A/N: thank you to everyone who is reading this story and reviewing it and thank you for your ideas it helps and I will try to do what everyone would like so, thanks again. I know it seems like I am doing exactly the same as the show with Daya and john but honestly I have a plan and i am using the odd bits of that story but something is going to happen to Nastya and yes she will toughen up just like her mother but just not yet as she is still learning the show prison life but please stay with me it will get better so, please continue to follow, favourite and most importantly review this story.
Since I have been in Litchfield I haven't had anyone visit me or write to me until today when Bennett handed me a letter at mail call I know that writing any where. It's my big brother Yasily who has written to me asking me to add him to my visitation list which I will do immediately, I need this I need a hug from my big brother more than anything in the world. I feel myself finally having something to look forward to in my small and now meaningless little life
I add Yasily to my visitation list and I am informed he can visit tomorrow, I walk out of there with a spring in my step.
The next day I get up early dread having a shower but I make myself walK in confidently and join the line I mean nothing is going to ruin my day after all my big brother is visiting me nothing can bring me down. I feel like have won already when I get my first ever warm shower for once feeling today will be a good day.
I walk out of the shower wrapping the towel around me and then head to the sink with mirrors where I brush my teeth and apply a small amount of make up I was allowed to take in with me which is mascara and foundation so I am able to cover my bruises.
I then head down for breakfast where I actually join Chapman,Morello, the nun, Nichols and Boo. I sit happily as everyone chats with me joining in every now and again. Mom walks over and sits down where we share a glance but I look away and get up out of my seat.
" I better get going to visitation" I say brightly but, I notice mom looking at me but I just carry on.
" oh who you got visiting you Nasty?" Morello says softly
" oh no one particular just my brother" I say glancing at mom who clearly isn't happy about this but the thing is my brothers have every right to visit me too after all I am their baby sister.
I walk away tossing my long dark hair over my shoulder as put away my tray and cup before leaving the cafeteria.
I head towards visitation and of course I have to go through that wonderful
Process of being searched along with every cavity and once they are happy I take a deep breath and walk into the visitation where I see my big brother Yasily sitting at the table looking out the window I watch him for a. Moment wondering what he is thinking. my thoughts are interrupted when Officer Bell shoves me forward slightly " no hanging around Reznikov" I walk nervously over to Yasily and clear my throat bringing Yasily out of his little trance.
" Yasily ?" I say looking at him properly for the first time since I got arrested.
" yes it's me silly, give me a hug" He says laughing and I just look at him " we can hug twice once coming in and once going out" he says and I don't need telling twice I rush into his embrace and hug him so tight " it's so good to see you" I say squeezing him tight.
" errr.. Nastya can you loosen your grip a bit I can't breath" he mumbles and I let go.
We sit down opposite it each other " it really is good to see you" I repeat looking at him with a bright smile.
" Nastya... What happened to your face?" He asks looking me over which only means one thing, damn it I didn't cover my bruising up very well.
" oh that its nothing" I say touching my swollen eye gently before concentrating back on Yasily" ...how have you been?" I say changing the subject.
" not good at is terrible since you got arrested and The gang are still making all the shots around there" Yasily says sighing as he looked down at his hands which I know all to well that he is worried.
" I'm sorry" I say realising knowing that we are in this mess kind if because of me.
" it's not your fault don't blame yourself , do you hear me" Yasily says rather forcefully and I nod.
" so how is everyone Maxim and Yuri?..,.have you seen you know who?" I say dreading the answer.
" everyone is fine...Yuri is dating Viktoria and Maxim is you know his usual self and no I haven't seen him since I'm sorry" I sigh hoping Alexander would ever contact me to say he is sorry.
I look out the window " so...how is mumushka?" I shrug.
" I don't know" I say weakly
" what do you mean ?" My brother asks and I shift in my chair.
" I mean I don't know because she's isn't talking to me Yasily" I say raising my voice.
" Inmate keep it down" Officer Bell says looking at me.
" what? Why isn't mom talking to you... What have you done?" He asks me looking rather confused.
" I don't know...can we just stop talking about Mom I mean aren't you here to visit me or ask about mom?" I snap.
" inmate I won't ask you again or I'll will write up a shot" Bell yells from across the room.
" I'm sorry but if your here to ask about mom then bloody visit her and don't waste my time. My life is small and dull already and I don't need this shit on top of that " I say wincing slight as I shift position.
We sat in silence for a few minutes " I'm sorry Nasty...your right" Yasily clasps his hands together in front of him on the table.
" look i don't know why mom isn't talking to me I guess it might be because she asked me to promise her ages ago to never get involved with them but I did and well I'm here" I say shrugging my shoulders.
" it must be hard seeing her only daughter in prison I mean mom wanted the best for us which is why She and papa had to do what they did just to provide for us and we'll you've just broken her dreams of you making something of yourself" I sit stunned hearing Yasily say all these things and as I think them over he is right and I did let mom down I let everyone down even myself.
" I'm sorry it's harsh but it's true" Yasily says reaching out placing a hand on top of mine.
" your right your absolutely right" I let the tears fall silently down my cheeks.
" that's time, everyone say for goodbyes" Bell informs us.
I slowly get up out of my seat and Yasily follows and we embrace tightly before we are pulled apart.
" I'll see you soon okay?, I love you little sis take care of yourself" Yasily says as he starts to walk away " I will I promise tell Yuri and Maxim I love them and I love you too silly" I call out as I am directed through the door where we are searched once again.
Once searched she are lead back into the unit where we are allowed to whatever we want. I walk along the corridor when I see Officer Bennett walking along the corridor too and we share a small glance, I smile feeling myself blush slightly.
" Hey who was that who visited you?" Bennett said sounding rather jealous.
" what does it matter Why?" I ask rather confused.
" I just wanted to know that's all" Bennett shrugs.
" Well if you must know he's my brother Yasily" I say looking to his eyes.
"OMG you're jealous" I gasp covering my hand over my mouth in shock.
" what Pfftt...no way" John says shifting uncomfortably which tells me he really was jealous.
" look I have to go and yes you are" I say smirking as I walk away.
I glance back behind me at John who turned to look at me and we shared a small smile before I rounded the corner and headed to TV room.