I didn't know
One touch could open
My body and soul
And we've just begun
Like the moon and sun
We fade to one
Love is a state of grace
Transcending time and space
No other way I can describe
Insanely beautiful
It's almost mystical
Cause you're mine
"Want me to carry your things in or…." Damon prods me.
We have been sitting outside my house for a few minutes but I can't bring myself to get out.
"How about this." Damon starts. "We go in there. See how things are and how they go and if they go badly you can stay with me, drama free hotel….All alone." He promises.
I nod, letting out a deep breath. That does make me feel better.
"Okay." I smile, finally getting out of the car.
He grabs my bags for me and before I know it we are walking up to my front door. I tell myself to be open to Andie. To be nice and give her a chance. I want my dad to be happy. I know I am with Damon so I want the same for him, especially after he lost someone he loves and thought he would spend his whole life with.
I open the door hesitantly making my way through the almost unfamiliar house. Everyone is in the living room including Jeremy. Odd. I look to Damon for support who nods. I grab his hand and he squeezes it as we make our way into the living room.
My dad turns the TV off and smiles. "Elena…"
I smile sheepishly before Damon leads me to the chair. I sit on his lap.
"How was your weekend?" My dad asks nicely.
"Good." I breathe out. "I needed a break…Sorry…"
"Take your time Elena…" My dad says softly. "I didn't think it through the impact it would have on you, not to mention what you are already going through. Just take your time." He smiles then looks to Damon. "And if you ever want to spend a night at Damon's to get away you can."
Me and Damon both cough awkwardly. "He doesn't really have a home….well not right now anyway…"
My dad raises his eyebrow, confused.
I groan a little. This week has really sucked for me and Damon. "He got in a fight with his parents as well…." I rub my hands nervously over my jeans.
"Well Damon you are more than welcome to stay here." My dad voices with sincerity.
Damon is quiet for a bit, thinking it over. "Are you sure…I was going to stay in a hotel…"
"Damon it's not like you are going to sleep on the couch because I don't trust you with my daughter. I do. You can sleep in her bed with her, before I probably wouldn't have allowed it but hell what more can happen." He smiles.
Damon nods. "Okay…I am going to swing by my parents place and get a few things…" He tries to say nonchalantly but I can hear the distaste in his voice.
"Want me to come..?" I ask quietly, rubbing his arm.
"No…I don't know how bad it could get in there. Unpack your things and I will be back." He kisses my head. "Thanks Gray." Damon says genuinely.
My dad nods and then Damon is out the door.
There is a little bit of uncomfortable silence once my boyfriend is gone but my dad soon covers it. "So Elena again, this is Andie. Andie Starr. You might recognize her from the news channel."
I nod and force myself a smile. "I do. Nice to meet you."
"Thanks you too!" She says in a high voice and I get those alarm bells again in my head but ignore them.
She seems super nice and she is so pretty. But I get that weird vibe from her. But this time I push it aside. I am going to do what makes my dad happy. I got pregnant and dated the towns' bad boy so I think I can get use to that fact of my dad dating a news reporter. Hopefully.
"Elena how about we get started on breakfast together?" My dad asks looking between me and Andie.
I nod, smiling. "Sure."
We all get up and head to the kitchen. Andie hasn't said a word to me yet. She is like Velcro to my dad, hanging onto him constantly like a vine. I shake off the irritation and get some eggs out of the fridge.
"Elena you do the eggs. Andie you do the toast and I will do the pancakes." He smiles.
We both nod and start our job. There is a little bit of tension in the room but I hope to get to know Andie. My dad isn't the type to just date he is a very passionate guy so he must love her and what if one day he marries her? Elena wants to have a good relationship with her. So she will try.
A phone ringing snaps everyone's heads around trying to find the sound. My dad darts his head around before turning off the burner next to me and getting the phone from his jacket pocket.
I hear a lot of 'Mhmms' and 'Yeah's' before he snaps his phone shut turning to us. "I have to run to my office real quick…." He trails off looking at the two of us. "Can I leave you two alone."
"Of course dad." I smile while still whipping the eggs around. "We can…bond." I look over to Andie and smile and she puts on her best smile.
He grins, happy with what is happening. "Okay. I should be back soon." He waves to us before I hear the familiar sound of the front door shutting.
I feel a little bit of awkward tension in the room but I am about to change it. "So Andie….What are your-"
"Let's get one thing straight Elena….I don't like you." She drops the knife she was using to butter the toast to turn and glare at me. "And I am pretty sure you don't like me either so drop the act."
I stand there stunned for a second. What just happened?
