Rebellion
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
Three days passed since Sasuke hacked the files on ANBU and now a hundred questions and thoughts ran through his head. He was taking a walk to try and sort through these thoughts but that came to solution, he was still plagued by them.
What should I believe?
Is she telling me the the truth?
Then again, what I found from hacking into the files makes me believe her more.
Orochimaru is up to something, did he do something to me?
Why can't I remember Sakura or anything about ANBU?
"She has to be telling the truth," Sasuke murmured to himself, "Everything she said to me, it all makes sense."
Sasuke walked down the hallway but stopped in his tracks when somebody called his name. He turned around and saw that it was Kabuto, he inwardly growled since he wasn't in the mood to deal with this guy right now. He sighed and shook his head before deciding to address the man he had started to hate.
"What is it?"
"Orochimaru wants to see you in the training room." Kabuto explained.
"Fine, I'll be there in a few minutes." Sasuke stated and headed back to his room.
He opened the door and walked inside to see Sakura sitting on his bed with her knees brought up to her chest. She seemed to be in deep thought and her face was contorted with what appeared to be worry and possibly even confusion. As he walked closer to her she looked up to him before getting off the bed to stand in front of him. She knew something was up, just by looking at his face, it was a trait that never changed, even if he didn't know himself or even her.
"What's wrong?"
"What makes you think something is wrong?" He asked her.
"I'm not stupid Sasuke." She reached up to place a hand on his cheek. "I know something is up."
He sighed and stepped away as her hand dropped to her side.
"I have to go see Orochimaru."
"What for?"
"That I don't know." He ran a hand through his hair and let out a deep sigh again.
In truth he didn't want to go see Orochimaru, there was no telling what that sadistic bastard had in mind. Sasuke began to pace the room before he realized he had no choice but to go see him. If he didn't, it could blow everything that they were trying to hide. But then again...
What if he found out?
His eyes widened upon this realization. "I have to go." He made a move to leave.
"Wait." Sakura rushed over to him and grabbed his arm.
"What?"
"What if they come in here?" Her lip quivered. "What do I do? I can't handle being alone with anyone here except you."
"Let's just hope they won't." He placed a hand against her cheek and left after grabbing his sword.
She gave a shaky exhale of breath as she left in silence alone. It was all quiet for about three minutes until there was suddenly the sound of someone outside. She thought it may have been Sasuke again, but when the door opened she screamed. She was grabbed and shoved against the wall before her hands were tied together with thick black rope. She tried to resist against the man who had a hold of her but he was stronger than she was.
"Let me go!"
"I have my orders you little bitch." He shoved her towards the door. "You're going to see Sasuke for who he really is." The man whispered into her ear.
"What?" Then she was pushed out of the room.
Sasuke walked into the training room to see Orochimaru standing in the center area waiting for him. He walked over and to him Orochimaru seemed a little suspicious and it Sasuke was already on alert to anything he might try to pull. He came to a stop when he was a few feet away from the man before him.
"What did you want to see me about?" Sasuke questioned.
"I need you to kill someone."
"Who?" Sasuke asked suspiciously and Orochimaru smirked.
"Bring her in Madara." Sasuke turned to the door when it opened.
Madara walked in with a little girl about six years of age in tow, he threw her to the ground at Sasuke's feet and he just stepped back slightly when she hit the floor. She looked up with a tear-stained face and Sasuke stared at her with his eyes slightly wide. She got to her hands and knees and stared up at him as she shook with fear. He felt his heart race and an unfamiliar image appeared in his head.
"Hey, it's alright, I'm going to help you get out of here." Sasuke tried to coax her out of the corner that she huddled herself into.
"Liar, you're part of the bad people." She cried out softly.
"No I'm not, they captured me too." Sasuke explained to the girl, she glanced up to him before nervously standing to her feet and running over to him. "I'm going to get you out of here, I promise."
"Please don't hurt me!" The girl Madara brought in screamed. "Please, I just want to go home! I don't want to die."
"Please, I don't want to die. The bad people do all of these things to other people, I think some of them already died." She clutched his torso with a tight embrace.
