I am so sorry for not updating the semester is already starting this June so I have to fix all my materials as soon as possible, and our adviser is really fudging strict so I'm screwed and again so sorry ~Serena :)

Augustus POV

I couldn't breathe not even a single huff of breathe can even enter my body it's like my treatment all over again only worse, I don't think I can't even move, and after a few calls by Kaitlyn and a great shaking by my shoulders by Isaac I was now out of my funk,

FOR NOW...

We scramble to leave Funky bones and rush to the hospital, I was already seating shot gun in the car and Kate drove past the speed limit I mean this I wouldn't even care i would've just ran to her but they suggested to use the car and thank for her quick memory and driving skills we made it here in 5 minutes tops,

I rushed out of the car even after it stopped I threw the doors open and barged in I looked around and saw Mr. an Mrs. Lancaster I couldn't even look at them that long it was so heart breaking,

they're arms wrapped around each other tear stains on their faces and the occasional looking at the door waiting for it to open thing, I walked to them slowly as I can and sat next to them and put a hand on the shoulder of Mrs. Lancaster,

both of them look up at me and I offered a smile and they nodded back, I felt a hand grasp mine and squeeze it I look up and saw Mr. Lancaster by my side, "she's stronger than any person we know Augustus, she will fight and she won't give in I just know it." I just nod I'm to afraid to speak I might cry,

"Mr. and Mrs. Lancaster?" we all look up it was Isaac and Kaitlyn, they say their hello's and sat down next to me, I see grab each others hands, but I do hear an occasional whimper from both women in the waiting room,

we waited for hours, it was by night that my mind couldn't take it I stood up and I muttered a 'be right back at them and walked out to the parking lot, it was already by sun down when I opened the doors,

I sit down by the pavement and put my head on my hands, I took deep breathes but I couldn't stop I shook, so bad, from fear, sadness, I was panicking, worse than any one can think how,

I felt my cheeks getting wet, tears, of anger, fear and sadness, grief it was the only thing I can think every time I couldn't pick myself up,

I felt a hand go around my shoulder, I look up it was Isaac, I couldn't help it I hugged him, I let all my grief out, I felt another person hold on to me and I hear Kaitlyn's whimpers and Isaac's words of 'come on dude',

I said it and I believed it, Pain demands to be felt, and right now pain is completely inside my pain, it aches badly, more so than my treatment or the 1st time she was in here,

I can't deny the pain I can't deny the grief but I'm never going to deny she won't make it she will make it she is stronger than any person I can ever know, more than me or any one for that matter,

I stop my crying and tell them both to go in I go to silent wish in my head and I know it won't ever stop, 'make her better I don't want her to be that grenade just yet, not when I want to be a part of her reality.'

Isaac pov

after Gus got out me and Kate didn't want to go in yet we both can't get the fact Hazel, our Hazel that got us together, that got us to be happy, like how happy they we're, how she and Gus were,

I sighed, I knew I couldn't see yet these 3 people who I bonded with were still here with me, but is it ever going to end the fear of losing one, will it/

I felt a hand grab me, it was Kate I knew it was, "hey come on she's waiting, they're waiting, they need us as much as we need them right now" she was already pulling me out of the car and entering the hospital,

it was when I saw Gus with Hazel's parents I knew he will have his heart broken if he loose's her, he looks like how Hazel was when he was still in the hospital to,

"Mr. and Mrs. Lancaster" I said solemnly they look up and say their hello's as I get close to Gus and sat next to him I grab Kate's hand comforting her, keeping her strong even if it is for a few minutes, we waited and waited for hours,

Gus finally snapped and excused himself to go outside I sighed, "Mr. and Mrs. Lancaster?" they looked up when I spoke, "wh-what exactly was the last report about Hazels vitals?" I heard a sigh,

"sh-she, t-they said that she almost drowned on water that was trapped in her lungs, a-apparently her lungs were clogged by something a-and blocked the machine to expel the water out of her, t-that required it to b-be o-operated and f-fast." said Mr. Lancaster

I let in a shaky breathe and calm both Kate and myself, "you know she really was excited to go back here, she missed all of you, s-she looked like a child again, innocent and h-happy, then when we finally landed she was a-already looking so pale, we thought she was tired heck she thought she was just jet lagged, so we went home to rest then her attack happened." Mrs. Lancaster told us in a whispered voice,

Kate excuses us both to look for Gus and we walk out the hospital we saw him (more like heard him for me) slouched by the pavement heaving out sobs,

Kate couldn't take it and neither could I, we get close to him and comfort him the best we can, but we knew we can't unless a miracle can happen, and right now we fucking need it for his sake, for Hazel's sake, for all of our sake's

because right now we know, Hazel doesn't even deserve this..

So sorry guys really our history teacher is a complete douche so the whole high school students are really pissed off at him so were trying to get used to all his bloody work that he keeps giving us, but I promise to try and speed up my updates I hope...~Serena TT_TT