"I mean…we got off to a wrong start but I am trying-" My voice gives a little.
"Well don't." She snaps.
I feel my eyes starting to burn with fresh tears and my stomach being tied in a knot. What in the hell am I supposed to do with this? Do I tell my dad? Try to work it out? I really wanted to get to know her for my dad because I know he likes her and now I feel sick….
"Why?" I whisper. "What did I do?"
"Let me see…You have your dad wrapped around your little finger when it should be around mine. You are a brat who obviously got herself pregnant in high school by a man you didn't even know, from what your dad told me. Wow Elena…Great job." She sneers.
"But I still don't get it! None of those things have anything to do with you?" I raise my voice starting to feel anger in the pit of my stomach.
"Let me make this clear…Your dad is mine. And all he does is go on about you and your stupid bastard child. Do me a favor and move in with that boyfriend of yours." She smiles wickedly before resuming herself to the toast like nothing happened.
Oh my god.
I cover my hand to my mouth to stop the sob.
It is literally my worst nightmare. Just when I get over the idea that my mom and my dad will never be together again and that I should let my dad be happy he dates this. I feel sorry for my mom but most of all my dad….I am pretty sure he doesn't know she is like this. My dad is a pretty humble guy and this thing is the total opposite of him. I want to tell him so bad but I also don't want to ruin the little bit of happiness he has felt since my mom died.
After my mom died he used all his energy on my and Jeremy. He didn't do anything for himself for years until now. It was all for us and what he could do or buy or help with. He was alone for so long and I never really saw it because I was so selfish and dealing with her death in my own way but I see it now and I just want him to be happy. That is all I want.
I race to the bathroom to throw up all those thoughts and feelings that made me sick because I need to forget about them. I have to try.
For my dad.
Damon POV
I just left Elena's house and now out in my car banging my hands against the steering wheel. I so fucking do not want to see them. I know I have to but I don't want to. I love them deep down I do. I have so much respect for my mom. But there is a lot of deep shit I have to deal with before I can go on acting all 'Brady Bunch' with them.
I just need to get this over with.
I turn my car on and head down the street. I really need to get this over with and not just because I want to and I don't want to be around them but because Elena still is having a hard time with Andie and that whole situation and I just fucking left her with them. I need to hurry.
Fuck I want her to be here with me. Hell she offered to come but I have no idea how this will go down and if it does go down badly I don't want her around that. She has had enough stress this pregnancy that I have permanent stress from it alone.
I arrive at my house and head through the front door. I listen for them, having no clue where they are. I hear sounds and voices in the kitchen so everyone must be eating breakfast. I quickly go up the stairs to my room getting my huge duffle bag from the closet and throwing everything in there. I grab my bathroom crap as well because I love how Elena smells like vanilla and strawberries I do. But there is no way I will smell like that. After I pack as many things that can fit I carry it downstairs. I try to sneak out the front door but of course my timing is fucking fantastic because at that precise moment My mom and dad come walking out of the kitchen.
I drop my bag in defeat and groan.
"Damon." My mom almost sings and acts like she is going to hug me but thinks better.
"Look I just came to get some stuff." I gesture to my bag.
"Where are you staying?" My dad crosses his arms.
"With my girlfriend." I glare.
"Look boy-" My dad starts but I have had enough and cut him off.
"I am not a boy! And all I want to do is get out of here to cool down and maybe salvage what we have left but you guys will hardly let me do that!" I yell.
"Damon….We love you and we don't want you out of our lives. If time is what you need that is fine…but-"
"You guys yell at me for everything while I am here! I can do fucking nothing right. So I can't even imagine what would happen if I brought my daughter over here…" I grimace. "She nor Elena needs to be around that and neither do I." I gather steam and try to pick up my bag again so I can get the hell out of here.
"Damon, please before you go can you promise me that we will see you again?" My mom cries. "that we can be in your life? I love you so much and I am sorry for all the pain I caused you but I would never hurt you on purpose, I love you…"
I smile painfully. "I know. But you aren't the main issue." I glance back at my dad who is looking away but I can see some guilt on his old face.
Good.
She nods sadly and my heart breaks for my mom so I drop my bag once again to hold her in my arms. "Mom I love you too. I do. And we can try to work this out…Things will need to change but we can try. I am not opposed to that. But for right now I just need some time." I rub her bad as she cries into my shoulder and fuck this is painful.
I can feel her nod against me before she pulls away. "Okay. Things will change. I will make sure of it. I love you Damon and I can't wait to meet your daughter…I know you will be a great father." She smiles.
