Authors Note - Feel free to hit me - i want to hit myself. Im so sorry - again! Everythings been crazy recently :O You would think taking a gap year meant you would be able to relax a bit but lol no - that hasnt happened. So I know i said i was going to write when i was in Scotland but my plan didn't exactly happen as we spent more time travelling to places and in the car than we did in our house so i wrote some on my phone but yeah :/ And then I was already dealing with family stuff before I left which spewed even further when I got home and still ongoing now and blergh, I'm in the middle of doing my University application and then works just been insane because I'm literally working so much more than i normally do - my pay slip just under 2 weeks ago said that I'd worked 32 extra hours ontop of my normal 56 and thats partly my choice BECAUSE I HAVE NEWS! In early September, I had an interview and I got offered a place to do a placement in Costa Rica next year for 4 weeks teaching English! So I've been picking up a bit more overtime to help with payments and i've had to sort out flights, renewing my passport, insurance etc and im so excited but obviously working more just takes more time away from this and we've had a lot of people leave recently so i've had to cover a few shifts but i made a concious decision to not pick up anymore overtime last week so i could finish this chapter and I did:)
OH MY GOD, also incase you wanted to know, my exam results were B in English Language and C's in Psychology and Film Studies so I got the grades i needed so i was really pleased:)
So as always, thank you so, SO much to all of you who actually stay with me and alert, favourite and, my favourite - review this story:) You honestly do keep me going and i love you all for it and i love writing this for you guys as much as for myself:)
On a seperate note - SEASON 4! Are you guys loving it as much as I am:) And I hope you're all okay after The Break Up - I was in tears throughout that episode it wasn't even funny :L
So although this chapter kicked it out of me at some points and i had to take a lot of walks around my house before coming back to it, i love this chapter and if you're a fan of Blaine - this chapters full of him:) You'll get to find out the mystery guests and we have a flashback which gives an insight into some things:)
Okay go read, I'm going to stop rambling now:)
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Chapter 13
This isn't happening. Not now. This isn't happening. Not now.
Blaine tightly closed his eyes as he thought over the same five words over and over to himself. This wasn't real. Any moment now he was going to wake up from this nightmare. Any moment now.
"Blaine" the woman called again. She was softly spoken and the name rolled off of her tongue so easily, as if she had been saying it for years. But that was because she had. Blaine opened his eyes again to find the man and woman still standing directly in front of him.
This was very much a reality.
They were both extremely smartly dressed; the man wore a three piece, impeccable crisp black suit, paired with a white shirt and a navy blue tie compared to the woman who was dressed in a dark green shift dress that wrapped in around her waist, highlighting her petite figure, pleating out below the waist and paired with a long sleeved black shrug. She had a black coat folded over her arms as well as a clutch bag in one of her hands. The mans dark brown hair that almost verged into being black with sparse specks of grey was well groomed and swept backwards whereas there was no denying the colour of the womans hair. Her long dark brown hair was parted perfectly down the middle and the barrel curls sculpted her face perfectly. Her make up was subtle but noticeable - it was reminiscent of old, classic Hollywood. And there was no mistaking their eyes. It could not be denied that they were a beautiful, dashing pair.
"What are you doing here?" Blaine repeated, still completely shell shocked.
"Blaine we wanted - " The woman said as she slightly stepped forward. "We heard that - "
Just as the woman started to speak, Kurt came bustling out of the auditorium, his head down and focus completely distracted as he wrapped the scarf around his neck. "Blaine, honey you didn't have to wait out here , I told you to go to - " Kurt started but as he looked up, he soon registered the picture that was in front of him. "Oh."
"Hello Kurt" the woman registered, offering an unsure, cautious smile in his direction.
"Mr and Mrs Anderson" Kurt acknowledged before turning all of his attention to Blaine who was still stood quietly next to him. Although he had never formally met them and Kurt had only ever seen Blaines parents in pictures, he knew exactly who they were. When he first met Blaine, they spent their days going out shopping, to the cinema or to the local theatre. Then when Kurt transferred to Dalton, they spent the large majority of their time there and the times whenever they were at Blaines house either at the weekends or during the school holidays, his parents were always out at work and by the time the two of them had got together, the opinions voiced from them that night had made it quite clear that Kurt was not going to meet his parents for a while, if not forever. Blaine had only ever mentioned his parents in passing and after everything, it was obvious he was uncomfortable talking about them and so Kurt didn't ask. Blaine turned to Kurt as he felt him clasp his elbow supportively.
"Are you okay?" Kurt whispered to which Blaine shrugged. He didn't answer. Couldn't answer. A cascade of emotions were running so powerfully through his veins at that precise moment that he couldn't really pinpoint exactly how he was feeling. Kurt completely understood Blaines reaction which is why he felt he should speak for him.
"Mr and Mrs Anderson, forgive me I don't mean to be rude but, can I ask what exactly you're doing here? I mean, we're both obviously extremely surprised to see you - I don't think either of us expected to see you for, well, a long time" Kurt said as politely as he could but really, he felt a slight pang of resentment towards them. Blaine felt hurt and anything that affected Blaine, affected Kurt too. He told them that either of them hadn't expected to see them for a long time but really, Kurt had resigned himself to the fact that he might never meet Mr and Mrs Anderson.
"Well, we heard about everything and we just wanted to - " Mrs Anderson started before she was swiftly halted by Blaine.
"Don't" he muttered, raising his head to make eye contact with his parents. "Kurt's strong - he doesn't need anybody's pity. And he certainly doesn't need it from you two."
"Blaine, please try to listen" his father said as he slightly stepped forward, the first words he had spoke during the whole exchange.
"Like you listened to me nearly two years ago?" he scoffed. "Because the words, "I don't want to hear this right now" are ringing great big flaming red fire alarms in my memory right now."
"Blaine, I know a lot of things were said that night, especially by me - I'm more than aware of the role I have played in all of this, but we're here, and we're still your parents" his dad attempted to reason.
"You sure haven't acted like my parents for a long time now, especially when you basically told me not to come back home as long as I was with Kurt, or 'that boy' as I know was your phrase of choice. You didn't want to listen then and I'm finding it extremely hard to believe that now you want to talk." Blaine felt himself getting more and more emotional as he felt the anger that that been dormant for many months now rile back up inside him. He was at that point of anger and hurt that it took all he had to hold the tears back. He wasn't going to give them that.
