Authors Note - Hi guys! I am so so sorry for how long this has taken me but I actually have a valid reason :L As one of my readers already knows, two weeks after publishing the last chapter, I went to Costa Rica on the 31st March and spent the whole of April out there on a volunteering project (which was completely amazing - everyone go to Costa Rica, its beautiful!) and I didn't get home until the end of April/beginning of May! I tried to write some while I was out there and I did but my days were so hectic and busy in the best possible way that I really just didnt get to finish it at all so I've basically been writing this ever since I got home and I literally just finished it last night and finished the spell check, edits etc just now! I've been working back to back shifts this whole week where I havent finished work until 9pm and I've only just got home from another one now which is why im posting this now because i finished early today!
also just a funny note, I was up so late writing this last tuesday that I overslept for my Wednesday shift by half an hour - whoops!
okay so i'm not even surprised this chapter took me so long because it is a whopping 20 pages long in Word and 10,629 words long! I couldnt even believe it when i checked it after doing the spell check! But again, im not surprised because this chapters got so much going on! we have Kurts video to his brother/sister, a birthday and Kurts mum!
As always, thank you to everyone who alerts, favourites, reviews this story - you guys make my life!:)
okay go, enjoyy! (I hope)
Disclaimer - I don't own Glee, any of the characters or names of places (Pops) in this
"You're sure you still want to do this?" Blaine asked from his crouched position on the floor of their bedroom, for what feels to Kurt like the fiftieth time that day. He was currently in the process of setting up the tripod and camera in position. Around two weeks had passed since Kurt had received the result he didn't want and his reasons for recording the video were reignited.
"I'm sure" Kurt assured from where he was sitting on the edge of the bed. "Thank you again for helping with - " he gestured towards the camera. " - You know, setting it all up and everything."
"Anytime" Blaine said almost through gritted teeth, his eyebrows creased as he tried to figure out how exactly to fit the camera onto the tripod which wasn't as simple as it should have been. "What the - " Kurt heard Blaine exclaim after a prolonged silence which was then followed by a lot of turning the camera in every angle and direction on top of the tripod and lifting the camera above his head, trying to see how exactly it would lock into place.
"Ah ha! Gotcha!" Kurt chuckled at the beaming smile his boyfriend had on his face as the camera finally clicked into position, locked securely on top of the tripod, all ready to go.
"What do I say?" Kurt asked quietly.
"Just speak from the heart" Blaine said as he perched on the edge of the bed next to Kurt. "Just say - say everything you would want to say to them and everything you want them to hear. I'm sure you could be reading the news and they would love it because it's you" Blaine joked, attempting to lighten the solemn mood that filled the room.
"Not the point of this" Kurt smiled. "But I appreciate the compliment."
"Just be you" Blaine smiled as he nudged Kurts side. "You wanted this to be from you to your baby brother or sister right?" Kurt knew it wasn't a question - Blaine was stating a fact and so he nodded, not quite sure as to where Blaine was going with this. "Well exactly. It's not a show or a performance - you don't have to pretend to be someone else, it doesn't have to be perfect, saying all these rehearsed lines - just say whatever comes to you, while being you. Just be their brother. That's more than enough."
Kurt smiled softly and nodded. "I'm just nervous I guess."
Blaine nodded in understanding. He leaned over, softly kissing Kurts forehead. "Take as much time as you need." Kurt smiled at him.
"I think I'm ready - I mean, I'm as ready as I'll ever be."
"Okay" Blaine whispered. "Well - " he started as he rose from the bed. " - Whenever you feel you really are ready, you just need to press the record button right here" Blaine said as he pointed to the red circular button next to a dial at the top of the device. "I'll just be right outside the door if you need anything." Blaine leant down and softly kissed Kurts forehead once again, his fingers slipping though the strands of Kurts hair as he cradled the back of his head whilst his lips lingered against Kurts skin. As he turned to leave, he felt a tightened pressure around his wrist as Kurt suddenly turned him back towards him, Kurts hand slipping around Blaines neck, bringing him closer down to his level as he connected their lips.
"I love you" Kurt whispered into the small distance between them as their leant their foreheads together, sharing the small amount of air between them.
"You too. It's going to be fine. You're going to be great" Blaine assured confidently. He smiled brightly at Kurt before walking out of the door, closing it gently behind him.
Alone.
Kurt was all alone. Just him and the camera right in front of him. He felt as though it was staring into his soul of something which he knew was completely impossible seeing as it was an materialistic, emotionless object but it just sat right in front of him, as if it was saying "I'm waiting" to him.
"You can do this" Kurt thought to himself as he exhaled deeply. "It's going to be fine. Oh god what if I don't say the right things? What if I don't live up to their expectations? What if everyone tells all these stories about me and then they watch this and I'm nothing like they imagine?" Suddenly, despite all of his worries, four words Blaine had left him with came ringing in his mind.
"Just be their brother."
At the end of the day, that was all he could be; he could only be himself and so with that, he took one final deep breath, leaned up from the edge of the bed and pressed the 'record' button.
"Hi" Kurt started. It was as good a place to start as any. "So, I'm not really sure how to really start this kind of thing but, well I'm sure you know by now and I'm sure you would have been shown pictures of me - I hope they were good ones for both of our sakes" he joked, "but, I'm Kurt. I'm your big brother" he said with a teary smile. "So, the date today is the 25th of October 2012 and well, the long and short of it all is that I have leukaemia. I'm sure you've probably been told all of this and everything that happened but I'd like you to hear it from me too. So, basically I have a form of Leukaemia called Acute Leukaemia and as of right now, it's sitting at a stage two but that could change at any time to be honest but a stage two is good, I mean, the whole having cancer thing isn't great in the first place but a stage two is not as aggressive as being at a stage three or four. My doctors are still optimistic and I've been going through Chemo sessions since the beginning of June so around five, nearing six months now but more recently, I've started courses of chemoradiotherapy. I've actually got my fourth round tomorrow so it's kind of nice because I'll officially be at the halfway point. My doctors want me to do eight rounds in total and then they'll do some more tests to see if it's worked or not. Hopefully it will though and I'll be NEC but, well, we'll see. So you know, maybe you'll never see this. Maybe this will just be something that will live to be a memory in my mind and will never see the light of day again and I'll be able to really be a big brother to you but if you are watching this, well, you know how the story ended then... Just know that, I'm sorry and I fought as long and as hard as I could. Cancers a stubborn bitch!" he laughed, attempting to lighten the mood. "I really do wish I could have met you though" he confessed sadly.
