Hello eveyone!
And away we go.
Enjoy!
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I was sitting in the window, guitar in my lap as I strummed cords off the top of my head, wearing a pair of silk blue PJ pants and a matching top. Suddenly there was a knock and I look to the hatch, it hadn't come from there... Looking the opposite way I saw a pair of gold eyes looking at me, I simply blink and put my guitar to the side unlocking the window and head to the my draw taking out a towel. He steps through and I throw him said towel to dry his hair.
"Not a fan of the rain?" I question with a smirk,
"No but you are." I tilt my head, I am a... I felt my blood rush as I realized,
"You saw me in the rain?!" he nods and I can feel the amusement, I roll my eyes,
"Why on earth were you watching me in the rain?" I watched him looked away, if he was human I'm sure he'd have been blushing.
"I followed to make sure you got home alright and then I saw ya start to dance." he admitted. I nod, "You seem to like the rain."
"I do." I answer,
"You seem more at peace with yourself, free." I laugh though it's forced.
"I've always loved the rain, it washes away the stress. Makes you forget."
"What could you possibly want to forget" I wince and grin before I shrug flippantly,
"Embarrassing birthdays?" he chuckles,
"You act older than you are." I try my hardest to not react, I wanted to laugh and cry simultaneously.
"Everyone calls me an old soul. And I could say the same to you." I wanted to move this conversation elsewhere, looking back out the window I smile as the rain fell down the window.
"I suppose you got me there Darlin'." He pauses for a moment, "What were you doin' before I came?"
"I was just messing with some cords." he looks around at the room as I say this,
"Your gifted with music then?"
"No just had a lot of practice, I started at seven." in both worlds... I shake my head,
'How does it feel to lie to a friend?' the voice snarled,
'Terrible, but then if it wasn't then you wouldn't be here. And I'd be a lot better off.' I snap back, I was in no mood for her.
'Are you going to be able to lie to them your whole life? You can't keep saying that you saw it from the Pixie freaks visions.' I bite back a snarl, I'll tell them eventually. If I don't end up dead before... I shake my head again and look back at the honey blonde Texan in front of me.
"How many songs have you played? Any you've written by yourself?" I smile at the rapid fire, he really was a great man when he wasn't being hounded with bloodlust. I reach over to my cabinet drawer and pull out a blue folder handing it to him,
"I don't keep track of how many I play and there should be a few of my own in there somewhere." I look back out the window at the rain. I let my mind clear just watching the patterns of the rain and then a piece of paper is under my nose. I snap back to look at Jasper and then down at the paper,
"Can you sing this one for me?" I frown,
"I would love to but... well that's a piano piece, I don't have a piano nor a keyboard." he looked and felt well and truly disappointed, I take the folder from him and spot a song that really reminded me of him, "I will play you this one though." I picked up my guitar and got comfortable, I brought my left leg up and stretched my right so it was resting on his legs settling my guitar on it. I strummed the opening cords and tapped my fingers against the wood to make the drums.
'You better take it form me,
That boy is like a disease,
You're running you're trying,
Your trying to hide and your wondering why you cant get free,
He's like a curse, he's like a drug,
You get addicted to his love,
You wanna get out but he's holding down,
cause you can't live without one more touch,
He's a, good time cowboy casanova,
Leaning up against the record machine,
He looks like a cool drink of water,
But he's candy coated misery,
He's the devil in disguise,
A snake with blue eyes,
and he only comes out at night,
gives you feelings that you don't want to fight,
you better run for your life.
I see that look on your face,
you ain't hearing what i say,
So i'll say it again cause i've been where you been,
and i know how it is,
you can't get away.
Don't even look in his eyes,
He'll tell you nothing but lies,
And you want to believe, you want me too see it,
so listen to me and take my advise,
He's a, good time cowboy casanova,
leaning up against the record machine,
he looks like a cool drink of water,
but he's candy coated misery,
He the devil in disguise,
a snake with blue eyes,
and he only comes out at night,
gives you feelings that you don't want to fight,
you better run for your life.
