"I don't hate your father." Ciel said in shock, Evian sat down close to him.
"It feels different mama, when you are with Dad,you went away from him. He is sad but you went hurts him, it feels the same when you are with me, I feel that you love us all the same, but Dad is not the same. You have lots of unhappiness with him. Are you going to leave Dad?" Ciel wrapped his arms around Evian.
"No,being angry or upset doesn't mean you hate that person."
"Are you upset because he made you be our mama?" Evian sobbed burying his face in his mother's chest.
"Evian, I love you, I love your brothers and sisters too, so very much." He was stunned at his child's thoughts.
"When you were in the place with the big tower, and Dad went away because he thought it was good for you, you were unhappy, Dad's heart hurt him lots, he is feeling that now Mama, please make it better,then you can be better."
"Evian, I don't know what to do to make it better, your father -"
"Dad will be happy again when you do not hate him anymore. He wants to fix it, he can if you tell him why you feel sad. Please talk to him."
"I'll try Evian."
"That's good mama, because your babies will be so sad and sister Rachel will cry and cry and cry forever and we will not be a family."
"We'll always be a family Evian, that much won't change."
"I love you Mama, please do not let Dad be so sad he is ill."
"Take your bunny and go to your room for a while." Evian slid off the bed and did as he was told. Moments later Ciel stood and walked to the top of the spiral staircase.
"Sebastian" he called knowing his mate would hear him no matter where he maybe.
"yes my love, I've heard you call." The pained reply came as the butler appeared at the bottom of the stairs
"Will you join me, I want to explain something to you."
"Instantly my love." Sebastian began climbing the stairs and was so at Ciel's side.
"Lets talk in our bedroom." Ciel suggested turning to lead his mate to their destination. The older demon closed the door behind him.
"It's all just one huge circle." Ciel said to a confused Sebastian.
"I don't understand, what is?"
"My life, I love our children and you."
"But?" Sebastian sensed there was one.
"But, it's all the same lately, you've been with your father and I've been - I don't know."
"Disenchanted?"
"You could call it that."
"I haven't been able to make you feel any different, please understand that you are precious to me, even more so than the crown. If it causes you this much pain, I shall -"
"No. I just want.."
"More than I am capable of giving you. You wish to break our bond?"
"I want our family. I want us to be happy."
"What I hear you saying is that lately you have been feeling much less love and you feel as if there is not much to life?" Ciel hesitated then nodded.
"You do not want to leave our marriage?"
"No. You're the father of my children, I love how you interact with them and I will always love you for that, I'm slipping Sebastian and as much as I try, I just sink deeper." Sebastian put and arm behind Ciel and tilted him back, kissing him passionately.
"If you feel as if you are sinking my darling, let me be your solid ground. Give me the chance to remind you of my love,, just you and I. I will take you far from here."
"I can't leave, the children need us."
"They will be fine, give me this chance, please?" Sebastian desperately wanted to keep Ciel and hoped that he could make amends for the pain he caused.
"try whatever you like." Ciel grabbed onto his mate's jacket and pulled himself up to rest his head on Sebastian's chest.
The older demon held him gently.
"I will never let you fall Ciel, you are my mate, I will keep you here for as long as you will allow me."