I feel a sense of relief and hope from her words. Maybe I will be. I know damn well I will try to be. Since I found out I was going to be a dad my life has flipped around completely but weirdly in a good way. I know guys who knocked girls up and they would pay for the abortion or just leave them but I physically couldn't find it in me to do that to Elena or my daughter. I don't know what that makes me but I just know that since my daughter and Elena has come into my life I think differently. They are everything to me.
"Thanks." I choke out.
My dad nods and I nod back. Maybe just maybe I can forgive him one day, we have the potential of it but right now I don't want to be near him.
I grab my bag and I am finally out the door. Comfort wise I would rather stay in a hotel but who am I to pass up sleeping next to my girlfriend? Whenever I do I sleep so well. I put my duffle bag in the trunk and I am on my way back to my girlfriend who I hope is getting along with everyone because this week has fucking sucked.
Elena POV
I am just wiping my mouth after throwing up when I hear a knock then Damon's voice calling for me. I inwardly curse and quickly clean up. But I am too late, Damon opens the bathroom door right when I am about to flush.
"Elena-"
"I know…" I groan before I close the lid and flush it all down. I move around him to get my tooth brush and start brushing my teeth.
"You okay…?"
I shake my head because in honest to god I am not okay right now. I am trying with all my might to be okay with Andie but I have come to the conclusion that the only way I can be okay with her is to not be near her. Which is hard when I live here.
"What's wrong?" Damon asks curiously, leaning in the doorway.
I spit into the sink and rinse my mouth out before turning to him. "Everything." I choke out.
"Baby…" He grabs me and wraps me up in his arms and rubs my back. I cry into his chest and I try not to but god I am a wreck right now. "Tell me…" He whispers in my ear.
"It's bad." My voice quivers. "No one will probably believe me…" I cry even harder at the realization.
"I will. I will always believe you." He vows seriously. "Come on tell me…."
"Andie….She….She is evil Damon!" I say with pure venom. "She is evil and conniving… I don't know why she is with my dad but it isn't good and she….she said bad things about our kid… and…" I cry more into him.
"Shit." He curses while still rubbing my back.
"I just want my dad to be happy." I hiccup from crying so much. "Seriously Damon that is all I want. But this…I don't know whether to tell him or not…" I stress.
He moves a hand from my waist and rubs it through his hair. His nervous habit. "Well let's wait it out okay? Elena I completely believe you but let's just give it another week or two and see how they are and if she says anything else to you okay?"
I nod, liking his reasoning.
He kisses my forehead before grabbing my hand. "So I saw her making breakfast. Where is your dad?"
"We were all making breakfast together but he had to run to his office real quick so it was just us…" I cringe.
He pecks me on the lips slowly, giving me a sign of comfort. "I will be there." He smiles before leading me back out there.
When we go back out there Andie is leaning against the counter and looks relieved when we show up. "Thank god. You two do this. I don't want to cook." She waves off before going down the hall and climbing the stairs.
I sigh.
"Wow." Damon says casually.
"Yeah."
I know Damon is scrutinizing my face, knowing I am having a hard time dealing with this. He looks around to see what we accomplished so far which is a few pieces of toast and pancake batter almost made. I didn't even start on the eggs yet. Damon can see breakfast is nearing the disaster level and leaves my side.
"I will make the eggs and you….Do you know how to make pancakes?" He asks hesitantly.
"Yeah." I nod making my way where my dad was.
"Okay you do that and ill cover the eggs and toast." Damon smiles.
I can tell he is trying to fix this hellish nightmare and I admire his effort but I can already tell it will be one awkward breakfast.
"So how did your parents go?" I ask conversationally while pouring some batter into the pan. I am a little scared of his answer because god I love Helena and Giuseppe.
"Could have gone worse... Made my mom cry….But I managed to get my things so that is good." He shrugs optimistically but I can tell it is a heavy burden on him. I don't care what Damon says but he is family oriented and love his mom and dad. There is a lot of crap between all of them but he loves them and I hope they can work through it. I believe they can.
"Everything will work itself out….It has too." I say firmly while flipping a pancake.
He looks over from the eggs and smiles at me. No smirk, no sexual innuendo just a pure loving and prideful smile that makes me blush and turn back to the pancakes.
Me and Damon manage to save breakfast having cooked a large portion of eggs, toast and pancakes. We get some juice out and milk, putting it all out on the table.
Just in time my dad walks through the door and races to the kitchen. "Sorry! Took longer than I thought…Oooh smells good!" He looks over the table at all the goods me and Damon cooked up before looking around the kitchen. "Where is Andie?"
"She uhhh….." I trail off not knowing what to say.
