Confidence is a must
Cockiness is a plus
Edginess is a rush
Edges (I like 'em rough)
A man with a Midas touch
Intoxicate me, I'm a lush
Stop you're making me blush
People are looking at us
19 weeks pregnant.
Friday January 6th
I feel amazing.
Damon, Caroline, Stefan, Bonnie, Jeremy, Enzo, Maggie and I are all squished into Caroline's SUV and heading home. We are laughing at anything and everything just high on life. Caroline next to me is now, again sucking face with Stefan. Me and Damon, disgusted turn our heads to look out the window. Cause if we have learned anything in this group, it is that once someone starts making out, they all do.
Since the night at his house which was about two days ago, I can feel ourselves get physically closer every day. We hold hands almost everywhere we go, kiss on the cheek, we have been doing a lot of hugging and clinging. Maybe it's just me but I don't think it is anymore. I snuggle closer into Damon's side while everyone around us is making out.
After looking out the window for a few seconds I feel my munchkin wake up again.
She has been doing this a lot lately. Moving whenever she can. The first day or two was great but when it comes nighttime it isn't so cute.
I lean in a little and whisper in Damon's ear. "You daughter is awake again." I giggle.
"Damn, she's a hyper little thing." He laughs nervously while rubbing my belly.
I know what he is thinking.
If she is moving this much right now, how are we going to keep up with her once she is walking? I can already tell she is going to be a hyper kid. I just know. I mean it only makes sense. I was always running around, knocking things over and causing trouble when I was little. I just couldn't stop moving, I was always on the go.
We finally make it to Damon's house and we all scramble to get out. Damon being Damon makes sure I get out first and helps me up. Damon's parents are out of town. They have taken so much time off the past few weeks they have to visit their offices more often right now. Damon told me they should be back by Monday. Helen made sure before she left to give me her phone number and plenty of leftovers.
Once we are in the house everyone goes straight for the booze. And of course I can't participate. Damn it.
"Elena, I am sure one sip won't kill you?" Caroline bribes.
Damon glares at her and snatches the bottle out of her hands. "Watch it, Blondie."
"It's fine Caroline." I shrug. "I guess I'll be the designated driver if any of you need to get home." I smile.
We all end up watching the 'Avengers' which Caroline almost tried to get out of but thanks to Stefan he….distracted her….For an hour upstairs. So to say the least we aren't watching The Vow or any other weird movies Caroline has a weird obsession with.
Damon and I are sharing an armchair where I'm nestled comfortably in his lap. Though, we are hardly watching the movie. Damon is rubbing my belly, feeling our daughter kick, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.
"I can't wait to meet her." He whispers in my ear.
I always get butterflies when he talks to me like this because I've found out lately I am the only person he lets his guard down around. It feels good to have him trust me.
"I wonder what she will look like." I nestle deep into his neck.
"Hopefully like you."
I laugh.
"You are funny." I giggle.
"I'm serious." He growls and pulls my closer.
I laugh as he tickles me and he squirms for a little bit before I am met with his warm stare.
Suddenly all the playful atmosphere is gone and I look into his eyes and I know he feels it too. The change in the room. We are looking so intently at each other and deeply. We slowly lean in, to kiss? What is happening? I have no clue but I am not about to stop it.
Just when our lips are touching we hear Caroline's loud yell. "Are you guys even watching the movie? Or do you need a room?" She laughs.
I bury my head into his neck to hide my blush. I feel Damon's low growl as he rubs my back.
"Finally it's happening." I hear Bonnie say somewhere behind me.
"You can thank my brother for being an idiot." Stefan chuckles.
"At least he is finally getting action. He is on edge lately. Man needs to get laid." Enzo replies still wrapped up in Maggie.
"Back off dickwads." Damon snaps when they don't stop.
I lift my head up deciding to calm things down. "Hey guys let's just watch the movie okay?"
They all give us a weird look before turning back to the TV.
I am thankful because now it gives me time to think.
We almost kissed.
I almost kissed Damon Salvatore.
I mean, of course I have kissed him before but that was before I was bloated and carrying his child. This means a lot to me. Even though our lips barely touched and all my insides were on fire and I felt like there was a swarm of butterflies running through me ready to escape. I've kissed guys. Many. But none of them had my feeling like this, and I hardly kissed him!
I move a little to get more comfortable when I feel it.
Oh god.
I jerk a little and look at him.
He looks down at me and smirks.
Oh he knows.
And he is proud.
Cocky bastard.
Instead of being disgusted or uncomfortable I find myself being turned on. Damn libido. His own child is making me horny. There is some irony to this. I haven't had sex since that night on the beach and let me remind you that was four months ago. I am dying. I don't know about Damon's sex life but if he has a boner from my sitting on him I'm sure he is in the same predicament as me.