"Come on Kurt, lets go" he muttered, moving swiftly past his parents and towards the corridor doors. As Kurt caught up with him, clutching his hand in comfort as he walked by his side, he turned his head around to chance a glance at Blaines parents. Blaines mum had her head bowed downwards, one of her hands running lethargically over her forehead whilst Blaines dad stood close to his wife, his arms wrapped around her shoulders. He wasn't expecting to feel this way but Kurt almost felt sorry for them. Both Blaine and his dad had always told him his heart was too big and now was no exception. As he looked at Blaine, he saw that he didn't look as angry as he had acted minutes before, he now just looked hurt.
"Hey" Kurt whispered as he gently tugged on Blaines hand, bringing them to a stop in the middle of the hallway. "Can you just give me a few minutes?"
"Why? Are you okay?" Blaine asked but he realised what Kurt was getting at as he followed his boyfriends eye line, of which his parents were directly in. "Kurt are you serious?"
"You can wait in the car if you want" Kurt reasoned. "I just - I really feel that this is something I have to do. I just need to say something otherwise I know I'll regret not saying anything when I had the chance. I'll just be a few minutes, I promise."
"I'm not stopping you" Blaine said, his thumb stroking over Kurts knuckles as his gaze was cast downwards. "I just - I'm worried though because, you guys have never really spoken before and I don't want to leave you alone with them but I just - I don't think I can stay here"
"I completely understand" Kurt smiled. "And trust me, I'm not about to put you in any situation that you feel uncomfortable with. But I really do want to talk to them though."
"Okay" Blaine succumbed. "Are you going to be okay?
"I'll be fine" Kurt smiled as he leant upwards, gently pressing his lips to Blaines forehead. "I'll be out soon."
Blaine nodded. He offered Kurt a small smile as he squeezed his hand before walking away and out through the corridor doors, leading out to the car park. As Kurt walked purposefully back towards Blaines parents, they seemed surprised to see him walking back towards them.
"Why are you here?" Kurt softly said as he was suddenly within close proximities of his boyfriends parents. It wasn't said maliciously or harshly - It was just a genuine question.
"We really did come for you. For both of you really. We heard about everything and we wanted to offer our support. We were also hoping that Blaine would talk to us maybe" Blaines mum offered as she shrugged her shoulders defeatedly. "We heard about the fundraiser tonight and knew he would be here and so we just - "
"Mr and Mrs Anderson - " Kurt started before Blaines mother quickly intercepted.
"Please, Nathan and Isabelle. You can even call me Izzie" Isabelle nervously suggested.
"Maybe when the circumstances are different" Kurt said. "Back to my point - Nathan. Isabelle. You've had nearly two years to make things right with your son, and you pick today?" Kurt questioned.
"Maybe today wasn't the best time." Isabelle agreed. "And maybe we shouldn't have shown up here. But I knew that if either one of us called him or showed up at his doorstep, he wasn't likely to answer."
"He's angry and hurt!" Kurt exclaimed loudly. "Can you blame him?"
"No. We don't. At all." Isabelle said, shaking her head as she kept her head bowed. It was only when she looked up that Kurt really realised how Blaines eyes were so similar and beautiful to his mothers. "But he's our son."
"You know he doesn't talk about what happened that night" Kurt confessed. "I don't know anything that was said between the three of you that night. But what I do know, is that my new boyfriend and best friend was standing on my doorstep at eleven O'clock at night, in the pouring rain. I know that when I hugged him, he couldn't even breathe properly he was so hysterical, his body shaking so violently against my own. I know that it took me hours to calm him down and what I also know, is that I was the one who held him whilst he cried himself to sleep that night. Do you know how heartbreaking that was? And finally, I know he never went back home after that night." Kurt took a moment to compose himself before continuing. "Like I said, I don't know the ins and outs of what happened, but what I do know is that Blaine was hurting more than I'd ever seen him before and that hurt is obviously still within him." Kurt was almost positive that as he finished talking, he could see a glaze over Isabelle's emerald green eyes.
"A lot of things were said that night" Nathan stepped up. "A lot of angry, hurtful comments that maybe can't be taken back or easily forgotten. But Kurt, you have to believe us when we say that we want things to change. We're here and we just want to be given a chance." Kurt had always thought Blaines dad would be more stern and distant but right then, he seemed extremely sincere and hopeful.
"Kurt can you imagine not ever talking to your dad again? Or how your dad would feel if you made a conscious choice not to talk to him?" Kurt opened his mouth, wanting to say something but finding that words actually failed him. Isabelle had got him there. Although he couldn't ever imagine being in the same situation as Blaine was in with his parents, if there was one thing he was certain of and one thing he would always make sure of, is that his dad would always be a part of his life, no matter what. "I don't want an estranged son. I just want my son back."
Kurt looked away from the two of them as he thought about everything for a moment. He had done what he intended to do and he had listened. He had spoken to them, listened politely and considered everything from their point of view. He would always be on Blaines side about everything but it was clear to him now that maybe Blaines parents were not the bad people as he had once thought them to be. Families had arguments and disagreed on things - that wasn't a secret and maybe this went beyond that, but Kurt was a firm believer in second chances. If he could give David Karofsky a second chance, maybe there was some hope for Blaine and his parents. Blaines happiness was pivotal to Kurt and maybe he wouldn't want to, but if there was even a slight chance in his boyfriend fixing his broken relationship with his parents and having them back in his life, being there for all the milestones he was yet to reach, then Kurt wanted to take that chance. Blaine would always have a family with Kurt and the Hummel-Hudsons, but there was "family" and there was family.
"Do either of you have a bit of paper and a pen I could borrow please?" Kurt asked both of them after moments of silence.
Nathan furrowed his eyebrows but willingly reached into his inside jacket pocket, producing a mini diary and pen. When Kurt opened it, he found lists and lists of times and names. When they had first become friends and were getting to know each other more, Blaine had briefly mentioned in passing that his dad was a lawyer and now Kurt found it was no surprise that he and Nathan had never crossed paths the times he had been at Blaines house - his schedule was literally packed. Kurt scribbled something quickly down on a blank page before closing the book and handing it back to Nathan, a small smile playing at his lips. Blaines parents looked at what Kurt had written and proceeded to look back to him.
"I'm not promising anything - " Kurt stated " - But I'll talk to him."