"When I was younger and being an only child for 16 years, I always wanted a little brother or sister. So, as your big brother and as my brotherly duty to you, what advice can I give to you from my personal life experiences these past eighteen years." Kurt clicked his tongue over and over as he pondered over what he could say, things that he hoped would be helpful to his sibling in the many years to come. The years he wouldn't be around to tell them himself in person.
"Okay well firstly, I'm sure you are well aware by now that you have two of the best people on the planet as your parents. My mum died when I was 12 and I may or may not have set Dad and Carole up for my benefit as well as their own but honestly, it was one of the best things I've ever done because not only did she bring a smile back to dads face, she became a mother to me. She's just, she's like a ray of sunshine. She has done so much for this family by just being herself. You know, I hear and i'm sure you will too, some of my friends say they had this argument with their mum the night before because she wouldn't let them do this or buy that or the other but with Carole, she's one of those mums that's not afraid of being your mum but she's also like one of your best friends. She's always there, waiting with a cup of tea when you're having a bad day or a hug and a shoulder to cry on when you're having an even worse one. She's just amazing. Carole is amazing. And Dad? Well dad is one half of the two most important people in my life. I know at times, some more than others, you might feel like he's being the most embarrassing person, especially when the camera comes out for every milestone in your life, cause it will, but actually, Carole's just as guilty too or every time you find him interfering or something, just know that he only has your best interests at heart. believe me, when I first started dating Blaine, for our first date, Blaine came round to the house to pick me up - we ended up being late for our dinner reservations by twenty minutes because dad had Blaine holed up in the front room, throwing every question under the sun at him and eventually, Carole made up some excuse and literally had to drag him away just so that we could leave! It's funny looking back on it and even though Blaine was amazing and so understanding about it, I literally wanted the ground to swallow me up! I just kept thinking "Oh my god, Dad's probably scared off my new boyfriend" but you realise that, it's only because he cares about you so much. So when the time comes and you have your first boyfriend or girlfriend and that happens because i'm sure it will at some point and you will most likely want the ground to swallow you up too, just try to remember it's because he cares. My point that I'm trying to make with this is that no matter how annoying you might find Dad and Carole at times and feel like screaming at them, just always appreciate them" Kurt smiled.
"And Finn? Well, we kind of got off to a...somewhat questionable start - " Kurt chuckled lightly, " - But now, well Finn is an amazing brother. He is always there for you with whatever you need and he'll be an amazing brother to you too. That I'm so sure of." His voice broke ever so slightly at that last sentence.
"And finally, you see how I told you that Dad was one half of the two most important people in my life, well, if you don't already know or haven't figured it out yet, the other person is Blaine. I know that right now, he is so excited to meet you too and I have no doubts that Blaine is a part of your life because even if we never got to the altar in time to make it official, he is family." Kurt paused for a second, turning his head away from the camera before continuing. "I would have married Blaine you know. I still want to, more than anything and maybe - hopefully one day soon, we can make that a reality. But I'm sure that one day, he'll tell you everything you could ever want to know about me and story after story about our time together. Maybe he'll tell you things I wish he hadn't and I can haunt him from the grave for" Kurt laughed.
"But Blaine brings me something I want to talk to you about and that's love. Not the kind of love you have for your family and friends, but the love you'll one day share with another person. You know, they'll maybe come a day where you just want someone close to you to offer you some advice but not necessarily your friends and not always mum or dad because that could just get awkward and weird so I'm going to try and give you as much advice as I can now. Being in love is amazing. It's - it sometimes scares me how much I care and love one single person. I grew up always wanting my own fairytale ending and even as I grew up, that was all I wanted - the how's and when's and who's were still blank spaces but I just wanted that happy ending but I honestly never a love so strong was possible. But it's incredible. It's indescribable. Suddenly you stop being just 'me' and 'you' as a single person and everything starts to become 'we' and 'us' " Kurt smiled fondly to himself. "When even the littlest things they do and most of the time, don't even notice they're doing make you catch your breath and fall in love that little bit more - " Kurt smiled as he thought about every morning when Blaine woke up, his hair in every possible direction, his eyes still half shut even as he squints them open but Kurt would still be adamant that Blaine is the most beautiful person he had ever seen. He also thought about the times when occasionally, he's fallen asleep before Blaine and when he wakes up in the middle of the night, he finds Blaine had made sure his tablets and a fresh glass of water are right beside him should he need them. "I'm sure, especially when you're young, you might meet someone and after a week or so, you become completely infatuated and that you're in love because they're so attractive or you have something in common or maybe they smiled at you the right way and of course, all of these are important but real love, true love is learning to grow with one another. It's about sometimes putting your needs aside for that other person and they're willing to do the same. it's about doing things, like going to several sports games - " Kurt deadpanned as he slightly rolled his eyes in jest " - even though you cannot stand them or really don't see the appeal in it. It's about, that even when life is driving you to the brim of insanity, that one person can always make it better and bring you back because they know you better than anyone else; sometimes even better than you know yourself. It's commitment, trust, partnership, it's persevering though all the crap the world might throw at you because you know your love and what you have is worth everything. Blaine saved me in so many different ways. He makes me the happiest I've ever been and at one of the worst points in my life- " Kurt said as he thought back to when his whole ordeal with Karofsky had come to a head midway through his sophomore year " - he made me believe in love and that kind of happiness again." His voice was steady but the tears were fast falling down Kurts cheeks. "That's another thing I want to say to you. Maybe you're my little brother and you love a boy or maybe you're my little sister and you love a girl, and that's okay! If you are gay, that's fine! Sometimes, you'll come across ignorant, mindless people that will tell you 'it's unnatural, it's wrong' blah blah but I'm telling you, it is the most natural thing in the world. It doesn't matter if you're gay or straight - love is love. It's a universal language, you know - it is the exact same wherever you go or whatever you are. Love is, it's everything. And I can't wait for you to experience it one day" he smiled at the camera.
