A/N - Hey Guyss:) So here we are againn :) Again I'd just like to say Thank you to everyone who alerted, favourited and reviewed this story - I really am like so happy that you guys are reading this and hopefully liking it - lemme know ;D I'd love to know what you think:)
Oooh btw, just incase any of you are interested, in my last Authors note, i said about getting my AS level results the day after i published Chapter 1 Part 2 - Well i got B,C,D,D - not great i know..hello resits next year(Y) But the 'B' was in English and I got an 'A' in the actual exam so i guess that shows im not that awful at writing right? ;)
Disclaimer - Its quite hard to think of quirky things to say but basically, unfortunately, I don't own Glee or any of these characters /3
As Blaine and Burt continued to talk long into the early hours of the morning, the older boy was shocked when he looked down to find the two hands on his watch informed him the time was now 5:15am.
"I should probably be getting back. Are you gonna come up?"
"Nah kid it's alright. Carole and Finn are coming back around Half 7-8 so I'll just wait around for them - probably grab another coffee while I'm here. Besides, I'll let you boys have some alone time today. Just tell Kurt that we'll be up there before the Doctor comes."
Blaine nodded whilst giving Burts shoulder a reassuring squeeze before he strolled out of the cafeteria and back along the comfortless, cold corridors.
As he made his reappearance in Kurts room, Blaine was startled to find the bed in front of him lay empty.
"Uh Hum"
Blaine jumped as the abruptness of the unexpected noise from behind him caused both his heart and pulse rate to mildly increase as a result of slight fear. As he turned around, he realised he had nothing to be scared of because standing in the doorway, with one arm against the doorframe and the other hand placed firmly on his hip, was Kurt Hummel. Blaine smiled in relief that not only had the noise come from a familiar face, but that his boyfriend had decided to return to the room but judging by the look on the younger boys face, Blaine wondered if there was a slight possibility that he was in Kurts bad books and from previous experience, Kurts bad books was one place he certainly didn't want to find himself in again anytime soon.
"Hi" he sheepishly said. Noticing that Kurts facial expression had yet to soften he continued. "Wh-Wh-Where did you go?" Blaine managed to blurt out whilst pointing to the bed
"I could ask you the same thing Blaine Warbler but I can smell the Coffee from here so I don't think I need to." Kurt quipped with a smile beginning to betray his stony stare as he walked back into the room. He wasn't even angry at Blaine. He just found it hilarious how guilty he could make Blaine feel when he thought he was - It had become one of his favourite pastimes over the course of their relationship. "And for your information, I went to the bathroom."
"Oh" Blaine simply replied.
"Besides, I was sorta having trouble sleeping after a while so I thought getting out of the room for a while might help clear my head a little. I'm guessing that's what you done too?" Kurt said as he slightly cocked his head to the side, trying to meet his boyfriends eyes.
"Yeah. I-I couldn't really sleep" His shoulders shrugged as he sheepishly replied.
Kurt smiled sadly at his boyfriend. He knew he had absolutely no control over what was happening but he hated seeing Blaine go through this pain and knowing that what was happening to him was the cause of it. Without saying anything, Kurt opened out his arms, silently inviting Blaine into a hug to which he gladly accepted. The two boys heads rested comfortably on the others shoulders as they stayed in the embrace and had no desire to break it any time soon.
"I'm sorry I wasn't here when you woke up." Blaine mumbled against Kurts neck.
"Well I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed to find you gone but I'm not holding you prisoner" Kurt commented with a giggle. "Besides, I know today has been hard so I think I can forgive you just this once."
Dripping at the seams with sarcasm, Blaine replied "Oh gee, thanks."
As they eventually broke the embrace and made their way towards the bed, the two boys lay next to one another in comfortable silence, their hands fitting perfectly together as they entwined into each other. Kurts nestled his head into the crook of Blaines neck allowing Blaine to gently lie his head on top of Kurts - This position giving him the welcome oppurtunity to place sporadic kisses to Kurts forehead.
"How was the coffee then?" The younger boy remarked as the powerful tang of coffee radiated off of the older boy and travelled up Kurts nostrils.
"Not even worth talking about" Blaine swiftly commented in response. He knew now to never take 'The Lima Bean' for granted and would still be grateful even if his Medium Drip was delivered to him at a temperature less than scalding hot.
"That bad huh."
"Pretty much." he retorted before leaning over, placing a soft kiss to Kurts forehead.
"I-I was thinking earlier..." Kurt started, as he absentmindedly slowly ran a finger up and down Blaines chest, occasionally creating patterns against the black polo shirt.
