Well here we are again. I hope you're ready for the end of this…
It's a tad sad.
Song at the end is 'To Build A Home' by The Cinematic Orchestra
Enjoy
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Clarke blinked slowly to try and shift the darkness from her vision. There was a ringing in her ears that wouldn't shift and a dead weight across her hips and chest that was dragging her down. Clarke was sure her eyes were open now yet still the darkness wasn't leaving and for one panicked moment she feared her eyesight damaged until she realised her surroundings.
She lifted her hand and coughed slightly to rid her lungs of the dust there. Clarke's vision faded for a moment and dizziness swept across her just for a second as she stood still and waited for it to leave. She must have a concussion.
A groan escaped her lips when her fingers brushed against the back of her head. It stung and there was something sticky oozing onto her hand.
Clarke sighed and attempted to look for any light coming through. There was a gap just ahead of her and she felt some hope spark in her chest at the sight.
"Hello?" She croaked out.
No response. She cleared her throat and took a deep breath, "Hello? Help!"
Again there was no reply and she flopped back to the ground with a disgruntled moan. A movement caught her eye and she looked back over to the gap of light, she could have sworn the light faded for a moment, and squinted.
"Hello?"
She heard what sounded like rock hitting rock and insistent coughing before, "Clarke?"
Clarke gasped and laughed for a second, "Octavia?"
"Yeah…" The voice was faint and Clarke couldn't tell whether the girl was weak or just far away, "Are you okay?"
"I don't know" She called back.
"Hold on… I'm coming"
The sound of footsteps approached and suddenly the rock was being moved away and the small gap of light became too much causing Clarke to close her eyes. She waited for them to adjust before squinting up at the figure above her. There stood Octavia looking down at her in concern. She was holding her arm gently against her chest and wincing with each step that causing it to jolt.
It looked as though Clarke had been buried under a large pile of boulders. Above her a light was still fighting to shine down on them but the spark and flickering suggested it would soon give out.
"What happened?"
Octavia brought herself down to her knees next to Clarke's head, "Jaha set the missile off. He dragged Bellamy back, you went after him, Lexa went after you, I went after all of you and I don't know where Echo is. Jaha fired his gun at you" Her eyes went wide, "Were you shot?"
Clarke tried to concentrate on her lower body. The only thing she could feel was the weight pressing down on her but there was no pain, "No… No I don't think so" She paused, "Where's Bellamy and Lexa?"
"I don't know… Bellamy was with Jaha and Lexa…"
"What?" Her memory was hazy. The last thing she remembered was seeing Bellamy being pulled away by Jaha.
"She was right behind you Clarke… I think she caught you as the rocket exploded but I don't know where she is now"
"She can't have gone far"
Clarke looked up and attempted to look around but it was all just rock and dirt.
"I know Clarke and we will find her, and Bellamy, but first we need to get you out of here"
She looked back up to the girl who was attempting to move the pressure on Clarke's body with one hand, "How's your arm?"
"Painful but I don't think it's broken"
Clarke nodded and tried to lift herself up as the rock shifted against her, "I'll have a look as soon as I'm free"
Octavia grunted and pulled it up further, "You're going to have to move before I drop this"
Clarke grasped the side behind her and pulled, ignored the searing pain in her right ankle and leg as she did so. Octavia waited until Clarke was completely free before dropping it and collapsing against the boulders behind her.
"Thanks" Octavia grimaced and propped herself down next to Clarke.
"Here" She ripped some fabric from her shirt and tied it around the girl's shoulder and arm in a similar fashion to how she tied one around Lexa all those months ago. Clarke smiled slightly at the thought of the girl before realising the present situation and a sense of dread rushing through her.
Octavia gasped and sat catching her breath. They leant against one another and Clarke looked down at her ankle, lifting the leg of her trouser to look at it.
"Is it okay?"
Clarke shrugged, "Looks swollen. I don't know whether it's adrenaline but it doesn't hurt enough to be broken"
"Could be adrenaline"
"Could be"
Clarke looked up, "We can't sit here Octavia we have to find the others one of them could be shot" Please don't let any of them be shot.
"Agreed" She pushed herself up from the ground and helped Clarke up a second later, "I think we're on the second level… We should find the stairs"
Clarke nodded and they clambered up and through the next section of rocks. The corridor had been completely torn apart and parts of what looked like the marble from upstairs was scattered around. Clarke wondered how far the damage stretched on for.
