Seeing Black- Chapter 6

I've been in bed room for literally the past 2 days? No 3. The only time I left was to get food, and drinks. I would either just sit on my balcony, watching the crashing waves of the beach, or play guitar and sing, or dance occasionally. I couldn't stand looking at this family, but they were keeping me here. Trust me, I've already asked Jackson if I could leave and I got this whole big lecture on what they're doing for me and shit, I kind of ignored it. So ever since then, I'd go down stairs at night to get something to eat, and drink, and stay in my room for the rest of the day. So it's Sunday afternoon, and I'm still bored off my ass, but nothing will make me go down there. I was sitting in my chair, writing parts of my song 'End Up Here', when there was a knock on the door. "what!" I yelled, and the door opened, I saw the mop of shaggy brown hair, but sadly not the one I wanted, it was Harry. I got off of my chair, "what do you want?!" I asked through gritted teeth, crossing my arms. He held his hands out in defense "nothing… I just wanted to see how you were doing, you've kind of been in your room for a few days." he said, shoving his hands in his pocket, looking away. I untensed and sat on my bed, tapping the other side for him to come sit with me, and he did. "I'm fine, just thinking." I say, looking out my balcony doors, that were open to hear the oceans crashing waves. "look.. I just wanted-" I started, the same time he said "look Kim I-". "you first." we both said, when I finally broke it, "you go first." I said. "well, Kim. I know that whole thing with jack wasn't planned, but I could tell the way you acted, you like him. So, I think we have to break up…" he said, looking into my eyes. "1, I don't like jack and 2, I agree. I'm sorry harry, but I just don't see us together, I see you as just like a… friend." I said, sadly, I really feel bad, harry is a really great guy, I just don't think I candle handle having these brewers around all the time. He smiled, and I looked at him questioningly, "friends?" he asked, and I smiled back and nodded. "I know you like jack, he really likes you, I can tell. You just need to convince him, that he likes you, as crazy as that sounds, jacks the kind of person, who's been hurt one too many times, and he'll do anything he can to block everyone else out, convince him you love each other, before he tries to go out and forget about you." harry said, really seriously for once. And I nodded, not even denying that I like jack, "well I've got to go. Bye" he said standing up, and kissing my cheek to leave.

I know I like jack, but do I love him?

Nicole's pov

Ugh, Kim just… aggravates me! I mean, no she probably didn't know that I liked Harry but come on, does she really have to come here and first day, boom she's got a boyfriend?! I was apparently looking angry, because Brett asked me, "what's with the thinking, mad face nikki?" he asked me, as I giggled at the nick name. "nothing just… my ex-best friend, just comes back into my life, and steals the guy that she knew I liked a lot, and it's just so frustrating." I said, with a big sigh at the end, "let me guess, this 'ex-best friend' is Kim, and this 'guy you like' is Harry?" he asks, smiling. And I nod again. He laughed, "you know… I think I just over heard harry and kim talking and they mutuallydecided to break up, so I think this 'guy you like' Is single" brett said, with a wink. I squealed, very loudly may I add. "thank you. Thank you. Thank you!" I said excitedly. "well, you still have to like, tell him you like him don't you?" he asks me, and my face falls, and so does my mood. He's right, he may be single, but if I don't tell him anything, he may not being single for long.

How am I supposed to do this? What if he doesn't like me back?

Jacks pov

I was lying in my bed, listening to music, just thinking. How could Kim say those things, how could she blame me for the kiss. I mean, yeah I kissed her first, but she didn't have to kiss me back, she didn't have to take my shirt off, she have to be so god damned irresistible. yes, I said it, I like Kim, but I promised my self that I'd never love anyone else again. I continued thinking, mainly about Kim, until a knock on the door broke me out of my thoughts. There was a knock, then the door cracked open, "can I come in?" I heard madz' voice squeak, "yea" I mumbled, lying back down. She walked in, and laid on the bed next to me, turning towards, putting her hands and head on my chest, looking at me expectantly. "what?!" I snapped at her, I hated when she gave me those puppy dog eyes. She looked appalled and upset, sitting up, I sat up also, "I'm sorry madz, I've just been thinking about a lot lately." I say, hugging her to my chest, I kept my arms wrapped around her as we talked. "what'd you do to Kim?" she asked me quietly, and sighed, lying back down. "I kissed her…" I said, monotone. "jack-" she starts, but I cut her off, knowing what she'll say. 'you shouldn't have done that. She was in a relationship, WITH YOUR BROTHER. Blah, blah, blah.' "no madz, it wasn't all my fault, she kissed back, and not just 'kiss I need to go' but she really kissed me, she took my shirt off, she kissed me again after we stopped. I didn't tell her to! I kissed her, hoping it would get her away from me, but it only made things worse!" I said aggregately. "ok jack, I understand, but I think you should talk to her, or something!" she pleas with me. "do you like her?" she asks, and I think about it for a minute, and nod. "do you love her?" and that's the question…

I know I like Kim, but do I love her?