It was such an extraordinary feeling. Austria had no idea where he was, everything was so faint around him. He felt as if he was floating in the middle of nowhere in a state between awake and asleep. He could hear screaming and other panicky sounds somewhere but the sounds didn't affect him, despite the sound of panic it was also tranquil. This experience… It was like being under water, but you could breathe and didn't have to hold your breath. Austria remembered what he did. Drank six bottles of beer, smashed a bottle and cut his arms. The newly made memories were slowly fading and Austria could also feel himself fade.

"Am I dead?" Austria thought.

Normally others would freak out or get deeply depressed if they found out they were dying. Austria however was indifferent. He neither felt unwillingness or will to die. He felt so free in this state and in this unknown nowhere place. He felt like a feather flowing around high above the sky. No one expected anything from him, nothing could harm him, heaviness didn't exist and all in all, nothing could ever bother him.

Then suddenly Austria felt some pressure in his chest. It came and went in second gaps. It wasn't painful but it wasn't a blissful feeling either. The more he could feel the pressure come, the more he felt a will to be alive. Austria looked around stressfully. This place of nowhere was slowly disappearing somehow and Austria felt as if he was falling asleep again even though he wasn't even tired or controlling this action himself.

"

"1, 2, 3, clear!" Yelled a doctor to the other doctors around him as he gave Austria shock through the defibrillator electrodes.

Hungary didn't see but she heard it loud and clear from her position next to the door outside the operation room. Tears were streaming down her face behind the hand she covered her eyes with. What an awful thing for her to see! After Hungary left the house to look for Austria, she called Germany and Spain to assist her. After about an hour, Spain called her and said he found Austria underneath a bridge, which she was nearby that moment. She ran as fast as he could towards the destination and almost collapsed when she arrived. It was not because Hungary was tired; it was because of the sight of Austria and the state he was in. Right in front of her laid Austria on the ground, unconscious, arms, and the ground around him, drenched with his blood. Hungary used to fight a lot in her youth and still sometimes joins or starts brawls, so she was not at all scared of blood. But the sight of her bleeding husband almost made her puke, she was unable to touch him even though she really wanted to fall on her knees next to Austria, grab his shoulders and shake and yell at him till he woke up. Spain put an arm around her shoulders and gently guided her head to his chest while Germany called for an ambulance.

The door opened and a doctor came out. Hungary dried off her tears and looked at him.

"Your husband went through the operation"

Hungary felt it burst in her heart. Tears were pressuring to come out of her eyes, but this time tears of happiness.

"Thank goodness!" Hungary exclaimed and supported herself to a wall so she could remain standing.

"He did lose a lot of blood; the cuts on his arms were quite deep. But after a while in the hospital he will recover just fine" The doctor said.

"Can I see him?" Hungary asked.

"Yes, but be careful to touch him. Just in case"

"I understand, thank you doctor!" Hungary said and rushed along with the doctors who were taking Austria to the hospital room he was going to stay.

"

Austria was in a world of nothingness once again. Complete darkness and no bliss. But a light was getting lighter and lighter and it was spreading everywhere as well. He heard muffled sounds getting louder and louder too. Wait a minute…Sounds?

"I am able to…hear again?" Austria thought.

Suddenly everything disappeared.

Sharp lights hit him like a lightning. Austria found himself lying in a bed in a room with neutral colors. His head hurt and he felt dizzy. His arms were covered up with bandages and wires were inside, leading to a machine they were connected to. His hand was held by Hungary's hands. Hungary rested her head on the bedside, sound asleep. Austria got worried. How long has Hungary been here? Did she find him after what he did to himself? Slowly Austria raised the hand Hungary wasn't holding to, and put it on the top of her head. He patted her head lightly.

"I am sorry, liebe…" Austria whispered to his sleeping wife.

Austria stopped up everything he was doing, breathing included. He heard it, he heard himself whisper! So this nothingness was no dream, it was real all along? Austria wanted to speak some more, so he could be sure if he really could hear again.