"I'm not going to let you die." Sasuke lifted the girl into his arms.
Sasuke felt his heart rate increase. What is this?
"What are you waiting for?" Madara said as he walked over to stand behind Sasuke and leaned into his ear. "Kill her." He made Sasuke raise his hand which held the sword. "Do it."
He could feel his breath become short.
I can't do it.
Sakura was shoved into a room that had a window where anyone could watch what was happening in the training area. She glanced through the window and saw Sasuke raising the sword over the young girl. She ran over to the window and banged her hand against the glass.
"Sasuke!" She yelled, trying desperately to catch his attention.
"You're wasting your breath, these are sound proof walls."
Her eyes reflected the fear she felt, she couldn't bring herself to look away from the sight as she prayed for Sasuke to let the girl live. She clenched her fists and gritted her teeth as tears blurred her vision. Her lip quivered before the tears escaped her eyes and she placed her hands against the glass.
"Don't do it." She muttered under her breath. "Please don't do it!" She cried out.
It's no use, he can't hear me.
Sasuke struggled with his thoughts.
These images, are they memories? They seem so real...
His eyes gazed over the girl. Whoever this girl is, she's triggering something in my past...something that was long since...forgotten...
A thousand questions ran though his mind at that instant and he knew he had to stop this.
If I don't do it, they'll know I'm not who they trained me to be...
...But if I do, I'll be taking a little girl's life.
Fuck it...this has to stop.
Sasuke glared as he gritted his teeth.
"What are you waiting for Sasuke?" Orochimaru yelled.
"He's hesitating." Madara said. "I think that will result in a punishment."
Orochimaru nodded and Madara struck Sasuke on his neck causing the male to fall to the floor on his knees. Madara kicked the sword away from him as Orochimaru stepped over to him as he motioned for one of the their men to take the girl out of the room. Madara picked Sasuke up and held the young male's arms behind his back as he led him out of the training room. Sasuke struggled against his hold but Madara didn't lose his grip.
Sasuke was thrown against the wall as Sakura was pushed out of the room she was in. She tried to run over to Sasuke but the guy grabbed her and held her back from helping him. Madara struck Sasuke across the face with his fist before he was grabbed around his neck.
"You will be given a very brutal punishment for what you failed to do as you were ordered."
Sasuke could only glare at the man before him as blood leaked from his now busted lip. He moved his head to gaze at Sakura and he could tell that she was worried about him, he tried to say something to her but he was silenced when pressure was put on his neck. He gritted his teeth and looked back at Madara as the man chuckled before letting him go and leading him down the hallway as Sakura was forced to follow.
They were led into another room that was bare except for the three men that were standing in the center with their hands behind their backs as they stood at attention. Madara forcefully shoved Sasuke to the floor at their feet as he got up to kneel and glared at the men before him.
"I want you three to teach him what happens when he defies direct orders." He turned to Sakura and the man who had a hold of her. "Take her back to Sasuke's room, I don't want to hear her fucking cries for him."
"Yes sir."
Sakura cringed at the grip the guy had on her arm as he pulled her from the room and before she knew it, she was brought back to Sasuke's room. She was thrown to the floor as the door behind her was slammed shut. Sakura cringed when she realized she scraped her knee, there was a hold in her pants as the new wound burned red.
"Asshole." She muttered under her breath.
Her mind immediately went to Sasuke, she didn't know what to do, hell she didn't know what they were doing to him. Without knowing what else she could do, she began to pace the room and hoped that whatever they were doing to him, wasn't as bad as she imagined it was.
Come on Sasuke, don't let them break you.
It was another twenty minutes before Sakura heard noises from outside the room she was in. She stood to her feet and leaned against the wall, preparing herself for anything, but what she wasn't prepared for was having the door burst open and a body being tossed inside like a piece of meat. It took her a few seconds before she realized that, that body was Sasuke. Her eyes watered up as she saw the blood that covered him and she ran to his side as the door slammed shut leaving her alone with the injured male.
