Sebastian was shocked to say the least, his heart was breaking at that very moment.
"I see, well then, I-"He was at a loss, his heart would always belong to Ciel and he couldn't imagine life without him.
"I meant what I said earlier,I want our family, and I'll always love you, I just don't know if I'm -I never wanted to hurt you."
"I know Ciel, these things happen I suppose. Allow me to contact my father, he wil undo our bond if you chose it. I love you more than any demon has ever loved their , I will not allow you to feel trapped,you are not my prisoner, may I ask for a request?"
Ciel nodded.
"Give me the week I've asked for, so that I may have something to hold onto when you go."
"It's the least I can do, you deserve better."
"You are my one true mate, there is no one to replace you."
"You could find someone, I know you can"
"I have no desire to replace your role in my life. Thank you for telling me about this, I had planned on leaving tomorrow night,would you -"
"That's fine, do what you like." Sebastian hated himself for causing Ciel to fall into this position. If only he had said I love you one time more, if he had given up the crown,if he was any kind of mate,they wouldn't be talking about this now.
Ciel and Sebastian said goodbye to their children and made their journey the following night as planned. Ciel barely spoke a word the entire way to their destination.
"Ciel, you haven't eaten since the day before last, will you please -"
"I'm not hungry,I feel kind of ill actually."
"I'll?" Ciel nodded.
"My stomach feels like someone tied it in knots."
"I see,is there anything I can do to ease it for you?"
"No." Sebastian resisted the urge to grab him and hold him tight, tell him that it would work out and he would always be there. Instead, he sat in silence until they reached their hotel.
The building was luxurious, Ciel had never seen one like it. He was too upset to comment but the two soon found themselves in their room.
The young demon sat down on the bed, he looks out the window watching several birds fly by.
"My love, I must say that no matter what you choose, please try to find some enjoyment in our last days together."
"I would very much like to remember you with a smile."
"I don't feel like smiling."
"Nor do I love. Perhaps we should go out and see the sights after you've rested from our long journey."
"I don't think so, I just want some quiet time, I'm already missing our children."
"Of course you are, you wouldn't be one hell of a mother if you didn't. On another note, I apologize for causing this, I do love you with all my heart. I wanted to bring you, You've suffered so much since I began my lessons with father, I've become neglectful. Please forgive me." Ciel knew him well enough to know that the pain he heard in the demon's voice was real and deep.
"Don't be sorry, you're a prince, that's a necessary part of the job. I should be more supportive."
"You have supported me, you kept silent and allowed me to continue my work. I'm not doing it purely for my benefit, I want you and the children to have that life,something more than you have at this moment."
"I know,that's the kind of mate and father you are. I just-" Sebastian stood behind him embracing him and resting his head on Ciel's shoulder.
"I have hidden you away from the world, a journey into London or a trip onto town is nowhere near enough. You should be free to walk in the sun,not be condemned to the shadows. You are a beautiful, very special demon, You have journeyed through three plains of being, I loved you as an angel, I served you and loved you dearly as a human, that love has followed you as a demon, it is unbreakable and I wish you would try to save it. "
"You're not to blame for this, I only seem to cause you trouble Sebastian,why do you try so hard to keep something like me?" Sebastian turned Ciel so that they were looking directly into each other's eyes.
"I would take any trouble in the world for you, There's nothing I wouldn't face, no danger I will not shield you from this is fact, I am not forced to do it, it's in my heart to, just as it is in my heart to love you so deeply. I was not forced to fall in love with you, I want you to understand that. I am here with you by choice. Why are you so hard on yourself?"
"Look at me,I'm -"
"I look at you each day Ciel, and what I see is a loving mate, an amazing mother and someone I cannot imagine living without. Do you remember when I told you that it nearly destroyed me the night I lost you?"
" night I died as a human, you were devastated."
"I thought I would die with you, would you deny me this love?"
"Sebastian, that isn't going to work."
"may I take you somewhere special before we leave Ciel, I'm certain you'll enjoy it."
"I don't -"
"Please my love, only for a short time?"
"Fine, but then I want to -" Sebastian had taken the opportunity to try an experiment. He placed his palm on his mate's cheek and kissed him, softly at first and it soon became more passionate, Ciel pulled away quickly.
"stop that." The young demon cried.
"I noticed that you were willing to an extent." He said.
"That doesn't mean anything."
"We shall see my love, all in time."