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Nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change.

Mary Shelley.

Two days after the bath "accident" as Emma liked to call it, Regina was still in the hospital. She hasn't had any wound, but the doctor recommended checking her in for a while. Emma stayed with Regina those two days. Henry was still a kid, and Regina needed someone older to take care of her.

The doctor said it was more than just an accident that Regina attempted against her own life, but Emma didn't want to accept that. Regina wasn't capable of committing such things. No, Regina didn't risk her life. It was an accident. And it was better to think like that. For the sake of her mind and Henry's.

"Hi," Emma peered her head through the door and looked to Regina lying in bed.

"Hi," came weaker than expected from Regina's voice. She was still a little medicated and tired. Emma stepped inside the hospital room. She left for a couple of hours to change and go to work, "How are you feeling?" Regina glanced to emerald eyes, grateful and embarrassed.

"I've been better. But I'm okay. Thank you for asking, Emma." Emma dismissed it with a wave of her hand. "No, I mean it. Thank you, for staying, for..." Emma stared at her. Lifted her finger and closed Regina's mouth.

"I'm glad you're better. You scared us, you know. Ha!" she bitterly laughed, "Yes, you know how to scare us, dammit Regina. Don't you dare ever do it again." Regina looked to Emma's eyes. They were suddenly full of tears. Emma shook her head and half smiled "I, I can't lose you, you know." Regina's eyes began to water, and hope rose in her chest, "I can't take care of Henry on my own. He needs you." That hope crashed a little. And it hurt, it hurt like hell. "I need you." Regina couldn't stop the tears falling down her cheeks. Everything was overwhelming lately. Emma's thumb caressed her cheek and with a stroke of her fingers she cleaned the trail of tears. The blonde leaned to plant a soft kiss on Regina's forehead.

"Emma…" The blonde shook her head and silenced the brunette with a kiss. Their lips brushed slowly. The kiss was wet with tears but with so much meaning. Their lips molded in synchrony and their breaths hitched so close. Emma straddled Regina's lap and pressed her body more against the brunette. Their lips brushed in a heated way, the kiss melting all the world and problems away. They both were a good mess. Emma asked with her tongue for entrance and Regina moaned against her lips. The kiss lasted a long time, or maybe just a moment. But it changed everything. There was no pain, no fear for a moment, just an amount of understanding and love.

"Ahem," They separated quickly, Emma turned to watch to the door, and saw her mother. Her cheeks turned red and sudden fear clenched in her chest.

"Snow, I mean Mom, I…" Snow smiled.

"You don't need to explain what I just saw. I think actually you both need to talk about it, huh?" Regina and Emma stared at her speechless. "Oh, don't look at me like that. I might be Snow White, but I'm not as innocent and idiotic as you might think I am. I have eyes, and apparently I've been watching for too long. I just came to see if you were okay, Regina. I think you're in good hands, so I'll come back later." Without anything more to say, she turned to leave the room. Emma stared at the door, stoic and with concern on her face.

"Did she just? Did she? What?" Regina laughed out loud for the first time in days. Emma frowned. "It isn't funny, you know. What the hell did just happened?" Regina massaged Emma's leg and stared with such love in her eyes.

"I think your mother just told us to get our shit together." Emma frowned even more but laughed.

"I, I just. Regina…" Regina shook her head. "Don't say anything."

"But…" Regina sighed.

"It was the moment. It was a mistake, I know Emma. It's okay." Emma stared blankly at her.

"Whoa, what? No, no." Regina turned her head to the side and one slow tear flowed through her eyes. "Regina look at me, please. It wasn't a mistake. Regina, please." Regina shook her head once again. "Please go."

"No." Emma dead panned, "No, you need to hear me out."

"Emma…"

"Listen, it wasn't a mistake. You aren't a mistake, Regina."

"Emma, go! Just leave me alone!" Emerald eyes shined in pain. One tear fell from the blonde's eyes and she stood up to leave. "I can't talk about this. I can't, please leave."

