I didn't have the patience to write the major-bitch session so I will just let that happen kinda like in VA.

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So I hope you like This chapter and I will try to make it longer this and other times around.

I have time enough soooooo. Yup!

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Anyway here ya go

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After John said "About that kiss with Dean."

It turned in to a lecture about 'confused attraction' or something. Bleh. I found my self tuning out almost immediately.

Then when It turned to me I tuned back in to hear what there was to say about ME because the lecture was mainly for Dean because he kissed me back.

"Also, you young lady, you started it so, What do you have to say for yourself?" John asked me. As a response I snuggled further in to Dean but as I was broken and bruised so I cried out in pain. So with a concerned look Dean began "Angel are yo-"

Then the nurse came in and shooed every one out and scolded me for being like that with as she put it 'My brother'. Ha Sam yes but Dean I laughed and shook my head at the thought.

"Care to share the joke?" The nurse asked curiously. "Nope." I replied popping the P. She rolled her eyes and got me ready for the doctor. Then the doctor came and she said "O-Kay, I see you are awake uh, ok ."

"So," she continued "Could you take off your gow-" I cut her off with a scowl and a quick "No." At that she looked at me and said "Now, I know that you were kidnapped and beaten, But there is no need to-"

Again I cut her off and said low and dangerous "No but you saw my scars do you wanna know how I got these scars?" Then I laughed as mad as The Joker would. Thats it I was crazy. And broken, very broken. Not only physically but mentally as well. With that thought I was pulled in to the past.

I was about nine when I received the wort beating (beside my back cuts). I was home late by fifteen minutes. The sorry excuse for a mom was drunk well, more than usual. She came up to me and said "You dumb little slut, Fifteen minutes who were you screwing?" I replied honestly "No one m'am I was just late." That earned me a sharp slap and she said "You lying bitch! You dare lie to your own mother?" Then she punched me five or six times before shoving me across the room. She followed me angrily and as I was sprawled across the floor she kicked me and kicked me. Then yanking me up by my shirt she said "Angel what a pretty name. For such a disappointing girl. Ha! Ugly as hell to," she continued "Violet eyes ugg who would like that?" Then my dear mother threw me down. I had lots of broken bones and was in a lot of pain. But, before I passed out she leaned down and lit a cigarette the after a couple of puffs she put it down on my cheek. Thats when I got shot straight up as if ice water was poured on me.

I heard the doctor explaing something to John right next to me but when he saw me awake he made me lay back down and said "The doctor said you can leave tomorrow but to take it easy for a few weeks." Well there goes my life (Note the sarcasm). "But as I was saying ," The doctor said sympathetically "Your daughter has post-traumatic stress-disorder which I would wage my money on it being abuse at a younger age. you say she was adopted?" John replied with "Yes."

"Sweetheart." the Doctor said to me "Who hit you Hun? So we could put them in jail." I responded with a half-assed laugh and "My sorry excuse for a mother. Oh yeah she was killed four years ago so don't even bother with it. Can I sleep NOW?" They both said sure but before John left I found my self asking " uh.. Baba I was wondering if I could see Sam and Dean once more." Then he said "Sure if it makes you happy i'll be in the hallway."

A few seconds later Sam ambushed me with gentle hugs saying to sleep well and goodnight. Then Dean came and sat in the chair next to me, holding my hand and staring at it as if it was his life-line. Then John came in collected Sam and bid both of us good bye.

"O-Kay.?" I said very confused that Dean stayed. The first words he said was "It should of been me dragged from that closet" Then the rarest thing happened. Tears were trickling down Dean Winchesters face! I pulled him close to me as best as I could without causing pain to myself and gently wiped them away with my thumbs.

"Dean baby don't cry." Then what he said next surprised me "You are the only one to see me cry like this." With that he crawled in the bed as gentle as he could not to disturb any broken ribs or bruised arms or back and then we slept like that calmly. And for once in my life with no nightmares.

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Dean was gone but not for long because the bed was still warm. So, I checked the side table and yep sure enough there was a note with a key on top of new clothes.

The note: Sorry had to run checked you out so key is for motel down the street- x Dean

Aw how sweet. I hopped up expecting to be OK but realized that I was still super bruised. So I stumbled and managed to hobble over to the bathroom.

Once I was in there I stripped down to my bra and had my pants on. But as went to grab my shirt to throw on I caught a look of myself in the mirror. I leaned closer and flinched at what I saw.

I had a raging black eye that was blotchy, and took up part of my face, was purple and was so swollen that my eye was half closed. I had cuts on my lip, and arms. Also bruised almost every were. My breathing was shallow and harsh due to I guessed two maybe three fractured ribs.

After looking at that I threw on the clothes smiling at the familiar black jacket with plaid flannel under slightly better my limp wasn't as bad due to my body getting use to walking around.

I came back into the hospital room got the duffel bag that was supplied there with the keys. So, I set off happy that there was directions on the back of the note.

As I got closer to the motel I got weird looks at the fourteen your old with Violet eyes, a nose piercing and a black-eye. They got really weirder the further I went and I just hung my head in slight shame and disappointment at myself. I trained for that for four years and failed new how to exorcise and trap then ugh!

When I got there no one was there a stroke of good luck. I dropped my stuff any were and walked to the bathroom shedding the jacket and flannel behind leaving me in a black short sleeved v-neck and my combat boots and jeans. I went in the bathroom and locked the door behind me.

I walked to the cabinet fully prepared to do what I wanted. I opened the cabinet and spotted what I wanted the razors. I lowered my self on the edge of the tub after smashing the plastic and snatching one of the razors I lifted my shirt reviling my pale flat stomach and made the first incision.

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So yep extra long for ya!

Finding out what Sam knows next chapter. Caring Dean! Fluff! YEH!

So question may be asked anything you think that needs clarity!

Peace out: Nikki Ozera-Winchester