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Raven held a breath and hesitated a moment before pushing the door open. Octavia was pulling on her boots and looked up when she entered.
"Hey" She smiled but hesitated when Raven didn't reply.
Instead she stepped forward and pulled Octavia to her feet. The youngest Blake was watching her in confusion and she took another breath.
"Okay I need to say this and please" She cut off Octavia who looked like she was about to cut her off, "Let me say it. Even if you want to never see me again I need to get it off my chest"
Octavia nodded and waited patiently, "I never had a family, not really, my dad died and my mother used me as a way to feel her intoxicated state. I only survived because of Finn and after that we just fell together. I had only ever been with Finn before we came down here and after that we just fell apart, he was in love with Clarke, but I never stopped loving him. Then he went and killed all those people and it wasn't him except it was and now he's dead because of the decisions he made. I can't blame Clarke anymore because Finn made his own choices and I can't change that; what she did was the lesser of two evils and I know that now. But that doesn't mean I'm not still hurting.
"Before mount weather I had nobody. Then I realised that the 100 could be that, they could be my new family. Then I was shot and everyone was taken by mount weather. Mount weather tore everything away and even when it came back the 100 were dead. We're dead on the inside and I don't know how to live again Octavia because the last person that saved me and help me survive was Finn. But then you came out of nowhere and helped me. My leg doesn't feel as heavy as it used to because of you and even when they were drilling into me in mount weather I didn't give up. I was lying on that table and thinking 'now it will finally be over… Now I can finally get away from all this pain' but then I saw your face. I looked at you Octavia and I didn't want to die, I wanted to live, and I haven't felt this way since Finn and that scares me. It scares me because he's dead and I didn't think that pain would ever go away. But it's going and that's because of you… I care about you. I really really care about you and I'm scared"
Raven took a deep breath and looked at Octavia. She had just blurted everything out, her insides felt empty and she couldn't move from her current position. They were so close yet Octavia felt a million miles away.
"Say something" she breathed.
Octavia was watching her so intently but still she didn't say anything. Raven nodded and moved to leave but she pulled her back. They locked eyes for a moment before Octavia's lips were on hers.
They weren't fast or heated but slow and careful as if she was afraid Raven would break if she went too fast. It was so different to Finn but she didn't care; she was so different than she had been with Finn. She didn't need fast and heated. She needed this. She needed Octavia.
They pulled away too soon but Octavia only said, "I need you"
And she did, just like Raven, they needed each other.
XoXoXoX
The celebration of the alliance was held outside the walls of Polis. The people had erected a huge space for the dancing around a bonfire that was lit and burning fully by the time Clarke joined the festivities. Lexa had warned her prior to the evening that they made a habit of getting as drunk as possible earlier on so Clarke wasn't surprised when she witnessed more than three groups stumble away as she was arriving. Apparently grounders had the art of getting drunk down to a T.
Echo, Bellamy and Abby had made their way down earlier and Lexa had been here since the beginning. Clarke had knocked on Octavia and Raven's door but they hadn't answered, she had assumed they were down here but she had yet to see them.
She spotted Lexa drinking with the man she remembered being called Karlois and the woman that had been staring intently at Clarke throughout their meeting and she decided to finally get introduced. Grabbing a drink from an offering hand she took a sip before making her way over. Liquid courage.
Lexa smiled when she spotted Clarke and pulled her over once she was close enough, "Clarke, this is Karlois and Juan"
Clarke nodded to them both and smiled. Juan stayed quiet but Karlois offered his hand out, "I apologise if I intimidated you in there sky girl… I just wanted to see what you were" He hesitated for a moment, "Made of"
Karlois grinned at her as she took his hand and he pulled her closer so he could whisper in his ear, "Between you and me, at least half of the commanders in that room are terrified of you"
"Why?"
He pulled away and laughed, "Your reputation precedes you Clarke of the sky people"
She had no idea what that meant but when she looked to Lexa for help the only thing she got was a smirk and a knowing glance. Lexa clapped him on the back and asked if he wanted another drink. They were clearly both intoxicated enough but Clarke said nothing as they made their way back over to get another drink. Still it was the most relaxed she had seen Lexa.