"Okay, I think there is just one more thing I want to say to you and then I'll leave you alone" he laughed. "What I want to say to you is to never give up on what you want in life. Never let anyone tell you that you can't do something, be whatever you want or that you're not good enough otherwise you can bet I'll come back and kick their asses! Never give up on what you want in life" Kurt said with a serious tone to his voice, nodding his head at the same time for emphasis. "I'm sure Dad has already given you the whole "nobody pushes the Hummels around" but seriously, remember that because all I want and will ever want for you is to be happy. If there is one thing these last six months have taught me is exactly that - to never give up, no matter how hard things get, no matter how much you might think things are as bad as they could ever get, no matter how completely fed up and exhausted you are whether that me mentally, physically or emotionally - don't give up. Life might throw a tornado load of crap at you but there's always something to keep going for and people around you that love you and will help you though everything. And if High School ever gets hard for you, who knows, maybe you're really popular but even when I was in Glee Club, I learnt that the popular kids didn't always have it so easy either, just bare in mind that one day, you'll be gone from there and all of those faces in the hallways will fade to become nothing but distant memories."
"Okay" Kurt exhaled as he clapped his hands on his thighs, "I think I've rambled on for long enough so I'm going to love you and leave you now. I really hope this video is somewhere you can turn to if you ever need to. Be amazing!" Kurt refused to sign off with a goodbye. He leant up off of the bed and pressed the record button once more, this time to stop the recording. He took a moment to gather himself before shouting "I'm done" in the direction of the doorway. Seconds later, the door slowly started to creak open as Blaine peered his head around the door.
"Hey" he cooed. "How are you?" He asked as he walked further into the room.
"I'm good" Kurt nodded.
"How was it?" Blaine asked cautiously.
Kurt pouted his bottom lip as he thought. "Refreshing actually."
"That...is not the word I expected you to use" Blaine said but smiled inquisitively all the same.
"You totally thought I was going to say 'sad' right?" Blaine shrugged as if to say 'well, yeah'. "It was" Kurt asserted. "But, I don't know, it felt good to just talk and keep talking. And I feel better now knowing that if worst comes to worst, they'll always have that. It was good to talk."
"And you don't talk my ear off nearly every single day?" Blaine joked.
"Oh my god shut up!" Kurt laughed as he slapped Blaines bicep which also had Blaine laughing too.
"Well, while I was waiting for you, I got a seriously craving for a chocolate brownie sundae with marshmallows and hot fudge sauce, soooo - " Blaine started as he threaded their fingers together. " - how would you fancy a little impromptu Saturday afternoon date down at Pops? My treat."
Kurt unlinked their hands to wind his own arms around Blaines waist, the space between them infinitely small now.
"Oooh" Kurt cooed. "I would say 'hell yeah' Mr Anderson. Maybe we could even get a milkshake and share it - be one of those couples you see in pictures from a 50's diner."
"Done and done."
The month of November was thrust upon them qucker than they knew. As of this point, Kurt had undergone six rounds of chemoradiotherapy and he, Dr Rolstone and Steph all remained optimistic. He only had two more weeks: two more rounds of treatments before his next set of check ups. Kurt had almost taken on a new attitude in the recent weeks of a "whatever happens, happens" approach. Of course he was still hoping with everything he had that everything would be okay but it was almost as if he had just decided to stop focusing on the negatives of the situation, get the treatments like he had done so for the last 6 months and let nature run its course because focusing on the possible negative outcomes just made him stressed and upset and that was something he didn't want to be - he wanted to focus on the positives in his life. However it was a mutual feeling between them all that this time, everything felt different and maybe that was because of the new approach to the treatment they had taken but there was something this time around that made them all feel a little more hopeful.
The sun relentlessly filtering through the window one Sunday morning awoke Blaine from his peaceful sleep but today wasn't just any ordinary Sunday. Today was his birthday; his twentieth birthday and it quickly became apparent that Kurt hadn't forgotten this detail either. On the other pillow, where Blaine was usually graced with the sight of Kurts face was replaced today with a folded note. Blaine pushed himself further up the pillows so he was leaning his body weight on his elbow. He blinked his eyelids shut a few times in an attempt to clear his vision after a whole nights sleep. He reached over to open the note in front of him.
"Follow the petals ˂3 "
Blaine smiled and furrowed his eyebrows a little because 'petals?' but as he peered over at the end of the bed, low and behold, a single red petal laid on the floor. Blaine laughed softly to himself - his boyfriend was the best - before swinging his legs over the side of the bed, desperate to see what Kurt had planned for him. As he reached the bottom of the stairs and rounded the corner, picking up the last petal as he did, his breath hitched at the sight of the dining room table. Two plates had been set out, the cutlery placed neatly beside them, a glass jug of orange juice and a single red rose that had been placed in a clear vase resided in the middle of the table and the sound of Kurt singing along to his iPod in the kitchen warmed his heart even more than he thought was possible in that moment.
"Twenty petals" Blaine smiled as he walked into the kitchen, holding the petals out in front of him in between his thumb and forefinger. Kurt shot round and smiled brightly when he saw who it was. "That's cute."
"Well, sometimes I'm cute like that I guess" Kurt quipped as he walked into Blaines arms, wrapping his own around his Blaines waist.
"True -" Blaine contemplated "- But the fact that you have flour on your cheek makes you extra cute today" Blaine smirked, wiping the flour away with his thumb.
"Oh my god" Kurt laughed as he fell forward, hiding his head in Blaines chest but felt a little less embarrassed as he felt Blaines chest moving up and down beneath him, a clear sign that he too was laughing. "That's so not sexy" he murmured into Blaines night t-shirt.
"On the contrary" Blaine replied. Kurt playfully wrinkled his nose as he pulled back but the expression was quickly replaced by a smile. "Happy Birthday" he whispered before leaning back him, his lips meeting Blaines. It was soft but firm, slow but everything, so much they felt it down to the tips of their toes. They both sighed into it and god, they would have been completely content to stay in the warm moment forever. Kurt kissed the corner of Blaines mouth as they began to pull away.
"I can't believe you're 20" Kurt stated. "I'm dating an old man now" he quipped as Blaine gasped.
"There's only 4 months difference between our birthdays! You'll be 19 in March!"
"I'm joking babe!" Kurt smiled, wrapping his arms around Blaines neck. "20 isn't old at all and besides, I love that you're older than me."
"Ahh is that your secret Kurt Hummel?! Got a thing for older men 'ey?" Blaine teased.
"No. Just you" Kurt simply replied. Blaine ducked his head, smiling widely to himself. "Okay, Breakfast!" Kurt exclaimed. "I thought we could just do breakfast as our own thing and your parents already asked me if we were free for lunch because they want to take you out and then we can do whatever you want for the rest of the day seeing as it is your birthday."
