Chapter 8

Lucy's POV

I spent hours peering through the transparent diamond sphere. It fascinated me in the most childish ways imaginable. The two letters hovering inside the ball.

It calmed me through this very moment...

Flash Back

It was bright in the bed chamber. The curtains were drawn back and I lied in bed staring at the ceiling, excited. My hand had been checked for my pulse as for my belly. I smiled, even though it had only been two weeks at the most, and there ceased to be a bump on my belly, I knew my child was there.

"..."

"Kind Doctor, why the silence?" The sudden silence send shivers down my spine like a winters day would. I was so curious to know the answer, and yet why? Why are my hands clenched? Why am I trembling? Why do I have this wretched feeling, that something has gone very, very wrong, "Please, do tell me." I pleaded.

"My Lady..." he began, "Do not let this news affect you. And I beg you to stay calm, but, it seems-.."

"Seems what?" I urged him to go on. Fear had taken over me completely at this point. So afraid, that the answer would not please me.

"There was never a child."

The news weighed my heart down. It had felt like cold water suddenly being splashed on me. Time had officially stopped. My eyes had widened and anticipation of birth was over. My excitement, happiness, life was over.

Tears dared to flee from my eyes, "Please, Doctor. Do go call the Lord."

With an apologetic and pitying look, he left. Moments later Natsu came running in.

"Lucy! How are you feeling? The Doc left with a strange look but that-" I refused to look at him, It felt like I had failed to produce and bring him an heir, and obviously it was true. I had just yet to come and accept the loss.

"Natsu..." I brought my hands up and covered my face, "I'm so sorry..." I am a failure as a dutiful wife. I felt as if this was all meaningless, my life that is. It appeared to me that, I was a dull pearl, thrown back into the ocean split away from the rest. I had begged to be differed, and here, I have it.

"Why?" I knew what he was thinking. We had the same throught in mind right this moment, he was just afraid to say it, and I, the same, "Don't tell me-"

Before he had finished his sentence, I had started to sob. He had guessed. As far as I can see, he's right. It was a piercing pain I felt penetrate my chest. I had lost something, someone I loved. I know I didn't know the child, but it was mine.

"It's my fault... Isn't it?" He whispered bitterly, clearly his face showed a sign of hurt.

"It's not your fault..." He was surprised for a second, but he knew. He knew all too well, the truth of it all, "It's just that... It's just that-"

"There never was a child..." He finished for me and it was final. It had been said

The moment those words hit me again like another strike to my heart, tears trickled down my cheeks and my quiet sobbing, slowly turned into burst of cries and screams.

Natsu lifted me into a sitting position from the bed, he drew my hands away and held me tight, locking me in his embrace. "I'm sorry, Lucy..."

My cries became softer and soon enough it was just hiccups and occasional tears. He whispered my name over and over in my ear. Hearing his voice I felt reassured that things can be fixed. A secure feeling was accurate. I felt his gaze, pity...

Flash Back End

So it's clear enough, huh. All that time I had spent anticipating our child, wasted.

The room felt cold, fitting for the atmosphere. The sun ceased to shine through the window no more, what was replaced was a dark endless star filled sky with the lonesome waxing moon.

I stared into out of space. The city lights in the distance from our manor were beautiful, but out of my reach. Why did it seem that those beautiful things in life never occur to me.

"They do." I whipped my head around and from my bed I stared at a dark shadow standing close to to the door.

I quizzically looked at the figure. Like he had read my mind.

He chuckled, "You were talking out loud."

I smiled, "Natsu..."

As if he had been bound by a spell form my words he walked towards me and into the moonlight. He wore just pants, bare-chested.

He slipped in bed, pulled the covers over me and held me close to his body. His radiating warmth allowed me to plaster a small smile on my face.

I placed my hand on his chest and listened to his heartbeat claiming it to be music to my ears.

Hello! This chapter may be a bit short... But please I urge you all to give me some ideas, I'll admit I'm actually out of them. Sorry.

Lately I've been reading 'the mortal instruments', an amazing book series by Cassandra Clare, an inspiring author. If you have the chance to read it, I recommend you do.

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~Cheryl