"I - really?" Isabelle stuttered out. "Thank you!" she exclaimed, almost sounding relieved as Kurt nodded.
"But can you - will you promise me something?" Kurt started. Isabelle and Nathan both made gestures, silently encouraging him to continue. "I want to believe that you're willing to make this right and I really, truly do think you are but, please, if you're both serious about this, please be 100% committed to it - I don't want to see him hurt again.
"We promise. We want things to change too" Isabelle smiled. "We have done pretty much since the moment they went wrong but, rejection is not the easiest thing to handle when it comes from your own child - It kind of took us a while to build up the courage. Adults still get scared too.
"Okay" Kurt nodded. "I'm glad to hear it." He turned to walk away from them, leaving them both standing in the middle of the corridor.
"Kurt" Kurt turned on his heels as he noted Isabelle calling out for him.
"Blaine looks so happy when he's with you. Thank you for making him smile. And believe us when we say how truly sorry we both are for what you are going through now."
Kurt offered the pair of them a small smile of gratitude. He held up his hand in a small wave before heading towards the exit doors. He had said everything he wanted to say. Now all he could do was wait.
As Blaine had drove to the concert, Kurt wasn't surprised to walk out into the car park to find Blaine sitting in the drivers seat, staring blankly at the steering wheel. He opened the car door and Blaine barely even registered the movement.
"Come on" Kurt whispered as he massaged Blaines shoulder that was nearest to him. "You're not in the right frame of mind to drive home. Shuffle over."
Without saying a word, Blaine wilingly shuffled over to the passenger seat as Kurt climbed into the drivers seat. They drove home in complete and utter silence. They always, without fail, drove everywhere listening to some form of music however tonight, they didn't connect either one of their iPods nor did they even turn the radio on - Kurt felt that it wouldn't be appropriate right now. He knew that in that moment, Blaine just needed time, space and silence to mull over things. Kurt reached over to Blaines side, taking his hand in his, resting their entwined fingers in the console between them and never once letting go. It was Kurts way of telling Blaine that he was there for him and judging by the sad smile Blaine offered him before turning his attention back to look at the passing surroundings out of the window, Kurt knew he appreciated it.
"I'm sorry" Blaine softly said after over half the journey had been silent.
"What are you sorry for?" Kurt asked, puzzled as to what Blaine would be sorry for.
"I'm not exactly the best company right now huh" Blaine forcefully laughed, as if he was trying to lighten the mood. "Also because, I feel like tonight might have been ruined" he sorrowfully added.
"Please don't"
"Please don't what?" Blaine cautiously asked.
"Apologise" Kurt simply replied. "You have nothing to be sorry for." By chance, they pulled up to a red light and so Kurt took this opportunity to turn his full attention to Blaine. "And hey" Kurt cooed. "Tonight hasn't been ruined. Far from it. Because what you created for me tonight was nothing short of perfect and it was one of the most selfless, amazing things anyone has ever done for me, and I don't think I have ever loved you more and it's something that I will remember forever. Now you had a big night tonight and you know I'm not just talking about the concert. So we're just going to go home and we'll just, we'll take it from there" Kurt smiled, running the thumb of his free hand over Blaines knuckles. "But you have absolutely nothing to apologise for. We're a team. Anything that hurts you, hurts me too. We work through everything together - the good stuff and the bad, and this is no exception."
Blaine smiled sadly and gratefully at his boyfriend. As the lights turned green, Kurts signal to release the handbrake and pull away, he suddenly felt Blaines grasp of their entwined hands tighten. He glanced over to find Blaine staring back out of the window but Kurt smiled as he knew it was Blaines silent way of saying "thank you" and "thank you for being here". It was almost as if relief washed over Kurt as he pulled up onto the driveway of their house. Now he could finally get Blaine indoors where he hoped that they could talk about the events of the latter part of the evening and hopefully take baby steps forward.
As Blaine reached for the door handle, Kurt suddenly raised their entwined hands to his lips, gently pressing them to Blaines hand, which Blaine smiled at. They untangled themselves from each other to get out of their respective sides but as Blaine walked around the back of car and reached the drivers side, their hands instinctively seeking the warmth they had had seconds before. They walked through the threshold of the house and the familiar but indistinct sound of Burt and Carole chatting amongst themselves in the kitchen hit them. Their excitement and pride was obvious as their two boys walked into the kitchen, Carole sitting on one of the stools whilst Burt chose to lean up against the breakfast bar, both clutching steaming mugs of tea in their hands.
"You're home!" Carole exclaimed, sliding off of her stool to give each of them a hug and place motherly kisses to their cheek. As she pulled away from Blaine, she moved her hands from around his back to either of his cheeks.
"Honey tonight was amazing!" she whispered. "And your performance was just utterly breathtaking. I haven't cried that much since our wedding!" Carole joked as she gestured her hand back and forth between her and Burt.
"Thank you" Blaine whispered appreciatively, offering her a smile. Even though he didn't feel like smiling right now, he wasn't about to bring Carole and Burt down too. Not tonight.
"Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful" she clarified once more, stroking her hand down his arm before sitting back down on the stool.
"She's right though" Burt said, pushing himself away from the side as he walked towards Kurt and Blaine. "You should be so proud of yourself kiddo. You really put on something special tonight" he said patting Blaines shoulder enthusiastically, the pride that was beaming from his face could have been seen from miles away. Kurt smiled as he watched the man who brought him up and admired more than he could ever put into words display nothing but pride and love to the man he was proud to call the love of his life.
"Thank you guys" Blaine croaked. Burt patted him on the shoulder before returning to his previous spot in the kitchen, bringing his mug of tea to his lips once again. Blaine cleared his throat, suddenly finding more strength in his voice than he felt in himself. "Really, thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me but, above all, I really hoped tonight helped you out too."
From the ticket sales to the program sales, refreshment sales and the collection boxes that had been going around during the night, it would take a while for them to calculate the exact total of the nights earnings. However, they had specifically made a conscious decision to not worry about the total tonight because the total didn't matter - the Hummel-Hudson family were just completely appreciative of peoples good natures and willingness to help them.
Carole tilted her head inquisitively as she noticed when Blaines gaze fell to the side, almost looking as sorrowful and dejected as he had been when he first found out about Kurts diagnosis. The shuffling of his feet didn't go unnoticed by her either, nor did the way Kurt slipped his hand discreetly into Blaines and dipped his head so that his own eyes could meet Blaines.