"Sasuke." She called him as she shook his shoulder.
He didn't move and that sent her heart racing so she moved him onto his back and looked over him as his face was contorted with pain. She placed her hand on his forehead as she leaned down to him to listen to his heart beat and she was surprised that it was racing as fast as it was.
"Sasuke." She called again.
Finally moving slightly, he groaned with pain and opened his eyes. Sakura smiled with relief and grabbed his hand as he flinched from the contact. She looked over his wounds and noted that there was a cut on his head, a few bruises on his face as well as his arms. A few cuts littered his arms and she let out a shaky breath before helping him sit up and moved him over to lean against the wall.
"What are we going to do?" She asked him.
"We need to get out of here." He managed to say despite the pain he was in.
"How?"
"I don't know, we need to find a way to contact your friends at ANBU."
"You mean our friends." She corrected him.
"Whatever." He muttered as he cringed. "But they are the only ones that can help us at this point."
"Why?"
"We can't get out of here alone." He stated. "This hideout that we're in, is surrounded with steel gates and security cameras everywhere and I don't know how to shut them down."
"Shit." She cursed. "How do we even contact ANBU?"
"We have to get to the computer room." Sasuke moved to stand but hissed and clutched his side.
"How badly did they beat you?" Sakura asked worriedly.
"Pretty bad apparently." He muttered as he took in a deep breath and pushed himself off the wall.
"Where are you going?" Pausing by the door he looked to the floor. "To get the little girl who I was supposed to kill, I can't leave her here."
It didn't take her long until she knew something was wrong.
"Sasuke, there's something that you're not telling me." She walked over to him.
"You're right."
"Well what is it?"
"When I was holding that sword above that girl, I saw something, an image of another young child who yelled out the same thing she did."
"Was it a memory?" She asked hopefully.
"I don't know." He lifted his arm to touch the side of his head as he recalled the scar he had seen before. "Every time I think too deeply about who I am, ANBU or even you...I get this sharp pain in my head."
"I remember that happening when I was first brought here."
"Yeah." He glanced at her before walking over to stand in front of her. "I think this..." He grabbed her hand and placed it against his head before moving her fingers to graze the scar. "...Has something to do with it."
"What the hell?" She moved his head to the side so she could see the scar better in the light. "Where did this come from?"
"I don't know, I have no memory of it."
She bit her lip before she reached her arms around his neck to hug him tightly. He was surprised by her action and he wasn't sure how to react to what she did. Sakura felt a little disappointed that he didn't hug her back, but after everything that he has been through she really couldn't blame him. He couldn't remember who he was, thanks to whatever Orochimaru and Madara did to him and she was inwardly blaming herself for not protecting him.
"I'm sorry." She muttered.
"Why are you sorry?" Her eyes widened when she heard his voice crack. "None of this is your fault."
"Yes it is."
He pulled away from her embrace and stared her in the eyes.
"Why?"
"Because, I should have protected you from all of this, I should have made Kakashi send a partner with you on that mission." She sighed. "This scar is the only clue we have." She placed her hand on his head to touch the scar again.
Sasuke flinched as more images flashed into his head.
Before Sasuke could react he was hit from behind on his neck and fell to his hands and knees. He gritted his teeth as pain tore through him from the blow that was made on him and from his wounds that burned from before. He glanced up to the two he wanted to kill with his own two hands. The ones who put him in this condition.
"Sasuke, have you ever heard of 'The Perfect Soldier'? Orochimaru asked. "No? You'll find out soon enough."
"Aghh." Sasuke yelled and backed away from her as he fell to his knees while clutching his head.
"Sasuke what is it?" Sakura asked worriedly.
After the pain turned to a small throbbing in his head, he gave out a sigh of relief as he stared at the ground.
"The Perfect Soldier." He whispered to himself.
"What are you talking about?"
"I remember Orochimaru saying that to me, he asked me if I knew what it was."
"Did you remember something else?" Sakura questioned.
"It was triggered when you touched my scar."