"You were most impressive in there sky girl"
Clarke looked to Juan and couldn't help but feel slightly intimidated. She was older, taller and the scars across her face equalled the air of superiority that Indra had about her. Her tanned skin was not dissimilar to Lexa's and she wore thin brown leather.
"How so?" Clarke wanted to know what all the commanders seemed to think was so terrifying about her. Was is really the stories they had heard from their warriors or was it something she had proven since arriving in Polis?
Juan was giving away nothing though because she avoided the question, "I haven't seen the commander this happy since Costia. Even when the alliance of the twelve clans was formed formed she didn't celebrate with us. She chose rather to over-see the festivities"
She was looking at Clarke in a way that suggested she knew more than she was letting on, "You knew Costia?"
Juan nodded, "I knew her… She was one of my warriors"
"How did Lexa meet her?"
Juan scoffed, "Costia was a prisoner of war. Lexa kidnapped her group… I don't know how they came to be but they did and it formed an alliance between my people and Lexa's. Until Costia's death anyway"
The woman turned to Clarke then and smiled, it was the first one she had shown Clarke and it really didn't suite her, "What do you think of my son?"
"Your son?" Clarke frowned but then she put the names together and her eyes widened, "Jua?"
The woman nodded and had another drink. Clarke couldn't help the laugh that escaped her; they were nothing alike. Juan seemed to know this because smirked at Clarke's amusement, "He is more like his father than me"
Clarke nodded and they drank together whilst waiting for Lexa and Karlois to return.
Lexa was beaming at Clarke when she returned and offered her some of her drink. Clarke shook her head in amusement, she honestly didn't believe Lexa would drink like this, maybe the commander was more relaxed with Clarke around, "No thanks Lexa and I think you've had enough"
She shook her head and took another gulp, "Never Clarke. Now" She paused for a moment and frowned as if she was trying to work out what she was about to say, "Come and dance?"
That also took Clarke by surprise. She stared at her in awe and shook her head again, "I can't dance Lexa"
The commander scrunched her nose and looked at her drink, "Neither can I"
They looked at each other and burst into laughter.
XoXoXoX
"Come on"
"I don't think so"
"Come on!"
"No" he answered simply. Arms crossed and watching her.
Echo stepped forward and grabbed Bellamy's hands, pulling him towards her, she smirked up and him and he looked around at everyone awkwardly, "Come on it will be fun"
Admittedly she was slightly drunk but she still wanted to do this. It wasn't a big deal either she only wanted to teach him how to dance. He was acting like she was planning a murder.
"I don't dance" He growled.
"You don't dance yet you mean" She raised an eyebrow and when he still refused she carried on, "Clarke says you're never one to turn down a challenge"
"I'm not…" He said warily, wondering she had in mind exactly.
"Alright consider this, if you enjoy it then you teach me something in return, if you don't enjoy it then I owe you"
He looked down at her amused and rolled his eyes, "Okay fine but only because I want to see you make a fool of yourself"
Echo snorted and gripped his hand tight so he couldn't change his mind and run off, "Get ready Blake, you're going to love this"
With that she dragged him out into the throng of dancers and forced his hands on her waist before placing her hands around his neck. Bellamy was watching her blankly in an attempt to avoid looking too interested in their surroundings.
"Where did you learn to dance?" He didn't expect there was much time during war.
She shrugged, "There was a time of peace. A group of warriors and I were out in the field but no job. It takes up time when you would normally get bored rather quickly"
Bellamy smiled and followed her feet careful not to step on them, "Can everyone dance?"
Echo turned her head and he followed her eyes to see Lexa and Clarke laughing to one another, "No… Not everyone"
"So there is something the commander can't do" He teased.
"Careful Mr. Blake or you might enjoy yourself" Echo pushed him forward.
"Too late" Bellamy whispered down at her.
XoXoXoX
Octavia was watching Clarke and Lexa interact with mild interest. Neither of them were paying any attention to their surroundings but maybe that was what was beautiful about the whole thing.
Raven threw herself down into the chair next to her and they shared a smile. Octavia would be lying if she said she wasn't nervous about this thing happening with Raven because that's what it was 'a thing' she would now have to address. They had kissed and Octavia had confessed her feelings to Raven and vice versa. Raven was watching Bellamy and Echo with envious eyes. Octavia realised what was wrong and stood up ignoring the questioning look sent her way.
