Chapter 19

Natsu's POV

It's been almost half a year now since Lucy's death. It's pitiful to think that I spend my days waiting for my own death.

Or otherwise to put it positively, I spend my days waiting to be reunited with my only love Lucy, "Lucy? Are you there? Im going to your grave right now to bring some flowers yea?" I smiled bitterly when she touched my shoulder which what I felt was only a comforting warmth.

"Gray!" I called to see him rushing in.

"Yes, my lord. What do you need?" He said while bowing.

"It's the time of the day... Prepare my clothes." I sadly said. I still haven't gotten over Lucy's death yet...

"...Yes, my lord..." Gray said sadly. He walked off glumly. I knew he too, thought of Lucy to be the most interesting and wonderful person on earth.

I plucked a bunch of roses from a blooming bush and wrapped them up in Lucy's favorite lite pink and tied it with a red ribbon.

I paced my way towards the back of the Dragneel mansion and into the rose garden. Slowly I walked towards the stone that stood beside the gazebo.

My eyes stung, but I forced myself to keep it in. As the clouds parted in the night sky, the moonlight shone upon me. I placed the flowers upon the grave.

I spent hours sitting beside her. I felt her comforting embrace and radiating warmth. Slowly my eyes drooped and closed.

I woke up with chattering teeth. Grimacing at the bitterly cold air. Where was Lucy's warmth? I needed her...

Panic engulfed me, 'Where is she?'. I afraid... I'm scared... where are you Lucy?

I adverted my gaze to the moonlit gazebo. A shining figure stood there quietly. "L-Lucy!" I called out.

She turned around, I swear my heart stopped. I swear time paused. I swear, it is her. Lucy... She wore the pink dress I had given her. Her hair shone in the moonlight, golden blonde locks hanging upon her chest. She had a fair face, with pink tinted cheeks not pale like candle wax. Her eyes were the same captivating chocolate orbs like before, reflecting the full moon. Her lips were peachy and small.

"Natsu..." She said warmly.

"Lucy..." I ran towards her. I tried to bring her into a welcoming hug, only to feel nothing but cold air. My arms passed right through her.

I turned around and looked at her sadly, "I miss you so much Lucy... It's not fair that I can't hold you..."

She stared at me smiling, "Natsu, I miss you too. I wish you can join me soon... But I don't want you to die..."

"I want to be able to do anything to be with you again... I will gladly end my life here to see you again, to hold you again and to be able to kiss you again..." I said bitterly. But it was the truth, I want to be with Lucy... I will do anything to be with her again. I will gladly die with no regret what so ever.

"Natsu..." She said as the crystal like tears fell from her eyes.

I smiled, "Don't cry... you're going to make me kill myself if you continue."

She stopped immediately and looked into the horizon to clear herself of any emotional pain. Slowly the sun started to rise and she looked at me. Her body had started to fade from her feet. She smiled as she realized that the moonlight shone and supported her no more and soon her image will disappear, leaving her with only a spirit. She raised her hand and warmth spread across my left cheek as she caressed it.

"Natsu, we will be meeting soon..." she said as the rest of her body disappeared.

"Lucy!..." I touched my cheek where the warmth was and smiled as I still felt it radiating against my flesh.

I walked into the mansion and into my room. I pulled out the chair and sat down the rummaging deep into my thoughts.

I paused as I thought the only conclusion to my life, poison. I quickly pulled out a notebook and scribbled on it...

'Lucy are you here?'

I awaited her reply. She is bound to see it, she is here. I smiled as saw her response appearing along the paper.

'Of course my lord, if thy wishes for my presence, then I shall always be here.'

'I thought of the only way for me to see you quickly...'

'It doesn't include death does it?...'

'...I'm afraid it does'

'No! My lord, you mustn't! You are the heir to the Dragneel family, they need you to produce a heir... please just forget me for now and live your life happily with another woman...'

'I will not accept that. Lucy, I love you. I will only love you. I made you a promise, I plan to keep it.'

'...What is your plan'

'I will use poison, one with pain so for all the times you've been hurt will be inflicted on me too. I wish to be with you lucy...'

'poison? You, would do that for me?'

'You are Lucy Heartfilia. I will do anything for you...'

'You can't! Please save your life for a bit further...'

I stopped, this isn't getting anywhere...

I stood up and walked to the kitchen where inspectors were studying the poison that was given to Lucy.

Think of a plan I spoke, "Excuse me..." They turned around from the project and bowed to me, "Give me a sample of that poison, I'm giving it to the doctors for them to examine what's in it."

"Yes, my lord." They said respectfully.

A small portion of the liquid poison was given to me. But it was enough to kill a man, or so they say.

I walked out and walked towards the room where we hired a doctor. When they were off guard I turned to the garden where the gazebo and Lucy stood.

The moonlight once again shone onto the worried struck spirit of Lucy.

"Natsu, are you sure about this?" She asked countless times.

"'We will meet soon...', 'soon' is too much Lucy. I refrained myself for half a year. No more... No more, Lucy... I want to see you again..." I said as I held the vial of poison tightly.

How long has it been since I updated? Quite long I guess. But I'm back. Like I said before I could be early or late with updates, so I'm sorry in advance for those many chapters to come.

The Wifi here where I am for holidays is soooooooo slow. I swear my life is paused every time I don't have it. I'm sure a lot of you feel the same.

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~Cheryl