Can't believe that I
Almost didn't try
When you called my name
Now everything is changed
Damon dropped me off about an hour ago. Since my dad said he would be home late I have some time on my hands again. Jeremy is god knows where. So I am in the living room with a cup of hot chocolate staring at nothing. Yes I said hot chocolate. I looked up more stuff about pregnancy when I got home and they said no caffeine. I honestly don't know how I am going to survive without coffee. Maybe I can have it in moderation…. Though Damon would kill me.
Interrupting my thoughts my cell phone goes off. I pick it up off the coffee table and it is Caroline.
"Hello?" I answer.
"Elena hey we are coming over, no buts. Be there soon. Love ya!" She says and hangs up.
I sigh. Caroline will do that a lot. When she knows I am going through something or in a off mood she will force her presence cause she knows deep down I actually need it Even though I would never admit it. I sigh and get up to prepare myself for this. I wash out my mug and put on a sweater because I feel a little cold.
"Knock knock Elena, open up!" Caroline says cheerily on the other side of the door.
I smile and walk to the front door and open it to see my two best friends. They shriek in excitement as if they haven't seen me in two years and hug me.
"We were going to hang out but we missed you" Bonnie explains.
"Yeah totally Elena. I mean I love Bonnie don't get me wrong but it's not the same without you. Especially the last few days" Caroline says.
"Agreed" Bonnie says to Caroline.
"I missed you girls too. I have too much time to myself and keep overthinking" I pout.
They lead me to the couch and I sit in the armchair and them on the sofa. It's quiet for a bit but it's nice to know that I have people here with me even for no reason. Just to have them here for me is a great feeling. I mean they didn't have to come. There probably is two or three parties they could be at right now but instead they are here with me.
"So how are you dealing with this Elena?" Bonnie asks after a few moments of silence.
"Better everyday" I sigh.
Caroline smiles sympathetically. "I know you didn't exactly plan this Elena but make the best out of it. I want you to have a fun pregnancy and remember the good things in it not the bad" Caroline says firmly.
"I do too" I say positivity. "I want to remember the pregnancy for the good things in 10 years when things are hopefully calmer" I agree with them.
"Well for now let's watch a movie!" Bonnie says enthusiastically.
We all laugh and put in ironically 'Juno'. They do have a sense of humor don't they… We talk about everything including the pregnancy and they keep ensuring they will be here for me. I know they keep saying it but I need it. I have a lot of issues with people leaving me since my mom. I always feel like I am not good enough or they will get tired of me. We snack on junk food and for once I don't care about eating junk food. Hell, I am going to get fat anyway. If only Damon were here he would yell at me, Ha.
Damon.
I find myself missing him more. For example his stupid cocky jokes and also someone to relate to with this whole pregnancy thing. I mean I know I have Caroline and Bonnie now but its different cause with me and Damon we are stuck in this. Caroline and Bonnie they can go back home to their normal lives.
My life will never be normal again.
After we finish 'Juno' we have a little more girl talk. I missed this so much. For awhile there I thought I was going to be alone for so it is almost surreal to sit here and laughing with them while they know my secret.
"I got to tell you girls something" Caroline turns serious and bites her lip nervously.
Me and Bonnie share a worried glance.
"You're not pregnant are you Caroline?" I ask hesitantly.
She lets out a big laugh. "I'm not stupid Elena, no offense. I know how to wrap and sack it" She waves her hand.
Me and Bonnie laugh at our crazy best friend. God I just love her sometimes.
"So what is it?" Bonnie urges.
"It's kind of new and not official and I don't want you to be mad Elena…But…I am kind of dating Stefan Salvatore!" She shrieks and excitement.
Me and Bonnie sit there with our jaws open. Caroline usually tells us the minute she thinks a guy is hot so to hear that she is practically dating a guy we didn't know she even liked is unheard of.
"Uh…When did this happen?" Bonnie says after a while.
"That day we went to his party…He was so sweet and we kissed and kind of had sex…" Caroline trails off.
"So soon?" Bonnie says hesitantly.
"Hey don't judge Bon, Elena had sex with Damon like 100 times the first time he even talked to her" Caroline snaps.
"Whoa.." I say.
"Sorry but its true" She waves off.