She held out her hand, "Come one"
Raven laughed but didn't move from her position, "I don't think that's a good idea Pocahontas"
Octavia had to admit, the name had grown on her, "Just because you can't move around as well as you used to doesn't mean you can't try"
Raven was watching her with wonder and she seemed to consider it for a moment before for realising an exasperated laugh and shaking her head, "You're crazy"
"Maybe" Octavia thought back to after the explosion when those words had come from a very different mouth under very different circumstances, "But that's not a reason for you not to take my hand"
Raven sucked her bottom lip in and stole another glance at the people dancing, "Okay"
She allowed herself to be pulled into the midst of dancers. Octavia guided her hands to her neck before placing her own on Raven's waist and smiling at her triumphantly.
They stayed like that for a while with Octavia leading before she leant down and kissed Raven, "Told you, you could do it"
"Shut up" Raven closed her eyes and pulled Octavia in for a deeper kiss.
XoXoXoX
"You're drunk Lexa"
"Possibly"
Clarke laughed at the girl in front of her. She had the front of her cloak un-done and the smile hadn't disappeared from her face all night; her gloved hand was outstretched expectantly.
"How are you going to lead?"
Lexa narrowed her eyes but still the smile didn't waver, "Oh I'm leading am I?"
"Yes" Clarke stood and placed her hand in Lexa's.
XoXoXoX
You wait for a silence
I wait for a word
Lying next to your frame
Girl unobserved
You change your position
And you're changing me
Casting these shadows
Where they shouldn't be
Raven's head was resting on Octavia's shoulder when the rain started. She pulled back and looked at Octavia as the droplets fell down her face, "We're not going to stop are we?"
Octavia shook her head.
We're interrupted
By the heat of the sun
Trying to prevent
What's already begun
Oh, you're just a body
I can smell your skin
And when we feel it
You're wearing thin
Echo gasped as a sudden burst of water ran down her back. She attempted to pull back to wipe her eyes but another hand got there first and when she finally opened her eyes her vision was all Bellamy.
Oh, but I've got a plan
And why don't you be the artist?
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer?
And decide the words I say?
'Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Lexa was grinning past the rain that was dampening her features. She looked down at Clarke who was welcoming the rain with her eyes closed as her hair was pinned to her face.
Sat on your sofa
It's all broken springs
This isn't the place for
Those violin strings
Oh, I try out a smile
And I aim it at you
Oh, you must have missed it
You always do
Octavia looked over and saw Bellamy and Echo, she smiled to herself then caught a glimpse of Lexa and Clarke, and she turned and looked for the other dancers. The fire was fighting through the rain but everyone else had long since escaped to the dry and warmth of Polis.
Oh, but I've got a plan
And why don't you be the artist?
And make me out of clay?
Oh, why don't you be the writer?
And decide the words I say?
'Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Bellamy watched Echo. Rain was pouring down her face and her hair was a mess but he thought she looked beautiful. She was looking at him with an odd expression and he faltered in his dancing for a moment.
Echo gave him a look and they both closed the gap, ignoring the rain still running down both of their faces.
You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Interrupted
"Clarke"
She looked up to see Lexa watching her and she lifted her hand to her cheek.
You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Interrupted
"I love you"
You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Interrupted
Lexa's eyes went wide and Clarke's mouth hung open. She wasn't sure who said it first but the words had definitely fallen from both of their mouths.
You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Clarke raised both of her hands to Lexa's cheeks and pulled her down to meet her in a fierce kiss. It didn't matter who said it first. They both said it.
Why don't you be the artist?
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer?
And decide the words I say?
'Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Raven fell into the kiss and couldn't stop the grin from forming. They would be alright. They all would.
Why don't you be the artist?
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer?
And decide the words to say?
'Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Actually I wasn't originally going to have a song here but then I got to the last part of the chapter and half of the things that happened in this chapter weren't meant to and it all kind of fell into place but you know what? I'm happy with the result
The song is The Writer by Ellie Goulding if you didn't recognise it :)
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