A/N Well guys 4th chapter up already! Holy smokes this is crazy! Anyway I hope you enjoy and RnR I love when you do XD

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Maybe in the end….she could have her affection returned.

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Megatron pressed Starscream up against the wall running his hands up and down her frame as they kissed. Oh, how he was ready to just take her right there. The energon running through his systems fired up, equivalating what the humans would call adrenaline, from the beating he gave Ramjet and his engines revved in anger and lust. The seeker was HIS and his alone. Seeing another mech even close to having Starscream made him boil with rage. He knew now that even if the fragging, curvy, annoying, and beautiful seeker's secret was exposed to the army he wouldn't allow anyone to touch her. He wouldn't let her know that, though, it would make it seem as if he cared….and he didn't! He didn't care for her at all! He just didn't want anyone else to touch what was his! That was it! There were no feelings involved! Or at least that's what he kept telling himself.

Starscream moaned secretly loving how powerful and aggressive Megatron was being. As much as she hated him doing this to keep her loyal and not because he simply liked her she wanted it. She always had, but admitting to it, she knew, would be her downfall. At the moment ,though, she couldn't give a flying frag if it was going to be her downfall, but she at least wanted her first time to be a little more special than a quick frag in the hallway, so she reluctantly pulled from the kiss to pant softly saying, "M-Megatron….Not like this."

Megatron growled getting seriously fed up with the fragging beauty. Why couldn't she just let him have her already! He just wanted to ram his spike into her, and was more than tempted to just do it by this point.

"And why not?" He bit out.

Starscream opened her mouth to speak, and her cheekplates tinted blushing, "Um….i-it's still my first time…" she mumbled looking away.

Megatron gave an exasperated sigh. Of course. She probably wanted it to be special. Well, he supposed he could at least give her that. Not that he cared! But it would probably benefit him and make her a lot easier to get to, so he pulled back and asked, "What do you wan?"

Starscream looked at him shocked before a hint of a smile showed slightly. Maybe he did care.

"Well….maybe we can do this in your quarters? And slow! And gentle! I just want it to….feel good," she said finishing the last part awkwardly.

Megatron nodded. This wouldn't be so hard. At least she didn't want rose petals leading to the berth with romantic music playing. She just wanted simple privacy with more intimacy than a frag. She wanted to actually interface and dare he say, make love for her first time. It would be only a little bit of a nuisance. He's not exactly skilled in the art of being gentle or slow, but he could try. And this could end up working better than Soundwave's plan of raping her. Maybe giving her pleasure the way she wants will just keep her in line and kill the traitor inside. Megatron smirked at that. Yes that would be much better. A willing partner and loyal Second.

"You're really going to do as I ask?" Starscream asked suspiciously.

"Yes Starscream this time I am," he replied with a smirk still plastered on his face.

Starscream couldn't help but feel like there was a second agenda the Decepticon leader had, but for now she didn't care. For now, she was still on the fact that Megatron was going to let her have at least a decent first time, so with that she smiled and said, "Good."

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When they arrived at Megatron's quarters Starscream looked around impressed. For a mech with such a boring frame Megatron's room wasn't as bad. Sure it wasn't as lavish and decorated as Starscream's but it wasn't exactly plain. There was a large Decepticon Symbol covering the wall by the berth, but what made it different than just an enlarged symbol was that it had the three original races, that had band together to create the Decepticons, language written in it all saying the same thing.

"We are the oppressed, misunderstood, underestimated Cybertronians. We are the faction that fights for freedom of everyone and the destruction of the different classes. We will NOT tolerate the council looking down on us any longer! WE fight as one! WE fight for justice! WE are the Decepticons!"

In Vosian, Kaonian, and Tarnian.