We just hit the middle of the movie and I can't fight it.
Not anymore.
"Damon, I'm hungry." I say. I don't want to be rude in disrupt the movie but Damon was very clear and I mean very clear, on letting him know these things.
"Guys stop the movie." He orders firmly.
"What-Damon no! I can get something by myself-I.." I stammer. I don't want to ruin it for others.
"No Elena, it is fine. Everyone is making out anyways." He smirks and gets sheepish looks from everyone.
We order three large family pizzas. Damon said this is okay for me to eat. Just not that often. I surprise everyone by eating four slices. Four! It feels great though. Our little gang. Damon calls us the 'Scooby-doo' clan but I love it. I love our group. Since Damon cut off Tyler and Klaus from his life he is on track at school again and he even says he just feels better without them. Jeremy still hangs out with them. I mean just because he is dating my best friend doesn't mean his….extracurricular activities stopped.
We are all talking around the kitchen island but I feel the water I drank go through me.
Damn pregnancy bladder.
"Hey, I'm going to use the bathroom." I inform Damon.
He nods before I head upstairs.
I always forget about the one downstairs. Damn it. After I am done with the bathroom upstairs I am about to head down when I feel really dizzy and tired. I decide to go lay down. Damon won't mind. This day has been exhausting. I woke up, went to school, watched the school's football game, hanged out with everyone at the grill and then came here. I am ready to pass out. I wander into Damon's room and have visions of our little girl running through here. It makes me warm inside. I run my hands on his incredibly soft sheets and next thing I know I am wrapped in them. I think I will just live in this bed thank you very much.
[…]
Damon POV
We are all still eating in the kitchen. How Jeremy and Enzo are on their seventh piece of pizza is beyond me.
Tonight is amazing.
Well it would be more fucking amazing if Caroline hadn't cockblocked us.
I swear Elena wanted to kiss me.
I saw the look on her face but I decided to let it slide. Besides we weren't in a position to talk freely with the company we had.
But if she does have the same feelings as I have for her I will not hesitate to make her mine. I love her. But I am not going to be selfish and make her be with me for the kid. I don't want to rush her either. She is under enough pressure I don't need to add a asshole boyfriend to it.
Elena.
I look around and realize she left for the bathroom almost twenty minutes ago. Where could she have gone? All the bad possibilities race through my head. I calm myself down. I am sure she is snooping around or passed out somewhere. Breath Damon Jesus Christ.
"Hey guys I am going to go check up on Elena." I inform them not looking back hear their reactions.
"Use condoms!" I hear Caroline scream after me.
What is with people thinking we are going to bang every minute when we are alone. Actually wait….don't hold that against me.
I work my way up to the hallway bathroom and it's empty. Hmm. I walk farther down the hallway and notice my door open. I knew it. I pick up my pace to see her passed out cold on my bed.
I should have known…. I mean we were all over the place today. That must have been hard on her and her body. I walk over to the side of the bed and cover her up with my sheets. I smile at how innocent she looks while sleeping. It's cute. I caress her face before kissing her forehead and turning off the light and leaving.
Everyone is drinking and laying around the living room when I come back down. Great. Just make yourselves at home. What do they think this is a hotel?
"So where is she?" Jeremy asks curiously as I plot onto the armchair.
"She passed out on my bed." I shrug and drink straight from my bourbon.
"Did you guys finish your make out session up there?" Caroline giggles.
"They probably did. Did you see the way they were up on each other." Enzo points out.
"True, I also wouldn't be surprised." Bonnie shrugs.
"Hey don't talk about my sister like this!" Jeremy intercedes and glares at them.
"Yeah let's move on." I say taking another chug of bourbon.
The rest of the night goes by smoothly and everyone is drunk. I got buzzed but as soon as everyone started going downhill I stopped. I don't need Elena in a house filled with drunk high school kids. Call me a square I don't fucking care, I won't have her around that. Period.
I am cleaning up the kitchen now. Damn drunk amateurs. Caroline, Maggie and Bonnie all thought it would be fucking fantastic to bake cupcakes, along with some jello and brownies. Yeah it looks amazing while I am cleaning it up from the walls. I have always been somewhat OCD but I wouldn't be if everyone picked up after their damn selves. I remember when me and Stefan were kids he would leave his toys out and I would yell at him to put them back. Yeah me and Stefan didn't share rooms long.
"Hey. Damon, I need to go. My dad will get off work soon. Can you drive me and Elena home?"
"Yeah yeah sure. Let me just go and wake her up."
"Oh, she is already awake. Told us she smelled the brownies. Which she told me not to tell you about." He shrugs like it makes no difference to him.
Damn woman.
