In your arms I feel alive, I'm not afraid
I will keep you this close to me,
I look for signs everyday
I lift my hands and pray coz life's tough somedays
But I will not lose faith coz you will lead the way
You're my light when it gets dark
You will always be in my heart
You're my brightest morning star
22 weeks and 4 days pregnant
Monday January 31st
I roll over in my bed ignoring the calls coming from my phone. I don't want to talk to anyone, even though I know it's probably Damon. I feel stronger than I did when I found out but there is still an unsure and scared feeling in me that Jeremy might never wake up. The doctor said he is sure Jeremy will make a recovery, given his brain scans but I lost my mom in a car crash so who is to say Jeremy is in the clear?
I am so mad at Jeremy.
Everyone is. He was not only drunk but also high at the time of the crash. God when he wakes up I am going to slap him. My dad hasn't left the hospital in the last two days Jeremy has been there. He is nonstop working and being there for Jeremy. Today is a school day, my dad told me it is up to me whether I go. He doesn't want me too stressed given what happened last time. I want to call Damon because I need him right now but I just can't seem to do it. I really don't want to talk anything about the accident until we know more.
I groan when my phone won't stop ringing and throw my blanket over my head to block off some of the sound. It has to be Damon. No one is that stubborn and persistent besides Caroline. And she told me she would give me the space I needed. I then hear pounding on the door followed by Damon's voice shouting my name. I can't tell if I am relived or angry to see him but I get up for the first time in a while and head to the front door. I am in an oversized t shirt, my hair is all over the place when I open the door and sigh.
"Yes?" I ask emotionlessly.
"Yes? Yes? Are you fucking kidding me? I have been calling you for hours!"
I lean my head against the door. "I'm sorry" I croak. "I just needed some time."
He sighs, relaxing his body and opens his arms. I sniffle and go into his embrace, wrapping my arms around his torso and burying my head into his chest. I missed him. I did. I just needed some time to wrap my head around this disaster. I would have called him soon anyway but I am glad he is here.
"Wanna go to the hospital?" He says into my hair.
I nod.
With linked hands we make our way to my room where I get changed into some sweats and a hoodie. I'm going for comfort because I am going to need it.
"Damon if you need to go to school you can." I look at him once I am dressed. "I don't want to hold you back because of my family problems." I say genuinely. Especially if we are going to be parents we need to graduate, I am already missing today I don't want him to. Though the chances of him going to school when I'm not and his friend is in the hospital are slim to none.
"Elena I am going." He says firmly but then his voice goes soft. "He is one of my closest friends and I want to be there for you." He whispers.
I nod, understanding.
We make our way out to his car and get in, taking a deep breath before hitting the road. The drive over is silent, but a comfortable silence, one that is needed. We arrive to the hospital and enter holding each other's hands for support. We make our way up to Jeremy's room and find our dad sitting there half asleep. I roll my eyes and nudge his shoulder.
He jumps, alert but relaxes when he sees us. "I got to go to my shift soon. Glad you are here. Doctors are waiting for him to wake up and it could happen anytime. Can you stay here for a little?" He asks hopeful. "I am only working a half shift."
We both nod.
"Of course dad." I try to smile.
He nods before kissing my cheek, patting Damon on the back and leaving. I let out a sigh and plop in the chair my dad was in next to Jeremy. I touch his cold hands and fight back tears. How did we get here? Maybe if I lectured him more on drinking.
I hear Damon pull a chair up besides be and squeeze my other hand. I am glad I have Damon. I don't know what I would do without him. Sometimes I distance myself to protect me. But I don't need that anymore, I have Damon. I need to learn to stop doing that.
"He will be okay Elena." Damon says with conviction. "Like the doctor said. The only reason they put him in a coma was to cope with the injuries. He is going to be fine." He squeezes my hand.
I breathe out, trying to believe him. But I can't. There is always a chance. Always.
The doctors said he suffered a concussion, four broken ribs, a broken arm, dislocated shoulder and a broken foot. His body couldn't handle the pain and injury so it literally shut itself off and for his safety and health the doctors put him in a medical induced coma. They said this way he would heal faster and avoid risk of infection.
