Edward lightly caressed my bruised cheek and let out a frustrated sigh. "I wish you would let me kill that asshole." He said falling on his bed.
"It really doesn't, but thank you for caring." I said lying next to him. It's been a week since the incident, no one but myself, Jacob and Edward.
Edward hated that I told no one, but understood why. He has seen firsthand how sad his parents were from his actions and doesn't want the same thing to happen to me. "Bella, you do realise that you can't go on like this. One day he will take his violence to the extreme and you will end up in a worst condition that what you were now."
"Edward you don't have to worry about me like I'm-"
"Like you're what?"Edward interjected.
Like I'm your girlfriend.
"…like I'm a child. I am taking responsibility for my actions like an adult. I had to raise myself, I had to grow up with no mother and even when she was around I was caring for her. So you don't have to take care of me, in case you haven't noticed I've been doing it for a long time." The words just continued to spill out. Some of them weren't even true.
I wanted to be taken care of, just once. I wanted someone to hold me when I cry and ask me how my day at school was. But Edward himself was still growing up, he didn't need to take care of someone else like I did. "Then why are you here? For sex? Because that move that you pulled makes you look like a virgin pretending to be a slut!" His words stung immensely, but it was the truth. It didn't stop the tears from falling. I turned away from him; I'm not going to show weakness in front of him like I do with Jacob.
Keep it together Bella, Edward cares is sex. So give it to him.
"Bella I'm-" I cut him off by smashing my lips to his. He was shocked at first and tried to pull away numerous times, but in the end his lust overpowered him and he responded eagerly. His hands were caressing my sides sweetly.
That's not what I wanted.
I ran my fingers against bronze locks at the nape of his neck before tugging on it, pulling him closer to me, leaving no space between us. I licked his bottom letting him know that I want to be in charge. He eagerly opened his mouth, letting our tongues tangle and fight for dominance. In the end his won due to my lack of experience and he took control, reversing our positions. He rolled us over so that his hips were nestled between my legs which were wrapped around his own. I pulled back, gasping for air as he continued to abuse my neck. Licking, sucking and biting the same spot over and over, marking me as his. My hands were moving down to his jeans, trying to unbutton them in between our bodies. He chuckled lightly before pulling back to unzip it himself. He pulled it down to his ankles before unzipping my sweatshirt, leaving me in my plain white bra. I knew I wasn't as…gifted as Edward's past girls but he didn't seem to mind. He continued sucking on my milky skin, just on the top of my breast instead. It felt right, like he was supposed to be here. But I knew Edward Cullen didn't do relationships, just sex.
And maybe I didn't want to give my virginity to him at this moment but I knew of other things to make him happy.
I flipped us over, so that I was straddling his legs. I placed my hand inside his underwear and pulled out his very large member. "Bella you don't have to do that." He tried to protest, but I could hear the lust in his voice, urging me to continue. "I want to. Just show me how."
He gave in almost immediately and took my small hand. He placed it on his hard, silky rod of pleasure to the ladies of Forks. "Just wrap your hand around it." I tried but eventually gave up and used both hands. He told me to start moving my hands up and down. As I did that a white liquid appeared from the top of his member. He told me to take my thumb and spread it, but I had the urge to taste it. I bent down and placed my tongue on the tip, gathering the salty liquid. "Fuck Bella." He placed his hands in my hair and guided my head to his member, silently begging me to take more. I wrapped my lips around it and started sucking, like Edward instructed. It stared out slow but the paced quickened as I felt him throb. "Bella stop. I… can't…oh God!" he chanted my names and God's several times as ribbons of his sperm were sent down my throat. I felt myself gag a little but manage to swallow most of it. I looked up to see him, panting with sweat glistened on his forehead. He pulled me up to his level again and just held me.
"What was that about?" He whispered kissing the crown of my head. I stayed silent, what answer could I give him other than I'm a whore?
He sensed my uneasiness and figured out the answer. "Bella I didn't mean what I said. I was angry at you for not letting me in. I want to be there for you, when you want to talk or cry or even yell I want to be the one you come to. Day or night, got it?" I nodded with a small smile gracing my face.
It was nice to know that someone cared.
"I want to take you out. Not here in Forks, there nothing to do. What about you and me go to the Port Angeles zoo? I want us to have a good time together. What do you say?"
"That would be really nice, but you don't have to."
"I want you to let me in Bella. Why is that so hard to understand?" he cupped my face with my hands forcing me to look at him. "Because everyone that I let in leaves." The tears pour out and I don't even try to hold it in. "That's not going to be me. Just give me a chance tomorrow." I nod, agreeing.
I was finally going to let Edward in.
I waited on my porch all day the next day waiting for Edward. I had gotten up extra early in case he got here early, but he never came. The sun came up and went down and there was no sign of him.
I had let him in and he left me alone. He said he wasn't like that but of course he lied and I was stupid enough to believe him.
God I hate being naïve.