Hiding From the Future
Summary: We all have seen the fics about Bee running away as soon as he returned to Cybertron. But that's from the team's POV's. What about his own view? And why would he? Was it an instinct? A problem? Was he malfunctioning? Did it have to do with Prowl's deactivation? Was he just scared?
Pairings: Prowl/Bee
Disclaimer: I do not OWN.
Rating: T
Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Friendship, Family, Possible hints of Romance
Warnings: Bumblebee is LONELY.
Bumblebee was probably the only one of them who was actually scared about what was happening.
What if he was different when he woke up? What if he didn't remember anything? What if, when he saw Bee, he just blamed him for everything? What if...?
So here he was. Hidden away. Off on some backwater planet. Far away where no bot could find him. His spark signature was no doubt gone, and they all probably thought him deactivated. But that was fine with him. Even though he didn't know when they were going to attempt it-or if they already had, and succeeded-, he was content to be far away from them.
His old team. They never liked him. So it made sense why he would leave them when they came back to Cybertron. Besides, Prowl was the only reason he ever really stayed with them. Prowl was like his older brother. The love of his life, and everything else. All mixed into one. He was the only bot Bee could really love. But Bee couldn't have Prowl knowing how weak he was. Knowing that every time Prowl chased him, that Bee was doing it for attention. Bumblebee yearned for constant attention. It was his nature.
As one of the last mini-bots, no bot-except for his own kind- knew what they needed to thrive. Minibots needed attention. They never had had very high self-esteem. In fact, when one was the only minibot, that one 'bot would require more attention than if that minibot had others of his kind around him.
Bumblebee knew this, and he knew he needed attention. Even if it was bad attention. As long as he had it, he was happy. Prowl gave him attention. Maybe not intentionally, but he did. And it was good attention. Friendly, warm, comforting. Even if at times Prowl was mean, Bee knew why.
Which, in a way, all circled back to Bumblebee's current location.
When Prowl off-lined, Bumblebee had no reason to stay with the team. So he left them when they returned to Cybertron. First, he returned to Earth to be with Sari, because she was a good friend. But as she grew older, her time for him grew less and less. So eventually, he was just holding on to something non-existent. She wasn't going to give him anything else. She had her own family and younglings to care for. Her time for adventuring and pranks was at an end. She had moved on. Bee had to as well.
So after that, he went off to explore tha galaxy, and then other galaxies. Maybe some other world would have beings which could- and would- give him love. All he ever found was space; cold, empty, dark space. No life. Except maybe those creatures that hated light. He actually spent some time with them. He shut off all his speech capabilities, and powered off his optics. Then he floated around space in one of their groups for a few decades. Evetually though, some other strange creature came along and ate his 'friends', so he had to flee, quick before he was also eaten up.
Finally, he ended up here. That small backwater planet where no bot would ever expect to find him. Sari was no doubt long gone, Prowl was either already brought back to 'life', or was on his way to reactivation.
Bumblebee was living in the past. Or hiding from the future. Yeah, that was more like it. He was hidden from everything. He was a solitary mini-bot. In a way, he had finally accepted that attention was too good for him. So solitude was all he was worth...
Okay... Maybe a bit confuzzling... Yeah. A lot confuzzling. :P I hope you enjoyed.