12 hours before Loki's attempt

TJ was getting ready, trying to pick out something to wear, having various cloth laid out. Tony knocked on the door. "You decent?" TJ nearly jumped. He's never been this nervous over a date. "uh, yeah. Come in." Tony opened the door to his sons room, Clint behind him, chuckling. "Told you he was nervous wreck." Tony couldn't help the smile, crossing his arms. "Alright, you win." TJ gave a half glare. "Were you betting on me?" Tony chuckled. "No, he just...what exactly is the problem? You've never had a problem with dates." TJ gave him a look. "Well those wernt really dates as much as one night stands." Tony shook his head while Clint gave him a look. "You do know your 16 right?" TJ rolled his eyes. "No, I had no idea. Would you stop your joking and help me pick out something. I...I want this to mean something." Clint rose his eyebrows and Tony looked a little shocked. He smiled softly. "Lets see what you got."

Loki was in "lady loki" form as Quinn put it but she really had nothing to wear. She sighed, playing with her long dark hair wearing sweats and a hoodie. While Quinn and her mom tried to put something together. She was so nervous. "I don't even know what he sees in me. I mean, I tried to take over the world for Odins sake." Kim smiled, going thru some of Quinns nicer cloths and dresses that were hidden behind tee shirt after tee shirt. "And what girl hasn't tried to do that?" Quinn smiled, rolling her eyes, sitting on her bed against the headboard, messing with her tablet, making blueprints or her amour. Loki blushed. Quinn suddenly spoke up. 'Honestly, I don't see what he sees in your either." Both her mom and Loki looked in shock before she continued. "But they see good in you, I'm starting to to." Loki blushed harder but seemed genuinely touched by it. "I am truly sorry for what I have done to your family." Kim walked over. "Hey, Loki, look at me." Loki looked up at Kim with watery green eyes. Kim smiled. "I know you've had an awful past. I know it's what lead you to do what you did and I don't blame you. It's in the past. Now it's time to get ready for a date." Loki swallowed, looking at all the different dresses and clothing.

TJ was pacing in the living room wearing a dark red button down shirt, sleeves rolled up with a black tie. Nice pants and shoes. He made sure for wallet, phone, mints,condoms, lube. If it was going to go that far. It would all be up to Loki but either way, he's just glad he can show Loki how he's suppose to be treated. Crap, should he have gotten flowers? Do you even get flowers for a God? He suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder and jumped, getting in a fighting stance before breathing out. Gage chucked. "Just me, you need to calm down before you give yourself a stroke." TJ sighed. "I know. It's just hard. I...I really, really want this to mean something. Loki's been put thru shit his entire life. I want him to know that there is good in the world and that people actually fucking care about him." Gage gave him a serious look. "If i didn't know any better, I'd say you love him."

TJ groaned, hands going thru his hair like his father often does when hes stressed. "Don't tell me that." Tony walked in, sipping his coffee. "Don't tell you what?" Gage smirked. "I think our TJ is in Love." Tony rose his eyebrows. "Oh." TJ groaned. "Can you stop? Please?" Clint was next to walk in. "Stop what?" Gage and Tony both spoke. "TJ's in love." TJ just banged his head against the wall semi-gently. "This isn't happening." "What isn't happening?" TJ shot up at the sight of Loki. She was gorgeous wearing a nearly black dress that went to her knees. "Loki...you...you look." Loki blushed, looking side to side. "I'm sorry if this dosnt appeal to you. I can find something else unless you've changed your mind-" "No! I mean no." TJ smiled nervously, pretending that his entire family wasn't watching him go out on his actual first date. "You look get going." He looked between his dad and mom who walked in during the middle of them talking. "We'l be back around midnight. If it's later, I'l let you know." Tony nodded. "You two have fun." TJ nodded, walking to Loki, taking her hand nervously then more securely when she held tighter, leading her to the garage. Kim smiled, watching. "He looks just like you when he's dressed like that." Tony smirked weakly. "Good genes?"

TJ picked out a nice car. Not too flashy but not to mini-van. A White BMW. He opened Loki's door before getting in the drivers side. Once he was in he couldn't help staring at her. Speaking more honestly now that they were alone. "God your gorgeous." Loki blushed. "Thank you. You look very handsome as well tonight." TJ couldn't help the little smirk. Nerves ebbing away slowly. "Dinner or movie first?" Loki smiled nervously. "you chose. I have never been on a.."date" before. I have no idea what I am suppose to do." TJ leaned over, gently caressing the side of her face. "All you have to do is enjoy and keep looking beautiful." Loki blushed, smiling. "I can try." TJ kissed her cheek before starting the car, driving out of the garage.

