So this is it! Epilogue will come after but this is the finale for this OMG
So much emotion on finishing this haha
I'd like to thank all of you that followed, favorited and reviewed over the course of this fic. I have loved writing it and it's been amazing to see all of the love and enjoyment I've shared with you all!
So thank you again and I look forward to showing you the epilogue. I'm going to jump quite far ahead in the Epilogue so humour me yeah? Saying no more. Enjoy ;)
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Octavia slid into the chair next to Raven and smiled. The mechanic looked up at her entrance and raised an eyebrow.
"To what do I owe the pleasure?"
Octavia sighed and rubbed her temple, "I know… I know I've been all over the place lately-"
"Hey" Raven put her hand on Octavia's knee and ran her thumb over it gently, "I know how hard it's been for you. You needed time and I told you I'll be here for you whenever you need me"
"I need you" She confessed.
Raven nodded and pulled the other girl into a tight hug, "I'm here"
Octavia tightened her arms and pushed her head into the crook of Raven's neck, "I miss him so much Rae"
"I know" She kissed her cheek, "I do too"
"He was my only family"
Raven shook her head, "He told me, after Finn, that we're all family now. That the 100 was my family. Before we went into that battle we all stood in that tent declaring how we're family and that hasn't changed O"
She sighed and kissed Raven quickly, "I appreciate that… You're amazing, you know that?"
"Well yeah" Raven grinned causing Octavia to smile as well.
"I'm sorry I haven't been much help to you"
Raven laughed and pulled back, "I think that's understandable"
Octavia shrugged, "Maybe but I haven't treated you well and now I'm going to make it up to you"
"Anything?"
"Anything"
She sent the mechanic a wink causing her to smile brightly and link her arms around the girls neck. Raven hummed and stood up so she was standing over Octavia. Leaning down she placed her lips next to Octavia's ear.
"I can think of something" She whispered huskily.
Octavia swallowed, "Really?"
"Yeah" Raven leant back and turned around. When she faced Octavia she was holding a satellite dish, "Help me fix this"
She sat open mouthed looking up at her and laughed nervously, "You're serious?"
Raven shrugged, "You said anything"
She turned away from Octavia and the Blake girl groaned crossing her legs, "That I did"
XoXoXoX
It took two months for Clarke to finally leave the comfortable silence of the medical bay. It took another week for her to leave the Ark and another for her to leave camp. In fact it took almost a year for her to string a sentence together after the discussion in the medical bay. Abby was worried, Octavia was worried, Raven was worried but Clarke was dealing with it on her own. She wanted to deal with it all on her own.
A year. One year to the day Clarke had woken up. Over a year since Lexa left her there to heal on her own.
Clarke sighed and pressed back against the tree. She was sitting at the edge of the forest looking down at the lake below her at the bottom of the hill. Clarke had discovered this spot on her fourth trip out of camp Jaha and had returned here ever since. Some days she would bring her drawing equipment, some days she would bring a book and some days she would just sit here and sleep.
Today was one of those days it appeared.
The lake's surface was calm but Clarke felt anything but. The numbness had given way to anger and sadness a long time ago; she just didn't know how to deal with it.
Some days she felt angry at Lexa. Angry that the girl had left her no matter what her own feelings were.
Other days she felt sad. Sad that Lexa was just as lonely as she was in Polis. Sad that they weren't together.
Lexa.
The one person who made her feel a whirlwind of emotions and yet ease them at the same time. Someone that was both the storm and the calm.
Clarke groaned and looked down at the page in front of her. Half of the landscape in front of her was printed across unfinished.
Looking up at the lake again Clarke's gaze flittered up to the shadow of the mountain just beyond the treeline. Winter had come and gone as had spring and now even summer was on its way out with a just a few select days left of sun Clarke was determined to enjoy them.
The sound of footsteps from behind her alerted Clarke to another presence but she didn't bother turning around. They were at peace and whoever they were the steps were purposefully loud. She was meant to be aware.