"What is with you guys having sex with guys cant you just-"
"What? Wait?" Caroline shrieks. "Your funny Bonnie"
We all laugh. We are all so completely different in this group we get in disagreements on a daily basis. I mean if we didn't have disagreements I would be very worried. The only time we get mad at each other is choosing a boy over each other or not telling each other something important. Other than that we are unbreakable.
"Well we have to get going 'Lena but we will come by more okay?" Bonnie assures.
"Thanks you guys" I stand up and hug them.
"And I will see you tomorrow morning Elena" She says and blows a kiss towards me before they are gone. I let out a deep breath and start cleaning up from their stay. I am so tired lately. I honestly just want to sleep for five days and even then I might not be fully rested. I love the baby and all but come on. I need energy. And I can't really get that from caffeine anymore….What is a girl to do?
As I am cleaning up I hear the front door close and I look around the corner to see Jeremy walking in. Wow he usually comes home later.
"Hey jer" I say while picking things up and putting stuff back where it belongs.
"Mhm" He says and takes throws his backpack on the ground and heading my way.
"So what's up?" I say conversationally.
"Why did some of my guys tell me you were talking with Damon Salvatore at lunch today? And then got a ride home from him?" He demands and crosses his arms.
Oh no. Shit. What am I suppose to say? I don't want him to know before dad…
"It's complicated Jer-"
"Elena I will repeat again. What are you doing with him!?"
I bite my lip and fidget nervously. "Jer like I said its complicated and we are just friends" I try and calm him down.
"AND WHAT DO YOU MEAN 'JUST FRIENDS'? LIKE FUCK BUDDIES?" He roars. He runs his hands through his hair. "Dammit Elena! Your 15, are you having sex!?" He tries to say calmly but comes out more threateningly
"What I do is none of your business! But no he is not a sex buddy. He is literally just my friend" I say firmly.
"It is my business if my 15 year old sister is being stupid!" He yells. After a few moments of silence he says. "Elena…Is anyone pressuring you? I swear to god.."
"No Jeremy no one is pressuring me! I am fine looking out for myself! And for the last time I am not having sex with Damon! We are friends"
He lets out a cold laugh. "Elena I know Damon and I can tell you he doesn't have friends that are girls if he does then he has banged them a few times and is only using them for a booty call" He scoffs.
Well part of that is true I guess. He did have sex with me more than once but he isn't using me as a 'booty call' if he did I would kick his ass and he knows it.
"Jeremy just drop it okay, no matter what I say you would freak out too"
He steps closer. "Do I have something to freak out about?"
I gulp. "I don't know…And if you did I wouldn't tell you when your all hot headed"
I leave it at that and put the dirty dishes into the sink. He is following me around trying to observe my behavior but I ignore him and go up to my room.
He has always been like that. He is three years older than me and always felt the need to protect me like I will just vanish one day. My dad always like that cause he would get some help from Jeremy watching after me especially in school but it has got out of hand since my mom died. My dad brushes it off as his love for me as a brother and the instinct to protect me but I think he is just afraid of loosing someone again and wants to make sure I don't screw up my life like he did with his.
I grumble and grab my diary and write my thoughts of the day in there. I feel a lot better since I told Caroline and Bonnie earlier today and it also feels nice to have Damon support me too. Yeah he has a lot more growing up to do but so do I. This experience is going to have a lot of ups and downs, and I am as prepared as I could be for them and yeah its scary and frightening heading into the unknown but everything happens for a reason so I am going to be strong for me and my baby.
After I write more in my diary do some homework and go on my computer I hear my dad get home. Finally. I am starving. And let's just say I am not the world's best cook. I tried to make a casserole recently and I left it in the oven for 2 hours to come back and find out I didn't even turn the oven on. To say I was over cooking was an understatement.
"'Lena, Jeremy if you're here I have food!" He yells from downstairs.
Did someone say food? Yep. I'm going. I go out to the hallway and Jeremy comes out of his room and glares at me before going down the stairs in front of me. Well he is still mad. When I reach the kitchen I see my dad unloading dishes from our favorite Italian restaurant. Yum! My dad hands me my favorite pasta and I go to the dining room table and get ready to chow down.
"Elena wait for your brother and I. You act like your starving" He chuckles.
I am though.
I wait very impatiently for them to grab their stuff and finally sit down. The second they are sitting I devour my meal. I'm not even trying to hide my hunger anymore. I mean I hope to tell them soon so I don't really care. Also it might be because I can't hide it anymore. My hunger and tiredness is on another level so if they are suspicious let it be.