"Hey baby!" Andie walks up behind him and my dad immediately smiles and gives her a quick kiss. Over his shoulder she gives me a small scowl but I ignore it. I will not go down to her level…Which is trash. "I was just running upstairs to go to the bathroom but we all worked together to make breakfast!" She gleams.
Me and Damon roll our eyes. I feel his hand rubbing my back to calm me because I am sure he knows I want to slap her right now.
"I am so glad. Well I am starving, let's eat!"
We all take seats sitting down around the table. There is a bit of awkward silence but if you think for one moment I'll try again for Andie you are sorely mistaken. So let it be awkward.
"So Elena I was thinking, I haven't been able to spend much time with you lately and I miss you….Do you want to do something this weekend?" He asks conversationally while eating.
Before I can say a word Andie stops me. "But babbyyyy…I thought we were going to the beach?" She pouts.
I look away and shake my head. I need to get control over myself because I am about to fly across the table and smack her. Now I can't even spend time with my dad? ignoring I can do but when she tries to get in the middle of me and my dad's relationship….that is pushing it.
Damon grabs my hand underneath the table and squeezes it.
"Oh that's right….Elena will be busy with Damon anyway." My dad jokes.
"Yeah Elena we can do something amazing." Damon winks.
I nod numbly and continue eating.
I am so thankful when breakfast is over and me and Damon head upstairs to get away from everything. My dad was willing to do the dishes since we all cooked. Well not all of us.
We get up to my room and I immediately head for my bed which I plop down on and throw my pillow over my head.
I feel the bed dip from Damon's body and then I feel him rubbing my stomach in soft massaging motions. I moan into the pillow at what his amazing hands can do.
"I know you are being dealt with a shitty hand of fate right now but me and Beatrice are here for you." He says seriously but I can hear a hint of humor in his voice.
I throw the pillow off my head and glare at him. "Who is Beatrice." I say it like it's a dirty word.
He chuckles a little before answering. "Her." He rubs my stomach indicating he is talking about our daughter.
I shove his hands away. "What the hell are you on? We are not naming our daughter that." I swear with conviction.
He lets out a loud laugh, rolling around on the bed before crawling up next to me and wrapping me in his big arms. I struggle, still a little mad he would he suggest a thing.
"Babe I am kidding." He laughs into my hair. "Trust me I would never name her that but it got you to smile." He tickles me a little and kisses me on the cheek.
I moan and relax into his arms. "Thank god."
"But I do want to name her soon. I mean we can't call her 'baby' forever." He points out.
"Yeah I would like that." I kiss his chest. "I kind of want her name to have Italian root…..Is that weird?"
"Not at all. But are you sure?" He asks as he continues to rub my back.
"I am. I really like how immersed you guys are all into your culture. My family never was and I want her to have that part of you. Plus I might have googled Italian girl names and I really love them." I laugh sheepishly into his shoulder.
"Come up with anything?"
"Mhmm." I trace the outline of his muscles.
"Tell me." He whispers huskily into my ear.
"Well I narrowed it down to three names…." I trail off.
"And…?" Damon prods, getting impatient.
"If you don't like any of them just let me know but…."Danielle, Ellie and Cara."
I feel Damon tense up in my arms and I get worried for a second, scared I threw him off but he quickly kisses me all over before slowly reaching down to my round belly.
"I fucking love the name Cara." He kisses my belly with so much love.
"I do too." I kiss his head and laugh because that is the name I was leaning toward.
"Do you know what the Italian meaning for Cara is?" Damon asks softly while still caressing my stomach.
I shake my head because to be honest that name just drew me in and I thought it sounded beautiful but now I am kicking myself in the butt for not looking up the meaning.
"Amato." Damon rolls his tongue with perfect Italian that makes me want to jump him right now. "Beloved." He says after a few moments. "Cara in Italian means beloved." He smiles before resting his head lightly on my belly.
I feel tears surface at how even more perfect it sounds. I couldn't imagine naming her anything else now. Almost like that name belongs to her.
"I love it." I whisper.
"Me too." He kisses my round belly again.
"Cara Salvatore." I let the words roll of my tongue, loving how perfect it sounds.
Damon looks up at me with pride and love like he always does whenever I say she will have his last name. He never asked for it but I know it is important to him. It is important to me too, to have her father's last name. I want that.
"Cara Miranda Salvatore." Damon corrects.
I feel tears surface but let them free. I wrap my arms around him, holding him as tight as I possibly can because I love this man more than life. He is the only person that can know what I am feeling without asking. He is the only person that doesn't try to fix things but instead just comforts me which is what I need. He is the only person that drives me insane and crazy at the same time but I still end up loving him.