"You okay honey?" She finally asked. Blaines head shot towards her.
"Yeah, of course" he smiled. Carole had had enough practice over the years with Finn and even more recently with Kurt to know that that was a lie, that he was hiding something. "I'm actually really exhausted - big night and all - "he chuckled slightly " -So I'm just going to head on up to bed." Burt and Blaine shared a goodnight hug and as he hugged Carole goodnight too, both of them placing kisses to the others cheek, Carole held Blaine a little tighter than she probably should have. The protective, motherly instinct was coming out of her and although she didn't know what was wrong, it didn't stop her from holding on that little bit longer and tighter, telling Blaine that she was there for him, whenever he wanted. She gently stroked his cheek as he pulled out of their embrace before pulling away completely, a smile on his face. Blaine pressed a gentle kiss to Kurts cheek as he passed him, Kurt smiling bashfully and squeezing his hand in return.
"See you tomorrow kiddo" Burt shouted as Blaine rounded the stairs, Caroles eyes closely following him until he was out of sight. As she heard the sound of muffled footsteps on the upstairs landing, the sound of their bedroom door clicking shut, she wasted no time in finding out the truth.
"Okay, what's wrong with him? What happened?" she asked, genuine concern lacing her voice.
"Nothing" Kurt promptly shook his head but the high pitched tone of his voice that only happened when Kurt was nervous gave him away.
"Kurt" Carole prompted.
"He seemed okay to me" Burt offered. "I mean, he did seem a bit - I don't know but he said he was tired and who can blame him hon."
"No there was something different" Carole replied quietly. "Please Kurt. Just, ease my worries because I will just come up with so many different scenarios and I'll worry all night. He's not my son but I love him like he is and he is as close to family as anyone could get without being blood related." Carole knew she had struck a chord when Kurt averted her gaze in favour of focusing on something to the side of him, playing and twisting his hands uncomfortably in front of him. "Please" she pleaded once more.
"How did you know?" Kurt whispered as he turned back towards her after a few moments of silence.
"Call it mothers instinct honey" Carole shrugged as she smiled sadly.
"So Carole was right?" Burt asked. "Something did happen?" Kurt nodded, conforming their suspicions once and for all. Kurt made to sit next to Carole on one of the stools, his entwined fingers in front of him on the counter. Burt and Carole waited patiently as they could tell Kurt was preparing himself to explain what had happened to them. Burt and Carole cared so much about Blaine. He wasn't just Kurts boyfriend to them. Like Carole had said, he was family without being family but sometimes, true family didn't always mean you had to be blood related and as Richard Bach once quoted, "The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life" and respect and joy was certainly something Blaine brought to them.
"His parents were there tonight" Kurt suddenly revealed. "We were walking out - well I had to go back in because I'd left my scarf on my chair but, as I walked out, there they were. They were waiting for him as we left."
"Oh my god. Poor kid" Burt sighed, rubbing his hand over his forehead. "Well what happened? Did they say something?" Burts voice started to get more and more frantic. Kurt shook his head
"Blaine didn't really give them a chance to. Not that I blame him" he quickly added. "I mean, two years have nearly passed but, they still really hurt him and I think it was obvious tonight that a lot of those wounds are still quite raw for him."
"So they wanted to talk to him but he didn't really talk to them?" Carole clarified to which Kurt nodded.
"But I did"
"Kurt" Burt exclaimed.
"Blaine knows I spoke to them" he defended. "I wasn't about to go behind his back. I just - I had a lot of questions that I needed answered. But there was one thing that really surprised me, above everything" Kurt said as he shook his head, thinking back on his earlier conversation with his boyfriends parents.
"What's that?" Burt asked.
"They don't seem like bad people."
Kurt stayed downstairs to talk to Burt and Carole for at least another 10 minutes before descending up the stairs towards Blaine. As he walked up the stairs, he thought back on the words from the conversation he had just left.
"What do you mean you don't think they're bad people?" His father asked.
"Exactly that" Kurt simply replied. "I'm not saying that they're completely innocent because I'm sure they're not but, I'm old enough to know that sometimes people say things they don't mean or maybe say things that are hurtful and sometimes the reason for them isn't quite that simple. I know whatever they did say to Blaine was hurtful enough for him to not want to talk to them then and still not want to talk to them now but, I just, I don't think it was always that way."
Clasped tightly in either of his hands were two steaming cups of Hot Chocolate in the biggest mugs Kurt could find in the kitchen cupboard. Although a Hot Chocolate wasn't about to even begin to solve any of Blaines problems, Kurt figured right now Blaine could use something warm and comforting and with the real chocolate Kurt melted into the drink, the perfectly swirled mountains of whipped cream that sat on top of the beverages, traces of melted cream running down the sides and the marshmallows that Kurt lovingly placed carefully on top and the chocolate shavings and chocolate dusting, Kurt was sure this would definitely be comforting to Blaine right now. Kurt also knew he had an advantage as Blaine made it no secret to him that he was fond of Kurts Hot Chocolate. Kurt remembered the first time he had ever made one for Blaine, a time when they were still strictly in the friends stage but Kurt had already reached the unbelievably head over heels stage. They were studying together and as the night grew longer and yawns from either boy became more frequent, Kurt made the drinks for them and as soon as Blaine took a sip, Kurt could've sworn his insides melted as the noise Blaine made should've been illegal.
He was surprised to find that their bedroom door was only slightly ajar and not fully shut as he expected to find it. As he pushed it open, he found Blaine sitting cross legged on the bed, his head bowed as he played with the corner of a pillow he was resting in his lap. Kurts heart wanted to leap out of his chest at the sight. There was no other word to describe it - it was painful. His boyfriend who was optimistic, happy and always looking to laugh about something looked as though his whole world had come crashing down. Kurt just wanted to take him in his arms, hug and kiss all of his problems away but obviously, that just wasn't an option. Of course Kurt had seen Blaine upset and sad but this, this was something else.
Blaine was always so strong for Kurt and now it was Kurts time to be strong for Blaine.
"Hey you" he cooed as he walked into the room and Blaine immediately looked up, a smile playing on his lips.
"Hey" he replied quietly.