"So dad did you know that Elena is been hanging out with Damon?" Jeremy says suddenly.
I freeze with food in my mouth. Oh no. I didn't expect him to do that but I should have. Dammit.
"What?" My dad says taken aback.
I groan. My dad knows everything about Damon. I think he has met him a few times between my brother. He has nothing against him cause he thinks everyone can live how they want to but he has said before that he wants me to stay away from him.
"Yep a few of my buddies saw them talking at lunch and I guess he has been driving her home" Jeremy says casually but in a cold tone.
I drop my fork and glare at my brother. "Sersiouly Jer?"
"Elena is this true?" Grayson asks.
I sigh. "Yes I talk to him and he has been driving me home but nothing is going on" I say annoyed.
"Why can't you ride with Caroline sweetie?" My dad asks.
I sigh and I can feel anger taking over. "Can you guys just drop it!"
"Elena he only hangs out with girls to sleep with them are you two-"
"Dad stop. We are just friends"
"Damon doesn't have girl friends" Jeremy bites back. "He only hangs out with them to sleep with them. I swear if he ever touched you-"
"Jeremy calm down" My dad says before he turns to me. "Elena have you slept with him?" He asks calmly.
I swallow. "I'm not telling you two" I mumble.
Jeremy slams his hand down on the table. "So he did sleep with you!?"
"I never said that Jeremy I said I am not telling you two cause your judging him and being rude." I shout and I get up and take my dinner with me despite them yelling at me to come back.
I go up to my room and make sure I slam my door. I just hate how everyone judges him, yeah that might be true and that might be what you hear but I wish people would give him a shot cause lately I've seen another side of him and yeah he is still a dick but he has a good side and he is obviously sleeping with woman for a reason. Maybe it's because he has no parents most of the time? Don't people ever think that he does those things for a reason? Or he is a asshole for a reason? And yeah I find it weird I want to defend him but I just need to. He needs it. Plus when everyone finds out about my pregnancy and knows it was him I don't want him to get hurt from the things people say. Is that weird?
I wake up and I get butterflies knowing I am going to see my baby today. Yeah the circumstances aren't neat but it's still my baby and I am so excited to see it. I get up and change into a tank top with a brown coat to go over and some jeans that I found were a little snug but I could still wear. I am almost to 11 weeks now so makes sense my body is preparing for the little alien inside me.
I still haven't talked to my dad or Jeremy since dinner last night and I want to avoid them as much as possible till I tell them which I hope is tonight or tomorrow. I run down the stairs to go straight to the door and to skip breakfast all together. It's a sacrifice I have to take.
"Elena!" My dad calls from the kitchen.
I turn around groaning and see him walking towards me. "'Lena hey I want to say sorry about last night…I assumed things and judged but I trust you" He smiles at me.
Oh lord.
I want to cry. "T-thanks dad" I smile at him.
"Good bye cupcake, oh and don't you want breakfast?" He asks.
"No I don't feel like it today" I lie.
He nods and I walk out the front door. Within 5 minutes Caroline arrives and we head to school. Caroline tells me all about Stefan and how they are officially dating now cause I guess after she left my house last night she went to Stefan's and he asked her out. I am happy for her, its like she found prince charming. The school day goes by extremely slow and I find myself anxious for my 3pm ultrasound. Finally lunch arrives and I feel like I could eat a buffet. I enter the cafeteria and see Caroline and Bonnie waiting for me at your table.
"Hey guys" I smile.
Bonnie and Caroline smile at me but then their eyes drop to my stomach and their eyes widen.
"Oh Elena I can see your showing a little" Bonnie says.
"Is it noticeable?" I whisper.
"A little" Caroline says.
"Oh no" I sit down and put my head in my hands and I cry.
"Elena just button up your jacket instead of leaving it open and wear looser clothes" Bonnie says to comfort me.
"I'm screwed" I cry.
"Oh Elena.." Caroline says and gets up to sit down next to me and puts her arm around me and rubs me soothingly.
"I haven't even told my dad and brother and I am already showing and getting…fat!" I sob.
"Elena you're not even fat yet just…rounder. But I think some of this is your hormones Elena you need to calm down sweetie" Caroline soothes.
"You're right.. I'm so all over the place lately" I say and wipe my eyes. God I am embarrassing myself.
Before they could say something Damon comes up to our table and sits down next to me while I'm still being cradled by Caroline.