"Sounds perfect. Really perfect" Blaine smiled. "How can I help y-" Blaine managed to get out before a hand swatted against his shoulder blade.
"Uh uh uh - no way! Sit down. Breakfast is all under control."
"Are you - "
"Yes I'm sure Blaine Anderson. It's your birthday - It's like a 'Get out of jail free' card that lasts all day. Now sit!"
A feast was the only way to describe it. Kurt had made a generous amount of pancakes that were light and fluffy with a hint of vanilla that sent them right over the edge of being pure heaven and to accompany them, a blueberry syrup that had been made by heating blueberries and maple syrup until the blueberries burst and cooling it right down to make the best syrup Blaine had ever tasted. Fresh strawberries, blueberries and blackberries were placed carefully and decoratively around the pancakes and they'd had freshly brewed coffee as well as the orange juice and by the end of it, Blaine could only manage to stomach half a slice of toast from the rack Kurt had placed in the middle of the table.
"That was incredible" Blaine huffed out, his posture slumping slightly in his chair.
"It was okay then?" Kurt double checked.
"I think judging by the food baby I'm showing at the moment -" Kurts face broke out into a wide smile as he chuckled " - is a good indication that it was more than okay Kurt."
"Well I'm glad you enjoyed it. It's your birthday after all; everything has to be special and extra brilliant."
"Well this is our first birthday where we're living together so it's already pretty special"
"The first of many" Kurt smiled. "Okay, can I give you your present now?" Kurt asked. It was like a five year old asking for Ice cream.
"Okay" Blaine chuckled softly at Kurts excitement. Kurt got up and disappeared into the kitchen where from one of the drawers, he pulled out an impeccably wrapped rectangular shaped present, complete with a white bow and ribbon curls and a envelope placed on top. Kurt kissed Blaines cheek as he handed him his card and present before sitting back down in his chair next to him. Blaine opened the card first and as he pulled it out, his face broke out into a huge smile as he read the words on the front of it.
Happy Birthday to my Boyfriend
For being the best that a boyfriend can be
For kisses that make me go weak at the knees
For wonderful smiles that make everything right
He then opened the card to read the rest, thinking it was impossible for his heart to swell any bigger than it felt right now.
For cosy warm hugs on cold winter nights
For being there always come rain or come shine
I love you so much and I'm so glad you're mine!
Kurt had then added his own touch as he wrote
Blaine
Happy Birthday! You're old [- er] now!
I hope you have an amazing day and thank you for just being you
I love you - forever and always
Kurt
xxxx
"You're not going to let go of the fact I'm not a teenager anymore are you" Blaine quipped as he held up the card.
"I am now" Kurt smiled. "It was just fun to tease you for a little while. But like I said, I really don't care" he added, just to reassure Blaine once more.
"I know. Besides, I'm just holding this over you for when I turn 21 and you're still 20 and I'm the one who can legally buy alcohol" Blaine quipped making an 'ooh' kind of face.
"Oh snap Mr Anderson!" Kurt gasped mock offended. "You got me there!" he said before they both started laughing. "Okay, present now."
Blaine started to carefully open the present, unfolding each flap before then throwing all inhibitions away and tearing at the paper to reveal the once concealed present - wasn't that half the fun of receiving presents anyway! As Blaine pushed the paper off the present, he breath hitched at the gift. It was a white photo frame and the photo Kurt had placed in it was a particular favourite of Blaines. It had been taken last winter, a couple of weeks before Christmas when Blaine had just got back home after finishing his winter semester. The two of them had taken a walk through Whinfell Park. The park was blanketed in thick, white snow and more snow continued to fall as they walked hand in hand, revelling in each others company after being separated for weeks on end, having to make do with daily texts, phone and Skype calls. Dressed appropriately for the conditions, Blaine was wearing his black duffle coat, complete with a simple dark green scarf that Kurt had insisted "brings out the colour of your eyes" when he bought it and a black beanie hat whereas Kurt was wearing his form fitting black peacoat which he paired with a grey and charcoal coloured snood. At some point during the venture, Kurt had pulled out his phone and taken a picture of the two of them but as he pressed the camera button to capture the moment, Kurt had kissed Blaines cheek and caused Blaine toothy smile to become even wider, his eyes crinkling at how hard he was smiling as Kurts lips pouted against his cheek. It was posed but completely natural at the same time - it was just them and it was one of his all time favourites. Within the photo frame, behind the photo was beautiful printed handwriting which read phrases such as 'love is kind, love is patient, love is difficult to find but when found is the most magical gift to be given, love is two hearts beating as one' and then in between each one, the phrase was rewritten in Italian and on top of the writing, directly below the photo was two silver interlinked rings.
"I love that photo of us" Kurt said softly, bringing Blaine out of the daze he had found himself in as he took in every little detail of the frame. "I saw the frame when I was out shopping with Mercedes a couple of months ago before she left and, I just fell in love with it. I loved the rings; I saw it and thought that it could like represent our promise rings and - "
"I love it Kurt" Blaine smiled as he looked up at his boyfriend. "It's amazing. I - I just love it. Thank you so much." He leaned slightly up off his chair, cupping Kurts cheek with his hand as he kissed him. Gifts are a funny thing. It's common knowledge that most people ask for gifts like an iPad, a laptop, a television - something ridiculously expensive but a simple photo frame, something so simple but personal and meaningful, sometimes they're the best kind of gift a person could ever receive.
After they had finished washing up all of the dishes (Kurt eventually gave up on trying to shoot down Blaines insistence that he at least help with the dishes) , showered and got dressed, the rest of the morning was spent snuggling together in bed before leaving the house around midday to meet Isabelle and Nathan for lunch at 'Delizioso' seeing as they loved it so much the first time around. After they had all finished eating, Isabelle and Nathan presented their son with their gift to him. For his present, Isabelle and Nathan had given Blaine his first and very own set of silver cufflinks that gleamed brightly as the lights reflected down on them; a clear indication that these were the real deal. To make them even more special, they'd also had both of them engraved with his initials 'B.A' etched into the left hand corners.
"I love them. Thank you" Blaine said as he hugged both Isabelle and Nathan.
"Happy Birthday honey" Isabelle smiled, leaving a hint of red lipstick on his skin as she kissed his cheek.