"I come bearing gifts" Kurt said sheepishly as he held up the two mugs slightly higher in his grasp to which Blaine smiled sadly. "I know this isn't even going to begin to make things better but -"
"You make me feel better" Blaine said without even thinking about it, but it was true. His problems were still there but when Kurt walked into the room, for those few seconds, nothing else mattered and his world was a little brighter because despite everything, he still had Kurt. "I love you for the thought though" Blaine added as Kurt handed him one of the drinks and sat beside him on the bed. "You know how much I love these" he quipped and Kurt smiled.
"Do you want to talk about it now or later?" Kurt asked after a few moments. He was careful not to say "are you ready to talk" because he noted how forceful and expectant it sounded and he had to let Blaine know that he didn't expect anything from him and wasn't about to force anything out of him. However, another part of him knew that this wasn't something that they could just brush under the rug.
But Blaine nodded.
"Okay" Kurt exhaled. Kurt shuffled slightly on the bed to face Blaine and Blaine quickly shuffled in his position to mirror Kurts.
"Where to start though" Blaine sighed, almost resigned.
"Okay well I'll start" Kurt smiled encouragingly but even he struggled to pin point a good place to start and Blaine seemed to pick up on this.
"So many questions right?" he quipped. "So many places to begin"
"Yeah" Kurt sighed. "Well, okay, how did you - what did you feel when you saw them tonight?"
"To be honest, I'm not too sure. I - I felt a lot of things. I felt like angry, hurt, confused - part of me felt like running away but then another part of me told me not too. It was like a lot of things I thought I'd moved on from just suddenly came rushing back."
"Happy wasn't one of those words" Kurt noted. "You weren't happy to see them."
"No and that's one of the biggest problems." Kurt tilted his head inquisitively. "I've been thinking - I've done a lot of thinking since I've been up here and, I realised that I wanted to be. It's like, you know when you go without something you love for so long, you start to think that you can live without it but then once you have it again, you realise how much you really have missed it and you want it again. That's kind of how I feel about them."
"I understand that" Kurt replied sadly.
Blaine sighed almost exasperatedly, running his hands over his face and then his forehead.
"I don't know what to do" he admitted and Kurts heart could've easily split in two at how broken it sounded. "It should be so easy right? So simple? My dad basically told me that he didn't want to see me again. They didn't want to know you. I should be angry and never want to see them again. And I am angry but -"
"They're your parents" Kurt finished for him. Blaine nodded.
"Can you tell me what happened that night?" Kurt asked hopefully. "It's okay if you don't but I- "
"No" Blaine said promptly and Kurt thought for a second that Blaine had just flat out refused but he quickly realised that Blaine was referring to the latter part of his statement. "No it's - It's okay. It's about time. You should know everything. We're in this together right?" Blaine smiled hopefully, mirroring what Kurt had said to him earlier on in the car.
"Until the end" Kurt said as he took Blaines hands in his.
"We got together in last year March right?" Both of them smiled and laughed as they thought back on that oh, so glorious day. "Well I went home for the Easter break in late April to see them - You'd already transferred back to McKinley by this time..."
That particular day, Blaine had spent the day round Kurts. They had spent the day like any normal teenage couple - talking, laughing and watching a movie that was soon forgotten in favour of kisses. They were so sickeningly happy. At this point, Blaine and Kurt had been dating for just over a month and it had been filled with nothing but pure bliss. Blaine didn't think it was possible to be this happy. He'd dreamt about it, he'd seen actors act it out in the movies but he didn't think it was truly possible. Everything was new and exciting. He struggled to remember how he had managed to spend days with Kurt without being like this because this, this was heaven. Not only did he have his best friend; his best friend was now his boyfriend. He had the best of both worlds.
Blaine was a Senior at Dalton and his acceptance letter from the University of Michigan the week before had filled his life with even more brightness. Although Kurt was still a Junior and had worries about the distance that would soon be between them from September, both of them knew that this was real. Blaines life couldn't be going more perfect.
"Okay, Okay - "Blaine smiled against Kurts mouth, peppering kisses against them with every word. "- I really do have to go."
"I don't want you to" Kurt pouted which was soon kissed away.
"I don't either but my mum and dad are expecting me soon. They just flew home the other day celebrating their anniversary in France so I'm telling them about Michigan today" Blaine smiled.
"They're going to be so proud of you" Kurt said as he played with Blaines collar. "I know I am."
"There is another thing I want to tell them too."
"Mmm and what's that?" Kurt cooed.
"About us. That I can now, proudly so, not only call Kurt Hummel my best friend but also, my boyfriend." Blaine furrowed his eyebrows as Kurt looked weary.
"Are you sure? I mean, I know that when you told me about when you came out they weren't, well, more your dad wasn't exactly as understanding as my Dad was."
"They have to know Kurt" Blaine replied. He remembered his Dads piercing words "It's a phase, no you're not" and his mums constant crying although sometimes Blaine wasn't sure if that was because of what he had told them or the fact her husband and son were practically at loggerheads. "They're my parents. And besides, Cooper loves you so why shouldn't they." Kurt raised his eyebrows as he tilted his head as if to say "seriously?"
"Look, babe - " Blaine started, wrapping his arms tighter around Kurts waist. " - I don't know what's going to happen but what I do know is that you're important to me Kurt and I want them to know that. For me, this isn't some school boy crush or silly high school relationship."
"It isn't for me either" Kurt said as he looked at Blaine through his eyelashes. They were so close as each of them had their arms wrapped around each other as they stood in the middle of Kurts room.
"I know" Blaine smiled. "Which is why they should know too. And besides, I'm not about to hide something I'm so proud and happy about."
"Okay" Kurt smiled. "Just - let me know what happens okay?"
Blaine nodded as he kissed Kurts lips one last time. "I'll see you later" he smiled before begrudgingly unwrapping his arms from around Kurts waist and walking out of his door. Blaine knew that someday soon, he would be ending his goodbyes with an "I love you" on the end and he would mean every single word.
"I got into Michigan!" Blaine exclaimed excitedly to his parents who he had gathered together on the brown leather sofa in the living room.
"Blaine!" His mother squealed. "Honey that's, this is - I'm so proud of you" she squealed, jumping out of her seat to congratulate her son.
"I had no doubts that you could do it. Well done son" His dad smiled and it was times like this that Blaine really realised how much he did love his parents. Their relationship was okay, but it was different than before. Although Blaine was now eighteen and had come out to his parents three years ago, the subject still hung over them like a dark grey cloud. Blaines brother, Cooper had no qualms to his brothers sexuality and even pointed out cute guys to Blaine but for Blaines parents, it was obviously something they still struggled with. They didn't talk about it. It felt like at times they wanted to, but they just didn't. It was easier to ignore.