"Hey Elena I-" But he stops at the scene in front of him. "Elena are you okay?" He says with concern.
"I'm fat" I mumble.
"What did she say?" Damon asks Caroline.
"She said she is fat, which she is not" Caroline answers.
He laughs. Laughs! What the hell? I am becoming a beach whale and he laughs? I frown and sit up to glare at him. When he sees my glare his face turns serious obviously knowing my mood changed from anguish to anger.
"Don't laugh Salvatore!" I say menacingly to him.
He holds up his hands in surrender. "I didn't mean it in a bad way I just think its cute how the hormones are taking you over making you're think your fat when you still look like a super model"
Super model? Is this boy trying to make a joke? Almost made me laugh. Id love to see a supermodel with a protruding bump. I shrug it off cause I know he is lying.
"This morning my jeans wouldn't fit" I pout.
"That's because your growing a baby in your abdomen. Elena stand up and show him your bump! I swear it grew over night" Bonnie laughs.
I roll my eyes and stand up in front of them. Damon's eyes bug out and Caroline and Bonnie smile happily. I sit down and lower my head cause I feel insecure all the sudden.
"Wow.." Damon said. "Yeah you definitely look pregnant now" He confirms and looks a little pale.
"That I am" I laugh nervously. "I mean I can see it when I get changed but it usually isn't noticeable under clothes but I guess that doesn't work anymore" I mutter.
He laughs before saying."So I came over here to confirm the appointment and make sure we were still on" He trails off.
"Oh yes definitely!" I say excitedly.
He chuckles."You excited much?"
"Of course! I am so so so so happy!" I beam.
"Only you Elena could be crying about being fat and pregnant one minute then excited to see the baby the next" Bonnie laughs.
"Hey shut it" I snap.
Caroline shakes her head. "This is going to be a fun 9 months"
"What is that suppose to mean?" I glare.
"Look I got to go, Katherine is giving me the bitch glare" Damon groans.
"Speaking of Katherine she attacked your baby mama yesterday" Caroline says casually.
He freezes. "What? Are you serious?"
"Its nothing big I'm fi-"
"What did she say?" Damon asks Caroline.
"She said that you're hers and Elena better back off or else" Caroline shrugs.
"What?!" He says with his eyes full of anger.
"Damon it is fine seriously I know you two dat-"
"No Elena we never dated she is crazy and psychotic. Yeah we've slept each other a few times and kiss but I would never date that bitch" He rants and runs his hand through his hair.
"Look its fine Damon I mean I didn't even let it get to me" I shrug.
"I know, but I just don't want to know what she is going to do when she finds out about you know.." He trails off.
"Yeah I am too" I whisper.
He shakes his head. "Look don't worry ill figure it out okay? I don't want her to stress you out so just worry about…diapers or something" He laughs.
I laugh with him. "Diapers, really?"
He laughs again before stopping. "Are you not eating lunch again?"
"Oh I am but I just got caught up in talking but I want to. I am starving since I didn't eat breakfast" I groan.
"You didn't eat-…" He sighs. "Come on lets go get lunch" He smiles and I follow him to the lunch line. When we are waiting in line we both notice Katherine giving us the stink eye across the room. Me and Damon laugh it off how pathetic she is. He buys me some pasta and a milk and we go back to sit with Caroline and Bonnie. I notice him having a hand on my back as we walk back to the table. I blush and look down. I swear he does it on purpose. His touch is like fire to my skin.
When we get to the table I sit down and expect him to leave but he sits there drinking his energy drink while I eat in silence. It's kind of awkward because both Bonnie and Caroline are looking between us constantly. I look over at Katherine and she is eating her salad with a permanent scowl on her face. When I am about to look away from Katherine I see Jeremy at that same table glaring at me. Scratch that. If looks could kill I would be dead. He doesn't come over here though because he, believe it or not likes to deal with things off school property. Otherwise I'm sure Damon would have some explaining to do. About 5 minutes after sitting here in silence after sitting down I can't stand it anymore.
"What made you sit here today?" I say out of the blue.
He looks at me startled I said something in this complete silence. "Well first Katherine is over there and after some thinking and what you told me I would like to stay clear of that bitch and plot my revenge from afar and plus Jeremy is at at that table and I really don't feel like dying today" He shrugs before adding. "Plus you aren't the worst company in the world Gilbert" He cockily grins.