He took her to the movie first, that way they had something to talk about during dinner. (genius he thinks on that move. He could totally out genius Quinn and his dad now) he parked, telling her to stay on her side. She looked nervous, almost scared when he told her that and he hated that. How many people hurt Loki so badly that even the kindest gestures are to be feared? He came around quickly, opening her door, holding his hand out. "Com'on, I got you." He smiled, wanting to put her at ease. She smiled weakly, feeling stupid for feeling so scared. She took his hand in hers, feeling how callused they were against her own. No doubt from so many different weapons and training. He held her hand, ignoring the few people starting to look over and put together that Yes, that was Tony Starks son on a date. She looked around, hearing muttering and people looking at them. He put his arm around her thin waist. "Just stay close to me. I won't let anything happen to you." She nodded, letting him lead. He took them to see Frozen. Something about a Disney anniversary showing...or something like that. He figured a cute cartoon could be perfect.

He got there tickets before the girl behind the counter could figure out who he was and went to the food stand inside the lobby, sighing in relief. "Least no one else seems to care I'm on a date. What do you want to eat?" Loki swallowed. "Oh, I'm not very hungry." TJ gave her a worried look. "You barely eaten anything all day." Loki smiled weakly, trying not to look as anxiety ridden as she felt. "I'm fine. Really. I'l make sure to eat at dinner." TJ gave her a look before accepting that. "A drink at least?" She sighed with relief that he let the issue go. "A drink would be lovely. A water please." TJ nodded, getting a few snacks for himself and a water for her before making his way into the theater, holding her hand.

They got a seat in the back,up against the wall. He wanted to be out of sight tonight. Just him and Loki. She drank some of her water but he could see her hands were shaky. He frowned, holding her free hand, feeling the slightest trembles. "Are you ok? Your shaking." She looked over at him before looking at her hand. She honestly didn't even realize she was shaking. "Sorry. I must have eaten less then I thought." He handed her over a snack. "Here. It will bring your blood sugar back up." She took larg-ish bag of M&M's that were open, nodding. Suddenly the lights darkened and the trailers were starting. His hand was on her thigh, gently trailing his hand up and down, trying to get some kind of sign of how far she wanted things to go. He got his answer when she looked over with a small smirk, leaning over to whisper in his ear. "You are lucky I chose this form and not my other or else this would be very obvious what your doing to me." He smirked, kissing her cheek and neck before realizing the movie is on. He kept his hand on her thigh while watching the, ignoring his own growing hardened member.

Sexual tension didn't last long. About half way thru "do you want to build a snow man?" Loki was already in tears. He moved to holding her hand, handing her kleenx out of his pocket that he brought. Clint always taught him to be prepared for any situation. She sniffled,taking the kleenex, wiping her eyes. "I'm sorry. This movie has be so emotional." TJ smiled sadly. "It's ok. Disney movies do that to even the most harden adult." She gave a little smile before going back to watching the movie. The tears stopped for a bit until "let it go" came on and she couldn't help but relate a little too well to Elsa's problems.

Once the movie was over she wiped her eyes and blew her nose into the tissue. "I am so sorry. I must have ruined this date with my damn emotions." TJ smiled. "It's gonna take a few tears to ruin a date with the girl...guy...God of my dreams." Loki chuckled lightly at that before looking over at him. "Thank you. Now, how about dinner?"

Once both were in the car, she nearly pounced on him, crashing her lips to his. He melted, moaning into it before pushing her back enough to speak. "No dinner?" She smirked. "You are my dinner." If he wasn't hard before, he was achingly hard now. He let out a breath, trying to keep his composure. "Lets get somewhere private. Id' rather a police officer didn't catch us." She smirked, sitting back in her seat, feeling up and down his thigh, a little too close (or not close enough) to his cock.

He started the car with shaking hands, nearly speeding out of the parking lot. He got them to the back of a seemingly abandoned building, parking the car quickly, turning off the lights. He leaned over, grabbing her by the back of her head, hands tangling in black hair, crashing lips to the others. She moaned, opening her mouth to accept him. He happily deepened the kiss, bringing her back into his lap. She straddled him, feeling his aching member thru his pants, rubbing on her wet panties. She started kissing his neck, grinding down on him, moaning softly. He held an ass check in each hand, letting her grind a while before it was becoming too much. He gasped, pushing her a little. "Stop...stop...I don't want to come yet. And not in these pants. There dry clean only. I don't want to explain to my dad why they need dry cleaned." She smirked, moving to the back. He pressed a button, making the back seats lay down, giving them more room.