"It is perfect. All perfect." I cry into him.
"I know."
It feels like a whole other chapter now opening. This whole thing is becoming more real but instead of it scaring me. I am welcoming it.
28 weeks and 5 days pregnant
Tuesday March 15th
It has been about a week since the whole Andie thing and she doesn't say much to me. We kind of have this silent understanding to not talk to one another. Though I am thinking about telling Jeremy soon what happened because it is eating away at me.
I have just entered my third trimester and it is crazy how time flies. My bump is definitely a pregnancy bump and with the Salvatore genes it is almost like 2-3 weeks ahead of time. I swear Cara will be born at 9 pounds. Which I definitely am not looking forward to.
Damon is still staying with me for now but I see his resolve getting weaker and weaker by the day. He misses them. Family can be horrible to you at times but in the end they are your family. I give it another week or two before he goes over and talks to them. Though living together in my small room surrounded by baby things is driving me and Damon over the edge. We aren't fighting per say just….Irritated and enclosed. So we try to get privacy as much as we can and go out and do things. Mainly we just go to our place which is the falls. I can't wait to take Cara there; it has definitely grown on me and is my favorite spot in town.
I just can't erase the anxiety I am constantly having now since I found out Andie was a grade A bitch. I want my dad to know so he can know what he is dealing with but on the other hand, he seems really happy with her and I would feel horrible to take that away since he hasn't been too happy since mom died.
It is a mess.
Damon is in the shower and I am about to put my books into my bag when my phone rings. I grab it from my dresser and answer it.
"Hello?" I ask, not looking at the caller ID.
"Elena. I need you to get over here right now." Caroline panics.
Alarm bells go off around me. "What why? What are you talking about? School is about to start."
"Elena I am not kidding get over here." She says before the line goes dead.
Shit.
I walk into the bathroom right when Damon steps out of the shower with just a towel on. I look away because I know we can't do anything. No reason to cause more pain to myself and look.
"I need you to drop me off at Caroline's." I fiddle with the doorframe.
"Why?" He asks immediately suspicious.
I sigh, annoyed. "I don't know. She called me and was freaking out. She will probably drive me to school but we have to go like now. She seemed really scared."
He sighs, obviously not liking the agreement but nods.
He dresses quickly and we are out the door.
I look around the driveway and see my dad's car is missing. I have hardly seen him since being back at my house. He is either with Andie or working. And I know for a fact this is Andies plan. No one is that busy around the time I get home. My dad keeps telling me he wants to see me but it never happens. We haven't even told anyone what we are naming the baby yet. It seems more and more that me and Damon are doing this alone.
But I really wonder what is going on with Caroline. She has never called me in such a panic before. Even when her boyfriends have broken up with her or her parents split. This is a whole new thing and it is kind of worrying me.
"I wonder what is going on with her." I speak my thoughts out loud.
"Yeah she is usually too busy with Stef to notice anything around her." He jokes lightly.
He pulls up to Caroline's house and I see her on the porch chewing her nails nervously but perks but seeing Damon's car.
"Bye. Love you." I kiss him.
He groans but pulls away so I can get out of the door. I wave to him before turning to my best friend. "What's going on?"
She doesn't say anything but pulls me into her house and to her room before we sit on her bed. We both are silent and I can see she is nervous by her fidgeting and silence.
"Caroline…."
"I think I am pregnant." She blurts out.
Oh my god.
I groan rubbing my hands over my eyes. How could this happen? Did she not see my struggle and pain going through this? I thought my pregnancy was practically birth control to people around me. I honestly never saw this coming. I know Damon jokes about it a lot but I honestly never thought this would happen. She is always really careful about this stuff.
"How…I mean…Did you not learn from me?" I stress.
"I know…It was literally just one time… he didn't have a condom with him and you know me I don't want to be on birth control cause I don't want to gain weight….And it was just kind of…the heat of the moment kind of thing you know?" She bites her lip, nervous.
"Shit Caroline…have you taken a test?" I ask while rubbing my temples.
"No, not yet but I am like five days like to my period…And the most I was ever late was two days."
"Oh my god…" I groan again. "Does Stefan…-"
"No." She struggles before she breaks down and cries.
I put my feelings aside and pull my best friend into my arms. She still may not be pregnant but if she is I swear we either have the worst luck or we are plain stupid. Damn Salvatores.
"Caroline, breathe. You still may not be pregnant. So don't freak out yet okay? Let's go buy a test. Come on." I pat her on the leg and stand up. Trying to not show the obvious worry and stress I have going on the inside. Because right now she is probably flipping out and I need to be calm for her.
