Loki was finally off bed rest with bandages still wrapped around his wrists. It will be a while til he can go without them. He just hated how they stood out. Like they were mocking him. Mocking his pain. He was dressed in an elbow length green shirt with black jeans. Some hair pulled back in a small pony tail. He just kept staring at his wrists, not realizing TJ was behind him in the lab. Or had forgotten. TJ helped him out of bed and brought him cloths. TJ walked over, placing a hand on his shoulder. Loki jumped, turning. "Oh...sorry...I got so lost in thought. I forgot you were here." TJ smiled. "Your fine. What were you thinking about that got you so lost?" He gently put his arm around his shoulders, holding him protectively. Loki shook his head, lowing his arms, other hand holding his other elbow. "It's stupid."TJ gently tipped Loki's head up.
"Hey, if it has you this lost, I want to know." Loki felt his eyes water, looking away then looking at his wrists that were wrapped in bright white gauze. "It's like there mocking me. They stand out. I feel like if i walk into a room everyone will stare and wonder and mock." Loki hand't realized tears were falling, lip trembling. TJ brought him in for a hug, holding him gently. "shh thats not stupid at all. I promise, no one is going to stare at them. They won't even care." Loki just hid in his chest, scared to face the world and the family.
Gage took Quinn to his room. She sat on the bed, looking like she was waiting for him to make a move. He sighed, hands on his hips. "So what brought this on?" She smirked, he could tell she was trying to be tempting. And in any other situation. She would be. She was gorgeous. Her long, dark hair was over her shoulder, her shirt showed off her breasts nicely (but still modest) and he wasn't even going to go on about her ass in those pants. She shrugged, smirk still on her face. "Just miss you inside me." Gage gave her a look. "Remember the last time you thought you were ready? You went into a flashback." She looked away. "I can do better." He shook his head. "Do you hear yourself. Your not a prostitute or a whore. You went thru a traumatic experience, it's natural to be scared." She half glared. "I never said i was scared."
He gave her a stern look, stepping closer. "You were raped Quinn." He saw her look away, sitting up straighter. He had to get thru to her just how serious a situation that is. Still is."Violated and you nearly died. If we hadn't gotten there in time you wouldn't even be here. You saying your not scared. Thats bullshit and you know it." He glared softly, seeing her eyes water, looking up at him, trying with all her might to be angry, pissed off at him for pressing on a nerve like that.
She spoke, her voice thick. "I'm terrified. I'm terrified that I'l never get past this, that I'l never get to be with you again."Her face softened. "I want to make love with you again. I want to show you how much I love you. I don't want this to hold me back from living my life." Gage sat next to her, wrapping his arm around her. He felt her shaking under his fingertips. "Then we'l do it right. None of this rushing in head first. We'l go slow and I'l do whatever it takes for you to know that I'm not goona hurt you, that I'm only there to make you feel good.. So think it over and then come to me, tell me what I should do to help you." She nodded, a few tears falling. "ok."
Loki finally made he's way upstairs, sitting in the living room by the window reading. TJ was in the kitchen with his parents, having a well deserved coffee. He told them Loki's thoughts. Kim frowned. "We would never do anything like that. Or say anything. We've all been thru alot. Why would he think we would mock him?" TJ frowned. "He's been abused all his life, pretty severely. He...he's grown up thinking he's worthless." Tony frowned. "I know that feeling." Kim frowned, her hand going to hold her husbands. She looked over. "I have an idea, if you'd like to help me." TJ perked up. "What is it?" She smiled weakly. "Maybe we could make him some leather cuffs. That way it just looks like he's wearing stylish cuffs instead of gauze. But they can go over the gauze while he heals." TJ smiled. "That would be great. I can go buy material." Kim smiled. "I'l come with you, we could even make them while were out." TJ grinned. "Oh this will be fun." Tony smiled. "I can keep an eye on him." Kim smiled. 'I'l get my purse and we can go." TJ nodded, he always had his phone and wallet on him because of the situations they get into. He dosnt want to be without one if he ends up stranded in the middle of nowhere.