"Yeah?"
"And well, I-I mean you don't have to if you don't want to-I'll completely understand."
"Kurt, you know I would do anything for you. Besides, you haven't even told me what it is yet so I cant refuse just yet can I."
"No i-i guess not." Kurt said, releasing a slight nervous laugh. "Its just I-I don't think I'm ready to tell everyone about me, so I was ju-just maybe wondering if-if you could? Or I mean you-you could ask Finn o-or you can both do it or...I don't know. I just-I don't think I can tell them myself but they deserve to know."
"If that's what you want Kurt then I'll do it." Blaine kissed Kurts temple as his fingers ran their way through Kurts soft, voluminous locks. "I would do anything for you, you know that."
"I know. I just-I feel so bad. I feel like I'm making everybody else do my dirty work for me. You know, like, I'm asking you, and possibly Finn, to tell the New Directions and The Warblers, Dad would've been the one to tell Carole and Finn and I asked Dad to tell you, you know. I just, I feel like I should tell them, but, i-i just, I just cant."
Vunerable, blue eyes were suddenly forced to meet sincere hazel eyes as Kurt felt a warm, strong hand clasp his cheek.
"Kurt this-this is anything but 'dirty work' okay. You have to believe me, You don't have to feel guilty about anything, alright babe."
Still looking into Blaines eyes, Kurt placed his own hand against the hand of his boyfriends that still lay against his cheek. "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you by the way. I just, I didn't think I could do it. I knew out of everyone, you would be the hardest person to tell."
"It's okay. You have nothing to be sorry for." Blaine brought his lips to capture Kurt's. Blaine felt Kurt relax into the kiss almost instantly as a soft sigh escaped from the younger boys lips - It was as if all the fear he had just expressed had melted away in the comfort of this kiss. As they pulled away, Blaine placed a single kiss to Kurts forehead. "The doctor will be here in a few hours - you should try to get some more sleep."
"Mmm I could say the same for you Blaine Warbler."
"I'm fine."
"Blaine, your eyes are practically more bloodshot than a zombie's - and I haven't forgotten the little detail that you drove across statelines to be here tonight."
"But-but I wouldn't be anywhere else" he defended. Blaine couldn't think of anywhere else he would be. Kurt was his one and only priority.
"I know, but even if you don't think you are, I know you are exhausted and I can see it. So you're going to make a deal with me - I will try and go to sleep if you promise to do the same. Deal?" Kurt raised his eyebrows as he silently prompted an answer from Blaine.
Blaine sighed in defeat. He knew he couldn't convince Kurt despite his protests so he simply replied "Fine, deal."
"Thank you" Kurt said as he kissed Blaines forehead whilst a proud smile slyly crept upon his face because as usual, he had won. The two rarely had arguments but whenever they did have slight disagreements, Kurt would always triumph as Blaine always quickly admitted defeat, eager to avoid any trivial disagreement escalating into a full blown argument.
As Kurt burrowed himself deep into the familiar comfort of Blaines arms, Blaine listened as Kurts breathing evened out into a mellow rhythm showing that he had held up his end of the deal and fallen asleep. Despite his earlier protests and the caffeine flowing freely through his veins, Blaine found his breathing begin to even out and his eyelids slowly began to close too.
As Blaine began to regain consciousness and return to reality, he sensed a pair of familiar blue eyes staring intently down at him. He squinted his eyes slightly open to see that Kurt was sitting upright beside him.
"Mmmm...Why are you watching me sleep?"
"Cause I have that privilege as your boyfriend."
"Mmm" Blaine grumbled as he nestled his head even deeper into the pillow, desperately trying to catch a few more minutes of sleep. "What time is it?"
"Half 8."
Blaine could have easily got whiplash considering how fast he sat bolt upright in the bed. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to sleep that long."
"I told you you were tired." Kurt said as he playfully bumped his shoulder against Blaines. "Its okay though." Blaine noticed the sudden difference in Kurts tone of voice. It changed from having an assertive tone to it to sounding very dejected and the words came out so quietly they could have passed for a whisper. The younger boy sat next him, looking down, nervously rubbing his hands together.
"Hey, are you okay?" The older boy softly said as he placed a gentle arm against his boyfriends back.
"I'm nervous" the younger boy sombrely admitted.
"I know" Blaine said as he placed a kiss to Kurts shoulder before resting his head there.
"I've just been sitting here thinking for a while now and It-It's all just become...very real all of a sudden. And I'm scared about today. I mean, wh-what if I don't understand any of what the Doctor says or what if I just blank out and forget everything. Im-Im scared Blaine. Maybe I cant do this."