She wipes her eyes and nods. I grab her and lead her outside to her car. She hands me her keys, obviously not feeling like driving. I feel weird being behind the wheel again. The steering wheel is a lot closer to my belly now. If Damon knew I was driving….
I turn on the car and head down the road. She is still silent, her thoughts probably taking over her completely. I look at the clock and realize school started 20 minutes ago but shake my head. I need this one day for my friend. We have both been busy with our boyfriends and life lately that I need to be here for her. Besides my grades are really good right now, it should all be okay.
I pull into our local pharmacy and we get out and head inside. A lady greets us upon our entrance before we race down to the aid and pregnancy aisle. I still don't get why there are more than ten different pregnancy tests. I am pretty sure one will do the trick.
Caroline bites her lip again looking around at all the different ones. "Which one did you use?" She turns her tear stained and worried face to me. "Cause I know that one is accurate."
I smile and hand her the exact one I used.
Like I would ever forget.
We head to the cashier and once again the weird and judgmental looks start. Caroline pays and the clerk puts it in a bag before we head out.
"Wait." Caroline says. "I want to take it here. I can't wait any longer." She pleads.
I nod. "Okay." We head back inside and to the back where the bathrooms are. She pulls me in with her and I shut and lock the door. She practically rips the box open throwing the useless stuff on the grab and going for the stick. I pick the instructions up making sure things are the same and that we don't mix up the signals.
While I am looking at it I already hear Caroline peeing. Wow she is fast. I can really tell how much this is taking a toll on her. Caroline out of everyone I know should not be a mom right now.
Once she is done she puts the lid on the end of the stick and sets it down, waiting.
I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and peek a quick look at it and it is a text from Damon.
Where are you? You still with Caroline?
Yeah…It is not good. Talk to you later. I quickly send before turning my attention back to Caroline.
"Elena…I am scared." Her voice shakes.
I rub her back soothingly a lot like Damon does to me, because it really calms the nerves. "It will all be okay. I am here."
We wait the remainder of minutes in silence before she out of nowhere hands the stick to me. "You tell me." She covers her mouth with her hands and closes her eyes.
I look at it but it is slowly appearing.
Here we go.
It finally shows completely but I am confused. Two pink lines means you are pregnant and one means you're not but what about when you have a line and a half?
I look at it a bit longer trying to see if I can figure it out but nothing.
"Elena tell me! I am freaking out."
"I am not sure." I tell her honestly.
She comes to stand next to me and looks. "What the fuck."
"I know." We both tilt our heads looking at it in different angles but nothing.
"Should we buy another one?" Caroline panics again.
"No…Call your doctor or the clinic and see when they can get you in, that is really the only way to know."
She nods but I can tell she is still freaking out. I swear something like this would only happen to Caroline. Poor girl is just trying to figure out if her life is going to change forever and she can't even do that.
We head back out to her car and she mutters to me that she will call her doctor right now and get in with him as soon as possible.
"Okay…Thank you." She hangs up with the clinic.
"So..?" I prod.
She sighs. "They said it could be a false positive but I should go in to check. The earliest they had was today at three."
"Hey that is better than nothing!" I try to sound positive.
"Would it be selfish to ask you to stay home and watch the notebook and cry with me?" She turns to me with tears in her eyes again.
"No not at all. I am here Care." I assure her and squeeze her hand.
She lets out a deep breath and nods to me again.
I turn on the car and head back to her house.
Today is going to suck. Plain and simple.
…
We have now watched about three different sad and heartbreaking movies, I don't know why Caroline insists on watching sad movies when she is already said but she has always done this. We have just started 'A walk to remember' when my phone rings and I know instantly who it is.
"Hey." I answer.
Caroline glares at my phone, irritated that it is interrupting her nonstop sad movie and cry session and presses pause on the movie.
"Hey…How is it going? You weren't here all day" Damon asks
"Yeah…Sorry…Caroline is going through a lot right now. I probably won't see you till sometime after five…" I tell him honestly.
"Elena…" He groans.
"I'm sorry…" I pout even though he can't see.
"What is going on? Does it have something to do with Stef?" He asks concerned.
"No…Kinda…I can't tell you and your making it hard." I whine.
"Well your acting weird… I can hear it in your voice." He says with suspicion
I look to Caroline and she shakes her head back and forth in fast motions. "Sorry…But I love you!" I cheer trying to hide my laugh because I know Damon is probably glaring at the phone right now.
