Quinn maybe locked herself in her lab, starting her work on her next suit. Not total lock down as Gage or Tony came down to visit or bring food and coffee. So far, she had one working boot and boot thruster. She barely realized once she hit the 57 hour mark of no sleep. She was wiping oil and sweat off her forehead when Gage was walking in, looking oddly proud. She raised an eyebrow. "Whats with the look?" He smiled weakly. "Director Coulson's here. He has something for you from the safety council." She rolled her eyes, standing and walking over toward him. "Better not be another bomb, I don't have a suit to fly it away with." She walked out of the lab, Gage following her as they walked to the living room. There Tony, Kim Clint, TJ and Loki were all there and waiting. She swallowed. Having all there eyes on her made her nervous. "Whats going on?" Tony smiled. "Couson has some good news." Coulson turned to her, arms behind his back. "The safety council would like to award you the Medal of Honor for your actions in the recent astronomical catastrophe." She was confused. "Why?"

She felt Gage hold her hand, gently speaking. "Because you nearly sacrificed your life for thousands of people." "Because they were going to level an entire city, again." She glared, backing away. "Go tell your safety council that they can shove that medal up there ass because I wouldn't have had to sacrifice myself if they didn't send in a nuke, for a second time. They were wiling to kill thousands of people." She felt her eyes water. "So I'm sorry Colson I can't accept it. Not when it was there own selfishness that nearly killed thousands of people, including my family." Coulson nodded. "Understood. I will relay that to them in...nicer words." She nodded before going back down to the lab. Feeling closed in, unable to breath and shaking like a leaf. She thought she was doing better but seems any mention of that damn wormhole or day in general triggers her.

Gage quickly followed her, leaving the rest of the family in silence. Clint broke it with a sigh, speaking. "Told you she wouldn't want to accept it." Tony nodded. "Yeah, had to try. Maybe we can talk her into it. She deserves that medal." Kim smiled sadly, holding his hand. "So do you." Loki frowned, looking to the ground. "I'm sorry. I've caused your family so much pain." TJ held his hand. "That may be true but this wasn't your fault. We had everything under control to bring you in. This safety council just...I don't know whats wrong with them. There nuke happy."

Once Quinn got to the lab she could barely put the numbers in she was shaking so much. Before she could get in the lab, she felt hands on her shoulders and she jumped, backing herself into the wall, nearly yelping. "Quinn! It's ok...it's me. Your ok.. just breath with me." He wrapped his arms, around her, holding her to his chest. She followed his order, trying to match his breathing a tear steadily fell down her face and into his shirt. It was moments later that she was quietly crying against his shirt. A sign she was calming down. He just held her, kissing her head. Her crying soon stopped, leaving her with her arms wrapped around him like he was her life line. It was moments later she pulled away enough to look in his eyes. "Sorry..." He smiled sadly a hand going to cup her face. "Not your fault you have some anxiety. But you should get some help." "L medication?" "Possibly. We can talk to Bruce and see what he says." She nodded. "Tomorrow." He held her. "Actually I have something that might help, until we find something that works for you." She smiled, a small smirk. "Is it sex?" He nearly choked on his own spit. It had been so long since he heard that familiar Stark attitude. A small laugh escaped him. "No..just...com'on." She grinned, holding his hand as he lead her to the elevator.

He lead her to his room, she smirked. "Oh so it is sex." He smirked weakly. "Maybe..just.." He sighed opening his bedroom door, walking in, letting her follow. She smiled, sitting on his bed. He went under the bed, getting an old shoe box out. She looked at him confused before he came back, sitting next to her with the small stuffed bunny in his hands. She raised an eyebrow. "A...bunny?" He smiled sadly. "Yeah. It's actually helped me out a lot. Gave me a reason to live when I close to ending it. When I was young, about nine years old. This woman, I forget her name. It was so long since then, so much has happened. But when I was young, my father wasn't so nice. Raised me for the military. Anything normal children do, he deemed useless and distracting from my training. So I never got to be a child."

Quinn listened, frowning. Her hand going over his. He took in a breath. "Anytime things got really bad, anytime I felt worthless and just wanted to end it all. Stupid as it sounds, I just held this bunny and thought of that woman that gave it to me. She let me cut school and we saw Ghostbusters. First movie I've ever really seen then we went to Mcdonalds." Quinn smiled sadly. "You got to be a kid." He nodded. "When I was in Korea, fighting for my life I had this with me. When I saved that little girl, I had given this to her but.." His eyes watered. "Once we were all safe at S.H.I.E.L.D she gave it back. She thanked me for saving her, that I was a knight in shining armor and that I should go save others." He wiped his face before turning to Quinn, handing her the bunny. "I want you to have this. Whenever you feel the world is coming down on you and I'm not there. I want you to hold this and know that everything is going to be ok." He gently put the small stuffed bunny in her hands. She frowned, looking at it. "This...no..this is yours. You have so much history with it." "And now I'm passing that to you. Someone I love more then anything in the world." She felt her eyes water, gently taking the bunny, holding it. "Thank you. I don't know what to say."

