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You may wonder how I felt about Jeiel. Did I actually love her, or was I using her as a sex toy in spite of making 2D jealous? Well, I don't know about love, but I did like Jeiel. Back in the original reality, the one where I had committed a hit and run on Jeiel's family. I did truly like her, she was just so sweet and forgiving to me even when I did almost killed her, and her family. And...quite possibly I had started gaining a crush on her.
I held in the crush because I knew that I could never have been with her, because of 2D, but now everything was different. I could be in a relationship with Jeiel, and 2D's jealousy was just an extra addition to this already sweet package.
Making my way back to the living room, just returning from 2D's confrontation, I was greeted by the rest of the Gorillaz. I searched for some cigarettes to smoke.
"I'm worried about 2D, he looks so awful lately. I don't know what's his problem, but he looks like he has lost his soul." Noodle said to Russel and Jeiel. I chuckled a bit, the three other band members not hearing me. When I didn't find a cigarette, I decided to sit back on the couch with everyone.
"Are you ready for tonight?" Jeiel asked me as I sat next to her.
"Um, ya sure...love. Refresh my memory please..." I asked to Jeiel.
"Tonight we get to spend a romantic and special evening together!" Jeiel squealed to me. I blinked a couple times.
"Oh ya, I almost forgot." I said to her as the others began changing the topic to something different.
A couple hours later I showered and changed into nicer looking clothing. Jeiel waited at the base of the stairs for me, a purse clutched in her hands. She wore a long lacy black dress and her long hair was straightened and down.
"Ready?" I asked her and Jeiel nodded eagerly.
Jeiel drove us to a fancy restaurant, and I was so glad she did. I had no idea of these plans for obvious reasons involving some time travel. At the restaurant, a waiter sat us at a booth. We sat across from each other. For once I decided to push away my lust and concentrate on deeper, more meaningful thoughts about Jeiel. When we ordered our food, I looked at her with contemplation.
"What? Is my make-up messed up?" Jeiel asked when she saw my puzzled expression.
"What if we never met? What if... we weren't meant to be together?" I asked Jeiel. She tilted her head to the side in confusion to my question. She then gently placed her hand on my own.
"Obviously we were meant to be together if we are here now." Jeiel said to me with a smile. I looked guiltily to the floor. I had been the one to tamper with destiny and fate.
"I know, but what if we won't last..." I said the last part quietly.
"Where did this come from?" Jeiel asked. She then pressed her lips together, thinking of what next to say.
Finally she spoke again, "Every couple fears this. I guess it's because they can never truly know how the other feels about them. But you saved me, from that crash a year ago! Some things were meant to happen. I would probably be dead if you hadn't saved me!" Jeiel said affectionately. I felt even guiltier about the fact that I had lied about that too.
"I've been thinking about the future too." Jeiel then said back to me.
"Oh?" I questioned her.
"We never have really talked about our future together." Jeiel said sweetly.
Soon Jeiel smiled and said, "In a year there could be a lot of changes in the Gorillaz." I looked at her with full attention.
"What do 'ya mean, love?" I asked with a bit of edge in my voice.
"Well I mean anything. 2D could get a girlfriend, Noodle a boyfriend, even Russel a girlfriend of his own! Who knows? I guess what I am really asking, is what would you think about marriage or children with me?"
My cheeks flushed wildly as she spoke. Whoa, she's talking about settling down... Shit, this is getting intense. I thought to myself. I had a very messed up love life when I was younger. I proposed to the woman I loved and it turned out she was having an affair with another man. So naturally I wouldn't take this question lightly. I scratched my head with some awkwardness.
"What exactly would your parents and brother think of this?" I asked. Jeiel's eyes darkened and she looked genuinely upset. A tear streamed down her face.
"What, love?" I asked getting up from my side of the booth and sitting next to her on her side.
"What's with you lately, did you hit your head? Do you have some kind of amnesia or something? Are you on drugs, is that what is affecting your memory?" Jeiel asked, turning away from me.
"W-what?" I stammered then thought of the answer to my forgetful memory. Jeiel looked back at me with tears brimming her make-up filled eyes.
"My mom and step-dad died in that crash. My brother is still in a coma..." She trailed off and began crying. I quickly ushered her into my arms as she sobbed. People stared at us as she continued to cry.
My heart skipped a beat. I had done it again, I had changed the past and ended up impacting the future with a treacherous event. In the alternate reality where I had first found the time travel coin, (The alternate reality I was meant to live in), I had hit Jeiel's family with the Winnebago, but none of them had died. Jeiel's mother and step-dad had recovered from their injuries and Jeiel's brother had woken up from his coma. Now...though, I had changed the future without realizing the threat I posed on everything that I changed. I killed her family... I gulped while thinking in my head. I hadn't realized that my actions had consequences...
