Chapter 3: Safe

Disclaimer: I do not own Victorious

Will This Ever Change?

(~~Jade's POV~~)

Stupid Mr. Alan with his stupid Biology homework on a stupid Monday. This day just wasn't my day. Well I am looking forward to hanging out with Vega, and lunch. But mostly hanging out with Vega. As I walk into the Asphalt Café, I see Beck, Cat and Robbie already at our usual table. Getting a salad from the Grub Truck, I make my way to them I decide to sit in between Cat and Beck.

"Hey guys," I say in a sour tone.

"Hi hi!" "Hey" "Sup?" is what I get in return.

"So how's your day going so far, Jade?" Beck asks in his usual cool voice.

"Bad, but it'll hopefully get better. Mr. Alan gave me some Biology homework already, and I ran into Sinjin. I almost cut off his balls for sniffing me!" I say aggravated just by rethinking my day.

"Easy there tiger. No need to get suspended on your first day," he laughs. A laugh which is interrupted by Andre's and Vega's arrival.

"Hey guys!" Vega says in a too cheery tone. Every one greets her back and we all fall into a conversation about how our summer break went. Beck went to Canada and visit his family. He hasn't been in a stable relationship ever since he and I broke up. It was mutual. He understood our feelings were that of family and not lovers. Of course he also asked if had an eye for someone else, which of course, I responded honestly and said it was Vega. He wasn't even surprised. Said he had it coming, but he was very understanding. Cat spent her break with her Nona, and came home 2 weeks before school started. I also told her about my crush on Vega. She, as well, took it nicely and congratulated on admitting my feelings. Whatever the hell that means. Robbie spent his break home working on some weird invention thingy. He says it's a surprise. When he said he'll show us will remain a mystery. Andre spent his break going to parties and hanging out with Vega. I swear, those two spend so much time together. Vega mostly spent it at home doing whatever she does. Which would probably singing. Actually, I guess I don't really know much about Vega. It's something I hope I will eventually achieve. We spent our lunch talking and talking until the bell rang, and we made our way to our fourth class of the day. I had Art next which was I was very good at and very fast at. So much actually, that I usually turn in my art early and I have a free-day. Art, to me, is something I use to express myself. My favorite style of art is realism and I am quite good at it. In my spare time I usually draw people or animals that I admire, but I draw it better when I can actually see it. Lately I've been working on Tori but since I can't directly see her while drawing, it's a bit hard to draw her from memory. But enough of that.

The rest of school was pretty much irrelevant, so I'll skip ahead to after school.

I arrive at my house around 4-ish and my mom is there to greet me.

"Hey Jade. How was your first day of senior year baby?" she asks me.

"As expected. Grouchy teachers, gossip, but I tried your advice on being nice to Vega."

"Oh? And how did it go? Surely you didn't scare her of did you?" she inquires.

"No," I roll my eyes at her playfully, "Actually, she invited me to her house this afternoon so we can try this whole "friend" thing."

"That's very good sweetie! At what time did you guys agree? You must get ready, and clean yourself up Jade!" she starts ranting like if this was a date with Vega.

"Mom!" I say loudly to get her attention which works, "We didn't agree on a time actually, but your right I should get ready." I say as she gives me a nod in apology.

Well, since Vega and I didn't really settle on a time, I guess I'll just text her.

To Vega: At what time should I come over?

I wait a couple seconds so she can reply.

To :{) Jade: Geez, well hello to you too, Jade. At around 6 would be great. :)

To Vega: Alright Vega. Expect me to be late, so don't wait up on me. ;)

Okay. That text was too risky. I just lose my cool around her. I just hope I don't freak her out this afternoon. Just as I set my phone down so I can eat, I receive a text from Vega.

To :{) Jade: Oh Jade, always one to disappoint. Haha. See you later friend :)

Of course she'd put "see you later friend." Typical Vega. As I finish eating and taking a shower I decide to go with a plain black t-shirt with a gray hoodie over it, some black skinny jeans, and my trademark combat boots.

When I arrive at her house it's about 6:35p.m. Once I get to her door I decide to just barge in like always since I saw that her parent's cars weren't in the drive way. I head up to her room and find her sitting there reading a book, her back facing me. From what I can see, she is wearing a hoodie with some sweatpants. I decide to go up to her ear and yell really loudly.

