So just so y'all know, the songs names in here are their respective chapters. So the song in chapter 1 was called The Fear. The song in this one is called 22, and it's not by Taylor Swift, it's by Lily Allen. Enjoy!

I sigh and begin to do my work, trying to block out my thoughts and feelings.

However, my eyes begin to slide over to Hikaru, and I find myself daydreaming like a thirteen year old girl.

How can people think Hikaru and I are so alike? We do look like each other, all siblings do, and twins more than others. But we have our differences. Not just physical, but differences in personality too.

Haruhi can tell us apart.

I grimace. Not that I dislike her, but even the thought of her reminds me that I'm losing my brother.

Suddenly, Hikaru flings down his pen in annoyance, causing me to jump about a foot in the air.

He looks around, and slowly pulls his iPod out of his pocket. We both have a habit of switching on music whenever we're bored or can't concentrate. His iPod is red, and mine is blue, so we can tell them apart.

He catches me looking at him, and flips the iPod around, showing me what's playing. 22 by Lily Allen.

Hmm. I start to play the song in my head. After listening to it so often, I know it by heart.

When she was twenty-two her, future looked bright.

But she's nearly thirty now and she's, out every night.

I see that look in her face she's, got that look in her eye.

She's thinkin' how did I get here... And wondering, why.

Hikaru winks and begins to mouth the words of the song. I find myself mouthing along with him too.

It's sad but it's true, how society says her life is already over.

There's nothing to do and there's nothing to, say.

Until the man of her dreams comes along, picks her up and puts her over his shoulder.

Seems so unlikely in this day and, age.

Even though I'm smiling, I force myself to look away from my twin and back to my schoolwork. Now, where was I?

Unfortunately, I've never been very good at paying attention for a long period of time. And recent events have shattered my concentration even more. So I soon find my thoughts wandering again. And not to Hikaru, to the song.

I've heard that song was written about her sister...

Oh for Christ's sake. I put my head in my hands. Siblings. Us. Brothers. Love. Taboo. These words swirl around in my head and I even get a minor headache.

Stop it, stop it Kaoru. I tell myself. But at the same time, I can't help it.

Will that happen to me? Will I be that one slacker everyone knows? Hiding my pain behind the mask I've been wearing for so long?

All my problems seem to stem from my love of Hikaru. I look back down at my unfinished work as the bell rings. Shit. My life is spiraling downwards, starting from right here, right now.