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Chapter Ten

Wednesday 31st December 2014

He held the front door open for her as they slipped inside, he passed the bottle to her and smiled "Take this... I will grab us some glasses and you sweetheart can go and pick a film to watch". She nodded slightly as he walked off, she headed over towards the living room, she stopped in the door way and stared at the chair, she just couldnt make her feet take her any further, her body was cold and tears stung her eyes, she was sure time was standing still. Images flashed into her brain and she took a step back, he steaded her as she stepped into him. "You ok darling?" he asked. She shook her head "I have to go Smithy.." he took the wine as she forced it into his hand and she headed towards the front door. He took a quick glance into the room and he sighed as he moved after her "Stevie.. please darling.. wait" she turned back to him "I cant sit in there and pretend it didnt happen.." he smiled "Then dont.." he nodded back into the home they used to share "Come on" she walked inside and he smiled as she stopped outside the living room "What do you want to watch?" he asked as he gave her the wine and moved past her "I dont mind". He nodded before heading into the living room. A few moments passed before he turned back to her "Bad Boys?" he asked smiling at her. He glanced at the chair her eyes had fallen on and he sighed as he turned back to her "Is that where it happened?" he asked. She nodded "I was sat there.. I should of picked up on the signs.. he was being so... odd.. and he pulled me onto the floor" he moved back over to her and pecked her forehead "You are the bravest person I know Stevie Smith..." she glanced up at him "Its Moss... Stevie Moss" he nodded "Of course.. sorry". She smiled at him "I wish I could make everything go back to normal" he sighed "Give it time sweetheart.. come on" he grinned and she watched him move towards the bedroom.

Once in his bedroom she glanced round, the photos of them together, the memories they had created were all gone. She sighed as the photo of him and Anna-Marie stood on the TV on his chest of drawes. "I shouldnt be here Smithy.." she gestured to the photo and he sighed as he took it from the tv, "Just relax Stevie... you are my wife" she watched as he headed to the door with the photo. She switched the TV on and opened the DVD player, she giggled as she stared at the two blonde women on the disk. She glanced to him in the door way "Busty blondes... really Smithy?" he nodded "I need it" he took it from her and placed it onto the cabinet. "I thought you agreed on no more porn... you gave up". He laughed "I know... but when I gave up porn I had you.. you were like my porn patch Stevie". She laughed "Its not like you are going without Smithy... you have Anna-Marie". He nodded "Yeah.. I have gone from a Big Mac at least every night to a double cheese burger once a fortnight". She smiled to him as she put the DVD in "Some people prefer a double cheese burger" he shook his head "Na.. Big Mac everytime sweetheart... it would be you everytime". She grinned up at him "Cant beat a Big Mac". He smiled "No.. you cant" he paused as his eyes stared into hers, neither wanting to break the moment. A few minutes passed before he spoke "We watching this film?" she nodded "Start it.." she moved to the bed and sat down. He pressed play before moving over and sinking down next to her.

He glanced across at her, she felt her face flush, her cheeks were burning as he leant towards her, he tilted her head up so his lips could brush hers. He pulled back and looked into her eyes, he was waiting for the rejection, the point where she got up and walked out but it never came, instead she moved her hand to the back of his neck and pulled him down close to her, he kissed her passionatly in a way he hadnt for a long time. A good few moments passed before she pulled back she layed her head back onto the pillow behind her and he smiled "I love you Stevie" he spoke before leaning over her body and back into her lips. The situation wasnt ideal. After all he had a girlfriend. Plus he and Stevie were in the process of getting divorced but he knew there was only one person he would ever love and he had to have her. He leant over her body and grabbed the TV remote and switched the film off before turning back to her glinting eyes. She grinned up at him "Happy New Year Smithy". He leant back down and into her lips "Happy... New... Year" he spoke between tender kissess.

Thursday 1st January 2015 8.33AM

This was a new year, a new start and Stevie was determined to make it a better one, despite the fact she had married the man she loved her year had been rubbish. She glanced to the door way as the topless man appeared. "Hello beautiful" he spoke and she smiled slightly as he went to kiss her lips, she moved her face so he pecked her cheek, he sighed "Are you ok?" he asked as she continued to make the coffee "Stevie" he prompted, she smiled at him "I am fine Smithy.. I am just going to drink this and then I will be off". He frowned "Where are you going?" he asked and she smiled "Home". He sighed "This is your home darling... here with me.. this is your place..." she shook her head "No.. its where Anna-Marie should be... she is your girlfriend". He smiled "I am going to end it... I need to be with you Stevie". She nodded "I know you do... and I love you too... but last night was a mistake.. and I wasnt ready". He took her hands and turned her to face him "Ok.. we can take it slower... as long as it takes... I am sorry if I put pressure on you.. or I took advantage.." she cut in "You didnt Smithy... I wanted to sleep with you... I wanted to be wanted... to be needed and loved but at the same time.. I am not ready for this.. I am not in the right place" he smiled "Then I will wait until you are.." she sighed "That could be a long time... and then I might decide I cant be with you.. I dont want you putting your life on hold for me.. so move forward with Anna-Marie". He sighed "I cant Stevie... I love you" she smiled "Then do it for me... I want you to have the perfect life... and she just may well be the person to do that with" she leant up and kissed his lips "Bye Smithy" she spoke before heading out of the door.

1.40PM

"Happy New Year" the voice startled her and she glanced up from her desk "And to you" she replied. He glanced round the empty room before back to the small blonde woman "I thought I was in on my own... what are you doing here?" he asked. "Nothing else to do Mickey". He nodded slightly "Stevie.. I know I can never put things right between us but.." she cut in "Dont.. you saying your sorry will make no difference.." he sighed "You have forgiven Smithy". She nodded slightly "But he thought I had cheated on him... he had good reason to hate me... you.. you were meant to be my friend and I needed you". Tears rolled down his face and he took her hand from where it rested on her desk "I just want you to know... I am going to spend the rest of my life feeling guilty... I am so sorry". Letting go of her hand he headed to his desk. "Mickey.." she spoke as she spun on her chair to face him and he turned back to her "Do you want to go for a drink tonight?" she asked. "Really?" he smiled.
She nodded and he grinned "I would love to darling".

8.46PM

He rested back down next to her and placed the drink infront of her "So.. any big plans for this year?" he asked. "Get divorced... try and get my life back on track and just stay sane really". He nodded slightly "You and Smithy.. its over then?". She shrugged "Guess so". Mickey smiled "D'you not love him?" she nodded "Of course I do Mickey... but he will never get over what Greg did to me... how could we ever try to move on from that... besides... he has Anna-Marie.." Mickey cut in "He would end it for you... he loves you.. but I get it... you will both be a constant reminder of the bad memories for each other... I hope you can both move on and be happy". She nodded noticing the man enter with Callum, Anna-Marie and a few other from the Sunhill team. "Me too... I just want to be happy Mickey". If truth be told she just wanted to be with Smithy, he made her truely happy but how could she really be the woman he spent his life with, knowing what his best friend did to her, she could never torture him in such a way, she loved him to much.