I shake my head and laugh. "Don't tell me you're afraid of my brother?" I mock.
"I know you don't see him in action in the streets but I do sometimes and let me tell you, he doesn't care about your pain and is very good at covering things. If it was his way right now I'm sure I would be a missing case forever" He chuckles nervously.
I groan and shake my head. "Ugh I was hoping he wasn't that bad. He acts different at home….Why don't you act like him and do the stuff he does?"
"Because I do have a brain Elena" He laughs. "I do stupid stuff but nothing with a too bad of a consequence just me being stupid. Your brother however he isn't a bad guy he has a good heart and attentions he just…Does what he wants to an extent"
"So any morning sickness today?" He asks conversationally after a few moments of silence.
"No it's really random a lot of times. I didn't have it too bad yesterday either. Which makes me think it will happen again soon"
"Must suck"
I laugh. "Yeah it does suck"
"You two done flirting?" Bonnie scowls.
I feel Damon tense next to me and glare at my friend. "Shut it witchy"
Before she can retort which I know she will. I hold my hands up. "Hey hey hey. None of that" I warn them.
Bonnie and Damon continue to glare at each other and I know then they won't get along for a long time. They are just too different. Plus me being between them doesn't help. In Bonnie's point of view a stranger knocked up her best friend. In Damon's point of view the girl he knocks up best friend is judging him and well, pissing him off.
The bell rings and we all jump. Thank god. Saved from this uncomfortable silence. I get up and say bye to Caroline and Bonnie.
When Caroline is near my ear she whispers. "Oh my god. He sat next to you all lunch and eye fucked you. I think he really likes you" Caroline shrieks in my ear.
I laugh and whisper into her ear. "You're reading too much into it. He just wants to make sure his baby is fine" I tell her and myself.
We let go of each other and she gives me a look that says 'you're crazy'. I shake my head. I hug Bonnie too and she seems a little more tense like she wants me far gone from Damon. Don't blame her cause that's what he makes people believe. But he is the father. They smile and leave and I turn back to Damon and he is smiling nervously. That's new.
"I'll walk you to your next class?" He says unsure.
"You don't have too but if you want…." I shrug.
He smiles and nods. We walk through the halls and get a lot of looks. This will definitely get back to Jeremy. Damon never walks with a girl to classes. He is always with his guys or…Yeah that's really it. It will be fun going home tonight…Not. But to be honest at this point I don't care. I am going to tell them soon. So be it. When we reach my class we stop.
"Thanks for walking me…" I trail off cause I think it is kind of weird he ate lunch with me and walked me. Its almost like he is nice to me but a asshole to everyone else. Though I have seen that side every now and then too.
"No problem and just text me if anything goes wrong with…you know" He smiles sympathetically. Almost like he did this to me. Ha.
"I will and ill see you after school" I beam cause I am so excited to see the baby.
"Good I am curious to see what it looks like" He laughs nervously.
"Not much maybe the size of a lime" When he looks surprised I laugh. "I did a little research. Wanted to know how big it was and when I would start…showing" I glance down to my stomach that grew lately and I button up my jacket.
"Well ill see you after school" He smiles.
I wave and go into my class. During my next few classes I am so hyped up knowing I will hear and feel the baby for the first time ever soon. Like really soon. I love how me and Damon already love the baby. Well I assume he loves it with his OCD habits about me eating and wanting to protect it. But a lot of teen moms, hell a lot of moms don't love their child enough and I know that I will and so will Damon. I didn't think so at first but I couldn't want anyone else to be this baby's dad now to be honest. Never thought I would get to that point and I'm proud of myself, I feel like I am maturing. Yeah a little early but I'll make do. The bell rings and I practically run out of class. I am so excited. I speed walk down the halls barely missing people as I hurriedly try to find Damon's camaro. I walk outside and then I see it. He is already there, I swear he leaves class early to do this. Wouldn't surprise me. I smile and run to the car and get in.
"Hey don't run too much" He says firmly.
I roll my eyes. "Damon…Pregnant woman exercise all the time. I think I am fine" I laugh
He glowers at me while driving out of the school property. I am smiling at his attitude when I look over to see Jeremy near the smokers pit glaring daggers at me. Damon sees him and steps on the peddle otherwise I'm sure if we stopped Jer would run at the car and pull me out of it. I let out a breath and we drive to the doctor's appointment in silence. Too scared and hyped up to say anything.