"Okay well I will be home and do more of the nursery." He says suspicion still high in his voice. This guy does not like being out of the loop with secret, especially when I am in on them. I always tell him everything.
"Okay, love ya." I hang up before I blurt it out.
I lean my head against the back of the couch and groan. "That was so hard."
"Well we should probably get going…." Caroline fidgets with the blanket.
"Yeah… it is 2:30…" I agree.
We get up and get ready for an appointment that might change Caroline's life forever. And if she is actually pregnant I swear I will hit her or something. I mean how could she still have unprotected sex with me walking around complaining all the time about being pregnant? How?
We make it to the clinic and I hold Caroline's hand as we enter. The girl is practically shaking. She checks in and we sit waiting for her name to be called. I watch her as we are waiting because she is shaking her foot and glancing around. She is really scared. But I see why she called me and not Bonnie. Bonnie is probably the most mature one in our group, well until I got pregnant so I can take that role now but she is pretty wise and has a good head on her shoulders. I mean I scolded Caroline for this already so I can't imagine how bad it would be with Bonnie doing it.
"Caroline Forbes!" The nurse calls.
We both share a look and stand up.
"Can my best friend come?" Caroline almost pleads.
The nurse smiles. "Sure."
I take her hand again as we get led back. The nurse takes her weight and measurement's and before we know it we are left to the silence of the room. You know it is bad when Caroline Forbes doesn't talk a lot.
A few minutes later the doctor opens the door. "Hello." He greets shaking both of our hands. "So I read your chart and you say you're five days late?" He makes sure.
Caroline nods. "Yeah…I am hardly ever late…"
"Okay if you can get changed into this gown I will come back in and perform a vaginal ultrasound to see what we find." Caroline looks scared about what he said is going to happen but nods anyway.
After she gets changed he comes back in, bringing the ultrasound machine with him. "So if you are pregnant we have to do it vaginally for best pictures since it could be very early in the process." He informs.
"Okay." Caroline sounds like a little girl about to go through something she is terrified of and it breaks my heart.
"…And here we go." He enters the object.
I wait for the sound of the heartbeat like I always do with mine but it is silent.
"Hmmm. Well you are defiantly not pregnant." He announces and Caroline lets out a breath of relief which makes me smile. Only one of us should be pregnant at this age. "But…I do see something odd." He trails off as he takes more pics.
Caroline gives me worried look but I flash my best supporting smile.
He then takes the object out of her and switches to a different wand on the same stand and moves her gown out of the way a bit, puts gel on her stomach and moves it around.
After a few moments he is done and is putting everything away. "So…Here is the thing." He looks at her straight. "You are not pregnant but…The chances of you ever getting pregnant are slim to none. You have what we call a 'Septate Uterus'. It is an abnormality of the shaping of the uterus. Having this will make it hard for you to conceive and when you do you will be at higher risk of miscarriage…Though I know some people who can still conceive on it but it will be risky and rare….If you want I can refer you to a specialist?"
Caroline sits up and has the biggest blank stare on her face before I see some tears form. "Um…..Yeah that would be great." Her voice quivers.
"As for your period being late, give it a few more days and if then you still don't have it I want you to really call the referral."
She nods again, trying to keep the tears at bay but is failing. He smiles sympathetically before leaving the room.
Wow.
This appointment went from her maybe being pregnant at a young age to might never being able to carry a baby….
I really feel for her. I have known her for a very long time. We use to play with dolls and play house and pretend to be mommies. Even though I know she wished she wasn't pregnant today I do know that she wanted to be a mom sometime in the future with all her heart. She probably wanted it more than me as a kid.
I stand up without a word and just hug her. Instead of turning away or acting like she is fine which is what I would do, she wraps her arms around me and cries. I rub her all over her back, comforting my friend because this is something she will now fight for her whole life. Something every woman should have the choice to do she might not be able to have that right. And me being pregnant right now really makes me feel even more for her. I know what it is like to see and feel your child growing inside of you. To feel their kicks and movement. For every week you grow your bond with your child. I want that for her.
"It's not fair." She cries into me. "I mean it's not like I want kids now but….What if in the future… And Stefan?! Oh my god he will not want to be with me." She cries harder into me.
"Caroline, that guy loves you so much. I remember when you were dating him and before I was dating Damon I would see you two together and have pure envy. The connection you two have…I honestly don't get and make me nausea's at times. But I silently wished I would find me someone who loved me as much as he loves you. Caroline I know he will stick by you. And if he doesn't Damon will kick his ass and when I deliver Cara I can kick his ass as well." I joke lightly.
She lifts her head up looking at me funny and I look around wondering what is going on. "You named her?" She gasps.