I drop my washcloth and race to the parlor. There she is sitting with the girls laughing and eating cupcakes and brownies. I guess I can't be too mad at her. I just don't need another hospital scare. I don't know if I could live with myself if she ended back there and I could have done something about it.
I cross my arms and smirk at her. She notices everyone staring my way and turns to me smiling but it drops once her eyes meet mine.
"Relax Elena, its fine. I'm not going to kill you." I mock with my hands up in a surrender.
"Sorry, I know this isn't good but it sure tastes good." She says taking another bite.
Who could be mad at her? She is adorable with all that chocolate over her face and a goofy grin that comes with it.
"Well Elena, we have to go. Dad will be off work soon and you know how he gets, when we're not home with the little time he gets with us." He says pointedly.
She sighs and nods.
She stands up and loses her balance but before I can run over to her Blondie steadies her.
"Whoa, got up too fast." She nervously laughs.
I think I just had a heart attack.
I breathe through my nose calming myself.
I am way too paranoid.
But they are my world.
"Come on wobbly." Jeremy says as he holds her sides while she walks.
"Jer, I can walk." She glares.
"Listen to your brother." I demand.
She lets out a angered breath and frowns before giving in. Jeremy holds her sides as we all walk out to my car. With all the running around we did we have Caroline's and my car here. So Blondie is taking, Bonnie, Enzo, Maggie and herself home while I am stuck with the Gilberts.
I would help her walk. Actually I know I freaking would. But the past week has been monumental. I don't need to push it. The selfish part of me loved every second of it. The realistic side is screaming at me to stop. I want her so bad. So bad. But obviously I have my realistic side on mute because I keep doing shit, like almost kissing her, the endless flirting. And you know what?
I don't regret any of it.
I want her to know how much I love her, requited or not.
Fuck. I am so whipped.
We all get in the car because party is over. I need some freaking sleep. And a cold shower.
Everyone is chatting in the back but I started blocking it out once I heard the words Stefan and kissing. I do not need to hear about that. Ever. I grew up with him. That's enough knowledge. I have seen enough. I don't need to know what he fucking does with his tongue.
"Damon!" Elena calls from the back.
"What?!" I say breaking out of my reverie.
"I was saying, I am going baby shopping tomorrow since we now know the gender but Caroline is going out of town with her mom and I wanted to know if you wanted to go?" She asks with such hope. Like she wants me to go. That it would be amazing to her if I went. "I mean…If you want to of course. It's just that my dad is going to be working all weekend and gave me a lot of money to start getting stuff." She shrugs when I don't answer immediately.
Fuck.
Great going dick.
Now she thinks I don't want to go.
When really there is nothing I would rather do than spend more time with Elena and start shopping for our baby.
So I quickly go on recover mode. "Elena, of course I would go. I would love to." I assure.
I look in the rearview mirror and she has a glowing smile spread across her face. This is why I love this girl. This littlest things make her entire day. She is optimistic and mainly fucking adorable. She doesn't even realize it. And I hope to god our child is the same way.
"Great. I don't know what I will buy tomorrow, I mean it's not like I have a truck… maybe just clothes I don't know…." She trails off thinking.
"I am sure they can deliver, don't worry." I inform her. Trust me if she found a crib she wanted and couldn't take it home I would strap the thing on top of my damn camaro if I had to. Well maybe not my Camaro, but Blondie's car.
We arrive at the Gilberts and Jeremy nods at me. I feel pride. He respects me again. I'm glad to have my best friend somewhat back. I don't think it would change the fact though that he would still cut my dick off if I hurt his sister. And I don't blame him.
They both get out, Elena at least seems to be more stable now.
"Thanks man." Jeremy nods.
"Pick me up tomorrow, around noon?" Elena asks through the passenger window.
"Won't miss it."
She smiles and looks down. "Well…..bye" She says before waving and turning around.
One thing crosses my mind as I hit the gas, I freaking hate our goodbyes.
19 weeks and 1 day pregnant
Saturday January 7th
My alarm goes off and for a second I think why the hell is my alarm going off on Saturday morning when I remember I am going baby shopping with Damon.
That wakes me up.
I squeal, hit snooze and rummage through my clothes looking for something nice to wear. I mean, I want to look good around Damon….Hmmm
I end up picking out a ruffled white shirt with some jeggings. I had the pleasure of finding these existed. They are basically a godsend to anyone pregnant. It basically looks like jeans but it isn't. Genius.
I look at the clock again and he should be here any minute. I don't know whether to get something to eat or not. Damon usually doesn't like to eat out….But before I could finish that thought I hear a knock. I feel my heart race and my stomach drop. Damon. He's here. Why is it the more time I spend with him the more effect he has on me. It's not fair!
I open the door revealing him leaning against the frame and a smirk all over his face.
"Hey." I breathe out. God he is not helping.
"Hey." He greets back as we make our way down the porch.