They pulled themselves up onto a particularly large pile of rocks that allowed them to see across the damage. She surveyed the destruction with a heavy heart and whimpered slightly.
Octavia must have hears because she grasped Clarke's arm and said, "We'll find them. I promise"
She nodded and was about to go back to see if they had missed anything when a movement from the corner caught her eye. She turned back and narrowed her eyes and watched a figure slump down against the rock.
"There" She pointed and Octavia's eyes widened.
They jumped down together and raced over as quickly as they could over the broken up terrain and their own injured hindering their movement. Clarke slid down the gap to see Lexa leaning back against a large slab of marble seemingly unconscious.
"Lexa!"
She heard Octavia rushing down behind her but concentrated on the unconscious grounder in front of her. Clarke lifts her hands to either side of Lexa's face. There's blood covering her usual features from a head wound and that looks the worst of it until Clarke's gaze lands on Lexa's stomach. Thick blood is seeping from a wound and she realizes with horror that it's a bullet wound. Jaha shot Lexa.
"Lexa" She shook the girl lightly trying to wake her up, "Lexa…"
Octavia knelt down at Clarke's side and lifted up some torn of fabric, "Clarke you need to cover that"
"Right" She shook her head. She wasn't thinking straight, "I need to see if the bullet's still in there"
Pulling Lexa forward slightly she looked down her back see no sign of an exit wound. Clarke gently leant Lexa back against the slab and took the fabric from Octavia's hand, "The bullet is still in there but I can't do anything about it down here"
Octavia nodded, "We need to get out of here"
"Clarke…" She looked down to see Lexa's eyes flickering open and Clarke let out a relieved breath, "Clarke?"
"Yeah" She grasped Lexa's hand, "Yeah I'm here"
"W-What- What happened?"
Her eyes were glazed over slightly and Clarke knew she must have a concussion. Clarke pressed the fabric against the bullet wound causing Lexa to flinch and pull away into the rock face.
"Jaha blew the bomb" Octavia said grimly looking around them, "Still don't know where Bellamy, Jaha and Echo"
"I don't care about Jaha" Lexa snarled, "But we must find Echo and Bellamy"
She attempted to stand only to find resistance in Clarke as she pushed the girl back down. Clarke fixed her with a stern glare causing her to stay put this time.
"You're not going anywhere. That bullet is still inside you and you really need medical attention so we're getting you out of here first"
Lexa growled, "My sister could be injured Clarke"
"But she could also be fine. You on the other hand could bleed out before we get you to safety"
Lexa sighed but didn't complain as Clarke and Octavia both took an arm to raise her up to a standing position. It was slow work but they managed to clamber back up to where they had stood moments before.
"Which way?"
Clarke frowned. She couldn't make out where they were, everything was too torn up to tell things apart, and she realised that this could take a lot longer than they first thought.
Suddenly Octavia pointed, "Look. It's Echo!"
Sure enough the other girl was making her way over the rubble towards them. Clarke looked her over seeing no injuries and guessing that she had avoided the blast.
She ran towards them and looked Lexa over eyes wide and panicked, "Are you okay? What happened? Where's Bellamy?"
Clarke handed Lexa over to Echo so she could kneel down and get a closer look at the wound, "Lexa was shot, Jaha dragged Bellamy back, and we don't know where they are"
Echo looked at Clarke eyes wide and panicked. Lexa raises her hand to Echo's shoulder reassuringly, "We'll find him"
Clarke tide the fabric and stood, "Octavia, Echo, I need you to get Lexa out of here and find my mum. I'll go find Bellamy and Jaha"
"What-"
"No!"
"Clarke"
She closed her eyes and shook her head, "I'll be fine but Lexa could bleed out, Echo she needs you with her and Octavia you're too injured to help"
Octavia scowled but didn't protest. Lexa however pulled away from the two holding her up, "I refuse to leave you here"
"You're not" Clarke stepped forward and held Lexa's face in her hands, "I'm telling you to go so you'll live. I'll be fine Lexa"
She shook her head and opened her mouth to protest but Clarke cut her off by pressing her lips to Lexa's in a searing kiss.