One Kim and TJ left on there mission to make Loki feel better, tony decided to suck it up and talk to Loki, get to know the new him. Bond a little. He took his mug of coffee with him, bringing a cup of tea for Loki. He just knew Loki was a tea kind of guy. He got closer to the couch. "uh here. I brought you some tea." Loki looked up from his book, seeing Tony there with a cup of tea being handed to him. "Oh. Thats very kind of you." Tony smiled weakly, setting it down on the table. "I figure your a tea kind of guy." Loki sighed. "I am not one for coffee but the rest of your family drink it down like water." Tony chucked weakly. Then Loki frowned. "Why are you being so kind to me? I have done nothing to deserve this."
Tony frowned, sitting close to him but still a small distance away. "We know about your family history. What Odin did. Thanos." Loki glared weakly. "I do not need your pity. Or anyone elses." Tony frowned. "Were not pitying you. Were... sympathetic. We've been to hell and back. We know what it's like to be abused and kicked when your down. I know what it's like to have a father that dosnt give a shit about you. But I turned out...semi-ok." Loki let out a he could open up a little to him. "Odin, he said he was making me pay for past mistakes. I didn't even know what they were. I was only to be fed bread, water, some meat. He was strict and ruled with an iron fist. At least with his family. If Thor intervened on my behalf, to save me, he threatened to take away his hammer again. I snuck an orange once and Ii got 30 lashings. I would often try to run away, to the library on the other side of the palace. I..."
His eyes watered. "The guards would catch me there and threaten to take me to Odin for lashings or beatings. I offered myself to them instead of facing that whip again. But then after that they would have me whenever they like." Tony gently laird a hand on his shoulder, trying his best to be supportive. Loki cleared away a few tears. "Odin would ignore my screams, ignore how guards slipped into my room. When I went to your daughters wedding and TJ befriended me." Tony smiled weakly. Remembering when TJ was just a toddler. "I remember that." Loki smiled sadly."He fed me so many different delicious foods. But once we had to leave, I...I was so scared. I knew Odin had seen what I did. When Thor and I got back home, Odin forced me to vomit up all the food I ate for 45 minutes." Tony frowned. "Jesus. Thats horrible. I'm sorry. I'm sorry Odin was such a...dickbag to you. But your with good people now that care about you. No ones gonna hurt you here or make fun of any pain your going thru." Tony sighed. "My dad, he was more neglectful then anything. He was never there for...anything. Always had something better to do. And when he was home he was drinking and I would try to show him an invention or experiment I did. And I would get a slap to the face and told it wasn't good enough. If it was a really bad night, sometimes he would push me down, kick me until I was unconscious or someone would pull him away." Loki frowned. "This home seems filled with bad pasts." Tony smiled sadly. "Yeah. It does. That just means more people you can talk to. Trust me. They'll listen. ...so what are you reading?"
TJ held the wrist cuffs in his hands. They were a dark green with golden stitching and black laces to adjust them. He smiled, still sitting in the car, his mom holding the gift box int he drivers seat. "Mom, these are amazing." "Do you think he'l like them?" TJ smiled. "I think he'l love them." He placed them in the box, they both quickly wrapped it in happy looking wrapping paper. He got out of the car, his mom holding the gift. As they made there way upstairs they heard laughing. TJ smiled, looking in the living room, seeing Tony talking with Loki and Loki was...laughing. Softly but laughing. TJ wanted to cry in happiness and relief. He and his mom stepped into the room, he walked a littler faster to Loki, putting his arm around him. "Hey, we got you something." Loki frowned. "You didn't have to get me anything." TJ smiled.
"Think of it as a home warming gift." Tony looked at the box as Kim handed it to Loki. He swallowed, looking at the gift, gently starting to open it. He opened the box, looking at the custom cuffs inside. "What...what are these?" TJ got one out. "May I see your wrist?" Loki gently lifted one up, gauze standing stark against his skin. TJ gently put it around his wrist, adjusting it. "There. That way no one has to see your bandages." Loki stared at them, his eyes watering as he looked up at TJ, Kim and Tony. "I do not deserve this." Tony smiled sadly. "Yes you do. TJ told us you didn't like how your gauze and bandages stick out and how you didn't like that. So they made these." Loki looked down at the cuffs. "There beautiful. I will cherish these." TJ smiled, kissing his cheek. "We care so much about you. Never question that." Loki nodded, leaning into him, letting himself relax for the first time in all his 17 years of living. He was safe.
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