His hands grip my side and I jolt from the electricity.
"Sorry, I just wanted to help. Last night you were all over the place." He lets out a shaky laugh.
"Yeah I think that's another glorious pregnancy symptom." I roll my eyes as we reach his car and get in.
"So….where to?" Damon says uncomfortably. Probably because he has no idea where baby stores are. But I am sure in a year he will have them memorized.
"Just head to Richmond. They are filled with them." I inform.
He nods and we are on our way.
I can feel a little tension in the car. Which is highly unusual for us and I am pretty sure it has to do with the almost kiss. We should talk about it. I vow to myself to bring it up sometime today. I just want to be careful though and not just say, Ooh yeah love that crib, by the way why did you almost kiss me? And I love you. Yeah not going to work.
About an hour later we make it to Richmond after listening to Damon's rock n roll music. Which would usually bug me but my mind was elsewhere.
I pull out a piece of paper with a list of baby shops that I wanted to check out.
"So, we can try out Mimi's baby shop. She is suppose to have cheap second hand things." I explain.
He scoffs. "No, if I am buying my daughter something it will be new. Money isn't a issue. Next."
"Damon." I scold. "Buying used isn't bad."
"Elena my daughter gets the best. No question." He waves off.
I sigh and give in. I don't need an argument. Me and Damon are too stubborn for our own good. I have to give in every now and then.
"So…how about…" I say looking at my paper. "The Baby Palace?"
He agrees and I give him directions. Pleased he agreed, he can be a bit of….a snob when it comes to his daughter, which I get. I mean he just wants to make sure she has the best. My dad gave me his credit card and basically told me 'Get the little bugger some stuff'.'
Me and Damon make our way into 'The Baby Palace' And it just hit me there are other things you can get your baby besides a crib.
"Wow" I say as we get deeper in the store. Me and Damon probably look lost to outsiders.
"Wow this is a lot of stuff…." Damon says in awe.
"Hello. Welcome to The Baby Palace I am Christie. Can I help you find anything?" A worker says beside us.
Me and Damon shake our heads and nod. "We uhm….we need…..we don't know what to get…." I laugh nervously.
She looks between us and I feel like I almost see the light bulb go on in her head that we are teenage-soon-to-be-parents.
Great
Let the judging begin again.
I feel Damon's arm wrap possessively around my waist and pull me close to him. "Yep no clue what to get or what half this stuff is but hey at least we are hot" He mocks at her.
I turn my head trying to stifle a giggle.
"Well." Christie says a little flustered. "What kind of things are we looking for today?" She perks back up. "Furniture? Clothes? Toys?"
"All the above." I beam.
She nods and says we might as well start with the most basic and used thing. A crib. Me and Damon walk through the endless rows of cribs listening to her talk about different kinds. My brain feels like it's going to melt. I just want a crib my baby can lay in that won't break. Nothing special. Kid is going to sleep there, not live in it.
"Elena, what about this one." Damon calls from across the crib room.
I sigh. I am already tired and we just started. Great. I make my way over to him and gasp when I see it.
It's a beautiful white crib. No way else to describe it, other than, it's perfect. I get images of our baby laying in it. Smiling. Sleeping. I want this crib.
"Let's take it." I rush out.
He smiles down at it. "Yeah."
We put down our order and it should arrive tomorrow afternoon. When I heard the price I almost screamed but Damon clamped a hand over my mouth and gave them his credit card. Better that way.
We leave and go to a few other stores. We get all types of things from clothes to toys. The only major thing we got was the crib, the rest were just fun and cute things. No rush though I am only barely halfway no reason to get it all in one trip. Damon and I had the most fun picking out clothes for her. I was going for tutus and sparkly dresses while Damon was looking at the Harley Davidson collection…..I let him get her one leather jacket before I pulled him away. My daughter will not look like a motorcyclist at 3 days old.
"Damon. No! She won't even be able to wear it that long! She will grow!" I hiss as his eyes get bigger looking at the jackets and shirts.
"Then we will buy more as she gets bigger." He says nonchalantly picking up more items.
"Damon" I give him the look.
Needless to say we got away with one item from that area. Smart choice Salvatore. I thought I would be the one buying a ton of things but let's just say our child will be very well clothed. So well that she probably will only wear things once if not at all. I can tell he wants her to have the world. And it's touching. But where are we going to put all of this.
"Damon" I say try to feed him my thoughts.
"What?" He says as we enter another store.
"Maybe we should stop I mean where are we going to put all this stuff…." I gape thinking about his backseat and how full it is, much less how is this going to fit in my room.
"Calm down, Elena. Some of this stuff will be at my house too." He waves off as we walk through the toys section.
"What." I stop dead in my tracks.
He keeps walking but figures out I am not next to him and turns around.