Run, run away,
don't let him mess with your mind,
he'll tell you anything you wanna hear,
he'll break your heart,
but just remember,
he's a, good time cowboy casanova,
leaning up against the record machine,
he looks like a cool drink of water,
but he's candy coated misery,
He's the devil in disguise,
a snake with blue eyes,
and he only comes out at night,
gives you feelings that you don't want to fight,
you better run for your life.
Oh, you better run for your life!
Oh you better run for your life!'
I strummed the last few cords and smile,
(I don't own the song, rights go to Carrie Underwood.)
I'd written this song with him in mind, I mean I'd liked him when I read the books, and then I watched the movie and I was infatuated, reading the rest of the books like Eclipse where he takes a bigger role was a huge bonus for me, and then after coming here?
I thought about him constantly, I knew I couldn't have anything with him, he was with Alice, he was meant to be... I'd tried other relationships but they had never felt right, they never lasted long, I was comparing them to someone I had only ever dreamed about and it wasn't fair. He was perfect... I didn't string them along, I always ended it after that started happening. But then I had met him, heard his voice, gotten to know him, and those feeling that had been boiling over for twenty years or so, they turned into something I would hope was love. And this feeling was pretty damn deep.
"That was great." I snap my head up in surprise of the object of my thoughts having forgotten momentarily he had been there,
"It's not much." I shrug, and it wasn't music came to me like breathing, I never got tired of it.
"It really is, your voice is stunning." I blushed and looked away. "You have any others?" I looked at the other pile again as I realised that his hand was stroking my calf, I flicked through and nodded, taking a breath I closed my eyes and let the instinct take over again.
'The door opens,
and before me is eternity,
a voice calls from so far away,
someone smooths down my hair,
Who are you?
My flute sings of a land my heart so wishes for,
where time and my feelings pass by,
I don't want any friends, (That's a lie)
I don't even need myself, (It's the truth,)
Footprints i leave behind,
washed away...
The night is mysterious,
it conceals the truth,
invited by the moon, darkness throughout, the sky,
The night's violet tears fall like then rain,
as the sky cries for, me.'
(Rough English translation of a Japanese song I'd heard from an Anime, All rights to owners.)
I put the guitar aside and looked back a him.
"Really you have a gift for music." he complimented, I grin slightly,
"I'm sure with your years of experience your quite good yourself." he hums at my comment,
"I can play yes, but I don't particularly enjoy it like you and Edward seem to. I enjoy listening but I've never found comfort in playing." I tilt my head,
"Then why on earth are you taking music class?" I demand, I loved music, why would he join a class he didn't fully enjoy?
"Alice told me at the start of the year that something interesting would happen in that class for me." he shrugs, I could feel his intense gaze on me and I rolled my eyes, Alice of course she saw me coming.
Our talk went on for while, we talked about all sorts, our favorite things, time periods, films, hobbies. Anything and everything, we didn't run out of things to talk about, I enjoyed his presence and with every moment I got to know him I could feel those feelings becoming more. I'd put up my shield a long time ago, controlling your own emotions when you can feel someone else's and they in turn feel yours is impossible so it was just easier. He'd managed to weasel out how I got the nickname Tink and then set about looking over my room. I was happy, peaceful, for the first time in months. And then it came crashing down.
Everything faded...
...
... A blurry but terrified face, sweat dripping, breathing short sharp gasps of air, desperate not to make a sound,
Crouched in a dark corner. A shadow moving to fast to make out goes past, turning around, another shadow, also to fast, and then running.
Up flights of stairs, a harsh light, running as fast as humanly possible.
My view changes and I'm someone else, I feel different emotions, glee, hunger, malicious joy...
Running, jumping, climbing further up closer to the hunt.
I'm back with the terrified person.
Running desperately, looking over a shoulder terror even more pronounced, and then bolting through a door. Grisham Mill.
Loosing footing, tripping, falling through the railing, and stopping.
A hand holding the shirt, yanked out of sight, screams choked short as blood splatters and a burning sensation blurs through my neck.
...
I strangle a scream as I return to my room, I clawed at my neck, an intense searing pain, slowly the pain lessens and I feel panicked but safe.