I haven't talk to Bonnie. My dad said she hasn't visited him. We haven't heard from her or her family just that she got released the day of the accident. We don't know what is on her mind whether she is mad at him or too traumatized. But I am choosing to give her space like I asked a lot of people for me. Caroline said she talked to her a little and she is pretty shaken and needs time.
"…I just…It's not his time to go, you know?" I say strongly. "He was supposed to get his act together…If he died he would never get the chance…I mean he needs to meet his niece and start a family of his own. He is just not ready to go!" I growl.
"And he won't. Have a little more faith." Damon smiles reassuringly at me.
"It's hard." I grumble.
"I know." He said sincerely.
We stay there, hands still locked. Just talking and watching over Jeremy. You don't know how much you depend on someone and miss then when they aren't there. Life is too short. I look at that clock and realize we have been here for four hours; my dad should be getting off soon. Me and Damon had a sandwich from the cafeteria but man do I miss Damon's mom's cooking. Maybe to get my mind off of my brother I can convince Damon to make me a meal or spend the night at his house. Me and little munchkin need a real meal.
"Can we stay at your mom's for dinner or can you make us dinner? I am in need of a home cooked meal." I pout.
He chuckles. "I can make us dinner at your house and we can watch a movie?" He offers.
I feel myself smile for the first time in two days. "Yeah, I'd love that."
"How is our princess doing today?" Damon reaches over and touches my belly.
I sigh. "Good. Been pretty quiet, I think she knows I am stressed so is taking it easy on me." I half smile.
Damon leans down and kisses my belly with the most loving expression on his beautiful face. I pet his hair and kiss his head before he leaves a soft kiss on my lips.
We are broken apart when the door opens, revealing my dad.
I cough. "Hi."
He rolls his eyes. "You kids can go home." He says and takes off his coat.
"Dad, you should go home and get a good night's sleep." I tell him as I stand up, giving him his chair. Knowing he will stay here.
"No, I need to watch over him."
I nod.
"Okay but just know I am always willing to sleep here for you, Dad." I look into his eyes.
He smiles. "Thanks cupcake. But you have a little one to look out for. I don't want you sleeping here. Go home, get something to eat. I will let you know if anything happens."
We both leave the hospital and I can't help but hope maybe the next time I am here Jeremy will be awake.
We arrive home and Damon immediately gets dinner started. I feel very domestic watching him making homemade tomato sauce except instead of drinking wine I am drinking one of my shakes. Close enough.
I feel her start to kick again and I smile knowing I am happier than I was this morning, I don't care what anyone says I know she senses it.
"You have to stop looking so hot while I am cooking." Damon scolds coming to stand between my legs.
"Sorry?" I laugh.
"Damn right" He says and kisses me forcefully. I moan into the kiss, wrapping my legs around him, pulling him as close as I can to me. The kiss gets more intense as our tongues dance. He groans moving his hands all over my back frantically.
Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.
We both groan simultaneously as Damon breaks away to turn down the burners and turn on the fan.
"I have never ever had a fire alarm go off on me." He laughs.
I raise my eyebrow and cross my arms. "Are you saying it is my fault?"
"Yes."
"Okay…I will leave." I smirk and jump off the counter.
"Hey!" He grabs my arm. "Get your little ass back in here. You aren't going anymore." He flares his eyes.
"But Damon." I put my hand over my heart. "I don't want you to burn our food and ruin your ego." I gasp.
He shakes his head and rolls his eyes. "Just sit your ass down."
I laugh and resume my spot.
Me and Damon are laying on the couch, stuffed after our amazing meatball casserole. I am between his legs while we watch Mall cop.
"Remember we have an appointment tomorrow." Damon points out.
I widen my eyes. "We do?"
"Yep." He says popping the 'p'.
"Maybe we should reschedule." I bite my lip.
"It is pretty important though. Especially since you were in the hospital it's good to check she is alright."
"Yeah you are right…" I sigh.
"Do you not want to go?" Damon asks, taken aback.
"I do…I just have a lot on my mind, that's all."
"Just picture how much bigger she will be." He kisses my head.
"Mhmm" I agree. I can't wait to see her again and how much she has developed.
We watch the rest of the movie wrapped up in each other. I feel Damon randomly kissing my head throughout the movie. In return I would kiss his chest and rub his arms which I can tell by the tightness of his pants he loved it.
