That was two years ago.
Edward Cullen treated me like a contagious disease shortly after our meeting. I saw him once or twice around town with friends where he acted like a… a dick; smoking some sort of substance that clearly looked illegal, treating people like sweet Angela Webber like the dirt under his shoe and the worst one that broke my heart: some girl draped over him.
I understood why he would be interested in those girls, they were beautiful. But if he could get girls like all of the Denali sisters; why you he even glance, let alone kiss, someone as young and plain such as myself?
Jacob didn't ease up in the past two years, in fact he got worse. Every time Billy came over for a fishing day with dad, Jacob offered to babysit; which meant that I was going to be both sexually and physically assaulted for the day. It started out small due to Edward's scare, but became bigger as time went on. He would tell me thing like he was going to take my virginity, take a video and post it on Facebook to show everyone what a slut the chief's daughter was. He stuck his fingers into my panties and rubbed my nub. I felt so disgusted in him and in myself for letting him touch me. I refused to touch him though and that is what caused most of my bruises.
Angry red marks, which later turned into awful shades of deep blue and purple were scattered across my body and I had to lie to Charlie every time he picked up on some of them.
I told Seth about what Jacob does to me. His reaction shocked me and probably ripped my heart into two.
He told me it was most likely my fault because Jacob wouldn't do these things to me if I didn't give him a reason to. I smacked him across the face and told him that he had no right to say that to his only friend. Leah quickly agreed with me, which shocked me for two reasons:
I didn't know that she was listening to the conversation and Leah hasn't really been anyone's friend. Leah had been close friends with her cousin and her boyfriend Sam, but when she found the two of them together in the backseat of Sam's car, she quickly ended both friendships. I can tell she misses them though, but what's done is done.
I had become Leah's friend after she comforted me and told me that Seth was a big dick. I even told her about Edward and unlike Seth, she believed me without hesitation. Seth apologized after a few days, but I don't think we could ever be the same again.
I adjusted my skirt before ringing the doorbell. My heart was thumping loudly in my chest as I heard those heavy footsteps near the door along with grunts and curses of frustration. He unlocked the door and swung it open, nearly hitting me square on in the face. His eyes showed surprise for a brief moment before covering them up with a cold and harsh stare.
"How did you know where I live?" knitting his brows together. I wove my fingers in between one another to prevent me from reaching up to smoothen his frown. "Like you once said, everyone knows where everyone lives." He smirked and bit his perfect pink lower lip. "True, but ours is a little more harder to find than your average Forks' home. How did you get here?"
"I walked." I say, looking into his widening eyes. "Fuck Bella that's like what five miles?"
"Four."
"What would the chief say if he found his innocent daughter on my corrupted porch?" he ran his fingers through his hair and I almost swooned.
That was a sight I never wanted to leave my mine, but his statement quickly angered me. "Is that what you think of me? Because I haven't been 'innocent' for two years because of Jacob." I took a deep breath to calm myself down. "What has that prick done to you?" His voice was low and dark. "What every teenage boy does at your age. He touches me in ways that disgust me and tells me thing that make my blood run cold." Tears come up to the surface but I quickly blink them away. He pinches the bridge of his nose and inhales deeply.
"What do you want Bella? Clearly you came here for a reason." He sighs, sounding defeated at his attempt to push me away. "You're the only guy I really trust and I… I know what you do." I whisper, cast my eyes to the woodworks of the porch. "And that is?"
"You have sex with a lot of girls, at least that's what the rumours say and I want-"
"Want what Bella?" he snapped. "I want you to corrupt me. I don't feel safe around Jacob, he stole my first kiss and I can't let him steal anything else. At least if I did it with you I know it was my choice, not someone else's." he stared at me, shocked and speechless for a brief moment before grabbing my wrist lightly and dragging me inside, pulling me up the staircase and leading me to what appears to be his bedroom. "Sit." He commands. I walk over to the bed and place myself on top of the covers, my feet not touching the ground. "Are you out of your fucking mind Bella? Not only could I get arrested for statutory rape but I will also have your father killing me for taking his daughter's gift from God." Huh, I never knew Edward Cullen was a religious man.
"Well I would rather give it to you than having it taken away from me by Jacob Black, painfully none the less." I sigh, "Edward, you are the only one who I feel comfortable giving it to. You won't hurt me, you're way too nice." Edward snorts and rolls his eyes. "I am not nice. Nice guys finish last."
"Not in my books." He gaze softens. He shifts himself closer to my body, kneels down to my level and cups my face with his large hands. "I'll do it, on my terms. We go at my pace, which will be slow. If at any time you feel uncomfortable you tell me immediately and we end it and finally you can't tell anyone. I don't want any of us to get hurt in this process. Do you understand?" he looks into my brown eyes as I nod vigorously. "Thank you." I throw my arms around him, pulling him in for a hug which he returns without hesitation. He pulls away slightly till out lips are mere millimetres apart.
We don't question it.
Our lips just crash into one another. His touch sweeping over my lower lip then my upper lip, taking all traces of my raspberry lip balm off my lips. I gasp as his hands move down to my waist, pulling me close and he takes the opportunity to enter his tongue into my mouth.
This is different. It's sweet and dare I say it caring than Jacob's acidic tasting tongue. His taste of cigarettes and watermelon. It slides of mine, taking control. He lowers his hands to my butt and grips me slightly, just enough to lift me and place me higher on his king size bed. He places himself in between my legs to feel his erection straining his zipper.
Now that I'm older I understand the concept of sex more. Dad had explained as well as Leah. I found it utterly degusting until this moment. Edward Cullen is turn on by me!
He slowly starts lightly thrust his erection against my panties, which feel soaked with arousal. I place my hands on the planes of his back, pulling him close to me and making his thrusting more delicious.
I moan while he grunts.
He curses while I bite my lip.
"Bella I need to hear you angel." He says, hitting the right spot. I become more vocal as the pit inside my stomach rolls and rolls into something bigger. His thrusting becomes erratic as his starts to lose his rhythm. "Edward I'm goi-Oh!" I gasp as the internal bad keeping me from falling off the edge snaps. I wither from pleasure as I feel myself clench. Two, three more thrust and Edward stops, groaning and gripping onto the sheets. We both breathe deeply for a few minutes. I eyelids feel heavy and start dropping down. All my energy was taken from me and I can't resist sleeping on Edward's bed. I hear him murmur: "Sleep little Bella." Before my body relaxes and my eyelids shut.