"Oh crap…I said that out loud…Sorry it is becoming a habit and-" She shakes her and wraps her arms around me tightly. "I love it! And I am proud of you….Thank you for being here with me." She whispers quietly into my hair.
I nod against her. "Always Caroline."
…..
We are in her car just sitting in silence. Because I know Caroline needs some time to sort this out and think it over.
"Well….can you just take me to my house?" She breaks the silence.
"Okay, let me just call Damon to meet me there." I tell her because I don't have a ride.
I grab my phone from my pocket and quickly dial Damon's number. He answers on the first ring, as always.
"Hey babe." He says into the phone and I can hear the smile on his face which makes me all warm inside.
"Hey…So me and Caroline are….done. And I was wondering if you can meet me at her house in five….."
"Yeah, of course." He says and I can tell he hears how emotionally stressed I am and will try to pry it out of me and honestly I don't know if I can keep it a secret from him for long. He will use dirty tricks on me. But I will try my best.
"Okay, see you soon. Love you."
"Love you more." I can practically hear the freaking smirk before he disconnects the call.
I roll my eyes, shoving my phone back into my pocket and starting the car. I know Caroline wants to be alone and will probably call Stefan. But I still feel extremely bad for her and I hope she can find a way around this….
I pull into her driveway a few minutes later and my boyfriend is already there, leaning against his car. Crap, I didn't think he would get here so fast. Now he will see me driving….
I park the car and before I can even open my door Damon is opening it for me and helping me stand up. He gives me a quick but passionate hug before wrapping his arm around my waist and glaring at Caroline. "You let Elena drive?" Accusation in his tone.
She glares back, crossing her arms. "Shut up Damon she is pregnant not impaired."
I look up at my boyfriend widening my eyes, hopefully he gets the hint to lay off Caroline.
He sighs, letting out a big breath. "Okay well…." He trails off in the awkward silence.
"See you later Care…..And call Stefan." I tell her pointedly because I know she might distance herself now with this news, at least I know I would. But with Caroline you never know.
She nods and smiles at me. "Thanks Elena! Love ya." She blows me a kiss before making her way in her house.
Damon grabs me hand as we walk to the car and directs me to the passenger side with a weird look on his face that I think says 'this is the side of the car you should be on'. Men.
"So how did…it go?" Damon asks as we make it out of her driveway.
"Horrible." I grumble.
"What happened?" Damon says nonchalantly but I can hear the curiosity. He doesn't like Caroline much but I know he respects her because she is my friend but also his brothers girlfriend.
"I can't tell you…Stefan should know first." I sigh looking out the window.
"She's not pregnant is she?" Damon groans.
"Not per say…."
"Elena…" Damon warns.
"I can't tell you!" I shout in frustration.
"I just need to know for my brothers sake that he did not just become the second person in this family to knock someone up in high school." Damon assures.
"No she isn't pregnant…But she thought she was…" I give up and explain to him.
Damon is silent for a few moments his hard eyes on the road thinking it over. "Fucker…It is like I need to brand a condom on his god damn-" He rants before I cut him off.
"It's fine now and Caroline said it was just one time they forgot….But it is…fine now."
"Something else go wrong too?" He exasperates.
"Yeah and it is not good…But it doesn't really have anything to do with Stefan more with her."
Damon nods and I can see the relief in his face that his brother is in the clear. He loves his brother. I actually really value the relationship they have. It is a unique one but I enjoy seeing it. He hasn't been able to talk to Stefan as much the past week but he still loves him.
We pull into my driveway and thank god both Andie and my dad are at work. I am emotionally exhausted and I just need to lie down because I am having shooting pains in my stomach and back that are kind of scaring me. But I am sure I am fine. This baby is big so my body has to adjust almost every day now.
We walk upstairs to basically our room now and we both plop down on the bed. I groan a little from the pain in my back and try to get re adjusted.
"You okay?" Damon notices.
"Yeah." I sigh. "Just my back again." I blow out a long breath.
Damon quickly sits but and between my legs before with a very serious face he starts massaging my sides and stomach.
"Screw your dads business." I moan. "You need to become a masseuse."
"Only for you baby." He winks which makes me blush.
But I can't get over these sharp pains I am getting all over my back and stomach. I hope everything is okay.
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Long wait i am so sorry! Been busy and took a little break which in the end did me good because i wrote ALOT after that. And here you guys have a 9k ish update. Love ya hahaha.
Basically from here on out it is batshit crazy. Literally.
***Spoiler: Elena is starting to get very tired with her pregnancy and... cough
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