Sometime during the middle of the movie I drift off in mid sleep. I hear the TV turn off then my body leave the couch. I groan not knowing what is going on but I feel a kiss on my cheek before my back finds softness; I open my eyes alert and see Damon stepping out of my room.
"Wait." I croak.
He turns to look at me, shocked I am awake. "Stay with me tonight." I whisper.
He is unsure for a second before nodding and making his way to the bed. I smile as he gets undressed until he is completely naked. I widen my eyes.
"Why are you naked?!"
"Babe, its time you learn I am a naked sleeper." He gives me a wolfish smile and plants a kiss on my nose before rolling over.
I chuckle and shake my head before rolling on my side.
22 weeks and 5 days pregnant
February 1st
I wake up to arms wrapped around my mid-section and smile. I almost forgot Damon slept over. I feel kisses going down my back. I roll over facing him. God it is so unfair for someone to look this beautiful when they first wake up.
"Morning." I greet, voice still laced with sleep.
"I could get use to this." He smiles in pure happiness.
I smile in agreement before giving him a good morning kiss. Damon being Damon tries to deepen it but I pull away which makes him whine.
"Wait, what time is the appointment?" I ask.
He sighs. "The latest they could do was 12:30"
"Should we go to school today….Or not?" I question.
"What's one more day?"
"How are your grades?" I raise an eyebrow.
"All B's with one A." He smiles proudly.
"Well I will have you know I am a straight A student Salvatore." I raise my chin.
"Oooh…. hot sexy school girl." He smirks and tries to kiss me again.
"Nope, hospital time!" I avoid his kiss before getting up.
He growls and mutters obscenities but gets dressed with me.
"I want to stop by my house to get showered quickly and grab a new change of clothes." He tells me while splashing water on his face in the bathroom.
"Okay" I agree.
He has hardly been home with the drama going on. I grab an apple on the way out before we head towards his house. She is really kicking me today I think as I shift around in my seat trying to get comfortable. Maybe we will get to see that later today.
We arrive at his house and in the parlor are Giuseppe and Helen talking over papers on the coffee table, probably their work.
"Damon, Elena!" Helen cheers and runs over to hug each of us.
"Hi." I smile.
"Damon has been keeping me informed. Jeremy is in our prayers."
"Thanks, means a lot." I nod, looking down.
"I hardly see you too with all this going on, when he wakes up you all need to come over for dinner." She smiles.
"Will do!" I nod enthusiastically, who can turn down her cooking?
"Okay mom, we are in a hurry. I am just here for a change of clothes and a shower." Damon informs her.
"Isn't one of your guy's appointments today?" Giuseppe asks.
"Yep. Today at 12:30." Damon says.
"Bring us pictures" Helen says before we head up to his room.
Being in Damon's room always uplifts my mood. It is still filled with baby things in every corner. And reminds me of my little miracle I will meet soon. No matter how many bad things happen there is always good.
"Well I am going to take a quick shower….Want to join me?" He smirks.
I blush and look away. "No, cause we will never leave. Now go Salvatore!"
He laughs but shuts the bathroom door. I shake my head and wander around the room looking at all the crazy and insane amount of things we bought for this tiny special baby. I can't imagine where I am going to put all this stuff. I imagine her spending a lot of her time over here, I want her to grow up around her Damon's parents and see her dad all day and every day, not just parts. Which is something I need to bring up to Damon sometime. I wouldn't mind moving in with him but I don't know what his thoughts are…..
My cell phone starts ringing; I look down and see my dad's caller ID. Panicking I quickly answer.
"Yeah!?"
"Elena get down here soon….Bonnie's parents are here….It's not pretty."
"Okay, I will be there soon." I hang up and run to Damon's bathroom door.
I open the door, steam escaping all over. "Damon." I say outside the shower door.
"Yeah?"
"My dad called, I guess Bonnie's parents are there and it's not good….." I trail off.
"Oh shit….Okay, ill speed it up."
I leave the bathroom and rummage through his closet, finding him an outfit. Wow, his wardrobe is basically all black. And leather jackets. I swear I see like ten. Shaking my head at his madness I grab and gray v neck and a pair of black jeans along with a leather jacket. Mental note to get him to wear more colors.
