argh, that didn't really make sense... I'm sorry. I'll go back and clean it up a bit later, but for now here's chapter 4.

Chapter 4: Never Gonna Happen

I wake up to sunlight streaming in through the curtains of our room.

For a second I forget where I am, who I am, and I feel completely disoriented. But no, there's Hikaru asleep next to me, our school uniforms neatly folded and ready to be worn, and the annoying alarm beeping. I sigh and settle back down into the blankets, trying to block out the sound of the alarm.

Hikaru stirs next to me. His eyes flutter open, and those golden orbs stare into mine. He smiled softly. "Morning Kao."

I smile back at him. How nice to be able to wake up to the one you love, even if that love is tinged with sour disappointment. "Morning."

"Do something about that, would you?" He says, nodding towards the alarm. I slap it, putting it on snooze. He yawns and sits up, just as our maids walk into the room.

"Breakfast is ready in five minutes, young masters." They say in unison, and I find it quite annoying. Do people find it annoying when Hikaru and I talk in unison?

We get up, put on our uniforms, eat breakfast and leave. This is my favourite part of the day, when we can just sit in the back of the limo in happy, companionable silence. Hikaru sighs and leans back in the cushions. I put my head on his shoulders, and we just sit.

Unfortunately, all good things have to come to an end, and all too soon the limo is pulling up to Ouran. I brace myself, and we step outside.

At first, we're alone. Then, I notice a petite, brown-haired figure in a boy's uniform ahead of us, and internally groan.

"Hi Haruhi!" Hikaru calls. She turns around and smiles, waiting for us to catch up. When we do, she mentions something about the homework, and conversation starts up. It's mostly Haruhi and Hikaru, but I make an effort to be more involved.

"So, apparently we're doing a new cosplay today." Hikaru mentions, and Haruhi rolls her eyes. I don't share her disgust, though. We're going to be dressed as doctors, so it will be perfectly acceptable for Hikaru and I to 'medically examine' one another.

The bell rings, and the three of us trudge into school for our first class. I can't focus, so I stealthily pull out my iPod. Luckily I brought it, otherwise I'd be forced to pay attention.

I jam the earbuds in my ears and press play, not caring about what song comes on.

I don't wanna hurt you, 'cause I don't think it's a virtue,

But you and I have come to our end.

Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you, again.

And please can you stop calling, 'cause it's getting really boring,

And I've told you I don't wanna be friends.

Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you, again.

How on earth could I be any more obvious?

It never really did and now it's never gonna happen with the two of us.

I don't understand what it is that you're chasing after,

But it makes me really sad to hear you sound so desperate it just makes it harder.

I squeeze my hands together into fists to keep myself from crying out in frustration. This song... Right now, it feels like it's mocking me. Of course it's never gonna happen with me and Hikaru. We're twins. It's never gonna happen. Never gonna happen. Never gonna happen...

I rip the earbuds out my ears, and to my surprise, find I'm shaking. I ball up the cord-I'm beyond caring whether they get tangled-and shove it into my pocket. I just try to breathe normally, and not break down in the middle of class.

I have to stop hoping. Because it's never gonna happen.