"Happy Birthday son" Nathan said as he patted Blaine on the back as they hugged. Kurt smiled as he watched the whole exchange between the three of them. They quickly settled back down and ordered dessert to finish off an already perfect meal on a perfect afternoon. Blaine loved that he could spend time with his parents like this again, and having Kurt right by his side and watching as Kurt and his mum and dad laughed and talked animatedly as if they were old friends, well it was all he had ever hoped for.
Despite receiving countless and what seemed like a endless stream of 'happy birthday' texts, Facebook notifications and tweets to him, Blaine received a special 'happy birthday' phone call from David which had started off David singing an interesting rendition of 'Happy Birthday' as son as Blaine had answered the phone and said hello.
"Welcome to the 20 year olds club!" David exclaimed happily.
"Your birthday isn't until April" Blaine stated.
"Oh right where it hurts! Why did you have to kill the mood for? A guy can dream! Being twenty means one year closer to twenty one which everyone knows is the prime age!" Blaine couldn't help but laugh at how ridiculous his best friend was. "So how has your birthday been so far?" David asked.
"It's been really nice" Blaine smiled as he made himself comfortable on his bed. "Kurt made me breakfast this morning and he gave me this really lovely photo frame of us - "
"Gross" David muttered before Blaine had even finished his sentence. "You guys are so gross." David joked and Blaine laughed heartedly. He knew it was meant in the best way possible.
"And then we literally just got back from going out to lunch with my parents like, forty five minutes ago and I'm not really sure about the rest of the night."
"sounds like it has been pretty awesome though! I'm really glad for you that you and your parents are making a go of things again. I mean, you slept in our spare room for a whole summer so I know how rough the whole thing was on you."
"You can't deny though, our midnight marathon PS3 sessions complete with the midnight feasts were pretty legendary" Blaine remarked.
"Duh! They were the best - no wonder we carried on with them on the rare occasion at College!" David exclaimed. "But no in all seriousness, I am really happy for you all." Blaine smiled.
"Thanks" he replied. The two boys were silent for a moment before David spoke up again.
"How's Kurt doing at the moment? I couldn't believe when you told me about the Chemo not working."
"He's doing really good" Blaine nodded although David couldn't see. "His doctors are pleased with how his body has taken well to the change in treatment, what with it being more intense and frequent but he's doing really well with it. Everyone is just kind of hoping that with it being more powerful and constant - "
"He stands more of a chance" David finished.
"Yeah" Blaine winced. "What about you and Jenna? How are you guys?"
"Well we're not going to be joining you and Kurt on any double dates anytime soon seeing as we broke up last week."
"Oh I'm - " Blaine started but David quickly silenced him.
"Dude, it's honestly cool. We're still friends but we just kept arguing and, we've just become two different people now. Anyways, I'm going to let you go and get back to your perfect little Brady Bunch family life!" David quipped which made Blaine laugh. "Miss you up here dude but I'm home in five weeks for Christmas so catch up then?" David said with a hopeful tone to his voice.
"Done deal!" Blaine replied before they both hung up the phone.
The rest of the night ended up being very relaxing. By the time Burt got home from work that night, nearing half seven and everyone just seconds away from climbing up the walls with hunger, Carole suggested they order a few pizzas and have a quiet night in. After they had all completely stuffed themselves silly on 'Pepperoni Feast' and 'Chicken BBQ' pizzas, garlic bread and every other side they had ordered which Burt had insisted they do as it was a 'special occasion', the rest of the Hummel Hudson clan gave their gifts to Blaine. From Burt and Carole, Blaine received a bottle of his favourite aftershave and a Fossil watch that was pure silver around the face of the watch, the black background allowing the silver minute marking and hands of the clock stand out in a classy way, complete with a black leather strap. From Finn, he had gotten more of a modest gift and knowing of Blaines insane love for music, Finn had gotten him a pillow that allowed him to plug his iPod into and his music would play through it as he slept! It was just the perfect end to what had been a lovely birthday.
"Have you had a good birthday then?" Kurt asked as they walked into their bedroom later on that night, hand in hand. Everyone else had already retired for the night and they were the last two to make their way upstairs.
"The best" Blaine smiled as he recalled the days events. He spun Kurt around to face him, encircling his arms around his waist. "Thank you for everything today" he whispered as rubbed his nose affectionately against Kurts. Kurt couldn't help but close the distance between them as he pressed their lips together. Being this close to Blaine always felt so intoxicating in the best possible way.
"You're welcome" Kurt breathed against Blaines cheek. "Besides, your birthday isn't over just quite yet - " Kurt leaned up, bringing his mouth closer to Blaines ear. "- I have one more present for you."
One.
Just one.
That was the amount of treatments Kurt had left in his eight week course. As it was now the middle of November, Kurt had just one more round of chemoradiotherapy scheduled for the 28th and that was it. If everything went as well he hoped with every fibre in his body it would, no longer would his Wednesdays, like they had for the last 5 months be filled with early morning trips to the clinic, sitting in a chair for hours on end as the chemo drips into his body or as was the case for the last seven weeks, no longer would he spend his days lying on a bed as high energy rays beamed all over his body. No longer would the majority of his Thursdays and part of his Fridays be spent with his face head down in a toilet bowl. No longer would he brush his hair every morning and wonder how much was going to fall out this time. Kurt felt lucky in that his hair hadn't completely fallen out over the course of his treatments but he had noticed a noticeable thinness to it over the months. This had to work. He was determined as ever but Kurt was more than ready for all of this to be over; ready for his life to bear some normalcy again.
"I've been thinking - " Kurt suddenly piped up from where he was laying on Blaines chest, his arm swung lazily over Blaines stomach. Blaine made a noise of acknowledgement as he lifted his book up slightly above his head so that he could see Kurt. It was the Saturday before his last treatment and they were more than content to spend the day just marvelling in each others company. " - well, I was thinking about visiting my mums grave soon and I was wondering if you wanted to come with me?"
"Kurt of course I would. Are you sure you don't want to ask your dad too though?" Blaine asked. Kurt shook his head against Blaines chest.
"We already go every year on her birthday and before Christmas and have our little thing. I want this to just be something that me and you share. Just going to visit her, just - just because. Besides, Dad's so busy at work nowadays it's a miracle when he's actually around" Kurt exclaimed. He felt Blaines body shake beneath him as he chuckled softly.
"How about tomorrow then?" Blaine asked.
"Really?" Kurt turned his head to look at Blaine, resting his chin on his arm that was propped up on Blaines stomach. "I just asked you like, 5 seconds ago."