"I know you're scared babe - Its perfectly normal to feel that way." Blaine took his head off of Kurts shoulder and turned the boy to face him before taking his hands in his. "Now you told me last night that everything will be okay and now its my turn to tell you - everything is going to be fine. And as for when Doctor Rolstone comes in, well I'll be here - I'm not going anywhere and your dad and Carole will both be here too. So it doesn't matter if you do lose concentration and start daydreaming about Marc Jacobs next collection or what scarf you're going to wear to match this weekends outfit, because I know you've got it planned already..." The comment that proved how well his boyfriend knew every little detail about him caused a small smile to spread across Kurts face. "...because we'll listen for you. You're not alone in this Kurt, okay. I'm here for you. We're all here for you. Every step of the way."
"I know. Thank you." Kurt whispered, smiling softly at his boyfriends words of comfort.
"I love you"
"I love you too" Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaines neck as Blaines arms slipped around Kurt's waist. The two boys were so enraptured in the embrace that they hadn't even noticed the knock on the door, let alone three familiar faces enter the room.
"Oh er sorry. We're not er, we're not interrupting anything are we."
"Its just a hug dad." The rolling of Kurt's eyes was so audible in his answer.
"Can you two not keep your hands off of each other for even a minute?"
Without even turning to physically acknowledge Burts comment, Kurt and Blaine laughed as they gazed into each others eyes and simply replied "No."
"How are you boys doing?"
"Yeah we're good" Blaine answered.
"What about you?" Burt asked, his question being directly aimed at his son. "You alright there kiddo?"
"We'll see huh." Kurt simply said.
Kurt suddenly felt a pair of mothering arms wrap him into a loving hug. It was like everything she wanted to say was exhibited through this one single embrace. The woman pulled away, placing her hand against Kurts cheek so the two were looking directly at each other.
"How are you sweetie?" She softly inquired.
"I'm okay. At the moment."
Carole smiled softly at her son before placing a motherly kiss to his cheek. Kurt was more than just a stepson to Carole. Calling Kurt her stepson almost made Carole feel as though she had an obligation to act as a mother figure towards Kurt just because she had married his father, but for Carole, it was anything but an obligation. She felt honoured that she could call Kurt her son. She walked over to the other side of the bed to repeat the same maternal actions, this time for Blaine.
"Blaine sweetie, its always good to see you. How are you honey?"
"Its always good to see you too Carole and I'm okay thank you. How are you?" Judging from the redness of her usual warm eyes, Blaine could tell that Carole was far from alright.
"I'm holding up sweetie." She whispered, trying to avoid Kurt from overhearing her response - she didn't want him to feel in any way guilty for how she was feeling.
A gangly teenager stood awkwardly in the doorway, not too sure what to do or what to say.
"You can come in you know Finn" Kurt quipped from the other side of the room.
Finn slowly started to make his way into the room "Hey dude. Blaine"
A wave of silence suddenly filled the atmosphere as the five of them resided in various places around the room, each anxiously awaiting Doctor Rolstones impending arrival which was due to happen in the next few minutes. Blaine, who was still sitting next to Kurt on the bed, sensed his boyfriends anxiousness and took the younger boys hand in his own, accompanying it with a reassuring squeeze and comforting smile.
The sound of the hands ticking from the clock hanging from the white wall seemed to echo loudly around the room as the minutes seemed to crawl past when eventually, three sharp knocks were made from the other side of the door. A tall, sturdy man, dressed in the standard White coat entered the room - Kurt guessed he was in his fourties. His hair was short and brown with hints of grey here and there. His brown eyes complemented his facial features, with crinkle lines appearing around his eyes as he smiled warmly at Kurt.
"Mr Hummel?"
"Kurt"
"Kurt, its lovely to meet you. I'm Doctor Rolstone and I will be your personal Doctor so whenever you have appointments or if you have any questions, anything at all that, I'm your man okay." He seems nice Kurt thought as the Doctor flashed an encouraging smile towards him and around the room. "I assume this is all of your family?"
"Yeah, these are my parents - Burt and Carole, my brother Finn and this is my boyfriend Blaine."
The Doctor politely shook every ones hand as the introductions were made.
"Well it's lovely to meet all of you. I'm sorry its not under happier circumstances. So I guess we should just get started then yes?"
Kurt nodded. There was no way he was in any way emotionally or mentally ready to hear the words from the Doctors mouth - He hadn't forgotten he had cancer but at least before the Doctor arrived, as real as it all was, it still seemed less definite, less...final. Kurt was brought out of his thoughts as Blaine slipped his hand into Kurts. It was as if through this one sign of affection, Blaine was silently trying to tell him "We're going to get through this together."