"What?" Damon asks looking around for my sudden pause.
"Damon….we never talked about this…" I sigh rubbing a hand over my face. "So is the baby staying at your house then, some nights? Because I am really confused." I confess.
He sighs and walks towards me till he is directly in front of me. "Yeah I was thinking about that. I mean your dad said, I could stay at your house for some time but maybe on the weekends she could stay at my place too. Sometimes?" He shrugs.
I open my mouth but close it, unsure what to say. "I can't be without her for the first few weeks or months." I point out.
"Well yeah, the first few months we will keep her in one spot but maybe once she reaches six months have her start spending time at my place more. But if you're really uncomfortable with me being alone with her you can stay too." He adds kind of coldly.
"Damon" I sigh. "That's not what I meant or what's going on." I groan.
"Then what?" He breathes out. Tired of this heavy conversation like I am.
"I just….I can't even stand the thought of being away from her." I admit. "The thought of her being across town scares me. I know you would protect her with your entire life. Trust me I know Damon. As cliché as this sounds it's not you, it's me." I half joke.
He smiles and looks down. "Okay, sorry I snapped." He chuckles. "I just don't want her to be ripped away from me. I know a lot of dads get limited to seeing their child twice a week and I will not have it be that way." He vows.
I feel my heart warm up from his words. The love he feels for his daughter astounds me. If anyone tells me, Damon will be a bad father, I would slap them myself. I am sure we will both make mistakes and learn from it with parenting. But the fact that he is already thinking these things through shows how much he wants this to work. And I hate that he would ever think I don't trust him to be around our daughter. It is the exact opposite. If I trust our daughter with anyone, it's him. If I needed someone to watch her I wouldn't go to my dad or best friend, I would go to him. I trust him to protect her and make the best decisions around her. I do with my life. It's just that this little baby growing inside me already has me sucked in. I love her more than anything. I don't want to lose her or miss out on anything, or to even be away from her. The mere thought make me nauseas. I know I will have to work that out pretty quick because a few months after she is born I will be in school.
"Okay." I choke out. "Then we won't have it be that way okay?" I look deep into his eyes to assure him. "Trust me, I don't want it to be that way either. I need some help with this." I laugh as I rub my belly.
He laughs back. "Okay. I hope now this conversation is over. But yes, Elena, I will put some of this stuff in my house so you're not buried alive in it." He mocks at me and I laugh. "We will put stuff we know we will use the first week or two in your room and as we need more stuff I'll just bring it over." He works out.
I nod thinking that plan through.
"Good. Now let's go pick out more stuff to spoil our daughter with." Damon holds out his hand and I take it as we look through the store with goofy smiles on our faces.
[...]
We don't get too much furniture as we got the crib and a few big toys that will take up a lot of room. We focus on clothes. Which by the way, she has a lot of. It's funny to look at the clothes I pick out for her compared to the one Damon picks out for her. Mine are pink and frilly. Damon's are more….not pink. He says he doesn't have anything against pink but with his mom, me, Caroline and Bonnie probably all buying pink things, he has to stick up for her and leave her with other options. I roll my eyes at his logic but go with it.
We get something to eat, he surprisingly lets me order a steak. He uses the excuse of it being protein but whatever, I got steak. I'm a happy girl. We also go to three other baby stores. We bought a infant car seat that you can take apart and also carry the baby throughout places. Damon was very picky on this one. Saying this was a big decision. He made sure she couldn't go flying and it was safe. And if god forbid we got in a car accident how safe she would be. Yeah that went on for awhile.
We save the other big things like a changing table and stroller for next time. It just got dark and I am about to pass out. We are paying for our things at our last stop. It's a baby bag, blanket and some more clothes. Surprise.
The sales clerk is taking a while ringing our things up. Something to do with the computers so she goes in the back for awhile to talk to her manager.
"Damon, can I drive us home?" I beg trying to use my best puppy eyes on him.
"No." He says shortly.
My body deflates. I pout. "Damon, please! I haven't driven in forever." I try to persuade.
"Hell no."
I am about to argue back when the clerk and her manager come back. They ring up our things just fine this time and we finally leave. When we get outside it is pouring down rain. Great.
As we are walking to the car I put my foot down.
"Damon, I want to drive." I say angrily and cross my arms as he puts things in the trunk. Actually more like squish things into the trunk.
"Not happening." He tells me which just makes me angrier.
"Well, I am not getting into the car until you say I can drive." I smile wickedly.
I don't know why it's such a big deal I drive. I just feel so stubborn over it. I want to win this fight and damn him if he says no. I know my hormones probably aren't helping but I have given in with him recently and I'm tired of not getting my way.
"Elena, get in the car." He shuts the trunk and looks at me darkly.
"Can I drive?" I raise my eyebrow.
