside and meeting Damon. It is starting to rain a little so I hope he hurries his ass up. I walk to the parking lot and look around before I hear the buzzing sound of his camaro. Thank god.

I dive into the passenger seat without a word and shiver. I am freezing. I really just want to go home eat and then pass out in my bed with blankets wrapped around me. Is that too much to ask?

"So, home?"

I chatter my teeth. "Y-yeah"

He chuckles. "Here I will turn up the heat"

"Oooh so you are nice?"

"Don't expect it much"

I smile and look out the window. Of course the rain is letting up now that I am in the car. Figures.

"So what time tomorrow?" I ask.

"The appointment?" He asks a little lost.

I nod.

"After school thankfully. But to answer your question it is at 3:00pm." He answers.

I nod again taking it in. I am so so so so nervous for tomorrow. Everything that happens each day opens my eyes more and more to my situation and tomorrow will definitely be a major one. I wonder if I'll cry or be too in shock to say anything… I still think of myself as a little girl so to have someone else being a little girl and looking up to me is terrifying.

"What about your parents do they know?" I suddenly ask. He never talked about them too much besides that they are never home.

"I doubt they would know if my brother or I died" He scoffs. "They have a chain of businesses on the west coast and are gone doing stuff with them. They come home usually once a month or every two months sometimes more sometimes less. They were just here 2 weeks ago so it will probably be awhile now"

Oh god. I suddenly feel bad for him. I mean I know that is kind of the teenager dream but deep down you need someone to ground you and set rules and to…love you. He has no one but his brother. I know deep down that must bother him.

"How do you think they will react?" I whisper.

"Well my dad is a asshole. I wonder where I get it from" He smirks. "So he will probably yell at me and tell me to deal with it on my own. My mom is really sweet and one of the only people I trust in the world. But my dad can be controlling and manipulative so she usually does what he tells her too. I know she is strong deep down but she just allows him to bring her all over the world with him. She told me she would rather be here but to avoid fights she goes with him. Long story short I think my mom would be supportive and maybe a little happy. Of course she would agree the timing is wrong but she is a sucker for baby's" He chuckles.

I smile again. It's good to know the baby will be surrounded by family. I mean my dad, Jeremy, Damon's brother, Damon's mom and dad plus my friends Caroline and Bonnie who will probably spoil the baby rotten. Not to mention Damon and I. This baby will be loved.

Longer wait. yep. i hit writers blog and had no muse. but i got through it from watching delena scenes and Rita and Olivia yelling at me haha.

Yep next chap is the doctors and SPOILER her dad finds out within the next 2 chapters hmmm.

Also the song this fic is named after and the lyrics you see at the beginning is 'unusual you' by Britney Spears. Listen to it, reminds me a lot of DE.