"Why not?" Blaine smiled. "I mean we're both free tomorrow so why not go visit your mum?"
"You're the best" Kurt smiled. "Tomorrow it is then."
"I hate cemeteries" Kurt muttered as he and Blaine walked along the main pathway of the cemetery, hand in hand, the fall leaves crunching beneath their feet. The sun was shining but the air was crisp, reminding them that winter was just around the corner. The ground was so vast that there were several pathways veering off from the main one that ran directly through the middle of the cemetery that made finding plots easier but Kurt directed them easily. He'd been here so many times in the last six years that it was almost like finding his way home - easy and familiar and in a strange way, although a cemetery was the last place a person would call home, it kind of was because his mum was here and would always be right here.
"Not disagreeing with you there" Blaine replied as he looked around at all of the headstones surrounding them when suddenly, his eyes caught the children's section. Without even having to look at the headstones, you could always tell where the children's section was as the area itself was more colourful and nearly every plot had a colourful windmill plotted in the ground or a stuffed animal resting against the headstones - nothing was worse than reading that some of these children hadn't even seen their first birthday.
"This way" Kurt said, more to himself as he and Blaine veered off the main pathway onto another one. Blaine knew they were close because even though it felt like cemeteries all look the same, the surroundings that he recognised as being near Mrs Hummels plot started to get more and more familiar: the Ceder tree that had a curved bark, slightly leaning over to the side, the marble angel over some ones resting place, almost like it was watching over them or something and the double plot of Mr and Mrs Collen who had been married for 53 years and died within months of each other and Blaine was always moved by their inscription on their stone that read 'They lived together in happiness and may they rest together in peace'. They veered off again from the pathway but this time, to walk across the grass where after mere seconds of walking, there in front of them was Mrs Hummels headstone.
"Hey mum" Kurt said casually as they approached his mum.
"Hey Mrs Hummel."
Elizabeths headstone was simple but classy. They had chosen a black granite one with a curved arch with a grey rose running up the left hand side - a tasteful tribute to the fact that Elizabeths favourite flowers were roses. The grass had grown over the earth many years ago and the groundskeepers clearly done their jobs very well because every time Kurt visited, or any of them for that matter, the grass was always neatly trimmed. The inscription was simple but every single word of it was true.
In loving memory of
Elizabeth Hummel
28.6.71- 10.8.06
Aged 35 Years Old
A loving wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend
Gone are the days we used to
share but in our hearts you're
always there.
They sat cross legged on the grass in front of the stone, Kurt snuggled tightly under Blaines arm that was wrapped on his shoulders with Blaines head resting on top of Kurts. They were silent for a long time. They didn't feel that any words needed to be said because just being there, being with Elizabeth again, that was enough. As they sat there, Blaine thought back to the first time Kurt brought him to visit his mum.
It was around six months into their relationship before they went to visit. Although they were practically best friends before anything else, Blaine still didn't know the in's and outs, the how's or why's about how Kurts mum had died but he never pressurised Kurt for information. No matter how many years passed by, this would always be a fresh wound for Kurt and Blaine knew that if and when Kurt was ready, he would tell him. The only word to describe how Blaine felt when Kurt had first asked him if he wanted to go to the grave with him was honoured. He couldn't describe it but he knew that this wasn't something Kurt shared with anyone outside of his family so to be taking this step with Kurt and sharing this with him truly did feel like an honour.
"Are you nervous?" Kurt noted as they drove to the cemetery. Kurt drove them there seeing as he knew exactly where to go and the tapping of Blaines fingers against his kneecap, a gesture he knew Blaine only really done when he was nervous, hadn't escaped his notice.
"A little" Blaine replied sheepishly. "I mean, like, I know she's not - well - I know she's not 'here' here - " Blaine struggled with how to word that and he paused to make sure Kurt wasn't upset by the choice of words but Kurt was just nodding his head at the facts at Blaine before turning his focus back to the road, clearly unphased, " - but, she's still your mum. She's important to you and that makes her important to me."
"I think if you can get through meeting my dad as my boyfriend for the first time, you'll be fine with my mum" Kurt laughed softly.
"It's silly huh" Blaine said
"No, it's not silly. It's far from silly It's sweet that you care so much" Kurt turned to smile at Blaine, rubbing his hand that wasn't on the steering wheel, up and down Blaines thigh in comfort. "It'll be fine though" he reassured confidently. The rest of the drive was spent in a comfortable silence and within the next ten minutes, they were standing right there.
"Hey mum" Kurt started. "I actually have someone with me today who I really want you to meet. This is Blaine" Kurt said as he smiled at Blaine, squeezing his hand a little tighter. "I know I've kind of talked to you about him quite a bit about him over the last few months and well as you know, we're together now and I couldn't be happier mum. He makes me so happy, happier than I ever thought I could be and I know you're meeting him now but, well, I really wish you could really be here to meet him. He's pretty special to me and I know you would've loved him. He's everything you ever wanted for me. He's everything." By the end of his sentence, Kurt was still talking to his mum but by the end of it, his eyes were pretty much locked with Blaines, both of them staring at each other as if the sun was rising in the others eyes.
'I love you' Blaine mouthed before turning to Elizabeth's grave. "Hey Mrs Hummel. I know it's taken us a while to get here but I'm so, so glad we are now. It truly is a real pleasure finally to meet you. Kurt's told me so much about you, I kind of feel like I already know you." Blaine pursed his lips for a moment. "Can I, would it be okay if I talked to her for a few minutes please?" Kurts eyebrows lifted in surprise.
"Yeah!" he exclaimed, completely surprised. "Yeah of course - You're okay with that?" Kurt pondered. He couldn't describe it but he knew that this was a huge step they were taking right now, he was sharing something with Blaine that practically nobody outside of his family knew the true in's and out's of so by Blaine asking him if he could spend some quality time with his mum, well Kurt knew Blaine was special but something like this showed him just how special he really was.
"I'm gonna go for a walk then" Kurt leaned up slightly to press a cheek to Blaines cheek. "Take your time" he smiled before squeezing Blaines hand one last time before walking away. As he got back to the pathway, he turned around to see that Blaine was already sitting down cross legged on the ground.
