Who's Keeping Score? - Chapter 10
Kim's p.o.v
…I wake up, the sun beaming in my eyes; I open my eyes, before slamming them closed again, the events from… whenever… hit me like a ton of bricks, and it wasn't pleasant. I finally got the nerve to open my eyes again, this time I kept them open, taking in my surroundings; I was in a room…not mine. I was in a bed…not mine. I was laying on… something… not mine. I turned over and saw jack… not mine. But I'm assuming he's the one who saved me, or I wouldn't have lived to tell the tale. I noticed jacks arm wrapped around my torso, securely. Safely. I had my arms wrapped over his. If we were a couple I would've thought this was so sweet, and caring, and loving. But instead, I felt a yearning for him, like I didn't want him with anyone else; to go anywhere else, to ever leave me. I tuned over so I was facing him, I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as I sang, just to free my heart, of something stuck inside of it.
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
Don't you dare look out your window, darling,
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when music's gone
Gone
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)
La La (La La)
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)
Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...
Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh oh oh.
[Repeat 'til fade]
I had closed my eyes, somewhere near the beginning, feeling the need to cry, but swore I'd never let it out. So now, I just laid there, life less, trying to get the feel of Cameron's dirty hands off of me, but somehow I knew they couldn't be rubbed off, they needed to be replaced. Just as I finished that thought, I was turned over on my back, I felt the hot breath of someone over me, by instinct, and I flinched, huddled in a pathetic little ball. "That was beautiful kimmy" he whispers… him meaning jack. I opened my eyes, relieved to find him hovering over me, his hands holding him up. I immediately reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck and legs around his hips like my life depended on it, making him collapse to his elbows, making our body's that much closer. I pull my face away from the hug, looking into his eyes before I slammed my lips onto his. Trying to show him my thanks. My apologies. MY LOVE! I'm assuming he got it when he kissed my lips with just as much force. Our tongues battled for dominance, although mine wasn't up for much of a fight, as I backed down easily, and just moaned at the sensations this simple gesture has caused me. I grabbed the hem of his shirt, mumbling 'off' in the process; he sat up, his knees at my hips, straddling me, holding me down. He pulled off his shirt, and I hate to say that I was gawking at his sexiness, and damn those abs. I sat up, and got on my knees, so I was facing him, I put my hands on his chest and rubbed all the way down, to his torso, and the skater jeans, I'm assuming he fell asleep in. I fiddled with the top of his jeans as he growled; he kissed me again, putting one of his hands on the small of my back and the other, underneath my shirt, rubbing my stomach. I pulled away from the kiss, and went to pull off my shirt when he grabbed my hands to stop me "what are you doing Kim?" he asks, his forehead leaning against mine, "what does it look like jack, I'm making it even" I said, and commenced to taking off my shirt, but he stopped me again "Kim, we can't do this, not now. You've just been through a traumatic experience, this should be the last thing you should be doing" he said, I immediately felt my heart break, it felt like he didn't want me, at least not nearly as much as I wanted him. I dropped off my knees, and to my butt, scooting backwards, like the person in front of me was the scariest thing on earth. I probably had terror in my eyes, as I kept scooting backwards, until my back hit the head board, the terrifying images had returned to my brain and it was way too much to handle, all at once. I curled up in a ball and did something I haven't done in a while, I cried.
A/n alright guys I hope you liked this chapter, if you don't mind reading the top a/n that'd be great it has some IMPORTANT info. Just kidding it's not over, continue reading.
He crawled over to me, and put a hand on my bare leg (I was only wearing his t-shirt, and underwear) as soon as he put his hands on me, I flinched and started shaking, he pulled me into his lap, "what's wrong kimmy?" he asks, scared that he did something to hurt me. "It- hurts- it all- hurts- jack! His- touch-… still- on me… it burns… it brings back- memories" I say still in my ball, but sit up to look into his eyes to say this "replace it jack, please! It burns too much! If you cared for me, you'd do this, take away this hurt!" I say, looking into his eyes, tears still in mine, "Kim I can't… I don't want you to do this, just because of him. Kim, I love you god damn it! And if were up to me I'd take you… right here. Right now!" he says utter pain in his voice. "Do it jack! Please!" I beg, and with that, he kissed me. He continued. We continued.
Time skip- still Kim's p.o.v.