We arrive and be both steady our breaths before getting out. We walk inside and reach the front desk, neither of us knowing what to say or do. We are so nervous we literally have no idea how to act.
"Uhm we have an appointment t-today" Damon stutters.
The woman looks between us knowing how young we both look, or more so me. I look so little compared to all the other grown woman here. She sighs and hands us a clipboard with paperwork attached.
"Fill these out and then hand them back to me when your done" She says tiredly. We both nod and go and sit. I look over the paperwork and they ask things like family history and insurance which I know neither.
"Damon!" I hiss.
"What?" He asks.
"What do I put down for insurance and family history?" I whisper.
"Leave insurance. I am paying for it. As for family history we will have your dad come in next appointment to do all that" He assures me.
I let out a heavy breath. At least one of us knows what were doing. But then something hits me what he said. "What do you mean you are paying for this? Like out of pocket?! Isn't that costly?" I panic.
I waves his hand. "Elena don't worry. My parents are practically billionaires."
My eyes bug out. "Billionaires?!" I whisper loudly.
"Yeah, well not yet maybe halfway there or close. I don't know Elena. They are just very rich okay? And they give me a lot of money. So don't worry"
I bite my tongue to not retort. I am stubborn and very independent so I don't like it when people buy things for me or take care of me. That's my job. I think I have this problem because Jeremy and my dad are so protective and do everything for me so when I'm away from them I like to do stuff on my own. I sigh and begin to write down my information I do know. They ask a lot of what symptoms I am having and I want to laugh because I have almost all of them. Peeing a lot? Check. Nausea? Check. Weight gain. Double check. Fatigue? Check. Vomiting? Check. Increased appetite? Check. I can feel Damon watching me over my shoulder but I don't mind. I mean what is there I don't want him to know? As I am finishing I hear my name being called.
"Elena Gilbert!" A nurse calls by the door.
I almost jump because I am so nervous. I stand up and make sure not to trip and fall. I can feel my hands shaking and my whole body sweating. We walk into the back of the office and she stops at a scale.
"Okay I need to get your weight and height" She motions for me to get on the scale. I gulp embarrassed because I have gained so much weight recently. I hand my bag to Damon who smiles sympathetically and I step on.
"Okay you are 110 lbs" She jots down.
"Is that good or bad?" I ask.
"Actually a little underweight but I am sure you will gain more" She smiles.
Underweight? Then why do all my jeans not fit? Was I underweight before? Hmm. She takes my height and then we all walk into a exam room with a ultrasound already there. I get chills just seeing it. I sit on the exam bed and Damon in the chair besides it while the nurse takes my information. Damon gives her his family history that he knows about and I do mine that I know about. That's the best we can do until we talk to our parents. The nurse puts it all into the computer then leaves until the doctor can get in here and do the real stuff.
"I'm so nervous" I whisper after a moment.
He chuckles. "Me too"
"We were so stupid that night" I laugh lightly.
"Yep, I won't be doing that again"
"It's not like we will have too many chances to go to parties anyway" I mumble.
"True"
Just then the doctor enters and he is a old man maybe in his late sixties or early seventies and just looking at him he looks so nice and warm.
"Hello you guys. I am DR. Klein and I hear you took a test and that you are pregnant?" He asks as he sits on his stool.
I nod. "Y-yes I took a test and I was also 2 months late for my period" I explain.
"2 months late? So you didn't take a test till 2 months later?" He asks confused.
I laugh. "Yeah, you could say I was in denial" I shake my head how stupid I was.
"There has been a lot worse trust me" He assures. He looks up my chart and reads things over before standing up next to the bed.
"I am just going to poke around and then I need you to change into a gown so I can look down in your vaginal area to see how the cervix is" He tells me.
I nod anxiously. He pokes around my stomach and it feels really weird. He pushes and pushes and nods to himself like he is taking mental notes. I can see Damon tense up while he is pushing as if he is afraid the doctor will pushes the baby out.
"Okay all done. Feels normal. And there is definitely a baby in there" He laughs. "Though you already knew that" He washes his hands and then goes to the door. "So if you could change into a gown that's in that bottom drawer ill be back in with a ultrasound tech and we will see your baby" He says and leaves. I get up and pull a gown from the drawer.
"Do you want me to…?" Damon starts to say.