She smirked, sitting in the middle, starting to take her dress off. He didn't waste time going back there to help her. He got the rest of the dress off, putting it on the passenger seat, before kissing her neck, starting to take her bra off. "Loki...are you a virgin?" She smirked weakly. "In this form, yes." He nodded, stopping a moment. "You know, first time may hurt?" She frowned softly. "I didn't. I've never done anything in this form. Not much anyway." He nodded. "I can't tell you exactly but I know it may hurt. Some kind of barrier that breaks before sex can really start happening. If you want to stop it's fine." She shook her head, her eyes welling up. Her hands reach for his shirt, scared he would run away. "No. I want you. I want my first time with you. Before-" She stopped herself there. She was about to say before someone else takes it. But that was going into her past and she did not want to talk about that right now. She swallowed. "Before I lose you." He frowned, cupping her face. "Your not gonna lose me. Not ever. I..I really care about you and I'm not gonna leave you." She felt her eyes well up before crashing her lips to his. "I want you TJ. Please. I..."She looked away before looking back in his eyes. "I really care about you to." He smiled softly, kissing her, holding her close. "ok. Lay down then. I want to make you feel amazing." She did as was told, laying down. He took off her bra and panties, leaving her nude and beautiful. He wanted to explore every inch of porcelain skin.

He kissed her, deeply. His hands exploring her body, feeling her breasts, her small waist, her ass while she helped take his tie off and shirt, throwing them to the front of the car. He got his wallet out before getting his pants off, getting the lube and condom out. She smirked. "You were prepared?" He blushed, his hand going thru his hair. "Gotta be prepared for everything." She smiled, kissing him. He smiled into the kiss, straddling her waist, feeling her tense a moment. He kissed her neck. "shh...it's alright. Were gonna go slow." She nodded. He kissed her neck, gently suckling on the skin. She bit her lip, wiggling just a bit with the pleasure. It was all new to her. He smirked, gently kneading a breast in one hand, moving down to suckle on a nipple. She arched into it, moaning, biting her lip. He lifted up. "Stop biting your lip, I want to hear you." She stopped, panting, letting out breathy moans. He went back to suckling on a nipple, switching between kneading and suckling on each one before moving down, wanting to get her as hot and bothered as humanly possible.

He could already smell her slick making him even harder then he was if that was even possible. He kissed down her stomach, gently spreading her legs open. He lifted up. "Loki, if you don't like something, tell me. Ok?" She nodded, breathing heavily. He took a breath before lowering his head between her legs, gently suckling first on her clit, testing her waters. He felt her tense and gasp but didn't seem bad. It seemed like a good reaction. He continued suckling, licking around the folds and she was wet. She was nearly dripping. He groaned,getting his tongue as far inside her as he could, holding her thighs, licking up every drop. She moaned, arching into him. "Oh Gods...TJ...don't stop..." He smirked, suckling on her hole, making her whine and thrust her hips, wanting friction.

She moaned, hands going down to gripping his head to her, hands tangling in dark hair. "TJ...ahh...I...I think I'm..gonna come..oh Gods.." He just held her hips to his face, licking up every drop that she was steadily dripping, suckling on her hole, his tongue licking all around. She moaned and whined so loudly, gripping his hand tightly. Then her come was on his tongue and he moaned, having to pull away, panting. God he was so close to coming already. She frowned, panting. "Is something wrong? You pulled away very fast." He smirked, leaning over her, kissing her deeply. She moaned, tasting herself on his lips. He pulled away. "Nothings wrong. It was just too much. I nearly came just eating you out." She blushed but smirked softly, wrapping her arms around him. "Then why not get on with the show?"