Starscream read it in each language. It was inspiring once upon a time. Now it seemed like a lie. They no longer fought for rights. They fought to stay online, but Starscream would give anything to be back on Cybertron. They could rebuild their home, but the Autobots stood in the way. They only saw Decepticons as cruel and vicious killing machines. That was true to some point, but it was because of their background and fear. Every single Con here came from oppression of some sort and were hardened. They weren't pampered and that's something the Bots would never understand. Cons didn't want things to go the way they did before and they feared that's what would happened. Feared being oppressed once more, and as for this war? This war that had raged so long that neither faction would be able to trust the other. There was no hope for peace unless one faction was defeated and one was victorious. It was sad but true, and Starscream would never admit it out loud, but she still wished to have peace. There was always the sick enjoyment of crushing another's spark, but it didn't compare to the joy of being able to fly freely without being shot down or to not be judged and ridiculed.

"It's beautiful," Starscream whispered stilling looking over it.

"Yes it is," Megatron agreed closing the door and wrapped his arms around her waist.

Starscream rested her hands on his and looked over her shoulder at him, "Do you miss Cybertron?"

"Of course I do. What kind of stupid question was that?" He snorted.

"I do too," she said ignoring his rudeness, and for a moment let her walls down, "I wish this war was over and that we could rebuild our home. I wish I could rebuild vos," and her voice softened as she finished.

Megatron reflexively held her tighter not to hurt her but more to show he wanted to go home as well. He looked down into her optics. They were full of sadness and memories, and Megatron remembered a time when Starscream and himself had gotten along. They were quite the team back then. Things had just...changed over time. They both became colder and everything was about the power. That's when the assassination attempts started. From there everything just went downhill.

Megatron shook his head. Why was he reminiscing when he should be fragging? But this wasn't going to be a frag. This was Starscream's first time, and he agreed he would at least give her the comfort of a berth and a proper interface.

"For now Starscream let us not worry ourselves over that because we will one day," he said and kissed her.

Starscream kissed back turning herself so that they were chest to chest. She moaned softly as Megatron rubbed her hips softly. It was the gentlest he'd been so far.

She gasped as he picked her up and carried her to the berth carefully placing her on it never breaking the kiss as he climbed on top of her. She shyly spread her legs and blushed feeling him chuckle and spread them wider making himself comfortable between them.

Megatron pulled from the kiss only to move in attacking her neck with licks and bites. He heard the seeker give a small gasp and moan making him smirk. Finally, he was going to have her.

Megatron rolled his hips into hers, and Starscream's wings flicked pressing forward wanting attention. Megatron couldn't deny the seeker and placed his hands flat on her wings feeling them shiver from his touch. He ran his hands up and down them from tip to base before slipping them underneath sliding them along the edge of the stunning white pieces of metal.

Starscream arched into him moaning. She loved the feel of Megatron's hands on her wings. She never knew they could feel so great, and she never wanted it to end. If she knew that this is what she would feel then she wouldn't mind ever being with bucket head.

Megatron kissed up Starscream's neck, along her jawline, and to her lips kissing her passionately as he continued to fondle her wings.

Starscream kissed back and wrapped her arms around his neck. She felt his glossa glide across her lower lip and let her mouth open.

Megatron thrust his glossa into her mouth trying to find hers. When he did they fought for dominance and eventually intertwined in lust and passion.

Starscream gave a small squeak as Megatron caught her off guard by giving her wings a slight squeeze causing both pain and pleasure. She shivered in delight as his hands traveled from her wings to her sides and rubbed them before one hand made its way to her interfacing panel and rubbed at it tenderly. She pulled back from the kiss and stared up at him nervously. She wanted this, but she knew it was going to hurt.

Megatron just continued rubbing feeling lubricant leak from the seams down thighs and said, "I will prepare you Starscream, and I'll make you feel like you never have just trust me."

Starscream bit her lip. Trust him? Megatron? Of all mechs? Could she really allow herself that kind of risk?

Megatron seemed to notice the internal battle Starscream was having and started to kiss down her frame till his mouth was gently placing kisses on her panel.

Starscream gasped and looked down at him, "M-Megatron!"

"Open for me," Megatron said in a demanding voice that made Starscream's body tingle and her panel snapped back.