he smiled sadly. "Just take it and hold it whenever you need to." She smiled sadly, looking up in his eyes and kissing him, wrapping her arm around his neck, fingers tangling in chestnut hair. He melted, wrapping his arms around her, holding her close. She opened her mouth deepening it as she quickly straddled his hips. He pulled away, breathing heavily. "Sure you want this? Your ready?" She panted, catching her breath. "I want to try. I can't just keep from what happened to keep me from living my life." He nodded, holding her face. "You tell me no, anytime." She grinned, kissing his neck. He moaned softly, holding her close. "Jay.." "locked and sound proofed sir." Quinn panted. "Thanks." She started to take his shirt off, feeling underneath, feeling every fall and dimple of his abs. He shivered in pleasure. How long has it been since they've been together like this? He let her take control, taking his shirt off, gently pushing him to his bed. She straddled him, kissing his neck, chest. Stopping a moment to take her shirt off. He bit his lip, already achingly hard. He could tell she felt it. There was a sudden slowness in her movements, hesitance. He gently felt her hands that were resting on his chest. "Hey..." she smiled shaking her head. "I'm fine." She leaned down, kissing his neck, suckling on it, gently grinding down on him.

He gasped, holding her hips, gently grinding with her. She moaned and he couldn't help himself. He turned them over, holding her close but he made sure to stop his movement, just holding her, wanting her to make another move. She smirked, her hands reaching under her, feeling the tent in his tactical pants. He reached around her, taking her bra off easily, suckling on one of her nipples. She gasped, arching into him. "mmm" While he was suckling on her nipple,his hand went underneath, taking her yoga pants off easily. She always wore them when she worked. Easy to move around in. Soon she was nude before him. He was happy to just see her smirking below him. "Your overdressed." He kissed her neck, starting to unbutton and unzip his own pants. She started to help, biting her lip. Soon they were both nude and gently grinding against each other, wanting more contact, more of each other.

He kissed down her body, worshiping it, wanting to make this special, soft and loving as possible. Trying to put as big a contrast of what happened and whats happening now between her. His hands trailed down to her warmth, feeling it leaking with need. It made him tremble. He gently pressed a finger inside feeling the warmth. She moaned out loud, gripping the pillow beneath her head. "Ahh more.." He added a second finger, kissing he neck as he thrust them inside her going at a steady, hard pace. She gasped, moaning. "Ahh Gage...more...I want you.." He moaned, taking his fingers away, straddling her hips. He felt her tense. He kept himself still, caressing her cheek. "We can stop..." She shook her head. "No..I want you..I miss you. Please, keep going." He nodded, kissing her head before gently moving inside her, slowly. He felt her tense but breathing thru it. Once he was inside her, he kept himself still, no matter how badly he wanted to pound her into the mattress. God he missed this. He kept his breathing steady, leaning up enough to watch her. He heard her before seeing her eyes closed so tightly. "No...no stop..." He could tell it wasn't a command, maybe not consciously. He pulled out quickly, holding her face. "Quinn..it's ok...your safe. It's just me." She cried opening her eyes, her breathing close to anxiety attack. "Gage...God...I'm sorry.." He shook his head. "You have nothing to be sorry for. It's ok." He held her close, letting her hide in his chest. She had a long road of healing and he would do whatever was needed to help.

Loki felt strange in his new bed. It was late and he knew everyone had to be asleep with the exception of Agent Barton who was patrolling the mansion. This new room was so large and sweet smelling. Nothing like he ever got on Asguard. On Asguard his room was small with only the barest of items. He tried to sleep but nightmares and paranoia of his father coming in to whip him or guards coming in to violate him. He hadn't realized he was crying, sobbing into his pillow until he barely could breath. Once he caught his breath he thought of where safe was. . He wanted to go across the hall to TJ's room, to be held and feel safe. He swallowed the lump in his throat and moved, going to the door, opening it. He looked out and saw the hallway was clear and quickly walked to TJ's door, knocking on it. Moments later the door opened showing a very sleepy TJ, hair a mess in only pajama pants. Loki couldn't help but stare at his uncovered chest. TJ frowned, seeing the tear stains on Loki's face. "Hey, whats wrong?" Loki looked up at his face. "I...ahh..couldn't sleep." TJ frowned, nodding. He opened his arms, bringing one to Loki's shoulder, gently leading him inside. "Com'on." Loki walked inside, letting TJ hold him close as he closed the door. He was lead to the bed as they both layed down. TJ holding him close. "I promise, nothings gonna hurt you. I won't let them." Loki relaxed a little at that, melting into the embrace, feeling sleep start to overtake him. Dreaming of a better tomorrow.

AN: sorry updates are so slow. Reviews are welcome!