"I, I'll be back." Regina sobbed into her pillow, and Emma did her best to not run to her arms and hold her close. She was so afraid of the kiss they shared, so afraid of loving Emma. Even though apparently Emma shared some feelings, she was really afraid of letting her feelings flow. What could happen? They could hurt Henry, they could waste all this time and throw everything they built up in the past years. And Regina couldn't handle that. She couldn't lose Emma.

But the truth was that Emma Swan was in love with Regina. She was completely sick in love with her. And it hurt. And the possibility of losing Regina thanks to that kiss was killing her. The blonde left the room and went to the cafeteria of the hospital to drink a coffee, she needed it. Actually she needed something stronger but a coffee would do.

She glanced at her phone, two missed calls from David. She didn't want to talk right now. Her head was a mess and her heart was even worse. That kiss was everything Emma ever wanted, but why did it feel so wrong? Was it because Regina acted that way? How could Regina think she was a mistake?

"Dammit!" Some doctors stared at her and she just decided to leave the hospital. Maybe a walk would help to clear her thoughts.

She went to her Bug and started the ignition, going to the docks wasn't the best idea, but maybe the water would help her clear her mind. She sat on a bench and stared at the water for a long time, just thinking.

She stood there with all the thoughts running like fire in her mind. Why was it so hard? Why was everything about Regina so complicated? And about her. The knot in her throat grew every second and her breathing became difficult. Emma occupied a good space in Regina's life now; they were in a good place, right? Or weren't they? Well that was if things weren't screwed already.

Emma hated to be so insecure, but when it came to feelings, everything was unknown. Growing up in the system left her damaged and to trust wasn't as easy as it should be. Even knowing that she trusted Regina, having feelings for the Mayor was extremely difficult.

Everything with Regina felt different though. It felt big and strong. Close to the line of painful. The way they looked at each other, the way they talk about life, because they had become friends. She loved the feeling of being close to the brunette, how her hands began to get sweaty and her voice came out in a whisper sometimes. She hated how everything they had, a fight left her feeling hopeless, tiny and even broken. It was so confusing, yet endearing. Loving Regina was the best and the worst thing that had ever happened to Emma. The best because she never knew about such things as love, she never shared a bond so strong with someone. At least till now. But it was the worst at the same time, because everything was unknown. She didn't know how Regina truly felt, or if she even shared the same feelings. A kiss could mean two things, love or desire. But both?

"Fuck!" She kicked the bench, immediately regretting the action. "God, what should I do? Ugh, fuck, dammit!"

"You should watch your mouth, honey." Emma startled at the intrusion.

"Mom? What are you doing here?" Snow sat next to the blonde.

"I came here to talk. No, let me finish. I don't want to judge you, Emma. I want to help." Emma sighed, "Let me in. Let me help you, honey." Emma bit her lip fighting back the sudden sob.

"I just, I don't know what to do." Snow scooted close, holding Emma in her arms, and the blonde for the first time let herself cry, be held. She hadn't known how it felt to be like this with her mother, but she needed it. She needed support. "I, I don't know if she, oh god." A muffled cry escaped from her throat, "I almost lost her. She, she did, she tried…I. God. I can't." Snow just held her tighter not saying a word knowing that Emma needed to talk first.

"I know Regina. And I've seen love in her eyes many years ago. And I can tell you Emma, she loves you. That spark is there, and maybe you both are too stubborn to realize it. But she loves you, honey. And you love her, right?" Emma nodded. "Then you need to get through to her, you need to tell her. Because I'm sure she's afraid."

"I am afraid too. I can't. I, God. I can't just go and tell her. Everything is just so complicated." She stared at the water.

"Sometimes we make things more complicated than they really are, honey. We just need twenty seconds of bravery. That's all." Emma look at green similar eyes and sighed.

"I want to be alone. Thanks, anyway." Snow nodded and stood up to leave, but left on another note.

"Remember that love isn't weakness, Emma. It's strength." And with that she left. Emma stared at the space where her mother had just stood and thought about it. If Snow was right, then she just had to have the courage and confront Regina.