When I exit the closet he is there with only a towel around his waist in the bathroom doorway. He smirks knowing I am ogling. I ban those thoughts for now and throw him his clothes.
"Dressed!" I order.
"Yes mam!"
I smile and try to keep my mind busy while my insanely hot boyfriend is getting dressed. When he is done we quickly head downstairs.
"Here are some sandwiches if you guys don't get back sooner than you think." Helen smiles.
"Thank you, I am pretty tired of the hospital food." I thank her.
"No problem dear." She smiles then goes over to Damon and puts his head in her hands and kisses his cheek. Then then same to me. "Good luck!" She waves.
We arrive at the hospital almost running to see what is going on, curiosity taking over. I don't know whether to expect yelling or what. I mean Jeremy was in the wrong, he was drunk and high so they have a right to be mad but hey I will always take my brothers side and if he is in a coma right now I don't need anyone putting him down when he can't defend himself. Besides we don't know the story, because I know my brother would never drive drunk or high, so there was a reason. There has to be.
We round the corner to his room and step inside.
Wow.
You can almost cut the tension with a knife.
"Hey dad…" I say uneasily.
"Grayson! My daughter got injured because of your stupid and selfish son's decisions!" Abby yells totally ignoring my entrance. "I want justice. He doesn't deserve to live with himself!"
I look beside Abby to see Bonnie looking down and in the corner.
"Look, my brother is in a coma and it's kind of depressing so if you could stop yelling around him that would be great" I smile coldly
"Says the girl who got pregnant at 15!"
I cross my arms defensively. "What does that have to do with anything?"
"This family is screwed up in the heads. Son that gets high and drunk and puts others in danger and a slut daughter who gets herself pregnant in high school"
I am taken aback and feel an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness'. I have known Abby since kindergarten. She would make sandwiches and give us snacks. I can't count the times I spent the night at Bonnie's house and she would rent us movies and order pizza.
"Hey why don't you can shut the fuck up." Damon jumps towards her.
"Damon" Grayson holds him back before turning to Abby. "You should leave, we don't want you here, and if need to be we will call security."
"Mom, calm down" Bonnie speaks up behind her mom. "You don't know the full story so stop"
"I don't need to know the fully story Bonnie" She spats. "He put you in danger for selfish reasons, that is enough!"
"Mom!" Bonnie yells. "I want to explain."
Bonnie looks around at us and we all nod, encouraging her. We want to know.
She clears her throat before starting. "Me and Jeremy were in his car driving around, we drove a few of his friends to places and around, that was around the time he got high….We went to Richmond for dinner…It was a bar and grill. Jeremy knew people there that got us alcohol and we were both drinking a lot….Me more than him. When the dinner came to a stop we didn't know who was going to drive, I was way more fucked up than him and all his friends weren't answering. Elena was with Damon, Grayson was at work…We didn't know what to do. It wasn't right, I know. But I didn't want Jeremy to drive for obvious reasons but he said he could get me home; he just didn't want me driving. He was insistent and to be honest…He seemed fine. He was driving fine….And then we were going through a light and a car on Jeremy's side ran a red light and hit us. The crash has nothing to do with drugs or alcohol." She tells everyone.
We are all left frozen at the explanation.
"It still isn't right Bonnie! He shouldn't have been driving, I am pressing charges." She announces before leaving the room.
Bonnie looks at all of us before speaking. "I am sorry about her, but trust me when I say he didn't get hit because of the alcohol or drugs…And I still love him…When he wakes up, can you guys call me?" She asks meekly.
I nod then cough. "I will Bonnie, don't worry."
She smiles, walks over and hugs me. I hug her back; she pulls back and smiles before leaving the room.
I was scared at first that Bonnie hated me or my brother or all of us. I just hope when Jeremy wakes up her mom lets Bonnie see him. He will want to see her. As much as it took me by shock at first, they are good together and I like seeing my brother happy and if the past few days taught me anything, is that life is short and I almost lost my brother so if something makes him happy, he will get it. I hope me and Bonnie can still hang out as well, we haven't lately but I would like the option. Hopefully her mom will calm down overtime.
"Her mom is a bitch." Damon scrunches his nose.
"She didn't use to be…..She must be really mad…." I look down.