"I urm, there's something else I want to talk to you about" Blaine said. His parents obviously sensed the change in tone as they eyed each other before sitting back down.
"Erm, I know either of you haven't met him yet but you know Kurt. Obviously we've been friends for a while now but recently, we took things further and well, we're together" Blaine finished with a small smile as he tried to gauge their reactions. His mum nodded to herself, as if she was mulling it over. His dad however seemed distant.
"How erm - how long has it been?" His mum asked, her voice small but almost genuine, like she wanted to know more and understand more.
"Just over a month. It was before Regionals. We - "
"I need some water" his dad declared before standing firmly on his feet and strode off in the direction of the open plan kitchen that was right next to the living room.
"So you're just not going to listen?" Blaine accused as he walked into the kitchen whilst his father held a small glass under the faucet. "You can't keep doing this dad! This is real!"
"It's NOT REAL!" Nathan bellowed back in a voice that surprised even him and equally scared both Blaine and his mother.
"I don't understand why you're acting like this" Blaine said, his voice beginning to crack, simultaneously pushing back the tears he felt pricking at his eyes. "You know I'm gay so why can't you accept this! You love mum right?" Blaine gestured back to his mum who was standing behind him. "You know what love feels like and how it makes you feel and how, how there's no other feeling that compares to it. It's overwhelming and frightening because it's scary to care so much for one person but it's amazing and powerful, it consumes everything within you in the best way possible. When I'm with Kurt, I finally understand true happiness. He makes me feel happy and loved and worthy and like I can do or be anything and when I'm not with him, he's all I think about." Blaine unashamedly let the tears he had tried so hard to force back fall down his cheeks. "I just - I don't understand why you wouldn't want that for me. Well no - " he scoffed. "- I think I do. You'd just prefer me to feel that with a girl."
"I just don't agree with it" his dad calmly said. Blaine drew a sharp breath before he spoke.
"Well I'm sorry dad but, I don't feel that way. Really, I never have. I'm gay" he said through his tears. I'm gay and I'm in love with a boy and I'm not ashamed. And neither should you." That was the first time Blaine had said out loud that he was in love with Kurt. He'd known it himself for a couple of weeks and a part of him wished the first time he had admitted that had been to Kurt in some picture perfect romantic setting and not been thrown out in the middle of an argument, but it had, and it was the gods honest truth. And he would tell him. Soon.
"I think you should go" his dad said after a while, the silence thick and stifling in the air. "While you're with that boy, I don't think you should be here."
"Nathan! He's our son!" Blaines mum spoke for the first time throughout the whole altercation but it seemed as though it was too late.
"No mum, it's okay. Because I was thinking the same thing" Blaine said, finding courage in his voice as he turned back towards his dad. "But here's the thing, even if I'm not with Kurt or "that boy", I'm still gay so the sooner you come to terms with that, the better. But don't worry, I have no intentions of coming back to a place where I'm not truly accepted."
Blaine walked out of the kitchen and headed towards the stairs to pack his things. He could hear the hushed tones of his parents talking as he walked away but he couldn't make out what they were saying. As he was just about to round the stairs, he stopped and walked back into the Kitchen.
"I really hope that one day, you'll both truly understand."
"A lot of my stuff as you know was already with me at Dalton so I packed some things that I'd left behind and I just left. I came to you that night because I just needed to see you. Like I needed to know you were still there. Dalton was still open for students because not everyone goes home so I went back for those two weeks and just buried myself in studying for finals and then I spent the summer at Davids before we both moved down to Michigan. My mum tried calling me, texting me in the first couple of days after but, I just wasn't ready to talk. So I never answered. And then she stopped." Both of them had tear stained cheeks by the end of Blaines revelation. Kurt couldn't believe that Blaine had gone through all of that pain without telling him.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Kurt whispered.
"Because we were happy" Blaine offered. "We were a new couple and, I just didn't want to drag you down with that. Besides, I went to University and as time went by, it started to hurt less and there was a part of me that thought maybe I didn't need them anymore. And believe it or not, by you just being you, you done so much for me and I felt like as long as I had you, Cooper and my friends, I would be okay."
"I'm so sorry."
"Honey no" Blaine cooed. "Why are you sorry?"
"Because - Because I knew something was wrong when you came to me that night - you were in tears Blaine. I knew something was wrong but I never asked. Ever. I didn't want to force anything out of you because I wanted you to tell me on your own terms but now I feel like if maybe I had asked, we could've fixed things sooner you wouldn't have had this on your shoulders for so long and I'm sorry because your dad didn't like the idea of me and - "
"Stop Kurt. Don't even go there" Blaine said determinedly. "If it wasn't you, it would've been some other guy my dad wouldn't have accepted. But this is not your fault - don't even think that for a second. And until tonight, I wasn't sure they ever did want to fix things. I wasn't sure if even I wanted to fix things. The core of the problem was accepting my sexuality and although I like to think that day, my mum started to come to terms with it, my dad couldn't. I don't regret leaving. I don't regret standing up for myself and us."
"I urm, I know that what they done and the things your dad said especially were completely unacceptable but they were obviously there tonight for a reason and I don't think it was to start another fight" Kurt said.
"I know" Blaine whispered. "Which is why I think I should talk to them. All of us - just, lay it all out on the table. And you think I should as well, don't you?"
"Guilty" Kurt quipped. "I just, when I stayed behind to speak to them, I knew they hurt you in some way but, you know, I would give anything, absolutely anything to have my mum still with me. To see me grow up, graduate, get married, to meet you, just to be my mum and - "
"I still have that chance" Blaine finished for him and Kurt smiled in reply.
"I gave them the address of this Coffee Shop - It's called 'Espresso Shotz'. I went there with Mercedes one day after school in Sophomore year. The days before The Lima Bean" Kurt joked as he played with their entwined fingers that rested in between them as still they sat cross legged on the bed, facing each other. "Maybe it's selfish of me but, I kind of just wanted to keep The Lima bean as our place. The Coffee's pretty good though at this place but I just thought that if you did decide you wanted to talk to them - " Kurt shrugged as he knew Blaine understood what he was saying.
"I love you so much" Blaine sniffled. His eyes were glazed but filled with nothing but complete love and admiration and completely genuine as he looked at Kurt.