What the hell is happening? Sakura cursed in her head as she stared at Sasuke who seemed to be in deep thinking.
"I need to hack their files."
"But after you disobeyed them, they aren't exactly going to let you walk right in."
"We'll have to sneak in, and while I'm hacking around, you need to get in contact with ANBU."
"Okay, how do you suppose we pull this off?"
"In the middle of the night?" He stated unsure.
"You have no plan do you?"
"Well...no. I'll just go by instinct and make it up as we go, that's all I can do at this point."
"Midnight?"
Sasuke looked at her. "What?"
"We do this at midnight."
"Oh right."
Sakura noted that he seemed distracted so she reached out to grab his hand.
"Is something wrong?"
"No, everything is wrong, I don't know who the fuck I am, I've been working with people who probably did something to me to erase my memories and worse than that...I attacked the ones that were probably trying to save me, and I know one of them is the hospital because of that fucking wound I inflicted to his collar bone!" He yelled out in one breath which surprised Sakura. "I..." He started but trailed off.
"Sasuke, its not your fault."
"You can't say that, every thing I've done since I finished training with Orochimaru, I did without hesitation." He leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor. "Something told me to stop, but I did it anyway, I've killed several people because Madara told me to." He brought his legs up so he could wrap his arms around them. "I can still hear them pleading for me to spare their lives."
"Sasuke." She knelt down to his side.
"I hate myself." He stated simply.
"We'll figure this out."
"I hope, because I know one thing, the next life I take...will be mine."
"Naruto please eat something." Hinata pleaded as she set a plate of his favorite food in front of him.
"I don't want anything to eat!"
Naruto growled as he flipped his dinner plate over and it fell to the floor, the glass breaking and the food strewn into several different places. Hinata stood in fear of her boyfriend as tears nearly came to her eyes. She swallowed nervously and knelt down to the ground to pick up the broken glass, it didn't take her long before she dropped the glass back to the floor and stood up to run out of the kitchen.
"Hinata." He grabbed her wrist and forced her to stop.
She let out a shaky breath and turned to him with tears in her eyes as they slid down her cheeks. Naruto could feel his own eyes stinging with unshed tears and pulled her into his arms as she sobbed into his chest.
"I'm sorry." He choked out as his tears finally fell. "I'm so sorry Hinata, I shouldn't have yelled like that, especially at you."
She remained silent as he hugged her even tighter. "I'm frustrated, two of my best friends are gone, and I can't even do anything for either of them."
"I know Naruto." She finally said and pulled away to look at him.
"Can you forgive me?" His eyes pleaded.
"Yeah...I can." She reached up to place her hands on his cheeks as he leaned down to kiss her.
"Come on, let's take a walk." Naruto suggested and grabbed her hand.
"We have about two hours before we move out." Sasuke stated.
"Okay, so run this by me again."
"We will first head into the weapons room and arm ourselves with anything we can carry, next we'll go get the girl from whatever cell she is."
"How do we find the cell?"
"Its down in the basement, all of the cells are." Sasuke told her. "Then we head into the computer room where I'll hack the files and you'll call ANBU."
"Alright." She walked over to stand in front of him and she could still see the doubt and worry laced within his eyes.
She placed her hands on his cheeks and made him look at her. "Hey, it'll be okay."
"I wish I could believe that."
Sakura had no idea what to say to those words, but as she gazed into his dark orbs, she could feel her heart race as a blush appeared on her cheeks. Sasuke noticed this and raised a brow at her, which made her turned even redder. "What?"
"After everything that's happened, you still send my heart racing."
Without thinking of what would happen, she pulled him down and crashed her lips to his. Sasuke's eyes widened as the pain he felt earlier returned to his head but so did another memory, or at least that's what he hoped it was and not his hormones sending perverted thoughts to his head.
"I love you."
He leaned down and kissed her forcefully on the lips as he thrust into her. She squirmed under him before breaking from his lips to throw her head back on the pillow as her hands trailed up his back until she reached his shoulders.
"Ah, Sasuke."
"Ah." Sasuke pulled away from her and stepped back while clutching the side of his head again as he had earlier.