A sick filling coursed in the pit of my stomach. The coin was gone, so I couldn't even change the past if I wanted. Jeiel sniffled as she finally got a grip on her crying.
"At least I have you." She whispered and kissed me without warning. I kissed back, but not as well as I usually did. I was so guilty and my hands shook with the shocking news of the death I had caused.
We soon ate and left the restaurant. Jeiel wanted to walk around the cool, breezy night instead of just going home. We held hands as we walked around the block. We soon laid on a patch of grass and looked up to the starry night. She hugged her little body against mine for warmth as we cuddled each other.
"That arrange of stars looks like a heart!" Jeiel exclaimed with a finger pointed up at the sky. I chuckled at her discovery and nodded my head. I began to recall the strong feelings I had buried in my mental conscience so long ago.
I looked at Jeiel with some difficulty as the only light that we were provided with was the moon. It shone down on Jeiel's face, outlining her feminine features. My heart began flipping like crazy, it was a feeling I hadn't felt in a long time... It was a feeling I felt right before I had proposed to my beloved to marry me. Of course that was before I knew of her affair. I never thought I would feel this way again.
"Jeiel." I called her name. She looked back at me.
"I know I'm not perfect, but I want you to know..." I trailed off. She looked at me expectantly.
"What?" She finally asked.
I gulped and began again, "I wanted to tell you that..." I cut myself once more, the words sticking to my tongue like glue, not wanting to escape my mouth.
"What, Mudsie?" Jeiel asked playfully.
"I-I... I bloody love you, Jeiel!" I finally coughed out. Jeiel's eyes widened. It was apparent that that was the first time I had ever told her that I loved her.
I waited for her to comment. My heart pounding and sweat collecting on my body the longer the seconds went by.
"Jeiel...Jei-" I was about to repeat her name again when she had kissed me. Our kiss lasted long. It was different though, it wasn't a lusty make-out, it was a passionate gentle kiss with some tongue rubbing. When we parted I smiled.
"I love you, too." Was the words that emanated from her mouth and instantly my guilt fell away. Adrenaline filled my blood stronger than any dose of ecstasy I had ever taken before. My mind raced with happy thoughts of our new life together. The life I had always wanted, and now had; a woman that truly loved me and was willing to share her life with me.
We then walked back to the car. It was pitch-black now, the moon covered by cars. Suddenly a car swerved around the corner and was heading straight for me! A drunk driver no less. Of course this would be my fate, dying from a drunk driver, like I had killed Jeiel's mom and step-dad from drunken driving. How ironic! I thought fearfully as I had no time to jump out of the way. Then I felt a hard push and was knocked down to the pavement just in time.
I stumbled as I tried to get up a bit dazed. I looked about to see Jeiel's limp body. The car right next to it. She had pushed me out of the way and gotten hit by the car instead. I instantly ran to her. The driver was already calling an ambulance and apologizing a million times but I ignored him.
"No, Jeiel. Why, why? I love you, please come back! Don't leave me!" I wailed.
At the hospital I waited in the waiting room, my body shaking horribly. Soon Russel, Noodle, and 2D had rushed in.
"How is she? What happened?" Was asked to me. I told them that the doctors' hadn't told me anything yet about her condition and then I explained what happened. 2D stared at me in disbelief. Fury filled his eyes.
"How could you let that happen?! How could you almost get her killed?!" 2D hounded me. I looked to the floor with so much regret. It should have been me... I thought bitterly to myself.
"Chill, Dee, it was just an accident." Russel tried to sooth the frothing 2D. 2D only shut his mouth and crossed his arms in response.
We all waited awhile for the doctor to come back with news. 2D held his head with his hands. When he finally rested his arms on his lap, one sleeve from his sweater was lightly pulled up, exposing his left wrist. My eyes popped out of my head when I witnessed four very distinct, horizontal slits in his wrists. They looked like they had just begun healing. My stomach felt even more sick at this sight. I had caused him to be so miserable... miserable enough to cut himself. I thought fearfully in my head, taking back all the pain I had caused poor 2D.
2D and I sprung to our feet at the same time when the doctor came to give us news.
"We are sorry to say, but we don't think she will make it. Only a miracle could accomplish that..." The doctor said grimly. 2D began sobbing violently, then before any of us could react, he dashed into Jeiel's hospital bedroom. I watched as he caressed her hair.
He bent down and I swear I heard him whisper, "I love you", before he kissed her unmoving lips. Jeiel lay still with her eyes closed. 2D then ran out of the hospital with such speed, not letting Noodle, Russel, or I talk to him. 2D was more reckless than I had ever seen him...