"Sometimes
people reappear in your lives
to either teach you
a new lesson
or come back for you
or just because they want something
but it's your choice whether they get to
come back in or
not"
~the monster in your head
..._+_+...~,~
As I head down the steps with Carter by my side, I open the door slowly. Instead of Logan- I see Andy with two people behind them- M-M-y parents. I gulp slowly and nervously. My parents hold a hard expression on their faces when they see me but it fades when they see Carter and then they look back at me.
"Carter? why isn't she at the college?" My mother asks. Carter looks down at me. Then responds, "Some guy named Matt tried to kill her and her room-mate and the head of the school saw that she was sos scared that they recommended she leave because she had nightmares and it turned out the Matt was real".
"She tried to kill us..she killed her own sister" my father spoke harshly like I wasn't even there. Carter hesitated.
"It wasn't her who tried to kill you- it was my brother..Logan I'm truly sorry..he wanted her for himself" Carter exchanges a sad expression. My parents face soften but I grow furious.
"If you came here to send me back good luck- now that I wanna contact my brother you wanna show up and act like parents when really your just pathetic-" I snap and turn to leave with tears in my eyes. My mother grips my hand. I look back with anger on my face.
"We thought you were dead- until, we heard Andy talking to a friend about you and grew concerned because we did think you killed your sister- but clearly we were mistaken" My mother speaks to me. I rip off her grip.
"And it only took you so long to realize that- it had to take another person for you to believe me. Frankly, I really do hope you feel like shit now that you know the truth. And that you feel even more like crap now that I don't want you back in my life" I spoke harshly with tears that fell like hail come down from my eyes and roll down my cheeks. I storm inside the house and head to my room and slam the door. In 2 minutes I hear the door close and the sound of Carter coming to my room.
"Open up Chance," He knocked on the door,"Andy cried for you". I open the door fast and wipe my eyes.
"how you holding up?" he says rubbing his back and sighing. I shake my head and do the unthinkable.. I go into his arms off guard. At first he is confused but then he rubs my back softly as I cry on hid bare chest. It must've been 3:00pm or something. I looked up at him to see his eyes closed still hugging me softly.
"how come I don't ever feel this way when I hug someone else?" I ask.
"maybe you've been hugging the wrong people" he says opening his eyes.
I side-smile.
"How come I feel so guilty...yet so not guilty" I ask.
"because your human and you make mistakes..sometimes the mistakes are just illusions" His eyes still on mine.
"you seem to know all the answers" I say. He exchanges a soft smile.
"maybe I do.." he says leaning toward me.
His lips touch mine again as we hugged. He holds my face softly as I have both my hands on his chest. As I lay down on my sheets I closes my eyes again as we kiss.
I wake up yet again but its 7:40p.m. I pick myself up and throw on clothes. "Chance?" He wakes with his hair all messy and his blue eyes peering toward me. I nod and side smiled.
"Let's go to a movie" He picks himself up and sits at the foot of the bed. He throws on pants, pecks my lips and heads to the shower. I put on a black dress and black converse with a choker, my hair straightened and some makeup with black lipstick. I looked great and I smelled like dove soap.
As I sit and peer at the sunset, I see Carter appearing...he looked great... he had a button-up black shirt , jeans and converse. His blue eyes popping out with the dark colors. I look away and open the door to outside. We both walk out and head to the bus stop.
"I cannot believe it was all a lie...not a beautiful lie.." I say cracking...
"I felt bad for him...I cared about him...I think it's better to be alone.."I say thinking twice about trusting him. He touches my hand.
"At least enjoy the movie" He suggests as the bus pulls up to us. I gulp hesitating then go with him as we swipe our metro cards. We sit together. He moves toward a window and I sit next to the other window. After 2 minutes I go to take a glance and I guess we both decided to at the same time cause our eyes met.
We both went to go sit next to eachother- but a girl sits next to me and another girl sits next to him. I motion myself out of sitting next to her and sit on another available seat by myself. I turn across from me to see that Carter did the same. I sat next to him and rested my head on his shoulder.
He smiles as his blue eyes look back at me. I close my eyes and as I did, I felt his soft velvety lips touch my lips softly in a beautiful way. It was as though our lips were puzzle pieces that fit together. I held his face as we kissed.
"Next stop Merrycane Movie Theatre" The bus driver says on the mic. I press the kiss away as I held his knee and he held mine. The other hand wrapped around my waist. As the bus stopped again, Carter gripped my hand and ran with me as we got off the bus stop laughing. I trip him and attempt to run ... but then he grabs my leg and I tumble on the ground too. I laugh and turn over my back to see Carter jump on top of me laughing. I push his shoulders in protest as he tickles me. I squeal laughing and then he motions his face closer to mine and our lips touch softly.
He helps me up as we walk to the movie theatre. I bought food as he decided to pick the movie. I see Andy with a group of guys his age.
"Andy?" I ask.
He looks back nervously then mouths the words. mom and dad are here. I gulp in nervousness as I hurried back to Carter. Carter slips his hand into mine and we walk toward the movie room we'd be watching the movie in. We get inside the dark movie room crowded with tons of teenagers, adults and pre-teens. We sit in the middle and I recline my seat back as I take some popcorn and eat. Carter sits next to me. We stare at eachother as we lay down on our seats. The movie begins and everyone applauds.
"A horror movie?" I ask nervously.
He nods smiling. He holds my hand and touches my face.
"Have fun.." he laughs as the movie begins.