"No." He answers back quickly.
"Then, I'm not getting in the car." I look away from him so he can't distract me.
"Elena, I am not fucking around get in the car before you get sick!" He yells at me.
"No!" I shout back.
We are both almost soaked now but I will not back down.
"Elena get in the car!" He yells even louder.
"Make me!"
Now it's not even about driving the stupid car. I am tired of being ordered around by him and told what to do. If I want to do something, he can't stop me. Or at least that is what I am telling myself.
"Elena so help me god get your ass in the car before I throw you over my shoulder and make you get in!" He yells in pure anger.
"Why do you care so much? Huh?!" I scream at him.
"Because I fucking love you!" He hollers at me.
I stop in my tracks and my mouth drops open.
Did he just…..
"What" I whisper.
"You heard me! Now get in the car!" He yells this time but with less anger.
"You can't just say that to me and not saying anything!" I raise my voice.
"I can and I will"
"No you can't!" I say frustrated and stomp my foot.
We are both now soaking wet.
""Yes I can!" He flares his eyes. "Elena just get in the car, we are drenched come on." He growls.
"FINE! But just know I love you too idiot!" I yell louder at him. I walk past him to get to the passenger door but he grabs my arm and reels me back.
"Damon, I am not in the mood for this! Let me go!" I tug at my arm.
He looks at me over and over in my eyes searching for something. I get annoyed and try to look away but he grabs my face, forcing me to look at him.
Only me and Damon could just confess our love for each other and be in a fight at the same time.
Wow this is a mess.
And not how I wanted it to happen….
He is still looking at me and I can't take it anymore. "Damon stop just-"
But I am cut off as he kisses me.
Hard.
I try to pull back thinking of our fight but after a few seconds I am sucked in. I wrap my arms around his neck. His tongue asks for permission and I gladly accept. I feel our tongues dance and swim together. I can't possibly be close enough to him but he tries anyway as he pulls me closer. Damn bump getting in the way.
I jump up and wrap my legs around him to help out as we continue to kiss. This feels like some Nicholas sparks movie with the rain and passion but it's so real. I never knew it was possible to feel this way. But it is.. Not too long later though Damon groans and pulls away.
"Ugh. What did you do that for?" I pout.
He laughs and rests his forehead against mine. "Babe, we are soaked. As much as I would love to do this I have to make sure you and little munchkin don't get sick."
I know he is right but all I am thinking is 'Screw my health I need more'.
I hop down anyway and push him away. "I am still mad at you." I glare though I don't really feel mad at him. Actually I feel turned on. But I won't tell him that.
"Sure you are." He smirks cockily.
Ugh.
I push past him and this time he doesn't stop me.
I get in the passenger door. Not even going to try and fight him on driving. I hear him get in next to me. I feel myself start shivering and my teeth chatter away unconsciously. Damon turns the car on and cranks the heat up. Thank god.
I lean my head against the back seat still catching my breath after our intense make out. When, I lift my head up, I notice Damon hasn't moved the car he is staring blankly ahead.
"Damon" I nudge him. "Are we going to go?"
"Do you really love me." He whispers. Vulnerability and all showing.
"Yes." I answer, keeping it simple.
He lets out a small laugh and rests his head against the steering wheel. "I hope you know I can't let you go now that you've said that." He says possessively.
I nod even though he can't see it. "I know." And I am just fine with that.
"Say it again." He whispers.
"What?" I say confused.
"You know."
Oh.
"I love you Damon." I smile. "Not just because of our kid…..I love you for you. Just the way you are." I say quietly.
I hear him catch his breath. He finally lifts his head up and stares at me. He has fresh tears brewing in his eyes.
"Damon…" I whisper and caress his face.
He leans towards me and kisses me again. But this time there is no tongue, no fierceness. Just love.
After a few moments we pull away resting our heads on each other. Did I ever think today would lead to this? No. But it feels amazing to have something you wanted so bad come true. I love Damon with all my heart. To be honest I can't see me living another day without him. He is part of me now.
"I love you, too." He says passionately.
I giggle. And kiss him quickly on the lips, not being able to keep myself from him. I am sure he doesn't mind though.
"We should get going." I whisper against him.
"Ugh. Fine." He says kissing me again before he makes his way out of the parking lot.
I reach down and rub my belly. She is kicking like crazy, almost like she knows I am so happy, I could die. I smile and continue feeling her kicks. Still doesn't cease to amaze me how amazing it is that I can feel her.
"She kicking?" Damon asks with a smile as he looks over at me.
"Yeah." I laugh.
The rest of the time is silent and again I am thankful. We both have a lot to think about. I don't know where Damon and I stand after this. But after today I know a lot of things will change. We both confessed our feelings.
He loves me.
