" so I have a brother?" Logan asked several days later . It was evening and she was grading some papers that had been turned in that day.

" Hmm? Oh yeah. " Liz said as she acknowledged that he was there . " I don't know what his name is and barely know his scent since I had just gotten the the upgrade to the senses at the time . " " do you know why he's not here now? " " nothing solid but I think that you might have disagreed about something and split soon after … sorry Logan but I really haven't thought about this in years and my mind is mainly on these papers right now. " " right. Is there any reason why you've mostly shut yourself off from your sisters and from Storm? You've taken on a lot of jobs to stay busy , I get that your doing that to deal with your pain . But … your worrying them."

" (sigh) … I don't want to deal with this right now."

Storm and Logan both knew that Elizabeth was struggling but refused to break down until she reaches her breaking point . So they were keeping an eye on her, going as far as trying to always have one of the two of them near her to watch for her breaking point.

She reached her breaking point the day after the first anniversary of Charles' death . Logan was on her trail at the time . Liz was in the gardens , nearly in the forest . She was so upset that Logan could smell it on her scent as he was moving towards her. He started to run to her when he started to smell some her blood as well.

he found her what he saw her carving some wood with blood on her hand . What made him stop in his tracks was the sight of her metal claws that looked just like his , perhaps a little smaller then his , but she has a set of metal claws just like his!

He had seen that she was a strong woman ,but that night in the pantry had shown him her fragility.

She looked up when he came into sight .

By his self Logan could never really remember what had happened next or how it happened , but the next thing he knew he was on the ground , his body responding to Liz's and his mind gaining knowledge that she had fallen in love with him nearly 4 years ago when she saw him while settling in a new student. She stayed away when she saw that he liked Jean. Felt part of her cocktail of the emotion's that she was feeling at the time. Her pain and guilt over the fact that her friends and mentor was dead and she could have saved Jean the first time that Jean died if she had been there... there was other emotions but he couldn't sort out the others besides the obvious ones .

Then the next thing he knew it was nearly evening , he was bare chested and his shirt was next to him with a messy repaired rip down the font of it. He went back to his room to get a different shirt and then went looking for Liz.

He caught a whiff of her shampoo near the showers on his way to ask Storm . He found out that Liz was last seen in one of the practice rooms with Kurt getting advice and getting use to having his power. When Logan got there Kurt told him that he didn't know where Liz was . One moment Liz was there and then she teleported out of there just before Logan came in.

That evening he went to see Storm . " have you seen Elizabeth? " " about an hour ago when she got out of the showers . She seemed better than she has been in a long time , what happened ?" " ehh.. all I can say is that she broke again and she lost her mental focus at one point and revealed her feelings ."

" her feelings ?" " and mental state of her mind. "

" how is she ? " " well she's feeling .. uh I'll leave that first bit for her to tell , but she has a reason for why she's acting as in pain as she has been. She's feeling the pain of losing Scott , Jean and Charles and to top that off she's feeing guilt over their deaths since she's seeing herself as some one who could prevented their deaths if she had been there to prevent Jeans first death. "

" she would see it that way …. with her powers . She could have, but she chose years ago to become Scout for the sake of the children , a job that's nearly as important as the X-men. " " that break was what she needed . No wounder why she was in such bad shape .. carrying that guilt and that secret ."

" what secret ? " " you know I can't tell you, but it looks like she'll be avoiding me for a while. "