"I love you forever" Kurt smiled, mirroring what Blaine had whispered in his ear in the Auditorium just hours earlier. "I would do anything for you. You know, you always make me feel so safe and you're always so strong for me and now I'm doing the same for you." Blaine smiled. "I told them to be there tomorrow at 2. But just remember, whatever you decide, you'll always have me and you have a family here with all of us. That'll never change."
"I don't deserve you" Blaine whispered, his face showing nothing but love for Kurt.
"Funny, I often think the same thing about you" Kurt smiled.
"I erm - " Blaine began before clearing his throat. " - I know you said that tonight wasn't ruined for you but I'm still sorry. This isn't exactly how I saw it ending."
"Hey" Kurt said as he cupped Blaines cheek with one of his hands. "Tonight was perfect. I still can't stop smiling. I can't believe you done that for me and I know my parents are so grateful towards you too."
Not much sleeping took place for the next few hours as they each showed the other, for different reasons, in their own ways that night, just how devoted they were to each other and the true meaning of love.
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The minutes passed and passed as Blaine sat in his car that was currently parked up in the 'Espresso Shotz' car park. The engine was off but still he remained seated, watching the numbers on the digital clock display continuously change as the minutes ticked by with every second. He could see his mum and dad through the full length glass window, already sitting side by side at a small round table with two empty chairs opposite them, one of which they hoped to be soon occupied by their son.
Was he scared? Very. There was a small part of him wanted to put the car in reverse, drive out of the car park and to not look back. But if he did, it was likely that he would never know what was to come of this - he would never get the answers he so desperately wanted. The piercing message tone alert from his phone startled him as he proceeded to grab his phone from the compartment near the gear stick.
Kurt:
You can do this. I love you xx
7 words. 7 words was all it took and suddenly, Blaine felt the burst of courage within him. He'd been given the final nudge that he needed, because he could do this - he knew he could and more importantly, he wanted to do this. Without a second thought, he opened the car door and stepped out, pressing the 'lock' button as he walked towards the entrance door.
"I'm giving you a chance here" Blaine said as he approchaed the table his parents were sitting at. He slipped into the chair, holding the latte he had bought before sitting down, clasping it in between his entwined fingers. "Please don't let me be wrong about this."
"Kurt's not with you?" Isabelle asked with genuine hopefulness. Blaine shook his head as he played nervously with his coffee lid.
"I think we really need to sort through things ourselves first" he replied truthfully. Blaine noticed how his dad pursed his lips together, nodding in agreement with what his son had just said.
"Yes. Yes you're probably right" his mum said quietly.
"Why?" Blaine blurted out after a while. For at least a minute, everything had been silent between the three of them, as if each of them were afraid to kick things off.
"Why what?" Nathan asked.
What was there not to ask "why" about though. So many 'why's' were running through Blaines mind right then and since last night and really, since April of last year. "Why are you here? Why now? Why did this happen? Just, why?"
"Why - why are you here? What made you - " Blaine waved his hands in front of him as he struggled to find the words. " - you know, I don't understand. Why now?"
"We heard about everything from David's parents at dinner a couple of weeks ago but besides that, this, we - things have just gone on far, far too long" Isabelle tried to explain.
"So why didn't you get in touch sooner?"
"Because we didn't know if you would even want us to. And if you didn't, to be rejected by your own child, the person you create and carry in you for nine months before bringing them into the world, we couldn't handle that. I couldn't handle that Blaine" Isabelle emphasised. "But we had to take a chance."
"But you rang me for the first few days. Don't you think that maybe after a while it would've been easier to talk about it?" Blaine asked
"Or it could have been the complete opposite and been extremely hard" Nathan offered. "You know, yes, sometimes when people have been given time to think things through, they react calmer to the situation however on other occasions, giving people more time to think about things can make them even more angry. Be honest Blaine, if we'd have called you, say, a month ago, would you have picked up the phone?"
"I don't know" Blaine whispered. He honestly didn't. He could see exactly where his dad was coming from because like he had told Kurt the night before, it had got easier over time, but that hadn't stopped the resentment he felt towards his parents from building up. Every new day was a day where things hadn't been resolved, another day where Blaine was left wondering, another day where he still didn't have any answers.
"If you hadn't picked up the phone or if we'd shown up at your doorstep and you never answered the door, that would have just broke my heart" Isabelle whispered, the slight waver in her voice suggesting that she was close to tears.
"I just still don't - we all know that neither of you are exactly lacking in intelligence, not with the law and medical degrees you have between you. You knew that I was gay, and not just for a few weeks or months, but for three whole years. Surely you must have realised that me having a boyfriend at some point was an inevitability" Blaine asked.
"We're being honest right?" Blaine nodded at his dads slightly rhetorical question. "It was easier to pretend" Nathan replied simply. "But then you met Kurt and, well, I couldn't pretend anymore. And I guess, when you were standing in front of us, telling us about this boy who had gone from being your best friend to your boyfriend, it kind of all hit home and - I - I know I didn't react very well - " Blaine slightly raised his eyebrows at the understatement of the century. "I didn't understand -"
"Didn't understand or didn't want to understand?" Blaine interjected but Nathan was unphased.
" - But I'm sorry" Nathan proclaimed. "I truly am." Blaines eyes fell to the table as he started to feel emotional, feeling the genuine tone in his fathers voice. "And I know it's going to take a lot more than an apology but, it's a start."
"I never wanted to hide who I was from either of you" Blaine said. "And I didn't feel like I ever had to but as soon as I came out to you, things were different. And maybe I didn't have to hide because, you knew, there was nothing to hide from but, you know, it didn't take me long to realise that what I had with Kurt was something special. Something that I knew some people spend so long looking for. And I wanted to share that with you. I wanted to tell you that I had found this amazing person who gave me a reason to wake up every morning, who cared for me and made me feel like something, who put a smile on my face without even saying a word and even if he wasn't with me, just thinking about him would make me smile. I wanted to tell you that I was - am - in love with Kurt, and I'm not ashamed by it. Because to love and to be loved is the single greatest feeling in the world; whether it be between a man and a woman or two men or two women, nobody should be denied one of lifes most natural rights and feeling."
There was no holding back now. Both Blaine and Nathan had let a few tears fall from their eyes, Isabelle however had let more than a few fall, not even phased by the mascara that was starting to run near the corners of her eyes but the mascara tracks were soon gone as they all reached for the napkins on the table.
