Rambling mode ON. Feel free to skip. I can't believe that it has been 2 years since House ended. Dang! and I'm still obsessed with Huddy. I just finished re-watching House from season 1-6 and what I can say is that the series was really great. And it made me think that other series are lame and stupid and nothing can stand next to House. But sometimes I just wished that they just ended the series at season 6. Because up until today, I still can't bring myself to re-watch season 7, eventhough that season was where each episodes (well up until they were together)would make me smile the whole week (of course during that time), just thinking about Huddy scenes. But looking back, I can't believe how I didn't realized how unhappy they were together. well, maybe because I was too blinded by my happiness of finally seeing them together. But, yeah, thinking about s7 just make me sad and I know I said that I can't bring myself to rewatch s7 earlier. But the other day, one of the channels in my country was playing 'Now What?' and damn, all I can see was the unhappiness of Cuddy, well maybe there were her small smiles here and there but damn. And s8 was just a big disappointment for me. Finally, what sadden me the most about House is maybe because we will never get our closure of Huddy from the show. damn! I miss Hugh Laurie :(

She didn't hear from him for two weeks, and even her father didn't mention his name, well, it's not like they were in relationship or anything. But, she was just tired of keeping herself busy in order not to over analyzed the things that had happened between them after the dinner.

"Boss, there's a request of menu" Rob said to Alex that was talking with one of the cook.

Alex raised her eyebrows and said "that's rare, what is it?"

"Salmon and Mediterranean salad" Rob read the note.

"huh…coming right up" She turned and straight away started to gather the ingredients with a smile tugging.

She did not delivered the food, in fact she came out when he was half way through his meal.

"you came" she said upon arrival at his table

"I came. And you missy have one hell of a talent"

"what?" Alex asked confused

"you know what I'm talking about"

She smiled and reply "It's nothing"

"interesting"

"what?" she asked totally confused

"the fact that you said it's nothing, is interesting"

She laughed and said "actually, I bet that you would probably say interesting to whatever my answer was"

With her remarked, House realized something, "would you like to go out with me?" House asked surprising Alex. Because at that moment, he realized that she might be his shot at happiness.

To tell the truth, Cuddy didn't know why she chose Alex's music store for Rachel in the first place, but one thing for sure, it was not because of the close distance as the journey from her house to the music store takes about 45 minutes drive. What she remembered was that, Jenn suggested this place when Cuddy was searching music class for Rachel. She told about how she was close with the owner and how the store actually belonged to Alex's father and how it became as a place to learn music.

The drive back to Cuddy's house was so silent that you could even hear if a pin drop. From time to time House would glanced at the side mirror in pretence to look at Cuddy. While Cuddy remained passive next to him, looking straight forward and watched his movement from the corner of her eyes, giving the direction to her house once in awhile. House pulled up at her driveway, putting the car into park. They remained silent, only accompanied by the sound of the engine, both don't know what to say and how to start. Cuddy glanced at Rachel, she's still sound asleep in the car seat and she glanced at House for the first time since she entered his car and was surprised that he was staring at her. The words that she had formulated in her mind and was just at the tip of her tongue, caught in her throat. House that still maintained his eyes on her understood what just happened. He pursed his lips and drummed his fingers on the steering wheel for a second, then turned off the engine.

Opening his door, "I'll carry her" he said and exited the car.

Cuddy that was dumbfounded, quickly reached for her bag which was situated at her feet and made her way to him.

"no, it's okay House, I can carry her" Cuddy said while reaching her hands towards Rachel that was already in his arms.

"I got it Cuddy" he said and gestured his hand so that Cuddy lead the way. "besides, I'm used to it". Cuddy looked at his face and noticed the smile that tugged his lips during his second comment. Then she looked at his shoulder, where Rachel's head was on and tucked the hair that was covering Rachel's face. Unlocking the door, Cuddy made room for House to let him go in first, he waited as Cuddy closed the door behind them and switching on the necessary lights. She lead the way to Rachel's room and made a quick rearrangement of Rachel's teddy and pillows before House lay Rachel down. Stepping aside, House waited for Cuddy and watched as she tucked in Rachel and kissed her, not knowing if she prefer him to wait outside or don't trust him to be out of her sight. House didn't noticed the small distance between them, as Cuddy was seating on Rachel's bed, however, the distance between them was proven small when Cuddy rose from the bed and almost collided with him - almost being the keyword. If he were to lean in, his lips would probably have contact with her forehead. Cuddy on the other, was now staring at his neck, his pinkish neck – gosh he's so tall. She forgot how short she was compared to his height. Clearing his throat, House took a step aside, so that she can walked pass him. House followed her quietly with his eyes focused on the floor, they walked out of Rachel's room, passed the living room and now they stop in front of the door.

Cuddy turned and faced him. "thanks for everything". She said looking straight into his eyes, with both her hands tucked in her jeans' back pockets not knowing what to do with them.

"no problem" he said holding her gaze and just like that, there they stood for a while, both unwilling to look away first.

"would you like a cup of coffee before you go?"Cuddy asked.

House raised his eyebrows, shocked clearly registered on his face. "su..sure". His ears turning red in a split second after the word left his mouth, embarrassed after losing his coolness with the stuttering answer.