"Elena, don't listen to a word she said." Grayson looks deeply in my eyes, trying to assure me.
"I know…It shouldn't have affected me so much. I get it at school sometimes but it's just that….I have known her for so long and just because my brother made a mistake she…Speaks the truth."
"Elena no-"
"I know I am not a slut….But I am not going to ignore that fact I shouldn't have gotten pregnant at that age." They both smile sympathetically before my dad plops back down in the chair, very tense. God if things weren't already stressful add that to the mix. We all find chairs and try to wind down after that.
"Thanks for sticking up for me." I whisper to Damon.
He smiles. "Anytime babe."
I smile back and lean my head on his shoulder.
We spend time talking and watching over Jeremy. The doctors and nurses come in a few times to check on him and are still pretty adamant on him waking up, it is just all based on when his body wants to, maybe it's not done healing. Damon and my dad seem to be getting along great; ever since my hospital stay I can't help but see them closer. I like it though.
When I became pregnant and Damon was first in my life I thought 'crap', this is going to be an awkward 18 years. With all the birthday parties and family events we will all see each other at. I thought it would be hell to be honest. But hell has turned into heaven and given me Damon. If someone told me a year ago I would be madly in love with him and wanting to spend my life with him I would laugh, but I wouldn't want it any other way.
Damon sighs next to me. "We need to get going…"
Grayson is confused before understanding. "OH right, the appointment. I wanted to go to this one, haven't been in a while but I-"
"Dad it is fine. It's just a checkup." I wave him off.
"Yeah" He breathes out sadly. "Well let me know how it goes." He tries to smile but it doesn't reach his eyes.
I stand up and nod. "Will do."
With interlocked hands we make our way out of the hospital and into his car to head to the clinic.
I sigh and let my head fall to my head rest. "God I hope all this drama ends soon. Being pregnant at this age is enough." I laugh softly.
He smiles in understanding. "Yeah, I hear ya there." He chuckles and starts the car.
We arrive at the clinic and I am trying my best to let go of all the negativity surrounding me right now and focus on one thing. The heart beat I am about to hear again. I need to let myself my happy once in a while.
We sit down, waiting to be called when my phone starts buzzing. I annoyingly pull it out to see it's my dad and quickly answer.
"Dad?"
Damon next to me is intensively watching my face for reaction.
"Calm down Elena, everything is fine." My dad assures. "I just wanted to let you know when you go home tonight, don't go alone."
My brow furrows, Damon next to me is getting more confused and antsy by the second. "Dad, what do you mean?"
"I mean, have Damon spend the night or something. I don't want you home alone. Not when you're pregnant and not with all the drama around. I don't care what house you sleep at but I want someone with you. And I know I can't believe I am willingly putting you two alone at night but, it's what is best." He breathes out. "So you okay with that?"
"Yeah, that is fine." I tell him and refrain myself from telling him Damon spent the night last night.
"Thanks cupcake. I just….Wanted to take precautions and I know this is a hard time and I…..Didn't want you being alone with that." He says quietly
"I get it dad. I will call afterwards and let you know how she is, and when I go back to the hospital tomorrow I will take you some pictures." I hope to get his mood up.
He lets out a small chuckle. "That would be great. And I know you two are dating now but please if anything happens. I do not want to know."
"Oh god dad." I groan and put my hand over my head, totally grossed out. "Just stop." I groan.
I can see Damon next to me, his brows furrowing, trying to make out the conversation.
My dad laughs. "Bye Elena."
I laugh and put my phone away. Damon is next to me, bursting with curiosity. I roll my eyes.
"Everything is fine he was just saying he didn't want me alone so he was hoping you would stay the night or I would stay at your place…." I tell him but when he doesn't answer I back track. "If that is okay with you" I rant.
He scoffs. "Do you think I'll pass up a night with you? Ha, funny."
I blush and turn away.
"Elena Gilbert!" A nurse calls at the door.
We both get up and head back. They take my height, weight then bring me back to a room where the nurses question me about my past few weeks, how my eating has been before they leave to bring the doctor in, followed by the ultrasound tech.
I sigh against the doctor's bed.
"Nervous?" Damon asks.
"No." I shake my head. "Just stressed."