Doctor Rolstone opened his folder to refer to the notes he had made on his new patient a couple of hours before. "Okay, so, Kurt, you have a case of Stage two Acute Leukaemia. Now this explains why your symptoms have only started to affect you in the last few weeks because Acute leukaemia's come on quicker than Chronic Leukaemia's and the symptoms appear often within days or weeks."
"What does the Stage two bit actually mean?" Kurt reluctantly asked. He wasn't sure he wanted to know but he knew he should know everything.
"Ah now Cancers are ranked from Stages 1 to 4 - One being the lowest and four being the highest. So the fact you're at Stage two is fairly encouraging at the moment, you know its not great, I'll be honest, but its not awful either. Now when it comes to treatment..."
"Stop!" Every ones heads turned to look straight at Finn who was sitting in a chair looking extremely distressed, his hands clutching his head as he stared at the glistening, immaculate floor beneath him. He promptly stood out of his chair, turned to stare out of the window before facing the room again, a tear rolling down each of his cheeks.
"I'm sorry Kurt, I just, I-this.."
"Finn its okay. Why don't you go get yourself a coffee yeah?" Kurt softly said. He knew he couldn't help it but a overwhelming wave of guilt rushed over him.
"Sweetie, do you want me to come with you?"
"No no mum you stay here. I just need to be by myself at the moment." As his shaking hand hovered above the doorknob, he turned around to face five worried faces staring straight at him. "Kurt, Im-Im so sorry..."
"Finn. Its okay. I'll just see you later alright."
Kurts eyes never left the doorway as Finn walked out, gently closing the door behind him.
"He'll be okay - he just needs a little time. I'll go talk to him later." Blaine whispered to Kurt as he kissed his shoulder. Kurt squeezed Blaines hand.
"I'm Sorry, I-I didn't mean to upset him."
"It's far from your fault Doctor." Carole assured him. "Erm, so you were talking about treatment?"
"Ah yes. Okay, well, many of our patients choose to undergo courses of Chemotherapy and Chemotherapy has proven to be extremely successful in several cases. Is that what you're planning to do Kurt?"
"I-um-I think so."
"Well you don't have to make a decision right this second but the sooner we know what you want to do, the sooner we can get started okay. Now I'll just talk to you about it so you can grasp an idea as to what Chemotherapy is like and I can give you some booklets with more detailed information later. So Chemotherapy is typically given in a series of sessions with each session being followed by a rest period. The aim of each session is to destroy as many of the cancer cells as possible and then the rest period, which is usually 3-4 weeks, allows the normal cells and tissues to recover. For the first few days of your rest period, you will feel very weak so avoid engaging in any activities, just concentrate on yourself and recovering. All you'll probably want to do for the first few days is sleep. Now as simple as it sounds at the moment, it does have its downfall. During Chemo, you will experience some side effects - It's difficult to predict what side effects you will personally experience because everyone reacts differently to treatment but some of the common side effects are fatigue, nausea and vomiting, possible hair loss, bruising and bleeding, your taste in food will alter and during chemotherapy, you will be extremely vulnerable to infection because your White Blood Cell count will be lower than usual so as well as getting better, your other one main job Kurt is to take good care of yourself. Now what we can do is administer you with a set of painkillers which wont get rid of the side effects, but it will definitely take the edge off of them. How are you feeling about it at the moment?"
Kurt glanced around the room, searching Burt, Carole and Blaine faces for an answer.
"Its your choice buddy - only you can decide what you want to do and we'll be here for you, whatever you decide." Carole nodded in Agreement.
"Blaine?" What-What do you think?"
Blaine felt like his heart was about to rip into two at the sight before him. Kurts eyes screamed the fact that he was scared and unsure about what he should do. Kurt looked at Blaine like he wanted his boyfriend to tell him everything was definately going to be okay and as if Blaine had all the answers to his questions and worries, but Blaine had no idea what to do, say or think either.
"Babe I-I think if this is what you want to do, then you should do it but like your dad said, only you can decide that, but just know that whatever you do decide to do, I will be right there with you, every single step of they way."
"Okay" Kurt whispered. "Doctor Rolstone, I-I think I'm gonna go with the Chemo."
"Are you sure?" Kurt nodded. "Okay, so where we'll go from here is I'll do a few blood tests to make sure your body is physically able to cope with the demands that Chemotherapy will bring to it so I'll do those today, keep you in overnight and as far as I'm concerned, I see no reason that you can't go home tomorrow and we can start treatment next week."