I feel warm and bubbly inside. He actually loves me! Yeah all of this came out when we were arguing but when have me and Damon ever done something conventional? We have always been a little backwards on how we do things. I wouldn't want it any other way. Though I just hope I don't get sick from standing in the pouring rain for half an hour.
My thoughts are forced to stop as Damon stops the car. "Were here." He coughs.
I sigh.
I don't know what to say. Maybe it's better we sleep on it. Or just sleep.
I am so tired.
"Wait, Elena." Damon stops me from opening the door.
I look back at him. Not knowing what to expect. What if he takes it back? Or regrets our kisses?
"..I don't want us to forget this or act like it didn't happen….I want you. So bad. I want all of you the good and the insanely stubborn parts. I love you. I meant it. I always will. But I am tired and I mean I am exhausted from hiding my feelings towards you. Mind me, I have never had a real relationship so I might ruin it and it will be hard for me but I love you so much Elena I would do anything for us. Our baby is just icing on the cake. But I love you for you and I have for awhile. And I meant it when I said I don't know if I could handle not having you after your confession…I want this. I want us." Damon says passionately with complete openness and vulnerability.
My mouth is open and I am speechless.
He is becoming more and more vulnerable to me. It means so much that he can trust me with this. But what he just said to me, was the most romantic thing I have ever heard. Is it possible to be more in love with him? I think so.
"Damon…" I trail off and feel myself tearing up.
"Please tell me this is the happy cry." He laughs nervously. "Otherwise this would be embarrassing."
"It is a happy cry." I assure and wipe my eyes. "That was beautiful Damon."
"Yeah, well just don't tell anyone else. Have a reputation to uphold." He winks.
I laugh and shake my head. "Of course." I smile.
"So…What do you say?"
I nod my head. "Of course, I would love this. Doesn't my confession and me wrapping my body around you answer your question?" I laugh.
"That was pretty hot." He smirks
I look away blushing. I have never done something that crazy or elaborate.
"Hey it was amazing. Don't be embarrassed."
I nod. I am going to try with that. When I dated Matt he would put me down for that kind of things saying, a lady doesn't do that. At first I basically told him to stick it after that but those things still stuck with me.
"Well, I guess I should get this load of stuff into my small room." I laugh nervously glancing in the backseat at the mound of bags and boxes. I don't even want to think of the trunk.
"Just take the light things like the clothes. I'll bring the big things over eventually"
I nod.
"So just to clear the air..." I say bravely. "-am I single or not?" I put it bluntly.
He laughs. Now is not the time to laugh Salvatore. "No, Elena. You are not single."
I smile in response. "Okay, so no making out with guys and getting a new baby daddy?" I say in mock seriousness.
"You better not." He raises a brow.
I roll my eyes before turning serious. "But that goes for you too, Salvatore."
"Sorry babe don't swing that way." He grins knowing that would push my buttons.
I swat him in the chest while laughing and look away. He is too distracting for his damn good and now that he is mine all I want to do is kiss him.
I think he is thinking the same thing because his eyes darken. Finally I say 'to hell with it' and jump him.
Yes.
I am Elena Gilbert and I jumped my boyfriend Damon Salvatore.
Straddling him, I look deep into his eyes before attacking his lips. Our tongues and lips are all over the place. I can't tell whose is whose tongue at this point. He smells amazing. He kisses me deeper and deeper until I can't take it anymore and I start grinding against him.
"Shit." He curses against my lips.
I giggle. He growls at me and fiercely attacks me again. He wants a challenge and I am a perfect candidate. He is about to move his hands to my breasts when we hear a knock on the window.
Shit.
I don't even want to look up. I know who it is. I groan and hide my head in Damon's shoulder.
I hear his window roll down before voices emerge. "It's not enough you two got knocked up once but you want to give it a go again?" My dad almost says in amusement.
Damon shifts uncomfortably.
"Seriously, you two? When the fuck did you get together?" I can hear Jeremy's voice not too far away.
"Is my daughter hiding?" My dad laughs.
"Go away dad." I mumble in Damon's shoulder.
"You two have horrible control." Grayson laughs.
"Dad." I lift my head up and glare at him.
"Elena, get out of the damn car before I cut Damon's dick off." Jeremy warns.
Ugh.
I look down and realize I am still straddling him. Great. I open Damon's door and get out, holding onto the car to make sure I don't fall. I hear Damon get out next to me.
"Don't start you two." I warn pointing at my dad and brother.
My dad looks amused and my brother looks threatening.
Oh, how this is backwards.
"Damon seems pretty excited." Jeremy says darkly. I look at him confused before looking at Damon who is looking away. I look down and Oh. That makes sense. "I swear one day I am cutting your dick off." Jeremy says in response to Damon's massive boner.