Megatron gave a satisfied smirk and inspected her leaking port. It was already quite lubricated meaning Starscream was enjoying his ministrations. He leaned forward and gave it a teasing lick tasting the sweet juices Starscream made. He couldn't help but laugh as he heard Starscream squeal in shock.

"Calm down Starscream," he said giving her a small smile.

Starscream nodded and bit her lip again.

Megatron leaned forward again and this time gave a long slow lick making Starscream give a heated mewel. She didn't know what possessed Megatron to do this, but she sure as frag was not going to stop him. She drew in a quick breath as Megatron pushed his glossa into her port. Oh frag! Who knew she could experience this amount of pleasure and he wasn't even spiking her yet!

Megatron felt her walls constrict as he pushed his glossa in and massaged her inner thighs.

Primus Starscream felt like she could've overloaded right then and there before Megatron began thrusting his glossa in and out making her spasm slightly from the sensation. She felt her stomach clench and knew she was about to experience her first overload before Megatron allowed his glossa to withdraw to Starscream's dismay. She glared down at him, and he just smirked as he crawled back up and kissed her making her taste herself. It was….different and maybe she'd be able to return the favor sometime and get a taste of him, but that was for a later date because right now she wanted him inside her!

Megatron had allowed himself to hold back this whole time and finally let his spike spring free. It was already straight and hard releasing small amounts of lubricant from its tip.

Starscream looked down at she heard Megatron's panel snap back and stared in awe at the massive spike. THAT was suppose to go inside her! She was seriously having second thoughts right now.

"Megatron," she said nervously, and Megatron looked her in the optics grabbing one of her hands and held it intertwining their fingers.

He used his other hand to grab his spike and position it before slowing guiding the tip in. He heard Starscream whimper softly squeezing his hand, and he found himself leaning down to kiss her softly as he continued to push in. Once he was hilted he resisted the urge to begin pounding into her. Starscream was suppose to enjoy this and he was rather certain she wouldn't enjoy that.

Starscream didn't think the pain would ever go away from her burning port. Megatron was huge! She tried to ignore the pain as her and Megatron kissed, though. It was nice of him to try and distract her and relax till she adjusted to his size. When she felt the pain ebbing away and morphing into a rather nice and pleasurable sensation she rolled her hips indicating Megatron could start moving.

When he felt her roll her hips he didn't pull from the kiss. Truthfully, he could kiss Starscream all day and never get over it, but she would never know. He felt her shock as he continued with the kiss and began to pull out till he was halfway before thrusting back in.

Starscream moaned into their heated kiss as Megatron began a slow but hard pace. Frag, she really never knew interfacing could feel this good. She gasped as he hit a sensitive spot, and continued to gasp and moan in pleasure as he began aiming for that particular spot speeding up his thrusts.

"Ngh...Megatron!" She panted pulling from the kiss as he was bringing her closer to the edge.

Megatron just continued thrusting and squeezed her hand feeling her walls squeeze his spike almost painfully. She was probably the tightest he ever had even for a virgin. Or ex virgin now.

Megatron raised his hips a little driving deeper into the tight heat of Starscream's port, and said seeker cried out as he did feeling her arch off the berth into him. Then Megatron had just the greatest idea and let Starscream's hand go in order to grab her hips with both hands and switched their positions so she was sitting on top of him now.

Starscream stunned by the sudden change she stared down at Megatron who in turn smirked up at her.

"Ride me beautiful," he chuckled.

Starscream's mouth fell open in shock and before she could say anything Megatron thrust his hips up into her hard making her jerk and gasp falling forward slightly only catching herself by placing her hands on Megatron's chest.

"Come on I know you can do it Screamer," he said and his smirk grew.

Starscream gave him a hard glare before lifting her hips and till only the tip was inside her before letting herself drop back down onto him.

Megatron grunted in pleasure moving his hands to her hips.

Starscream repeated the same agonizingly slow motion over and over before she began to get more confident and started to fasten her pace.

Megatron helped her thrusting up as she came down onto him. He was glad he let her take control. She looked so good sitting on top of him riding his spike.