"I wanted you to get to know him and love him just as much as I do. But you didn't want to" Blaine whispered sadly.
"We do now" Nathan assured.
"I urm - " Isabelle paused as she sniffled into her tissue, effectively clearing her throat too. "I know I never got the chance to see the two of you together before but, last night when we were sitting in the audience, I've never seen as much love and adoration in your eyes then there was when you looked at Kurt. And I felt every, single word you sung to him. Above everything, that's what I've always wanted for you." Blaine smiled and although he smiled quite sadly, it was the first time he had smiled all afternoon.
"I just wish you could have seen that sooner" he murmured.
"And its obvious how much he cares for you. It's the real deal huh" Nathan chirped. Blaine nodded.
"Can I just ask one thing and please, be honest with me" Blaine started. "If you hadn't found out about Kurt being ill, would you have even ever gotten back in contact with me? Would you have ever cared about Kurt if he wasn't ill?" It wasn't said maliciously but Blaine needed to know. He needed to know that they were doing this for the right reasons and not because they felt sympathetic towards their son and his critically ill boyfriend. Of course Blaine cared if they cared about Kurts wellbeing but he needed to know that they really did want to be in Blaines life again and want to know Kurt, cancer stricken or not.
"Honey before we even knew about Kurts illness, we wanted to get back in contact with you, because you're our son. We went through a rough patch as a family, that's undeniable, but we never stopped loving you Blaine. And that's a fact." Isabelle brought her handbag up from off of the floor, placing it in her lap before taking out an envelope. She handed it to Blaine who took it with confusion written all over his face. Both Isabelle and Nathan smiled brightly as they encouraged Blaine to open the envelope. Blaines jaw dropped as he pulled out the slip of paper that lay inside.
"We didn't know who to make it out to or which Hospital or treatment centre was dealing with all the chemotherapy treatments but we want to help" Nathan smiled.
Seven and a half thousand dollars. $7,500. Blaine couldn't even try to stop the tears pooling in his eyes because in his hands, he held a $7,500 cheque to go towards Kurts treatments. They wanted Kurt to get better as much as he did.
"I - How - " Blaine stammered. "This is too much. We can't accept this. I - "
"We've got savings" Nathan happily assured. "But that's not for you to worry about" he smiled.
"We've seen how Kurt makes you feel and equally how you make him feel. You need each other. Now this isn't our way of trying to buy your trust back or buy your forgiveness - we really do just want to help and we want to be there for you. For both of you. In any way we can" Isabelle smiled as she took her sons hand for the first time in months. She was both relieved and ecstatic when Blaine didn't pull away.
"I don't know what to say" Blaine whispered as he looked back at his parents with glazed eyes.
"Kurt seems like a lovely person" Isabelle declared, tightening her grasp of Blaines hand.
"He's the best" Blaine sniffed, a smile playing on his lips as he thought about Kurt.
"We'd love to get to know him. If that's okay with you both" Nathan asked.
Blaine honestly never thought he would see this day come. He had imagined countless scenarios of how today was going to go but this ending was more than he ever could have imagined.
"I'd love that" Blaine smiled.
Blaine honestly never thought he would ever be sitting at a table with his parents ever again but today, it was clear the Anderson family were making a fresh start, closing the book on a bad chapter of their lives. Today was the start of something new. Of course they hadn't quite mended every broken bridge but they wouldn't in a hour long sit down over coffee - these things needed time. But for the first time in eighteen months, Blaine felt like he had his parents back and Nathan and Isabelle felt as if they had their son back in their lives.
It was a start and that was all any of them could have asked for.
The sound of music and the sweet, warm aroma of baking hit Blaine like a gale force wind as he stepped through the front door. He placed his keys in the basket and shrugged off his charcoal military jacket, hanging it up on the row of coat pegs. He walked towards the kitchen and with everyones car absent outside except for one, he knew that the baking culprit was Kurt, The Beatles 'Ticket To Ride' blocking every other noise out as his boyfriend sang animatedly along, happily baking away. Blaine leant against the wall for a moment admiring Kurt who had his back to him, cracking an egg into the batter he was currently beating away at.
"OH! You scared me!" Kurt jumped as Blaine wrapped his arms around Kurts waist, pressing a kiss to the back of Kurts neck before placing his head over Kurts shoulder, Kurt leaning into Blaines body as it covered his own.
"Sorry" Blaine murmured into his neck. "You looked so cute though. I couldn't resist."
"Cheesy" Kurt smiled as he shook his head. Batter mixture pushed aside for later, Kurt turned around in Blaines arms, bringing his own arms to wrap around Blaines neck.
"Hi" he whispered before pressing his lips to Blaines.
"Hey" Blaine said as they pulled away.
"So" Kurt hedged encouragingly.
"So...what?" Blaines face scrunched up, exaggerating as Kurt lightly slapped the side of his arm.
"Don't keep me in suspense Blaine Anderson - this is all I've been able to think about all day and even baking didn't keep me as distracted as I hoped it would. How did it go? What happened?"
"Well - " Blaine started, a small smile playing at his lips. "How would you feel about going out to dinner tomorrow night with my parents?"
A/n - Soo?
I honestly loved writing this chapter and I loved writing the Kurt and Blaine scene in the bedroom because I really felt that the roles were reversed in this chapter - Like obviously we see a lot of Blaine being strong for Kurt in this so i loved writing Kurt being strong and there for Blaine:)
The big thing in this chapter though is obviously Blaines parents so I'd love to know what you guys thought of them. There were points where i got so stressed out with this chapter though and really scared because I feel like I made Blaines parents sound like really, really awful in Chapter 1 and it was hard trying to figure out how to make this chapter believable especially as this is how i've always pictured this chapter being written - I never wanted them to be homophobic though but i wanted it more to be that they didnt understand, this was all new to them and they didn't react in the best way but they realised that at the end of the day, Blaines their son - I'm getting stressed even trying to put it into words but i hope through this chapter, you see my plan and that this is Nathan and Isabelles characterisation that i wanted and that they're not these awful monsters and everyone makes mistakes and says stuff they regret:)
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I'm so happy you liked the fundraiser! Thats such a relief to me:)
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Oh gosh i'd love if my final exams were only a week or 2 - mine basically lasted for the whole month of June cause they were all spread out :(
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