I glare at my brother. "At least now you know he has a bigg-"
"Elena!" My dad yells and cuts me off.
I cross my arms and glare at my dad.
"I don't need to hear you talk about that stuff." Grayson closes his eyes in disgust. "In my mind you have no idea about those things."
"Dad, I am pregnant." I point out.
"Shhh!"
I roll my eyes at my dad.
He wants a grandchild but still wants to think I am pure. Okay. I know my dad was always going to have a problem deep down with me growing up. I am his little girl. Growing up I was always more closer to my dad than mom. Whereas Jeremy was closer to our mom. But I bet it's hard to see this little girl he raised, all grown up and talking about….dicks. I get it. Now that I am a soon-to-be mom I would freak out if my daughter even knew what a dick was. Let alone, let one near her. No just no. I shake my head and banish those thoughts for at least thirty more years.
"Whatever, this thing needs to end so can you guys help me carry my bags to my room." I raise my eyebrows.
"Sure, but try not to hump me in the process." Jeremy mocks.
"You asshole-" I get cut off before I can say more.
"Language, Elena!"
My dad makes no sense.
Getting pregnant? Bad but no yelling. Finding daughter making out and grinding against boyfriend? No biggy. Oh but cussing? Hell no.
Without saying a word we get all the clothes into my room, when all that's left is the big bulky stuff Damon said he would sort out.
"I am going to say bye to Damon." I tell them without a glance.
I hear a call of sex jokes behind me but block them out. They think they are funny now. But I am pretty sure they won't be as funny when I am not pregnant. Though I would never make this mistake again, I just can't wait for their views to change in the meantime.
"Hey." I say when I reach him, he is leaning against his car. "Sorry about my dad and brother….They are just protective." I laugh.
He smiles. "It's fine. That's good. That they are protective."
"If you say so."
"Can you believe how this day went?" Damon asks while looking up at the sky.
"Honestly, no." I laugh.
"Good day." He nods.
"Very good day." I agree.
We lean in and kiss each other sweetly.
A goodbye kiss.
I know we will see one another tomorrow but I don't want him to leave. I haven't before and I very much don't want that now either
"We will talk more tomorrow. Without parents and siblings present." Damon promises.
He knows me so well. He knows I want to talk about what we are and the effect it will have on our daughter. I want to get our relationship figured out before our child comes into this world. I want to know if we are in it or not. I don't need her to be in a negative environment. Another thing is, Damon has never had a girlfriend before and I have never really had a serious boyfriend. We have a lot of guidelines and feelings to talk through. It has to be done though. I might not have been in a serious relationship before but I do know relationships are about communication. I don't want to find out in a few months that we want something different from this, when we could have told each other from the beginning and saved each other the trouble.
"Bye." I grumble.
He leans in and kisses me again. "Bye, Elena" He says before getting into his camaro and driving away.
I miss him already.
Oh god.
I just hope I am not one of those pathetic and whiney girlfriends.
You're pregnant, I remind myself.
Yeah using that excuse.
I walk back into the house my dad is in the living room now watching football. Jeremy most likely in his room. Not wanting to talk about all this tonight I try and sneak upstairs, but that's doesn't work out too well.
"So you two dating now?" My dad says from his chair without looking away from the TV.
"Yes and I don't want to hear all the bad things you have to say." I groan.
"Actually I am proud of you, Elena. You two are good for each other."
What.
I gape at him before he turns and looks at me with a smile.
"You expected me to say horrible things didn't you?" He grins. "I would have a few months ago but if I know anything now, it's that, that boy is pretty much head over heels in love with you."
I smile.
Well it's a good thing I am pretty much head over heels in love with him too.
I smile and walk up into my room.
Right before I open my door my phone buzzes in my pocket. I reach down and pull it out.
Damon.
I feel giddy inside as I open the text.
I miss you already.
I bite my lip as I type my reply to him.
I miss you too.
I am about to lay down in bed when my phone buzzes again.
Love you.
I feel tears weld up but wipe them away.
Love you more.
Just when I am about to pass into sleep another text comes in.
I doubt that.
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Haha do you guys love me? Long time coming. It was always going to be this chapter they got together. Just had to torture you guys in the process. Damon and Elena are a little backwards loving eachother before dating and getting pregnant before dating but whatever :) THANKS TO ANNA WHO STAYED UP BETA'ING. LOVE YA.
Long wait again. I had my surgery all went well but then i just hit writers block and got busy. But here is a nearly 9k update. Wow. So much happens in this chap i hope you guys loved it :D
***Spoiler: little time jump after their relationship. We will see how that is going.
I am a slow paced gal but now that they are dating trust me, nothing slow about me hahaha. Totally worth the wait though. I wanted to build them up. I mean after all they didnt start dating till season 5 in the show. Delena is just angst. Its simple as that.
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