My mother had never been supportive in what I did. Throughout high school I had done numerous things, joined debating team, the school newspaper became the senior class president and even became the valedictorian, but my mother always had some way of ignoring my achievement and turns it into something about her.

So when I called her to tell her I was pregnant, I wasn't surprised when she turned it around, making it about it about her.

"What?! You can't be pregnant; I'm too young to be a grandmother. I hope you don't plan on keeping this child, because I don't think I can handle some snot-nosed brat calling me Grammy."

My father had been a little more supportive, quite frankly he was surprised I had called him. I wasn't planning on it, but you know when you have that child-like moment when you just need someone to comfort you and tell you that it's going to be okay?

Yeah? Now that was what I needed after my very brief, one sided conversation with my mom. Charlie had been silent for a while and just as I was about to hang up, when his gruff voice spoke: "It's going to be okay Bella. I know that you have the ability to handle anything that comes your way. I want you to know that I'm here to support you." My throat had tightened briefly but I kept my head held high and told him that I didn't need his pity.

Edward doesn't know though.

I had seen him around, but he had always been with someone. Either his parents, his sister or…her. I avoided eye contact when he was around, afraid that I would break down and cry my eyes out or slap him till I felt better about what I did.

In my dreams though, we were together. He would hold me, kiss me, tell me that he loves him, that he never stopped. But it would only last for a little while before she would appear. She'd start yelling out insulting, degrading but true things.

Homewreaker.

Adulterer.

Slut.

I would wake up, tears stains on my face. Regretting what I did, ruining not one but two relationships if the other half ever found out.

Cauis wasn't very helpful during my time away. He was constantly picking fights, acting stand offish and intrusive. I couldn't talk to him about… the pregnancy.

I felt alone. I was scared and abandoned.

"Hello?"

"Bella hi." Edward's voice was quiet.

"Edward?"

"Um yeah, I was wondering if maybe you wanted to meet up later. Athenodora is out for the night and I have the house all to my lonesome self. " My heart plummeted. "Edward…you're engaged and…"

"And what?"

"And…so am I. I don't want to have sex, but I do want to talk to you."

"You know what, I actually just remembered that I have something on and I… need to get back. See you around."

I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye before he hung up.

"And there's the heartbeat." Dr. Andrews announced. The sound of my baby's steady heartbeat surrounded the examination room. It was worth it, all the pain and suffering, the heartache. It didn't matter that my life was a mess, that the father of this baby wanted a quick fuck instead of a relationship. That my current fiancee was probably unfaithful.

All that mattered was this baby. Dr. Andrew gladly printed the sonogram photos for me and arranged the next appointment. For the first time in a long, I was happy. I walked out of the room with a smile on my face, but it was quickly wiped off when I saw him and her.

Waiting, as if they were the next appointment. She was quick to smile "Bella hi. I didn't know you were pregnant. How far along are you?"

"Um…about six weeks." His face pales. He knows. "No way me too!" she said enthusiastically. I faked a smile and looked over at him. "You must be excited. First time dad." He nods but doesn't say anything. I try to catch his eye but it's impossible so I give up and walk away, my happiness gone, the pain: unbearable.

As I walk to the car I hear a notification on my phone.

Is it mine?-E

Followed by

We need to talk-C

I don't reply to Edward but instead call Caius in spite of the fact that he has been a bastard. "Hey. How are you?"

"Um…I slept with someone." He confesses. My breathing quickens, but my heart doesn't break. Even though I was engaged to Caius I don't think I loved him, it was more of a comfort. "It's okay, I did the same."

"Wow, okay. Umm… I'm not going to lie, it kind of stings."

"I'm sorry. I just…I saw again and I couldn't help myself. I let him get to me and-"

"You know what fuck you Bella! I wanted to tell you hoping that you would forgive me but you're not even sad. You don't care about me, you're bitch and I am so glad that I found that out before the relationship got further." I just kept quiet, ashamed because it is the truth. I am selfish, I have become like the one person I have dreaded becoming.

My mother.

I never cared about Caius, I kept this baby a secret from Edward hell I even kept Charlie in the dark even though he had been there for me this entire time.

I needed to change, but I couldn't do that unless I fixed my past. I was not going to bring up a child in a world where I was broken. I couldn't just think of myself anymore. "Caius I have to go. I promise I'll to back."

"Fucking typical of you Bella. Immature brat." He spat.

"Hey, I know you're hurt but that's no reason to say all these things. We did the exact same thing. You don't care about me either, we learned to tolerated and become comfortable with one another. You are just as guilty as I am, but I'm not upset about it. We both grew out each other. Now if you'll excuse me I need to fix a couple of things." I hung up before he could answer.

Taking a deep breath, I dialed a number I was familiar with, but never actually used. "Forks Police department what seems to be the problem?"

"My name is Isabella Swan and I'd like to report a rape case."