"Just go"
Lexa looked as though she still wanted to protest but her face was paling and Clarke knew she was losing blood too fast. She shot a pleading look at Echo who seemed conflicted but nodded anyway.
Both Echo and Octavia grasped Lexa tightly and dragged her away towards the entrance. Despite Lexa's tired state she still fought against the two girls to try and get back to Clarke. Clarke raised a hand to her mouth and pushed back the tears that were threatening to spill. She was so tired of all the blood and pain.
Clarke wiped her eyes and looked to the ground where a glint caught her eye. Kneeling down she picked it up and grimaced at the sight of her gun.
Time to find Bellamy and Jaha.
XoXoXoX
It was chaos. Three of the healers had been caught in the blast so Abby was left with a select few and those in training to help her deal with the wounded. She was busy rushing between beds and shouting orders when Monroe came rushing in.
"Abby! Abby! I need Abby!"
She looked up from the injured grounder and rushed over to the panicked girl, "Monroe? What is it?"
She pointed over her shoulder, "Kane is injured"
Her eyes widened and Abby looked to one of the healers, "Get me a bed and take over here"
She didn't wait for a reply before she was following Monroe out of the tent. She led her down to the bunker where Kane was laying on the ground unconscious. His stomach was a mess and Abby felt her heart stop momentarily. She bent down to his side and Monroe looked up at her with a terrified look.
"You can help him right?"
Abby open and closed her mouth. She blinked away burning tears and shook her head. There was nothing she could do.
Monroe gaped at her and looked down at Kane. She shook her head, "No… There has to be something-"
Abby put her hand to Kane's neck. There was no pulse, "He's gone Monroe. I think he's been gone for a while…"
Monroe burst into tears and pushed herself away from the body. Abby's hands shook and she furiously wiped away the tears. A voice tore her eyes away causing her to look up. Ahead of her two figures were pulling a third from the rubble of the building. Abby gasped and jumped up moving quickly towards them.
As she neared them she realised it was Echo and Octavia. She pushed herself to run faster at the realisation and cried out, "Clarke?"
Octavia turned round, Abby could see the blood on her body, and shook her head. Abby neared them and gazed down at the body to see Lexa lying there unconscious.
"Jaha shot Lexa. Clarke is fine but she's gone to look for Bellamy and Jaha"
Abby nodded and looked to Echo who was attempting to lift Lexa, "We need to get her back to the tent"
"Will she be okay?"
"I don't know. She's lost a lot of blood"
Octavia stayed beside the rocks and Abby looked back briefly calling to her, "Octavia you need to get that arm looked at"
She shook her head and made to move back the way she came, "I need to find Clarke and my brother"
Abby nodded and let her go.
XoXoXoX
Clarke stumbled slightly but pulled herself up straight. She felt slightly numb moving through the rubble looking for any sign of Bellamy or Jaha.
She squinted against the darkness for any sign of movement, "Bellamy?"
Nothing.
"Bellamy!"
Clarke sighed and jumped down.
The sound of rock tumbling drew her attention. She moved slowly and carefully before lifting herself up and looking down where there was what looked like a crater surrounded by rock. There sat in the middle was Jaha with Bellamy lying at his feet. He didn't look up as Clarke gasped and slid down to crouch beside Bellamy. He merely sat there with his head in his hands.
Clarke shook Bellamy gently, "Bellamy… Bell…"
He was unresponsive and Clarke frowned, "Bellamy?"
"He's dead"
Clarke looked up at Jaha who was watching her now and she shook her head, "No…"
"He was losing too much blood, I tried to save him, but there was nothing I could do. He's gone Clarke"
She looked down at the eldest Blake lying in front of her. She gasped out tears, her eyes already raw from tears, and shook her head violently in disbelief. His eyes were closed but there was no mistaking the stillness of the chest. Clarke gasped through the tears that were now flowing freely. How was she going to look Octavia in the eye after this? Echo either? Oh god… Echo… Pregnant Echo… With Bellamy's child… The child that would no longer have a father… Never even know their father…
"I'm sorry Clarke"
Her head whipped up and Clarke looked him in the eyes. She shook her head and glared at him, "You're not sorry. You've never been sorry… All of this is your fault Jaha, do you even feel guilty?"