"Hey you two!" Dr. Klein greets us.
He sits on his seat. "So how are things going?"
I nod my head. "Pregnancy wise good."
"I heard about your brother…I am sorry. Just make sure Elena to not be overly stressed that can cause stress on the baby and sometimes miscarriages" He informs. "But only in extreme cases!" He assures us.
But I can tell Damon looks ill after hearing that. Don't blame him, but it's not like I can turn off stress if my brother is in a coma."
I will be stressed. If I am pregnant and have no clue what I am going to do with my future yeah I will be stressed. I just need to learn how to handle it more.
"Things than can help to calm you are spas, reading, a hobby you love. I think it is really important for you. Since I have seen you, you always loose stressed or have something going on. Do you think you can work on that?"
His words almost sound stupid to me. "Of course, I will try those things." I nod vigorously.
Damon looks happy with my answer at least.
"Okay, I will bring in our tech and you will see the little one again. This checkup is just routine visit. Around this time we like to check for birth defects or abnormalities, because this is when they would show up."
Both Damon and I tense up.
He leaves the room, leaving us alone with silence. I am pretty sure she will be okay; I mean she kicks and seems healthy. Not to mention on neither side of me or Damon's family has a lot of medical issues. But of course the worry is always there.
A few minutes later the door opens revealing the tech. "Hello." she shakes our hands. "I am Laura, I will be the tech today." She smiles before getting things ready.
"Pull your shirt up please."
I nod and pull it up. She sticks the warm gooey device on my round belly. She moves it around a little before I hear the heartbeat.
Me and Damon both simultaneously look at each other and with brig grins. It always makes our day. There is always a chance for bad things happening and we know that, that is why when we hear that glorious sound it is literally music to our ears.
"There she is. Definitely still a girl if you were worried about that…" She trails off still looking around. "Amniotic sack looks fine. Good amount of fluid in there."
She takes more pictures; I look over at Damon who seems like me, he is in a trance. I smile and look back at our baby.
"Oooh she is moving around a lot" Laura smiles. "Definitely awake and making herself known" We laugh.
"She is pretty big for her gestation; we will keep a close eye on that. And I am sure DR. Klein will talk to you about it" She assures.
"In my family all of us were born 8lbs or more" Damon tells her.
She nods. "Explains it"
She shows us where the arms and head are. We all share a laugh when she starts kicking more and sucking her thumb. Reminds me of her dad, when people are watching she shows off. Typical.
"So I took pictures. When Dr. Klein comes in he will have them and tell you what I told you, that she is perfectly healthy." She smiles, starting to turn off things. We tell her how many copies we need and we are left waiting for the Dr.
I rub my belly, always so in tuned with her after an ultrasound.
"So here are the pictures." DR. Klein says when he enters the room. "I am sure Laura told you she is perfectly healthy and big!" He laughs.
"Will that be a problem?" I ask nervously as he hands Damon the ultrasound copies.
"It might." He says honestly. "You are small and young. Which in itself is a risk but adding a larger baby will of course raise it. If she keeps growing like she is, we will need to do a c section. She might even possibly come earlier than you all think. A lot of times they are full grown a lot earlier and run out of room. I don't know if that will happen to you but it's a possibility."
Damon next to me lets out a strained breath. Tell me about it.
I don't care what they do or when I go into labor, I know that sounds weird but all I want and need is her to be healthy.
"But you will monitor that right." Damon asks uneasily.
DR. Klein nods quickly. "Oh yes! Don't worry. Big babies are only an issue with the actual birth. Be lucky you are having a big baby, preemies are a lot more difficult and it can get scary. Parents wish for a baby like this. I mean they come early, usually no health concerns. It is a parents dream" He laughs.
Me and Damon share a relieved laugh.
"I should see you in a few weeks. Schedule that with the receptionist and good luck to your brother and try to relax more. You are carrying a baby; she will feel when you are stressed." Dr. Klein smiles before exiting the room.
Me and Damon think about that a little before we make our way out of the clinic.
"I am getting you a membership to a spa." Damon jokes.
"Sounds nice." I laugh with him.
"So, home?" He asks.
"Let's go to your house. Helen will want to see the pictures."
He smiles at my words before starting the car.
I bring out my phone and call my dad, he answers on the last ring.