Megatron sat up and used one hand to support himself and the other to rest on the small of Starscream's back.

Starscream leaned forward and kissed him resting her hands on his shoulders as she began to bounce on top of him feeling herself coming undone.

Megatron could tell she was close. Her port was clenching his spike like her life depended on keeping it inside her.

Starscream finally reached that blissful moment of her first overload and cried out Megatron's name as it washed over her.

Megatron growled as he felt Starscream overload pushing him over the edge and release his fluids deep within her port.

Starscream felt the hot transfluid shoot into her and shuddered at the feeling. She wasn't sure if she'd be able to get used to that. She panted heavily and leaned on Megatron who chuckled wrapping his arms around her.

Starscream smiled softly and carefully picked herself up off Megatron's now limp spike.

"That….was….," Starscream started.

"Amazing?" Megatron asked finishing for her.

"Yeah."

"You're welcome by the way."

"For what?" She scoffed.

"For making your first time amazing," he smirked.

Starscream rolled her optics, "Please it was pretty much forced."

"I do believe you had a choice, and it didn't seem like you wanted me to stop," he chuckled.

"Yeah, yeah shutup," she mumbled as he laid down with her still on top of him.

"You're probably tired aren't you?"

"And if I am?"

"You may stay here and recharge, but only because you'll have to anyway when you're pregnant."

Starscream sat up and glared down at him, "Can't you just be as kind and loving as you were when we were interfacing?"

"Considering I only was like that per request for your first time...no."

"I asked you to be slow and gentle on a berth, but you actually pleasured me! Being loving wasn't part of the request, but you were anyway! Why can't you just stay that way?"

Megatron's face darkened, "Listen here seeker. I'm not loving, I don't love, and I only did what I did so you will cooperate. If you are satisfied in the berth it should keep you in line and loyal."

"So that's why you did this! Because you wanted to use me not only to have a sparkling, but lead me into a false sense of caring so I would be loyal! Frag you! I hate you!" She yelled as coolant bubbled in her optics, and she rolled off top of him. She made to get off the berth, but Megatron grabbed her wrist, "Let go you fragger!"

"Did you actually think I could love someone who at every turn tried to kill me, usurp me, overthrow me! You must be glitched to honestly believe that I would care for someone like you Starscream!" Megatron yelled laughing.

Starscream looked back at him with a tear stained face. Shock and hurt were blatantly showing, and she shivered as she tried to keep the sobs inside.

Megatron had immediately stopped laughing. He'd never seen the seeker actually cry, and because….he said he didn't love her? Did that mean then she loved him? Impossible! She just said she hated him and she always tried to kill him! But still…..

"Starscream?" He asked.

Starscream pursed her lips together, "You can tell the whole army Megatron I don't care. I won't be your little whore. Thanks for the first time, but it's your last with me," she said pulling her wrist from his grasp and got off the berth. Her legs were wobbly and her port hurt, but she didn't care anymore.

Megatron quickly got off the berth and grabbed her pushing till her back hit the wall and he pinned her there. He looked into her optics for what seemed to be an eternity but was only seconds before kissing her.

"Starscream, my treacherous fool you can't leave."

Starscream stared up at him, "And why not? You made it quite clear you feel nothing."

"Let me ask you a question. How do you feel about me?"

Starscream looked away not answering.

"Starscream," Megatron growled.

And Starscream snapped, "I hate you, b-but I love you! I always have! I wanted you to love me, but I knew that you hated me and would only use me like you are! You're just a monster! A monster I'm hopelessly in love with!" She finished with tears.

"A monster who lied to you," Megatron stated.

Starscream raised an optic ridge at him.

"Starscream….," he started but was interrupted by a knock at the door.

He growled and answered the door just to be met with a fist in the face.

"Thundercracker!" Starscream yelled.

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A/N Wow this turned out a long longer than I had intended it to. Anyway thanks for the continuous support! And even if you've already reviewed review again please! I always love to see what you guys think of each chapter! Anyway please let me know and stay tuned for the next one! :3