Jaha just sat there watching her and she carried on, "You're the reason my Dad's dead, you didn't have to float him but you were too scared to admit he was right, and then you had me locked up. You're the reason the 100 were sent here… You're the reason for all of this shit. You killed 320 people on the Ark when you didn't even need to because you were too stubborn to listen to my mum when she told you earth was survivable"
He shook his head, "Do you really believe any of that Clarke?"
She glared at him and he shrugged, "People were always going to be sacrificed Clarke. It's no different than the decision you and Lexa made in TonDC nor you killing those people in mount weather… Don't you see? The 100 were a sacrifice that had to be made for the survival of the Ark"
"I do see that but now you're here plotting to destroy the human race… How is that any better?"
"Do you really think that after everything we've done that we deserve to survive?"
Clarke frowned, "I don't believe in any of that crap. I don't believe that we have a destiny or that we survive for a reason. I think what happens in our life is down to what we do with it"
"I survived for a reason" He insists, "I defied death for a reason"
"No you survived because you managed to get to a rocket and used it to propel yourself to earth… There was no greater purpose there"
Jaha merely smiled, "There was a greater purpose. There is always a greater purpose… I am meant to survive Clarke. I have a destiny"
He raised his left hand and she saw for the first time that he was holding a gun. Clarke smiled and closed her eyes briefly.
"Are you going to kill me now?"
"It looks that way doesn't it?"
Clarke tightened her grip on her own gun and met his gaze, "I have lost so many people…"
"So have I"
Clarke swallowed and looked at the man in front of her who looked just as tired as she felt, "Don't you want it to end? All the pain? The suffering?"
Jaha smiled, "Don't you?"
She paused. Did she want it to end? She was so tired of watching people die. Bellamy was dead, Lexa was shot, could be dead, and she had no idea what was going on up at the surface… Her dad, Wells, Finn, Jasper…
"No" Clarke realised, "No I don't"
"Why?"
"Because despite everything I still have things to live for. I have my mum, I have a family, I have Lexa… and all of them need me just as much as I need them. They're all worth living for"
Jaha nodded in understanding. He lowered his gun and threw it to the side before looking back up at her, "Please shoot me"
Her eyes widened and he gave her a sympathetic look, "I don't want to kill people Clarke. All I ever wanted to do was save them and it seems I lost myself along the way… Before I came down here I found peace with myself and I was ready to see my son again. I should have died then but I didn't… Now I am. Now I'm ready"
Clarke looked at her gun then looked back up at Jaha, "Please Clarke"
She nodded, tears still falling, and aimed the gun. Jaha sighed and leant back, "Make it quick"
Clarke pulled on the trigger gently and said, "Tell them I'm sorry"
He nodded before his head was forced back against the rock and he slumped down unmoving next to Bellamy. Clarke's tears came thick and fast, she threw herself back and chucked the gun away from her suddenly feeling sick with the weight of it in her hand.
She just sat there crying until she too lost consciousness.
There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home.
Abby looked up from the commander gasping away tears as the girl's blood covered her clothes. Her gaze landed on Echo who was pacing nervously a few feet away.
And I built a home
for you
for me
Echo suddenly looked up and a moment later Octavia and Monroe appeared carrying an unconscious Clarke between them.
"Oh god"
She rushed over instantly.
Until it disappeared
from me
from you
Octavia looked up from the bed and met Abby's eyes.
"Where's Raven?"
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust...
"Bunker" Was all she gave before Octavia was gone and leaving her with Clarke.
Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed its knees
Raven wiped away tears. She looked up at the sound of someone entering the tent and watched Octavia stare down at Wick's body.
Raven stood up and walked over to Octavia who was blinking rapidly.
"Bellamy's dead"
By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
Held on as tightly as you held onto me
Held on as tightly as you held onto me...
Raven just held Octavia as the girl broke down in her arms whilst trying to fight off her own tears.
And I built a home
for you
for me
Echo watched Abby work on Clarke fighting off tears. Monroe stood next to her and raised a hand to her shoulder.
"Echo…"
Until it disappeared
from me
from you
Echo looked up. Monroe was watching her with a mix of sympathy and sadness.
"Did you find Bellamy?"
She nodded.
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust...
And Echo knew.
Is it wrong that I enjoy writing chapters like this?
I am so sorry.
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