Disclaimer- I do not own Bleach, but I do own the oc's. Thanks for reading the story so far and I hope you continue to read.

Sorry that Aizen's point of view hasn't been in the story yet, so guess what you can expect in this chapter ;)

Chapter 5- Lost In My Thoughts

Emiko's POV

I waited in the bar another hour for Kisuke to arrive until I finally decide to call it a night and leave. I didn't really care that he never showed up because all I could think about was my mother as I walk down the dark roads in the Rukon District by myself. If she still thought I was some sort of monster then why would she want to see me?

Maybe now after all these years she finally feels bad about what she had done and wants to apologize, but I really doubt that. She's probably still the same selfish person who left me all those years ago.

She said she was afraid I would kill her, but really she just wanted an excuse to leave me and escape our poor and pathetic life behind. She's an idiot if she thinks I'm not going to be pissed at her. I'd be surprised if she's not worried that I might just kill her now when I see her, but even with the feel of hate I have towards her I still don't think I could ever do that.

With all that's on my mind I didn't notice I had made it all the way to the woods that separate the Rukon District and the Seireitei. I continue to walk on with the cool night air relaxing me, but I also felt like I wasn't the only one in these woods.

Sosuke's POV

Gin, Kaname and I quickly hid in the trees when we heard someone coming our way. I look down as the person walks by while showing a small smile on her lips.

"Isn't that Captain Kimura? What's she doing out here this late?" Kaname whispers.

"Maybe she heard 'bout the disappearances occurring 'round here and came ta check it out." Gin adds with the usual grin on his face. I continued to look down at her not bothering to answer either of them. She turns around and looks up at the tree I was hiding in like she could really see me. Then she suddenly points her finger up in my direction.

"Hado number four ... Byakurai." She whispers and a streak of lightning is shot from her fingertip and heads towards me. Before it makes it close enough to the tree the lightning's direction changes and hits the tree next to the one I was in.

"I think she knows we're here. Should I distract her while you two head back to the Seireitei?" Kaname asks startled from her sudden attack.

"There's no need Kaname. Our work here is done for tonight. You and Gin can go back now and leave her to me." I answer and Kaname reluctantly goes with Gin. I look back down at Emiko who was now leaning against one of the trees.

"I know you're still up there." Emiko says and I smirk thinking about what I should do now. I decide to not say anything yet because she probably doesn't know who's really up here. It remains silent for the next couple of minutes until she lets out a sigh loud enough for me to hear.

"Come down here now Sosuke so I can see you." She demands impatiently. I wait a minute before I do as she says and come out from my hiding place.

"You knew it was me the whole time?" I ask now standing in front of her. How did she know it was me if she couldn't even see me, I wondered.

"Yes but I didn't know who was with you."

"What do you mean? There's no one else here with me." I answer trying to pretend I didn't know what she was talking about.

"There were others with you and you better hope I don't find out who they are, or what you've all been up to out here. No one should be out here this late at night unless they're on a mission." She says in a strict voice.

"The same could be said to you Emiko. Why are you out here this late at night? You could have just used flash step to get back. Why didn't you?"

"It's really none of your business." She lets out a yawn and stretches her arms out. "I'm getting tired so let's head home now lieutenant." She says and starts to walk away from me. I won't let you go that easy I think then quickly grab on to her arm stopping her. "What is it Lieutenant Aizen?" She asks as her eyes meet mine.

"You've been distant towards me for a while now and it's starting to aggravate me. Nothing needs to change between us just because we now have different ranks." I tell her and she yanks her arm back.

"Let's go." She says with her eyes covered by her silver bangs. I narrow my eyes at her. She can really be stubborn sometimes. I want to become closer to her and have her depend only on me, but she always makes things hard for me. I guess I'll just have to continue with the original plan even if it ends up hurting her. I'll do whatever it takes.

Emiko's POV

We continue our walk through the woods quietly. I was always a couple of feet ahead of Sosuke. After what he had told me I didn't know how to answer. I didn't know if I should deny what he said even if it was true. I am trying to distant myself from him.

I really should just tell him the truth. I don't care if Tsumi and Sukui tell me not to trust him. I really didn't want to lose a friend like him. He's been there for me ever since Chiyoko left squad ten and me behind. When I'm with him or Mayumi the loneliness I feel goes away. I have never told anyone how I've been feeling since Chiyoko left but I think he already understands. I've never really let him know how much I appreciate it, but I'll do anything to keep him close by me. Him and Mayumi are the ones I can trust most now in my life.

I decide what to do and quickly stop to look back at Sosuke, and then wait until our eyes meet.

"Is something wrong Captain Kimura?" He says, his voice sounded cold. He had finally called me Captain Kimura but I didn't like it.

"I have been acting different towards you and I'm very sorry. You are my friend and I shouldn't have done that. A lot of things are going on and I just wanted one less problem to worry about. I really am sorry Sosuke. Is there anything I can do to make up for this?" I ask.

"There is." He says walking closer to me until he's just a couple of inches away. "Will you meet with me every evening from now on?" He asks and I nod.

"All right, if that's what you want." I tell him and we continue to walk until we finally reach the Seireitei. We go our separate ways and he told me what time to see him tomorrow.

I felt so exhausted as I walked down the hallways of the barracks to my room. I was definitely going to sleep in late tomorrow. I dragged my feet through the door noticing that Mayumi wasn't asleep on the couch like she usually is when I come home later at night. I walk into the bedroom not even bothering to change into my pajamas. I climb into bed and fall right to sleep.

The Next Morning-

I wake up feeling a lot better after my long rest. If only I could sleep a little longer and not have to worry about all the shit that's happening now along with all the other work I have to do as captain of squad ten.

After I was finished getting ready I leave my room and take a walk around the barracks. All the squad members seemed to be panicking. I start to walk over to a group of them and ask what was going on, but before I was able to someone calls out my name.

"Captain Kimura!" I turn around and see my third seat running over to me. "Oh Captain we're so glad that you're all right. We didn't know where you were." He says looking relieved.

"I was in my room and why wouldn't I be okay?" I ask him.

"You haven't heard? Several squad members disappeared last night. The members of squad twelve said their captain has gone missing too. We were worried about you because you two were out together last night." He explains and my eye widen. Kisuke is missing? That would explain why he never came to the bar last night.

I walk past my third seat and quickly run out of my divisions barrack to squad five. Shinji can probably tell me more about what's really going on.