A/N: this is just a filler chapter whilst I work on something that I like to think is pretty big for Nastya so, this might not be my best work but it's just a quick filler like I said ?￢ﾜﾌ? ﾸﾏ.

I have now been at the Litch for a little over 2 weeks now and I am finally assigned to a bunk and I am now out of that ghastly orange and now into a dull beige outfit and now I finally merge in with the other inmates. I am now bunking in the White dorm as they call it and yes I am in the same dorm as mom but thankfully I am sharing with Norma moms silent best friend which suits me just fine to be honest.

I pack my things into a beige mesh bag with my laundry in and my belongings and I am led into the White dorm by officer O'Neill who I rather like he treats us all the same no matter what skin colour or background which I find rather refreshing.

" here we are Nasty" he says gesturing for me to enter the bunk.

Norma smiles at me and I smile back " well have a nice day" O'Neill says as he walks away.

" look I know you are moms best friend but I want to keep myself separate from everything and everyone" Norma nods to show that she understood me.

" I don't mind talking to you but I don't want everything relayed to mom okay" Norma nods again and I smile.

" so...do you mind if I have 2 hooks and that Cabinet" Norma shakes her head as she moves her books off the cabinet and takes her kitchen clothes of the 2 hooks.

" thank you" I say politely and Norma smiled, I really like Norma she seems really sweet and she seems to really care about mom.

I put my few things that I own away, I put up my few photos of me, papa and my brothers. I went to check to see if I missed any photos when one fell out which was a photo of me and mom that I forgot that I had put in there when mom said she wanted nothing to do with me I just shoved it away into my laundry bag and forgot about it. I looked at the photo I looked happy and carefree and mom looked happy and proud of me as she put her arm around me. I remember that photo being taken and to be honest it was the best day of my life that day we were a happy family.

I decide to put the photo up on my wall, I notice Norma watching me and looking at the photos particularly the one of me and mom.

" that day was the best day of my life.. We were a happy family just for one day but it was the best feeling in the whole world and you can see mom was proud of me but I have done nothing but let her down" I say with my back still turned as the tears fell silently down my cheeks.

I felt a firm hand on my shoulder as it gave a slight squeeze. I wipe my eyes and turn round to face Norma who still had her hand on my shoulder.

" please don't say anything, can we keep this between us?" I say pleading to Norma who thought about it but nodded a few minutes later.

Later on that day I head to my job in library where I put away the books that have been returned. What I didn't realise is that Norma told mom about our little conversation earlier.

I continued to write to Yasily every week and he was true to his word when he said he'd come and visit me and write every week I would ask him why my other brothers had never visited me and time and time again at visitation he would make up some excuses but this time he had ran out of excuses and this time he told me the truth the only thing that made it worse was that It was told to me via a letter instead of person and it angered me and finally i snapped and I just had enough and couldn't take anymore, " that is it" I said rather loudly as I marched down to moms bunk where I saw her sitting at her desk with Gina standing behind her and Nichols sitting on moms bed.

" you've got a fucking nerve " I said marching in.

" excuse me" Mom says not bothering to look up.

" oh please...don't act all innocent you know what I am bloody talking about" I said feeling the anger rising as mom sat calmly as if nothing was wrong.

" Nasty, what the hell is going on?" Nichols says looking rather confused.

" look this doesn't concern you Nichols , its between me and her" I say pointing to mom.

" Hey that's your mother show some god damn respect!, any way Red is busy" Gina says raising her voice.

" please...don't make me laugh. Oh wait do you mean the blonde Russian lady who used to read stories to us at night and tuck us in giving us a kiss at night instead of "her" because I don't see her here do you?. anyway,I'll wait and this freaking doesn't concern you either so back off" I snap

" who the hell are you to say who my grown brothers can and can't visit" I say moving closer to mom.

"Mom slams down her pen hard on the desk "I am their mother and I will tell them who they can and cannot visit, listen little girl with big mouth you have just lost any chance of ever making anything between us okay again" Mom says getting up out of her seat.

Mom slowly walked towards me so she was in front of me "if you had been more of a mother than a absentee mother then I wouldn't have ended up here" I could see the anger in moms eyes as she looked at me before she raised her hand "you ungrateful little..." *slap* mom slapped me hard around the face, I could feel my cheek burning.

" I think you better go" Nichols says getting up off the bed and walked over to me.

" gladly, I can't be around this bullshit any longer. Ya'll are under her spell she is just using you and you blind idiots are allowing this to Happen as she walks all over you! It's so sick to see" I say taking one last glance around at everyone.

" this is the last thing I will ever say to you...for the first time ever I am a shamed to call you my daughter now March your guppy ass out of my bunk" I roll me eyes and storm out of the bunk and past my own bunk and head into the library where I walk right to the back of the library and sink to the floor and hug my knees and sob quietly. I didn't know that, that was not going to be my only problem and my life was going to be getting a whole lot worse.