He kissed her getting the condom from his wallet and quickly putting it on then getting the lube, putting some on his two fingers, gently inserting his two fingers into her. She moaned. "Oh...it's so sensitive right now. I could come again from barely anything." He smirked, kissing her neck, thrusting his fingers in and out, preparing her for his cock. "Good. Mmm your so tight. You really are a virgin." She panted but smirked up at him. "I want you to get on deflowering me." A particular hard thrust of his fingers and her eyes rolled back. "Oh Gods...I need you inside me...please." He groaned, taking his fingers away, and and lining himself up, holding her close. "Relax. It might hurt but will go away." She nodded. He kissed her cheek, thrusting inside, slowly. He bit his lip, feeling her warm heat surrounding him. She bit her lip. So afar it didn't hurt as much as he said but it may have been from all the prep. She nearly moaned as he was almost totally inside but she could feel him hit the barrier he told her about. She suddenly got very nervous. He saw this. He looked into her eyes, cupping her cheek. "We don't have to do this. You can say no at anytime and I'l stop." She nodded. "keep going." TJ nodded, pulling out before pushing back in, harder this time, feeling the barrier break. She tensed, crying out. "ahh.." She tried not to let her tears show. He kissed her face, neck, lips. She whimpered. "It hurts." "I know baby. I'm sorry. Tell me when to move." She swallowed, letting her body adjust and not be haunted by awful flashbacks.

Once the pain cleared she kissed his neck. "Move." He kissed her lips, starting to move in and out of her. Slowly, steady. Gaining speed. She moaned as he gripped her hips, getting a better angle. She gasped, moaning. "Oh Gods...more..harder.." He groaned, holding her tighter, going harder. She moaned, coming hard around him. "ahh TJ!..." He felt her tense around him, milking his own orgasm out of him, pooling in the condom. He moaned into her neck, holding her close, riding it out. Once they were spent, he looked in her eyes. "So...that was good?" She smiled, kissing him. "Very good. Now how about dinner."

Present time

He stood, looking at Loki, nearly glaring. Loki glared himself. "TJ...Why am I alive? I made sure to cut deep enough-" "Shut up." Loki swallowed, looking away. TJ continued. "Why would you do that?" Loki looked at the floor, unable to look him in the eyes. "You deserved better." "Bullshit." Loki looked up in shock. Did he not believe him. TJ's eyes softened. "I don't want anyone else. I..." His eyes watered,holding Loki's hand gently, looking at the bandage wrapped around it. "I love you." Loki felt like he was punched in the chest, his breath escaping as his eyes watered. "You shouldn't. I only cause pain. And suffering. I am a monster. I have hurt your family so much." "But that wasn't your fault. Now was it? What arnt you telling me?" Loki swallowed, a few tears going down his face as he looked away. "Odin. He abused me my entire life. For the smallest things. He would say I was paying for past mistakes even when I didn't know what they were. I would take an orange and I would get 50 lashings. I ate cake once and he forced me to vomit it up. I was only fed bread, water and occasionally meat. He would whip me often or cut me for the smallest misdeed. The guards would always have there way with me. He ignored my screams. Thought I was making up stories. Once I saw an opening, I took it. Thanos found me. Promised me food, shelter, protection, if i would do as he asks." TJ had to go to holding the bars of the hospital bed as he gripped it in anger.

He couldn't believe how horrible Odin was, the guards. Thanos. He wanted to kill them all. Loki continued, tears running down his face. "He told me what Odin did to me.I was once older, more...evil I suppose. He changed me into an infant, gave me a second chance. Thought if he could start over I would be good. He made me attempt to force Quinn to be my queen. He wanted me to take over earth so he would have a place to rule. My only true choice in this was taking over your mind. So if when I die I was at least able to be with you." TJ raised an eyebrow. "Be with me?" Loki smiled sadly. "We met once before. At your sisters wedding. You befriended me. We were only toddlers. You danced with me and fed me food of every sort. It was the best night of my life."

TJ frowned, remembering it but it was fuzzy. "That's when Odin forced you to throw up the cake?" Loki nodded. "Yeah." TJ took both of Loki's shoulders before forcing him to look him in the eyes. "Everything you said, Odin, Thanos. That was there fault. You may be a monster but they created you. It wasn't you. You can still change can still do good in this world." Loki's lip trembled, tears falling. TJ continued. "No matter how horrible you feel about yourself, come to me, talk to me or dad or anyone in this house. We've all been thru shit. We've been to hell and back. We know how it is. But it is never, ever ok for you to leave me like that." TJ ducked his before Loki could see his lip trembling before kissing him gently, holding his head. "I love you so much. Don't you ever leave me like that again," Loki whimpered, nodding. "I won't. I love you to. I always have." TJ then hugged him, hiding his face in his neck, letting Loki cry in his chest, hiding from the world. He vowed to do whatever it takes to help Loki and to protect him.

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