"You know, between you and I, graveyards and cemetery's kind of always creep me out" Blaine laughed softly as he looked around at his surroundings. "I think I've watched too many horror films - Kurt tells me that anyway but I don't know, being here with you is, it feels tranquil. I feel really safe and peaceful with you. I really wish I could've met you" Blaine sighed. "You sure did raise an amazing son and I think you can tell a lot about a person by how they raise their children, and by what Kurt tells me but I think it's safe to say that you too, were a kind and loving person. Mrs Hummel, I love Kurt. He's the kindest, bravest, most moral and compassionate person I've ever met - Burt tells me he gets those last two particularly from you so thank you. Every day, I count myself so lucky that I get to call myself his boyfriend and I can call him mine, and maybe one day even more. I promise to always protect him and to always do what is best for him, whatever makes him happy. I'm in love with your son Mrs Hummel and if he'll let me, I'll spend the rest of my life loving him, telling him every day, showing him in everything that I do that he is the absolute love of my life and the only person I ever want to spend the rest of my life with. I know I'm only 18 but when you know, you just know."
Blaine was silent for a moment as he thought about anything else he wanted to tell Mrs Hummel but all of a sudden, he felt a weight against his back and a familiar pair of arms wrapped around his waist.
"How long have you been there?" Blaine asked, wondering just how much Kurt might've heard of his conversation.
"Not long" Kurt said as he hooked his chin over Blaines shoulder. "Would you be mad if I told you I caught about the last 30 seconds and I was going to pretend I never heard but I just couldn't?"
"How could I be mad at that?" Blaine smiled as he turned his head to face Kurt.
"Okay good" Kurt smiled. "Because the same goes for me. I want everything with you - always and forever. And thank you for telling my mum all of that. I know you she would have loved you."
"It feels so inappropriate to kiss you in a graveyard right now" Blaine groaned. They both instantly broke out into fits of laughter, Kurt burying his face in Blaines neck so Blaine settled for kissing Kurts temple.
"I love you" Kurt murmured into Blaines neck. "Thank you for today."
"Thank you for sharing this - her, with me."
"It was a car accident" Kurt suddenly said, his eyes never leaving the passing surroundings out of the window. Blaine was driving them home and they had been driving in a comfortable silence, happy to reflect back on the day. They were still a while away from being home but as they were on a straight road that was pretty much empty, Blaine put on his hazards and pulled over to side. He knew that this was something he should give Kurt his undivided attention to.
"She was just driving home from work" Kurt continued. "When I was old enough, she decided to go back part time and so she would work while I was at school and she would always be home in time to pick me up. She was just driving home" he shrugged. "A simple twenty minute journey that she made everyday for the last three years, but this particular day, this guy - I don't know why and a part of me doesn't want to know why because its not going to change anything- she's still gone, but according to the police reports, this guys blood alcohol level was off the charts - he'd clearly had way too much to drink even though it was early afternoon and he just ran a red light, just as a car was crossing the intersection."
Blaine took a sharp intake of breath as he realised the other car that Kurt was describing was in fact Kurts mum. "He hit her from the drivers side, full on and so fast that the impact sent the car spinning, it toppled over too and that's it. By the time the paramedics pulled her out, she was so badly injured and a few hours later, she was gone." Blaine reached over to take Kurts hand, a silent comfort to let Kurt know that he was there, that he always would be. Kurt paused to compose himself but a tear had already betrayed him, falling softly down his cheek. "I'll never forget getting pulled out of art class that day. My dad was waiting for me in the principals office. That was the first time I'd ever seen dad cry. I mean, how do you tell your 8 year old son that his mum, who he saw that very same morning, who had made him waffles with maple syrup for breakfast and then had laughed at him because he had more syrup round his mouth than actually on the waffles, who had kissed him goodbye and promised him that she would help him with his math homework that night and then have ice cream afterwards; how do you even begin to tell him that's she not here anymore, and she never will be again." Both of them had tear stained cheeks at this point, sporadic tears still falling and Blaine didn't hesitate for one second to lean over the console and pull Kurt into his arms. He didn't need to say any more and Blaine didn't need to hear anymore.
"It's okay" Blaine whispered over and over again as Kurts body shook gently beneath his grasp. "It's okay, It's okay." The death of Kurts mum would always be a like a really bad wound, over time, the injury would heal over but the scar would always be there.
"I know" Kurt sniffed as he sat upright, wiping his eyes. "It just never gets easier."
"I know there's probably nothing I could ever say to make the pain go away" Blaine said so sadly it made Kurts heart twinge. "But, I know she would've been so proud of you Kurt." Kurt smiled at Blaine with nothing but affection and gratitude on his flushed face.
"So, you talked her ear off about me huh?" Blaine smiled, trying to distract Kurt and to lighten the mood and it instantly seemed to work.
"Oh shut up" Kurt choked on a sob as he laughed, swatting his hand against Blaines arm.
"It's okay" Blaine smiled as he swung his arm around Kurts neck, Kurt instantly snuggling into Blaines side over the console. "I talked Coopers off about you too so we're even."
The wind was crisp and sharp so it was no surprise when Kurt shivered into Blaines side from where they were sitting on the ground. "It's getting colder" he stated.
"Where's your scarf?" Blaine asked. He was sure Kurt was carrying one in his arms when they left the house.
"I didn't think I'd need it so I just left it in the car. Clearly I was wrong" Kurt scoffed.
"Do you want me to go get it?"
"No no don't be silly! I'll be fine. Don't worry" Kurt protested profusely.
"Would you rather I go get it so we can stay longer or not go and get it and then we have to leave early before you freeze to death?" Blaine questioned, his eyebrows raised. "Besides, you need to keep your immune system strong - we really can't risk you getting ill" Blaine questioned, his eyebrows raised.
"Scarf" Kurt sighed but smiled as he backed down.
"Thought as much. I'll be five minutes." Blaine pressed a fleeting kiss to Kurts cheek before standing up, dusting his hand over his jeans before walking away.
"Thank you!" Kurt said over his shoulder before turning back towards the headstone.