"Vega!" I yell and she practically covers her ears and closes her eyes tightly, much like when Cat hears an argument between two friends. "Woah woah woah. Chill Vega. It's just me. No need for an overreaction." I try to reassure her with a hand on her shoulder, when I see that she is actually in fact scared. Shivering, she was shivering. Never have I really seen her scared. Not when she sang for Trina nor when I tormented her as harshly as I used to, and this sight of Vega in fear makes my chest feel heavy.

"Jade! What the heck? You scared the chiz out of me!" she said after she realized it was me. "Geez Jade, don't ever disturb me when I'm reading!"

"Well at least now I know something of you," I smirk at her. She stays quiet after that and the room is so full of tension, you can cut it with a knife. "Why did you really freak out like that Vega? Normally you wouldn't do that, would you?" I ask her, knowing there's more to it with my voice full of concern.

"I just- sometimes, it's really lonely and quiet here, that the tiniest of noises scare me. It gets really lonely here when my parents are out working or on dates. Sometimes I think they don't care about me. Not after I came out to them about being gay. They used to always hang out with me and Trina. We all used to go to picnics twice a month. And have family talks i\n the living room. But now… now they don't have time. And it scares me to have no one to talk to about these feelings and thoughts I have. I understand Andre has to take care of his grandma. Cat is a bit clueless in these types of things. Talking to Beck feels weird. And Robbie always has Rex so it makes me feel uncomfortable. So I don't know how to keep these emotions at bay without exploding. Sometimes I just want to go away for a while, like to some kind of sanctuary. But there's no place I can take refuge in. Such place doesn't exist for me," she confesses, and I feel the need, the want, to take care of her and be there for her. I'm the first that she has told this to, and I want to just.. take away the pain she's enduring. So I say the first thing that comes to mind,

I look directly in her eyes, searching for her heart through them because my words have to go to her heart. "Maybe such place that can take away your pain might not exist, but maybe such person does exist. And I'll be that person for you. Like I said before, I do care about you. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be there, okay? I might not know how, but I want learn how to be there for you. A person like you, so selfless and compassionate, shouldn't undergo this type of thing. You deserve happiness, and attention because you're a wonderful friend," I gently run my hand through her hair and hold her with my other, "a wonderful friend that I want to learn more about, a friend that I need to have in my life and vice versa. Tori, you can count on me if you ever feel lonely, or scared, or just want to hang out. Know that I'll be there to comfort you and to fight by your side. I'll be here Tori, and that's not going to change, not even if you want it to." By the time I finish, she has tears in her eyes and she's smiling a smile I've never seen her make. Is it a smile of relief? Sorrow? Both?

"Thanks Jade. You don't know how much that means to me. Especially coming from you to me," she laughs lightly, "and I would really like it if I could count on you for support. That was a beautiful speech Jade. You have such way with words you know? Will you send the night here?" I suddenly realize it's about to be half past nine.

"I-I don't know Vega. I don't even have spare clothes for bed. And how would I know you won't molest me after you just told me you're gay?" I try to joke as an attempt to lighten up the mood. But before she can answer I add, "And since you told me about yourself, I'll also tell you about myself," well here goes, "I'm also gay," and it feels good to say that out loud to her.

"Well that's quite a surprise. Here," she hands me some nighttime clothes, " I would've never guessed it Jade," she chuckles, "Then I guess you wouldn't mind if I felt you up in your sleep huh?" she started laughing. And after hearing her laugh, I can't help but to also laugh.

"I guess I wouldn't Vega. But the real question is, would you mind If I felt you up?" I said and smirked when I saw her face redden. I get in the left side of her bed and she gets in the right side of the bed. "Good night Vega," I say after I yawn.

"Sweet dreams, Jade," and with that she starts to snore lightly which I find quite dorky, and I add that to my mental notes on things that Tori does that I didn't know about her.

Morning comes and I wake up tangled in Vega's embrace. Her face buried in the crook of my neck while her arms are around my stomach right under my boobs and her tan legs in between mine. Of course Vega would be into cuddling and spooning. But I'm not complaining, and I could even call it a wonderful night. And I want this moment to last forever so I take a picture of her beautiful, peaceful, face and decide to go back to sleep and wait for morning to come.