"I'll just pull this curtain its fine" I say and I pull a curtain that's around the bed and get changed. When I am done I put my clothes on the chair beside Damon and open the door to signal I am ready. There is silence between me and Damon mostly because we are so nervous and scared and too busy thinking. But it's a nice silence. About 5 minutes after I get changed he comes back in with a petite nurse with him.
"Hello so I am going to start with the vaginal exam then Sarah here will do the ultrasound" He smiles and puts on gloves and then gets sits on his stool. "So I you could spread your legs for me I will begin" He says cautiously. I nod and spread my legs. I feel very uncomfortable cause I never have someone looking down there besides me or guys that I have slept with. So I feel very open right now.
I look over at Damon to get some support and I see he is gripping the sides of the chair and scowling at the doctor. After a few moments he notices I am looking at him and smiles though I can tell it's fake. I feel things touch my lower area and something enter and I grumble at the contact because I'm not use to it. I close my eyes and think of something else. Before I know it he is done.
"All done. Sorry that is necessary to see how everything is doing" He takes off his gloves and throws them away before entering stuff in the computer. "So now Sarah will begin I'll come back after for any questions" He smiles and logs off his computer then leaves.
"The gel might be a little cold" She smiles.
I nod and she puts the cold device on my belly and I gasp at the temperature before I get accustomed to it. She moves it around before a sound echoes the room. The sound. I gasp knowing that sound. Even though she hasn't said anything. I just know. I can tell Damon knows too. I look over to see his jaw open and I can feel my eyes watering. It feels so surreal. From this moment on I look at this as a blessing and a miracle. Not something bad. This is all I could ever want. I love this baby. And I would do anything to protect it and make sure it gets what it needs. It has changed my life forever. I wipe the tears away and look at the monitor. I see a grey/white dot surrounded by blackness. I don't know what is what but its beautiful.
"So here is your baby" She says and point to the little grey/white dot. "Its about the size of a prune and looks like your about 10 ½ weeks" She says warmly and takes more pictures on the ultrasound.
"Wow" I whisper. I sniffle and wipe more tears away. I look over at Damon who isn't taking his eyes off the screen and looking intensely at it like it might disappear. He again notices I am looking at him and manages to look away for two seconds to reach out and hold my hand and I take it then we both look back to the screen again. Looking at what we made. She points to us what body part is what on the baby and how it's growing.
"So everything looks fine. Good amount of fluid, and overall healthy baby" She tells us. "Do you want me to print off some pictures?" She asks.
"Yes" Damon answers before I can even think over what she said.
"Do you want two copies or one?"
"Two" I answer this time.
She nods and writes down more stuff. I all the sudden notice me and Damon are still holding hands, I look over and he is staring at our hands too. I quickly take them out of his hands.
"So that is it. Make sure to schedule a appointment for about two-three weeks unless you have any complications or feel comfortable being seen sooner. DR. Klein will be in shortly for a run down and to give you the ultrasound pictures" She smiles and exits the room.
"That was unreal" Damon says the moment she leaves.
I nod. "Yeah" I say because I barely have words.
The door opens and enters DR. Klein. "Hello, so I looked over the ultrasound and everything looks perfect" He says and sits down across from me. "Because of your young age I do want you to come in more often cause you are more prone to get complications and problems. You might also deliver sooner cause your so tiny but you never know, I have seen smaller woman than you who went over their due date so you never know" He explains. He then looks over to Damon. "Nice to meet you Damon" He says and shakes Damon's hand. "Last time I saw you was when I birthed you" He laughs.
Damon smiles nervously and shakes his head. "Don't really remember doc"
"Wouldn't expect you too" He laughs. "So I saw all your symptoms you checked and those are all completely normal. Some like the nausea and vomiting should stop second trimester. Do you have a eating plan Elena? What are you eating?"
"She doesn't eat breakfast or lunch sometimes, I keep telling her the baby will starve" Damon defends himself.
I look over at him and glare. What a little snitch. He shrugs and looks back at the doctor.
"Well Elena it is important for you to eat breakfast and lunch even if it is small. As long as the baby has something to eat its fine. Though try to stay away from fatty foods and stick with lots of fruits and vegetables" He informs. "I'll give you a list before you leave of stuff to eat and not though you can also buy pregnancy books to see what to expect and things to look out for. I highly recommend those" He smiles.
I nod. "Okay, and what about my tiredness? I can't get enough of sleep no matter what"
"Everyone's body copes differently and yours just seems to tire out more, before you leave I am going to run a urine and blood test to see if anything is wrong otherwise everything is normal. Just try to go to bed earlier and not do things that will tire you out. That might help" He says and writes things down.