"Arc. Arc! Arcadia! Calm down Darlin' you're fine, nothin's gonna get ya, I won't let them." I calm to his gentle hushing, "What did you see Arc?" the voice asks,
"Running, terror, shadows moving to fast, light, then there's running jumping climbing but it's feels different, they like it, glee, hunger, they find it funny." I spat, "Terror again, falling, it's Grisham Mill, then there's pulling a scream cut short and blood, lots of blood and a burning pain in my neck." my breathing had calmed down. But I hadn't stopped shaking. "I- I could feel the emotions, can Alice, do that?" I was leaning on his chest. I heard him rumble as he spoke,
"No, she only see's the path people are on when they are on it, she doesn't feel what she's seeing." he deep voice was a comfort, I knew he could protect me.
"Maybe it has to do with your gift of empathy, in a way in the visions I am there I can feel what they do because of the gifts I possess." he hums in response before picking me up and carrying me to my bed lying me down. Before he could leave I grabbed his hand, "Can you stay?" I felt pathetic, really I did, I sounded like a child. "Just until I fall asleep?"
"Sure Darlin'." he layed down beside me and I curled closer to him, I felt a wave of lethargy wash over me and I glare at him sleepily,
"Not fair." I moan, I drifted off to the sound of his warm chuckle.
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I woke up the next morning feeling well rested, I hadn't dreamt of my past and I felt good waking up. I did however feel some confusion that wasn't my own, looking around I see Jasper looking at me with a frown,
"What?" I ask tilting my head,
"I was tryin' to make sure you slept and I just couldn't. I couldn't project sleep onto you anymore." I grin,
"I've always risen with the sun, nothing keeps me asleep past six unless I want to, not even you." he chuckled and I realised he was still in the same clothes as yesterday. "You didn't go home." it wasn't a question, it was a statement, he shrugged,
"You're an interesting sleeper." I bury my head in the pillow under my head,
"What did I say?" I groan,
"Nothing you just make a lot of facial expressions." I slump, it's not so bad then, getting up I crawl out of bed and head over to the wardrobe going through my outfits, I grabbed a pair of dark blue boot cut jeans a white strap top and a pair of brown leather ankle boots, putting them down I roll my neck and hear a pop and sigh in satisfaction. I looked at the man in my room, "You need to go home and get dressed, Alice will have my head if you turn up to school in the same clothes as the day before." he laughs but doesn't move, "Also I have to change so scoot." I make a move motion and faster than my eyes can see he's gone and my window was open. I grin and set about getting dressed dragging my clean clothes on and heading down stairs. Reaching the kitchen I hug Bella, "Morning Izzy."
"Morning Tink, hey you missed mums call last night." I hum,
"She loose her phone yet?" I ask,
"No her phone charger apparently ran away screaming." I bark out a laugh as I grab a bowl of rice crispies and sprinkle sugar on the top before sitting at the table with her, we chatter for a minute, then the door knocked, I look mournfully at my cereal before getting up Bella laughing all the way and opening the door to... None other than Jasper Hale. I raised my eyebrow as I saw what he was carrying, two black helmets, bike helmets,
"I was hoping you'd ride with me today." I laugh and nod stepping aside to let him in, I felt him stiffen at my sisters scent and squeeze his shoulder doing what I could to lessen the bloodlust he was feeling, "Come on, I'm eating breakfast."
I walk back into the kitchen and take the helmets from him setting them on the side before taking my seat again,
"Izzy this is Jasper Hale, Jazz this is Bella, my younger sister." I introduce taking a bite of my cereal and moaning at the taste of food in my mouth,
"It's nice to meet you Jasper." Bella smiles and waves awkwardly, Jasper although stiff was able to look relaxed,
"You as well, Bella." It was strained I'm not gonna lie, Bella left first in her truck and we just sat and talked more, looking at the clock I realise it's half past eight and run up to my room with the promise of being quick, I ran some moose through my hair making the curls look a little wavy and grabbed my brown leather jacket from the back of my chair grabbing my black bag and running back down.
"Ready!" I call grabbing a helmet and rushing for the door, the sight that greeted me I was more than happy to die for, him straddling a Harley Davidson VRSC, the picture was... Well I'm just surprised I wasn't in a dead faint. Shaking my head I put the helmet on and climbed on behind him winding my arms around his waist, there was a roar as the engine came to life and then we were off down the street at high speed.
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