"Wow erm, yeah o-okay. Thank you Doctor."
"No problem Kurt. Remember, any questions, don't hesitate to ask. It was lovely to meet all of you."
The customary responses were made from the four people scattered around the room before the man in the white coat proceeded out of the room.
"I should probably go talk to Finn - make sure he's alright" Carole said, effectively breaking the silence in the room.
"No-no Carole let me. I need to talk to him about something anyway." Blaine said as he scooted off of the bed to stand beside it, still holding Kurts hand. Kurt smiled softly at him, knowing exactly what Blaine wanted to talk to him about. He mouthed "Thank you."
"Are you sure Blaine?"
"Absolutely positive." He reaffirmed. "Are you gonna be okay for a little bit?" Blaine whispered to Kurt.
"Yeah I'll be fine."
He gently squeezed Kurts hand and lifted it to place a soft kiss to his knuckles. "I'll be back as soon as possible okay." He then walked out of the doors and down the corridors that were becoming oh so familiar to him.
As Blaine walked around the cafeteria he'd been in just hours before, he found the person he had been looking for. Sitting in a tucked away corner, directly next to a full length window offering him a look at the dreary hospital grounds, was Finn.
"Coffee's horrible, isn't it?" Blaine remarked as he walked towards the teenager before taking a seat opposite him.
"Absolutely disgusting." Finn replied, still staring aimlessly out of the window. The sun was shining brightly in the clear blue morning sky - a definite contradiction to the mood of the two boys. "Dude Im-Im sorry about not staying earlier, it was just-god it was too much to handle."
"You don't have to apologize Finn, Kurt understands. We all understand."
"How-How was it?"
"Well he's decided to go ahead with the Chemotherapy which the Doctor seems to think is his best shot at the moment so I guess we'll just have to wait and see...How are you holding up?"
"I just-I can't believe this is actually happening. He's only just graduated High school...God Blaine, this, this is all just so...wrong. " Finn exasperated.
"I know." Blaine said, the words coming out an octave higher than a whisper.
"How are you doing man, I mean, this has gotta be totally rough on you too."
"Yeah I don't quite know to be honest - it's sunk in but it hasn't at the same time...if that makes sense? I'm a bit all over the place at the moment really but, you know, Kurt told me to hope so we just have to hold on to that."
"That boy is too selfless and caring, even at the worst of times."
"I already told him that." The two boys shared a little laugh between them before remembering they weren't really supposed to yet.
"Listen Finn, Kurt asked me if you and I could possibly tell the New Directions and The Warblers what's going on. He's just-he's not sure if he can tell them himself yet and I want to spare him any unnecessary upset or hurt."
"Oh..god yeah, I mean, yeah of course. Wow, I-I hadn't even thought about that."
"Neither had I to be honest until Kurt asked me this morning."
"Yeah. Listen, Blaine, I-I know you're not gonna want to leave so if you wanna just give me some of the Warblers numbers, I can call them and then you can stay here with Kurt."
"Are-Are you sure?"
"Yeah dude it's no problem. I mean, we all know each other pretty well now right, so its fine. Besides, as much as I want to be here for Kurt, I need to get out of this place. I really cant stand hospitals." He said with an air of disgust as his head glanced around the room,
"I know the feeling."
"You know, as horrible as this all is - at least Kurt has you, you know."
Blaine smiled affectionately at Finn. Blaine had become so close to the Hummel-Hudson family throughout his relationship with Kurt that Finn wasn't just a friend to Blaine - he was a brother. The two had challenged each other countless times on X-Box, spent many evenings together shouting furiously at the football games on TV and Blaine had even helped Finn practice his singing for upcoming competitions. Kurt had given Blaine love but he was also thankful that Kurt had given him a family.
"Right back at you buddy."
The two boys sat for a while longer, talking about inconsequential topics, before settling into a comfortable silence. Infinite thoughts ran through each of the boys minds but each and every single one of them related back to the young boy, 4 floors directly above them, in room 317.
I hope it was alrightt :O I actually found this chapter so hard to write! I knew what I wanted to happen in it and I had the basic scenarios written down but when it came to writing it into actual words - my mind went blank! I had to take like a 2 day break from it :L
So im just gonna warn you guys now, I go back to College on the 6th (2 weeks today) so updates after then might be a bit delayed - not by much, dont worry! But because I'll be back to doing coursework and preparing for exams..i'm gonna be busy :( but what I'm aiming to do is write at least 3, if not more, chapters before I go back so that I wont fall behind in updating this because I love you guys too much :)
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