After that he tells us what to expect and answers more questions. Damon kept asking the most absurd like if I should be walking as much as I do in school and if that was bad for the baby. Crazy he is. I get changed and get some pee tests and blood tests done and finally get my ultrasound pictures. He tells us to call with anything wrong and to see him in about two weeks. Damon pays for the visit at the front desk and i don't stick around to see what the total was. As we are walking out of the doctors office both me and Damon are silent still looking at the baby pictures. We are both just astounded.
"Hey lets go out to eat to celebrate. On me" He smiles. And for a second I see that sweet vulnerable and innocent Damon. It's so adorable. I savor every moment I can with that Damon. I just hope he reappears more.
"Yeah sure, I am hungry"
"But no burger and fries" He warns.
I sigh knowing I can't back him out of it because he heard the doctor say it and will forever put the doctor's opinion over my own. Plus a salad doesn't sound too bad.
We arrive to the grill and it's packed with high school kids that are hanging out. I order a taco salad which is kind of a salad. Ha. After talking a little bit about the pregnancy and here and there stuff he looks at me seriously before saying. "Elena I am serious when I say I am going to be here. I know its weird and all but I am actually pretty excited. There are very few things I care about in the world and that baby is one of them on my small list" He looks at me intently. "And I want you to take care of yourself because I do care about you and your health too Elena and I know this isn't the ideal situation but we can do this"
I nod feeling tears weld up. "I know we can too. I still want to go to school and college though. But I will try to be there as much as I can" I sniffle and look up at him to see his blue eyes staring into mine.
"Don't worry about maternity clothes or baby items I want to help out. I mean you have to carry it around and deal with all the pain and symptoms I want to help out and support you and the baby also, and I can tell you're stubborn but please let me do this" He pleads.
I bite my lip not knowing its hard for me to do this. I mean I want to support myself but I know that's not possible without Damon. I sigh "Yeah I will try and be more lenient about it but I might want to buy some stuff with my money too" I tell him.
He nods. "It's a compromise then" He smirks.
We eat our meal in light fun talk and I find myself enjoying his company more and more. The waitress was flirting with him fully but he just gave her the cold shoulder and laughed at my lame jokes. I try to not be charmed by him again like that night but I am finding it impossibly hard.
We get up to leave and a few girls walk up to him and flirt with him and he was basically pretty rude, telling them to leave and back off. Its opening my eyes more and more that he is still the same dick to woman. Everyone but me. Anymore at least. We get in the car and go the long way to my house opening more time to talk. He said he will buy pregnancy books soon so we can look them over. I nod and can't wait to see the good stuff it has to bring. Like the kicking and finding out the gender. Those two things will be the death of me. I just know it. After a good 30 minutes of driving he stops in front of my house.
"Well ill see you tomorrow. Can I drive you to school?" He asks bluntly.
"I don't know I mean….Caroline likes to drive me a lot…" I trail off and look over at him and he has his bottom lip jutting out with an adorable pout on his perfect face. Damn him. If our kid inherits this I am screwed.
"Fine" I relent. "I'll talk to her. Maybe I can do some days with you and some with her"
He smiles cockily. "Good. See you tomorrow Elena" My name rolls off his tongue perfectly. I have to collect myself before grabbing my bag and getting out. I wave to him before walking in my house. I noticed my dad's car is in the driveway. Huh. Usually isn't home yet. I walk to the kitchen to get some orange juice. I am so thirsty. I am chugging it when I see my dad in the dining room chair. I jump not knowing he was there.
"Whoa dad you scared me" I breathe out.
"Elena tell me why I had a nurse congratulate me on being a Grandpa?"
Shit.
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A week wait haha i am so sorry. I hit writers block plus i wanted it to be long and perfect. i hope its good. (8k words wow)
Trust me i got yelled at enough by alot of people for not updating cough...anna...rita...olivia..and so much more haha. Thanks to rita my bb who helps me with ideas and tells me honestly how it is. And olivia for telling me how much she likes it and inspiring me. And anna who just yells WRITE in tinychat all the time haha. it works.
I'll try to update once a week. depends on muse, time, and the length.
And spoiler yes, Elenas dad and brother find out next chapter and meet Damon. mhmm.
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Until next time. xo.