"Sasuke, I'm sorry." Sakura took a step towards him as he backed up. "What's wrong?"
He turned away from her and put a hand to his chest to clutch his shirt parallel to his now racing heart. "Sakura...are you...a virgin?" He asked as a blush crept up his face.
Sakura's face turned a bright shade of red and she bit her lip. "Well...no." She managed to say. "Why?"
"Did we...?"
"Sasuke what did you see?"
"I..." He paused and she could see him blushing. "I saw you underneath me and we were..." He trailed off hoping she got what he meant.
"You remembered that night before you're mission?" Her eyes widened.
"If it was a night I said 'I love you', than...yes."
"Yeah, we made love that night, and it was the first time you told me that you loved me." Her lip quivered as tears came to her eyes.
She reached up to wipe her eye as Sasuke turned to walk over to her. He placed his hand against her cheek and ran his thumb below her eyes to rid her face of the tears that fell. "I want to remember Sakura, I do, but all I get are small glimpses of a life that was forgotten, or erased."
"I know." She smiled sadly and glanced up at him as a crazy thought ran through her mind. "Make love to me Sasuke." She said before she could stop herself.
His eyes widened. "What? Are you crazy?"
"No I'm not. I want to feel that love you had for me."
"But I'm not the guy you fell in love with."
"Yes you are."
"Physically I am, but, mentally I'm not." He turned away from her. "I'm sorry Sakura, but I can't."
"Please Sasuke, I'm begging you."
"Sakura, I don't want to hurt you, and if I said yes to what you want, that's all that will happen to you." He said. "You're vulnerable right now, and I would just be taking advantage of you."
"I promise you won't hurt me."
"I can't okay." He sighed softly. "I just can't."
Sakura could feel her heart break as she sobbed again and Sasuke hesitantly hugged her. "I'm sorry Sak."
Her eyes widened and pulled away from him. "What did you call me?"
"I called you Sak. Why?"
"That's the nickname you gave me when we started dating."
"Is it?"
"Yeah, why did you call me that?"
"I don't know." Sasuke shrugged.
"That's all that I need to know that the man I knew is in your head somewhere, I'm going to get your memory back."
"We have to get out of here first."
"Right."
She nodded as Sasuke went to sit by the door, Sakura walked over to him and sat down by his side as he looked at her. She grabbed his hand and held it, and she was surprised when his hand curled around hers. She smiled thankfully, this was all she was going to get from him.
How could I have been stupid to ask him that? She shook her head and leaned her head against the door. How embarrassing!
"Sakura." Sasuke called her.
"Yeah."
"Will you tell me about our past together and our friends?"
"Sure." She smiled.
For the next hour, Sakura talked about how they got together and how long they had dated as well as their friends, in and out of ANBU. Some of the stories caused the pain to return to Sasuke's head but he didn't care at this point, each story she told brought an image, and even though he couldn't remember when and where it happened, he knew there was a better life for him than the one he was forced to live. He was a normal guy, with a normal life, well except the part when he was in ANBU but it was a way better life than where he was now and he hated that he couldn't remember any of it.
When Sakura began to talk about his parents, it struck a nerve and he felt his eyes sting at fact that he couldn't remember the family he had grown up with. The hazy memories that managed to enter his mind gave him no comfort, he only began to hate himself even more since he let himself get captured.
"That's enough." He muttered, which surprised her.
"Does it hurt?"
He knew she was referring to the scar on his head and he only gave a slight nod. She sighed and leaned her head on his shoulder and she smiled when he didn't protest at her action. He knew he had to get her out of here, he wanted to escape with her, but there was no telling what could happen when they finally acted on their plan. If both of them couldn't get out, he would make sure Sakura and the little girl did.
I won't be the cause of any more deaths...
...I refuse to be...
Even if that means...
...Losing my life...
I will take your breath away
And I'll survive, paranoid
A/N Haha! *clears throat* So any thoughts on what will happen? I know I'm taking forever to update these but I'll try harder to update next time. ^_^