"Just me and you here now" Kurt observed as he spoke to his mum. "He's so good to me isn't he? Remember when you used to read me fairy tales before I'd go to bed because they were my favourites and I always used to say to you if I could have my own prince one day, because its always a woman who finds a Prince Charming, never a Prince who finds a, Princess Charming because I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have known I was gay at such a young age but maybe you had an inkling because you would always say "there's a Prince Charming out there for everyone, especially me". Maybe you knew even then but I definitely did find my prince" Kurt smiled before sighing. "I miss you so much mum. There isn't a single day that goes by that I don't wish that you were still here, especially in these last few months but as much as I do miss you, I'm not ready to go yet. It's funny, although this whole thing could go completely sour and my life really could end at any second, I feel like it's only just begun. You know, like I've just graduated high school and although I haven't really been able to what with everything that's happened but as soon as I'm better, I want to go to College and make a career for myself. Carole's pregnant and I want nothing more than to be able to see my little brother or sister grow up. I only really started to find my true self a couple of years ago and you know, then there's Blaine" Kurt shrugged as he smiled. "We've only just started our lives together but threes still so much I want to do with him - like rent our first apartment and even though its awful and the taps leak and there's one particular floorboard you have to avoid because it creaks so loudly, it'll be perfect because it's ours, like get married and one day be able to introduce him to people we just meet as 'my husband' and have kids and grow old until we're wrinkly and grey but we'll love each other just as much as we do right now, if not more. I just, I'm not ready quite just yet."
Before Kurt could say any more, Blaine was walking up behind him. "Here you are good sir" he chirped as he handed the scarf over to Kurt before sitting back down beside him.
"Thank you" Kurt said as he wrapped it snugly around his neck before wrapping his arm around Blaines waist and curling back into his side. Kurts eyes wandered around his surroundings, headstone after headstone before his eyes fell back to his mothers. Of course there would come a day where he would have his own but there was no way he was going to have one of his own within the next few months or years.
"You know, most people on Sundays actually rest, not open their business for more work after an already busy week" Carole quipped from the sofa as Burt walked in the door gone five o'clock from another shift at work.
"Carole please, not again" Burt sighed as he shuffled his jacket from his shoulders and hung it up.
"Burt please! I'm really worried about you! I understand why you're doing this, I really do but we have money. We're fine for now."
"I know that but I want to keep paying those medical bills. I know we're good and we still have the money from the fundraiser and from Blaines parents but you know, I just want to not have this be something still hanging over our heads in five or ten years time. And besides, at the end of the day, this is a win win solution. We're bringing in more money to help with them and the business is brining in more revenue than normal. It's not a big deal!"
"So if you really insist on keeping the shop open for longer and business is better then ever, why not bring in another manager? Or promote one of your guys? Why is it YOU that has to carry the load!?" It was rarer than seeing an eclipse that Carole raised her voice but she had reached a point of being so concerned about her husbands welfare that she was nearly in hysterics.
"Carole!" Burt shouted equally as loud "I promise you, I'm fi - Oh, oh, okay maybe not fine" Burt leaned against the back of the couch as he started rubbing over his chest.
"Burt?" Caroles voice dropped, anger instantly replaced with worry and concern. "Burt what's wrong?" At the precise moment, the sound of the front door unlocking could be heard, Blaine and Kurt, giggling and smiling as they walked through the door as if they were in their own little world and completely oblivious to anything else but they were soon to the nightmare in front of them; Burts face scrunched up as if he was in some sort of pain and Caroles arm around his waist.
"Call the hospital" she said as she turned to the boys. Despite her calm exterior, the worry was evident in her voice. "I think your dad might be having a heart attack."
A/N - Yay or Nay?
Just a little note, Pops is actually a real Ice Cream parlour in Costa Rica so thats my little nod to my time there:) I couldnt go though because I speak bare minimum Spanish and didnt have a clue how to order anything but it looked so good!
I actually had so much fun writing this chapter even though it was emotionally draining at times! I hope you liked the video section too! I have to give credit to Eric McLean and his video which you can find on YouTube called 'Erics Confession Final' for that part. I watched it in preperation for writing my own and the mans amazing! I actually watched it in Costa Rica when i got home from volunteering one day and i was literally crying in my room - his story was just so powerful and sad! So thats basically where i wrote about half of the video section (In Costa Rica) and then finished it off and wrote about half of the birthday section on the plane flying home - I had a 10 hours flight so I had a lot of time to kill!
Also, I hope you guys like the whole of Kurts mum - the flashback and Kurts conversation with her in the rpesent day. I've wanted to write that basically ever since I started this story and I even found the note on my phone from where I had the idea and jotted it down and it's dated 23/7/2011 and my exact words were 'Kurt could go talk to his mum - as much as I'd love to be with you, I'm not ready to leave yet.' It's nice that nearly 2 years later, i actually stuck to the idea!:)
Also, heres irony for you! So I'd wrote a little segment on my phone about when Kurt tells Blaine his mum died in a car accident a couple of days before and then I started to type it all up in full last Thursday and then the next day, So Friday afternoon, I had my very own, first car accident! Im fine and the other people were fine and the cars were fine too but yeah, how ironic is that! :|
Also, I know in the actual show, Kurts mum died when he was 8 but to make parts of my story work and ideas I had, for them to work, I made his age a little higher at being 12 but I kept her name as Elizabeth cause I dont know, It just works and I think its a really lovely name anyway and 'Elizabeth Hummel' flows so nicely :D
Reviews
RozarieCriss
LOL oh my gosh yep, Im still here! Oh no im fine honey, nothings happened to me - just life! Busy busy busyyy! I dont not update for ages on purpose - it just happens:(
And this chapter? It was sooo amazing but so sad.
Eeek thank youuu!:D
I really really hope that you are not planning on leting Kurt die (if you are, let me know rather soon:D)
*taps nose with finger* - Can't sayy! I need you to keep reading! ;D
Oooh well i hope you liked the little part with Blaine and his parents in this chapter - I want them to have a good relationship again too!:)
cold kagome
Awwh im sorry i made you cry! Thats kinda good though cause it means im doing something right :D
I know right, I want Blaine to be my boyfriend:(
Thank you so much babe!:)
nomorecandles
Oh god thats bad! When you dont even recognise what story it is, thats bad :L Im sorryy!
OH MY GOD AN A*- CONGRATULATIONS! Thats amazing! I only left high school with one A* but i left with 5 A's so its all good! :L Oooh so 2 months today from the 12th March would have been a couple of weeks ago - how did it goo?
I almost cried twice in this chapter I had to stop myself both times,
Again, I'm sorry but that means im doing something right!
but please please please let Kurt start getting better
You'll have to wait and seeee!:)
I hope you liked the video to Kurts siblingg:)
GAML4EVER
Good im so happy! Thank youuu babe!:)
KlaineFan88
I'm so glad you do! Thank youuu honeyy:)
Okay so I'm going to go have a bath and a nap because I am literally exhausted from work! I'd love you if you left me nice things to come back to!
Until next time honeybunchess!(L)xx