"Hey" He says groggily.
"Did I wake you up?" I bite my lip.
"Yeah, it is fine. How was the doctor?"
I tell him about the appointment and how she is bigger she will be and how we might be meeting her sooner than we all think. He seems excited at this news but I can still tell he is worrying about Jeremy.
"That is great 'Lena. Oh a doctor is coming in right now go to go." He says before he hangs up.
I sigh and put my phone away.
"Everything alright?" Damon asks, concerned.
I nod. "Yeah."
I know he doesn't buy it, but he knows not to push right now.
We arrive at his house and I feel my excitement come back. Helen will be excited to see the photos. We head into the house and can smell the dinner wafting through the house. I hold back a moan from just smelling the aroma.
"Helen we bring pictures!" I greet as I enter the kitchen.
"Ooohhh!" She widens her eyes and waits impatiently to see them.
I look to Damon who hands them to her.
"Oh my!" She tears up. "She is getting so big!"
"A little too big." I half joke.
"Yeah…Doctor said if she keeps this up, Elena's body might not be big enough and they will have to do a C-section." Damon informs her.
"Damn Salvatore genes." Helen shakes her head. "You can thank Giuseppe's family line for that." She laughs, still looking at the pictures in awe.
"Mom?" Damon starts. "Do you mind if Elena spends the night? Her dad doesn't want her alone…."
"Sure!" She smiles. "I will set up a room."
I cough and Damon laughs. "Mom….No…Just no…It's fine." He tries to contain his laughs.
She slaps him up the head. "Be a gentleman."
I laugh and Damon glares at me. I shake my head, walking around the island and nibbling on some crackers and dip.
"Mhmm" I moan. "So good."
Damon smirks walking towards me, like gravity. I smile as he wraps his arms around my waist. I lean into him and his muscular form. My home. It is so strange how someone's arms or just their presence can calm and comfort you.
"Awe aren't you two just adorable." Helen's eyes glisten with something unknown.
I smile wrapping my arms around Damon as well. "Mom." Damon complains. She just laughs and goes back to cooking. Damon kisses his way down my head and neck then goes to my ear. "Wanna go up to our room?" He says huskily.
I smile against his chest before nodding.
We quietly leave the kitchen and go to his room. I run and plop on the bed, kicking off my shoes in the process. God I love his bed. He smiles as I spread out on the bed before joining me.
I crawl across the huge king sized mattress and curl up into his chest. "Damon." I whisper.
"Yeah?"
"Can I ask you a serious question?" I play with his shirt nervously.
He nods. And I can tell he is scared, always having that worry for the worst in his head.
"Do you think we will last…And that our daughter will have both her mom and her dad?" I ask softly.
He lets out a shaky breath and pulls me tighter. "Elena." He starts. "I am being honest, and you won't get this out of me often" He warns and I nod with my head now turned so I can look at him. "I will never love anyone else. It is just a simple fact. You were my first crush in elementary at recess. It is just simple math that I physically will never stop loving you…..I can't say the same for you but that is how I feel." He kisses my head.
He is completely out in the open and vulnerable but looking in his eyes I have never seen him happier. He is right. I won't get feelings from him like that often but I loved it. I knew in my heart I could love this man for as long as I live. I know a lot of people would just say I am naïve or young and that may be true but even then I couldn't stop loving him. Ever.
I smile a deep genuine smile full of relief before I kiss him hard. He tries to deepen it but I want to say it back to him. "I am the same Damon….I have never felt this strongly about someone before or that it was possible….Maybe in the crazy movies Caroline shows me….But when I fell in love with you it deeply scared me. And only because I knew then and there I could never stop loving you as long as I live." I breathe out.
I see the relief in his face.
And I can see the exact moment my words hit him.
He believes me.
"And most of all I am glad our daughter will have both parents who love her. This could have ended horribly with a custody battle and all but it didn't….." I say in amazement with tears in my eyes.
I look at Damon again and I can tell he is physically and mentally speechless. He doesn't know what to say but I can tell he loved it. That he loves me.
I smile and go back lying against his chest. I feel his hands playing with my waistline before rubbing my prominent bump.
"I love you." He chokes out in a whisper.
That is all I need.
"I love you too."
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