Cuddy can't help but smiled seeing his response and continued to walk towards the kitchen. She took her time in preparing the coffee for him and tea for herself, not glancing his way since they entered the kitchen, while he scanned the kitchen and finally pulled one of the chair at the counter and placed his jacket and sat down. Cuddy placed his drink in front of him and sat opposite him, facing each other.

"She's a big girl now". House said, with a smile on his face "and I also wanted to thank you" looking her straight in the eyes.

"she is, sometimes I feel bad when I have to wake her up and make her walk. For what?" Cuddy asked, puzzled with his gratitude.

"for not telling Alex that you know me" he said.

"it's not my place to tell. So..are you going to tell her? Does she even know about us?" as Cuddy asked, it became clear that her tone was changing.

"I…I don't know" he whispered, his eyes looked just like the night he kissed her when she lost Joy. Shaking his head, like coming out of a trance, he looked at her right, at the kettle just behind her. Unconsciously, three of his right fingers rotated the ring on his left hand and he answered "She..Alex knew just roughly. She knew that I had..we had a bad break up, she knew what I did to you and…she knew that you are The One, the love of my life". He paused and as if remembering something, he said "yet..she accepted me. She became my rock, both of them actually, Alex and Sara. She never gets tired of listening to my 'Wilson story'" he said with his eyes still remained on the kettle.

Somehow, her heart feel heavy, she knows that she has no right to feel hurt, betrayed or jealous. However that didn't stop her from feeling just that. "she's nice..and she's my friend now", she said and that made him look her in the eyes.

"I will always choose you" in that momentshe remembered what he had said that night, somehow she wish that he will say that again, maybe she did purposely said the word friend so that he will say what she so wanted to hear. To believe that she was still his choice over anything – his brilliance, medicine, his life or his current partner and that last thought make her hate herself even more. Scared that he might be able to read her, she changed the subject "what did you do to your leg?"

"stem cell regeneration. It's still under trial but it allowed me to do things that I can't do before and doing physical therapy also helps"

"oh yea..your limp is also subtle. People don't notice it unless, they are looking for it. What about the pain?"

"it comes and goes but it's not something I can't handle, I mean compared to the pain back then, the highest now is probably a 5" House said nonchalantly.

Putting down his cup after taking a sip, he looked at her and smiled "it's nice to see you Cuddy"

Smiling, "it's nice to see you too House"

"how did you know that I was alive?" he asked straight to the point.

"believe it or not, Wilson actually told me"

"that bitch" House said smiling and shaking his head.

And at that moment, a chorus of 'your mama don't dance' came from his pocket. House looked at her, while his hand reached for the phone in his pocket. "hi!" he said averting his eyes, while Cuddy maintained watching him. Listening to whatever being said, House then continued "I'm still at Lisa's actually, needed a shot of caffeine then I will probably head straight to my place since it's closer. Okay. Me too, Good night Alex". Placing the phone back into his pocket, House looked at Cuddy who's raising her eyebrow with a smirk on.

"I can't remember the last time you ever call me Lisa"

"well, that is your name isn't it?..and that is what she called you". Looking at his watch, he said "I should probably go, it's late" placing his hand at the back of the chair and standing up.

"yeah" Cuddy said and standing up as well.

They made their way to the front door, with House leading and Cuddy following behind him, he stopped and turned facing her, putting his right hand into the jacket and the other, leaving it unzip. Cuddy just looked at him and when he finished putting on the jacket she resisted the urge of pulling the front of the jacket together and zipping it. She moved her attention towards his face and she can see that he's trying to read what she was thinking. On the surface, it looks like he was under control, but in truth he really didn't know what to do. In his mind, if they were to meet again, he imagined that maybe they bumped into each other or something related to a difficult case, never he expected that it will be in this circumstance, where he meet her again through his wife. How screwed up was that. He watched as her eyes moved across his face, without considering the impact, he took a step forward, his right hand moved towards her left elbow, and he leaned down to kiss her left cheek, upon the touch, she closed her eyes and her right hand automatically touched his jaw and she turned her head to kissed his cheek back and both stood in that position for a moment with their eyes closed. House was the first to move, by straightening his back, leaving no choice for Cuddy but to remove her hand from his jaw but his hand was still on her elbow, looking straight into his eyes, Cuddy took a step forward and her arms wrapped around his waist, her head settled at his chest, and her nose nuzzled him. House released a long breathe and wrapped his arms around her waist, leaning down and kissed her head. "I miss you" he heard her mumbled. "I miss you too Cuddy".

"Cuddy" he said after a moment of silence, she glanced up and looked him in the eyes and that was it. His lips was on hers, or her lips was on his first, both not sure who initiated first but they were kissing, lips on lips, exchanging saliva, her lips were so much softer against his. He can feel her tongue seeking entrance into his mouth and he let her in, to devour him, he can taste her Earl Grey tea, one of his hands was now on her ass, while his other hand was holding her thigh that was hooked to his leg. He moved towards her neck, he ran his mouth from her throat to her ear. This elicited a moan from Cuddy resulted in both realizing the situation they were in – Cuddy shocked from her moan and House shocked from his erection and the horror of knowing that Cuddy felt it too.