They stopped at Clarke's left and sat down next to her looking over the lake as well.
"You're late" She sniffed.
"I am"
"Over a year late"
Lexa sighed and looked up to meet Clarke's eyes, "I know…"
"How did you find me?"
"They said you had been disappearing from camp" She shrugged, "I found this place a few years before you arrived. There are several spots you could have been"
"Right"
"Clarke I-"
"Explain" She cut off. Clarke's face remained passive whilst Lexa's was swimming with emotion, guilt, sadness, longing… love.
"I stayed for as long as I could but the clans demanded I returned for the meeting-"
"Which I understand but you never came back"
Lexa swallowed and shook her head, "Echo needed me. I wanted to come back Clarke, I really did, but Echo was barely eating or sleeping and with the baby coming I couldn't leave her like that. She won't come back here, says it reminds her too much of him"
Clarke took a deep breath and leant back against the tree. The annoying thing was is that she did understand. Echo had Bellamy taken away from her just when they were about to start a family no doubt she needed her sister around.
"How is she?"
"Changed" Lexa stretched out her legs and relaxed back accepting that Clarke wasn't going to push her away, "But after the baby was born… She was a completely different person, in a good way, and came into her own. I stayed for a while but once I knew Echo would be okay without me I came back"
Clarke smiled at the thought of the baby, "Boy or girl?"
"Boy… She named him Benjy" Lexa scrunched her nose up at the name causing Clarke to laugh.
Lexa raised an eyebrow at Clarke's amusement and rolled her eyes, "Apparently Bellamy joked about the name… So she chose it to piss him off"
"Sounds about right"
Lexa hummed in agreement and they fell into silence once again. Clarke bit her lip knowing that the commander was watching her but refused to meet her eyes. Lexa seemed to sense Clarke's unease because she moved her body round to face the other girl.
"Clarke?"
She turned her head slightly to show she was listening and Lexa continued, "There is more you want to say Clarke"
"Of course there's fucking more I want to say Lexa!" She exploded at her, "You left me here alone to deal with all this shit! You said we would deal with this together I understand why you couldn't come back but you didn't send anyone to come here? Didn't ask me to come to Polis? I have gone through hell, this last year really has been hell, and I needed you more than anything else"
Lexa nodded, "I know and I'm sorry Clarke"
"Not good enough"
Lexa got up onto her knees and crawled in front of Clarke so they were face to face. She put her hands either side of Clarke's face and forced her eyes to meet her own.
"I. Am. Sorry Clarke" Her eyes scanned Clarke's face for emotion, "I can't change what happened then but I can promise that I will never leave you again"
Clarke sighed, "A year Lexa"
"I know"
"You keep saying that"
"I know"
Clarke glared at her, "Saying I know isn't going to make up for this Lexa"
"I-" Her eyes widened at Clarke's warning glance and smiled weakly, "I will do whatever it takes to make this up to you Clarke"
"Good"
Lexa smiled a real smile this time and moved away to sit back at Clarke's side. They both stared off ahead of them gazing at the lake and Clarke secretly enjoyed the presence of the other girl again.
"Grovelling?" Lexa raised a questioning eyebrow.
Clarke snorted, "Grovelling"
"Kissing?"
"If you're feeling lucky"
There was silence again and Clarke eased into it by closing her eyes. She was just drifting off when Lexa's voice broke through again.
"Sex?"
Clarke sighed, "We'll see"
The gentle smile stayed on Lexa's face as they watched the sky change its colour and the sun began disappearing behind the mountain. Calloused fingers linked with hers and Clarke was reminded of a time a lifetime ago when they watched the sun appear behind the very same mountain.
Send your dreams
Where nobody hides
Give your tears
To the tide
No time
No time
There's no end
There is no goodbye
Disappear
With the night
No time
No time
No time
No time
No time
Epilogue will be soon :)