"I am Roderich Edelstein, known as the nation Austria, I am married to Hungary, I hate Prussia…" Austria randomly said.

He could hear every single word he said, loud and clear. Austria talked very loudly, so Hungary woke up. Austria watched Hungary's head rise up from the bedside. She never let go of his hand as she rose up. It didn't take long for Hungary to notice the now conscious Austria. Her face lightened up with widened eyes and a big smile. But that didn't last long; those features were very soon replaced by angry features.

"What the hell were you thinking, Roderich?! Getting lost and then try to kill yourself! Don't you think I would do anything to help you with this whole shit?!" Hungary yelled at him.

Never in his life was he happy to be scolded by Hungary. Normally he would be scared of her whenever she was angry, but now he was really happy to hear her mighty anger through her voice. It made him just sit on the bed with a smile on his mouth.

"Why the fuck are you smiling?!"Hungary said.

Hungary was the kind of woman to cry or show concern as she was worried, but there were times she would swear and be really angry when she was very, very worried and let it all out when the worrisome situation was taken care of.

"I am so sorry for all this, liebe. My mind was completely lost during this "whole shit", but I have the feeling everything will be alright from now on" Austria said to Hungary.

Hungary was speechless right away when Austria finished what he said. She sat up on the bedside and placed her hands on his shoulders.

"You…heard me..? Hungary asked after a little moment of silence.

"Every word" Austria said.

"Oh, drágám!" Hungary threw herself at Austria.

Austria heard Hungary sniffle into his shoulder. He embraced her back and started crying quietly himself. It was such a wonderful feeling! How everything became a silent nightmare and after a trip to the "nowhere place", he came back to life with everything back. He did feel bad for what he did. Not only towards himself, but also towards his wife. He would from now on hope a situation like this would never happen again.

The doctor who diagnosed Austria with tinnitus not long ago, came in to the room. It was not necessary for him to check on Austria, but he read Austria's medical record a moment ago and wanted to check it himself to see if what he just read was really true. Austria and Hungary didn't mind and let the doctor examine Austria's ears again. The doctor was very astonished after he was done.

"I don't understand…Your eardrums have recovered and the hair cells have fully healed as well…but…" The doctor said, one stuttered at the time.

"But what, doctor?" Austria asked.

"When the ear cells get ruined, they don't heal and when the eardrums get injured they don't heal that quickly!" The doctor said.

The doctor left Austria's room in complete disbelief, leaving the couple alone once again.

Hungary was amazed as well, but mostly very happy.

"How could this have happened I wonder…"Hungary said.

Austria took Hungary's hand, scooted a bit to the side and made a sign so Hungary would sit on the bed beside him. Austria still held Hungary's hand and put his free arm around her.

"After the drinking and cutting I ended up in some sort of nothingness world. I am not sure if it was real or not, but it did feel very real"

"What are you saying?" Hungary asked.

"One theory I have for this sudden healing is that I am a country and countries withstand and heal faster than normal humans but what I mostly believe is…I died for a moment and came back to life all over again" Austria looked down at the stark white sheet.

"But you haven't forgotten anything or anyone from your life, you remember me, what you did, and even the doctor" Hungary said.

"Elizaveta, I don't know anything about things like that. Maybe it was Gods way of giving me a second chance or maybe it was all just a realistic dream" Austria said.

"Doesn't matter what it was, what matters is that you are alright now" Hungary said.

Austria shifted his gaze to Hungary. He gave her a small smile and a nod. He gave her a peck on the lips and rested his head on Hungary's shoulder. He fell asleep almost right away. Hungary embraced Austria and looked out the window.

"Please look after him, Isten. You gave him another chance to live, please be sure nothing happens to him for his sake, for his peoples sake, for the worlds sake and for… my sake" Hungary prayed inside her to God.

Hungary, still sitting next to Austria on the bed with his head on her shoulder, covered herself and Austria up with the blanket and fell asleep. May God listen to her prayer.

The end