Aagh, sorry the chapters are so short. But what I'd normally compress into one chapter is really a couple separate topics/song titles. So I gotta make them short.

Chapter 2: Not Fair

After hosting, I assumed Hikaru and I would just pile into our limo, and as usual, drive off. But right now I can't find him.

He's not in the back room. Nor in any of the bathrooms. I've called his cell twice, and left a message once. I'm extremely confused.

"Ugh, where is Hikaru?" I groaned, flopping on one of the couches. I buried my face in the pillows and sighed at the feeling of the cool fabric against my hot cheeks.

"I think I saw him." Honey says from behind me. I lift my head and see him standing there, holding Usa-chan. He has an almost quizzical expression on his face, as though he knows I'm more concerned than I should be but hasn't figured out the whole picture yet. I struggle to maintain a calm disposition as I query casually, "Where?"

"Hika-chan and Haru-chan left together." He says and something shifts in my intestines. I swallow and mutter, "Well, it would have been nice to have some warning."

I get up and fish my phone out of my pocket. A text from Hikaru.

"I offered to walk Haruhi home."

I sigh and look around. Tamaki is talking animately to Kyoya, and Honey and Mori are carrying on a conversation as well, although Honey is doing most of the talking. I press my lips together in frustration. Honestly, there are seven people in this club. One of us is going to be left out at some point. But why is it always me?

Walking out onto the grounds, I see the limo and our usual driver. As I get in, he says, "Hitachiin-sama, where is your brother?"

I'm really not in the mood for this, so I say, "I don't know where Hikaru is." I make sure to put emphasis on the Hikaru so he knows I'm Kaoru.

He just nods and the car pulls away from the curb. I relax into the seat and look out the window. It's spring, and the first nice day we've had in a while. Sunshiny and a little bit of wind. Everyone seems to be happier when this weather rolls around.

So. Hikaru ditched me for Haruhi.

What happened to Hikaru and I? We used to be so close. We were always wrapped up in our little world of 'us', letting the everyone else occupy the much bigger world of 'them'. Not that I'm saying I want to go back to that. But lately Hikaru has been seeming distant. He isn't the same. He tries to brush it off, but we are twins. I can practically tell what he's thinking.

Okay, well maybe not. On second thought, I don't think I wanna know what he thinks all the time.

But anyway, I'm pretty sure I know why he's distant. He loves Haruhi but is unsure if she loves him back. Trust me, I know the feeling. I swallow the lump in my throat a little angrily.

This... This isn't fair. I know that's a pretty childish thing to think, but it's the best I can think up right now. Our whole lives, we've been inseparable, and now one person comes and changes it all. This one person. This...

Fuck. My vision is blurred by tears. When did I start crying? I wipe them away, being careful not to make those annoying sniffling noises that I always do when I cry.

I remember one time, when I was really little, I was crying. I can't remember the reason, but I was crying in the corner of the library in our house. Suddenly, Hikaru comes in and is like, "No offence, but you're really annoying when you cry." So I look up at him and see he has that little smirk on his face, the one he still uses to this day. It made me smile a little bit, so then he pulled me into a hug and told me everything was okay.

Goddamnit, everything reminds me of him.

This really isn't fair.