We made love that night, and I could easily say it was the BEST night of my life. Now it was in the morning, that's all I know, I don't even know what day it is. We were just lying there, staring at each other, giving the kisses… or make out sessions. When the question popped in my head "hey jack, what's today?" I ask, as he turns to lie on his back, and I lay my head on his arm and my hand resting on his bare chest. "Um, Friday, why?" he asks, I immediately pop out of bed, knowing what today is, "oh my gosh jack, today's Friday? I was out for 3 day, today is the masquerade, we're still going, right?" I ask, much panicked. He gets up, taking his sweet time, and walks over to me, wrapping his arms around my his and rocking us back and forth, he brings his mouth close to my ear, planting a few kisses along the way, "if you want to baby…" he whispers, which sent chills through me. I smile, and pat him on the chest "well then I've got to go" I say, throwing on his t-shirt and a pair of my leggings, and begin to walk out the door with a smile, get down stairs before he runs after me, "Kim wait! Where are you going?" I go to the front door to leave when he reaches me; he grabs my wrist and turns me around, "I think you forgot something" he says, with a smirk. "oh ya" and with that I push my lips onto his, for about a minute of pure passion, lust, and love, "I've got to go baby" I say, pulling away, "ok baby… love you" he says, as he lets me go…
Time skip- at the masquerade
Wow! I went home, showered, changed, ate, bought a dress, shoes, and mask, and got dressed, hair and make-up, in 4 hours. I am amazing! I get ready to go to the dance before I remembered I didn't have a ride, and I didn't feel like driving, there was no chance I was going with aurora, I wanted to meet jack there, that's what we agreed on. So I called my back up best friend which is more of a friend than aurora will EVER be, Grace. I text her she says ok. I hear a honk, which must be grace; I go down to find a, white 2014 Porsche. Yep, that's definitely her. I get in the girl, us both smiling like crazy, "hey girl! Damn! You look hot!" she says, I nod a smile "you too Gracie!" and we drive off to the dance… (A/n- Kim's outfit… this took forever so be thankful… lol…. This is the mask- search?hl=en&tbm=isch&tbs=simg:CAQSVRpTCxCo1NgEGgIIAwwLELCMpwgaLAoqCAESBNkH0 QcaIINJVVa_1ZrW41BbKxH92hqbrshOKgleJ-ZW0VXBYK9SVDA sQjq7-CBoKCggIARIErDijpAw&sa=X&ei=ux05UqWOC4es9ATukoGgAw&ved=0CCcQwg4oAA&biw=1600&bih=799&dpr=1#facrc=_&imgrc=Ta3k5gnafJDdAM%3A%3B-NriO0JmcxcqkM%3Bhttp%253A%252 F% . %252F6816e2c139cd2ec05185f8e33fa41232%252Ftumblr_m pizquwM7X1sn9d9xo1_ %3Bhttp%253A%252F% .net%252Ftagged%252Fmasquerade-mask%3B500%3B375 – the dress- . - the hair- .pl/proste-delikatne-upiecie-na-wiele-roznych-okaz ji/ - the shoes- /pin/4072 - the jewelry is just a white lace choker, white lace bracelet, and white lace and jeweled earrings, with white eye shadow, mascara, and lip gloss) we get there and I get out, on the way I had told grace about… what happened, with Cameron. She knew I still flinched at anybody's touch besides hers and jacks so she clung to me all the way inside, I walked in side, praying to find jack, and that he's not sucking face with some other girl. Next thing I know, my eyes are covered and hot breath is near my ear, "hey gorgeous" he whispers, I turn around, a smile from ear to ear, I kiss him, "I missed you" I whispered against his lips, then someone began talking through the microphone, so we turned to look at them, "oh ladies and gentlemen, tonight, we have Kim Crawford singing for us, come on up Kim" the lady said, and I immediately realized I had a blonde moment, I forget I agreed that I sing a song at the dance. Ugh. I look at jack with pleading eyes, begging him to get me out of this, "go on kimmy, you'll be great, and my eyes will never leave yours" he smiles, I slightly nod and walk up to the stage, "um, hi everyone, tonight I'll be singing an acoustic version of one of my original songs 'nothing without love, so I hope you like it" (s/n- I suggest watching this- watch?v=-r8QQDTmOR8)
We are nothing without it
We are nothing without it
We are nothing without love
Cause there's just something about it, we can't live without it
We are nothing without love
Nothing without love
We are
We are
Stop. Let me tell you bout a time in my life when I was sitting out
Wishing that she was still around every night.
Thinking about you, call your phone
Never get a busy tone, we could go somewhere alone
And it would be alright.
I could have everything that this world has to offer
but without you it wouldn't mean a thing.
I could have the riches baby on a silver platter
But I would trade it all for just one ring
Cause we are nothing without it
We are nothing without it
We are nothing without love.
There's just something about it, we can't live without it
we are nothing without love.
Nothing without love
we are
nothing without love
we are
nothing without love
let me tell you about a girl on replay in my mind everyday
Wish she would never go away, please stay.
Kissing you from head to toe, say I love you so you know
That I'll never I'll let you go, I'll take the burn, to touch your flame
I could have everything that this world has to offer
But without you it wouldn't mean a thing.
I could have the riches baby on a silver platter
But I would trade it all for just one ring
Cause we are nothing without it
We are nothing without it
We are nothing without love.
There's just something about it, we can't live without it
we are nothing without love.
Nothing without love
We are
Nothing without love
We are
Nothing without love
People we all take love for granted
We don't know what we got until it's gone
People we all take love for granted
We don't know what we got until it's gone
Cause we are nothing without it
We are nothing without it
We are nothing without love.
There's just something about it, we can't live without it
we are nothing without love.
Nothing without love
we are
nothing without love
we are
nothing without love
we are
nothing without love
I sang my final, words, said "thanks guys" and walked off stage, and too jack. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and clung on, while taking a deep breath. That was our night. That was us. This is us. There's no more score to keep. We are even. We are in each other's arms. And there was always love.