(This chapter isn't my best and I do apologise I haven't updated this story in a little while I have been busy training for a cheer comp this Saturday ? ﾟﾎﾀ? ﾟﾘﾁ? ﾟﾑﾏ? ﾟﾑﾏ? ﾟﾑﾏ? ﾟﾑﾏ? well, any way the next load of chapters I hope will be more exciting)

2 months later

Everything was not going too well for me at the moment I mean I have my brother Yasily visiting me regularly and I have kind of pushed away the people I could have called friends even though they were part of moms gang I don't care I used to call them my friends.

I have a job in the library so, not everything has worked out well for me and now it was going to get a whole lot worse.I started my day like every other day I headed to the showers joined the queue where I stood well away from Nichols, Mortello and Yoga Jones. Soon it was my turn to have a shower and yes it was warm which was strange as if everything was too good to be true. Once showered I then headed to the cafeteria for lunch where I sat alone whilst everyone around me laughed and chatted among themselves I push my food around on the tray. Once I was finished with breakfast I put my tray away and left the cafeteria *bang* went the double doors the officers often used swung open and there he was he walked no actually he strutted out glancing at girls as he walked past them giving them the pearly white smile.

I stood routed to the spot feeling my heart pounding in my chest so fast that I thought it was going to explode I stood gawping, thinking am I really seeing this? is this real? I haven't heard from him in months and here he is strutting along the corridor in the CO uniform like some kind of peacock. He being Alexander the son of the mob that ruined my family and the guy who left me behind and broke my fragile heart and I am in here because of him.

" Holy freaking Shit, I am so fucked" I hear myself mumble.

" hello have you missed me " he whispers to me as he passes me by. I finally look round seeing inmates cooing after him with his now short blonde hair instead of his long blonde scraggly hair and now green eyes which used to be blue. I see mom standing in the corridor with Nichols, Morello, Boo, Gina and Norma. Me and mom catch each other's eye for the first time since our argument a few months ago now, mom raises her eye brow and together we share a knowing glance.

That's the day my life changed forever when Alex walked in in his CO uniform, I knew I was now in trouble and I really was alone now.

Later on that day I carried on like normal, went on to do my job in the library which I enjoyed so much and now became my sanctuary and believe it or not I am becoming good friends with Taystee so, I maybe breaking the whole tribe thing but I don't care at least I have someone I can call a friend.

I continue to put away books that have been returned when I hear someone trying to catch my attention. I look round not seeing anyone I carry on only to hear it again and I whip my head round to see the perfect green eyes I recognise the spark in them. I walk over keeping a shelving of books between us " what the bloody hell are you doing here" I snap.

" nice to see you too my Nasty girl" I hate it when calls me that.

" do not call me that...I am not your Nasty girl anymore" I hiss.

" oh look who's gotten feisty since she's been in here" Alex says smirking.

" what the hell Do you want? I'm in this freaking mess because of you and your retched family" I bark.

" I'm here to say sorry for leaving you.."

" why has it taken you this long to say this? Why now I mean you never cared about me then"

" that's not true I cared about you and I still do and I tried going back for you but it was already too late,I have been in hiding and i have had to change my image along with my entire identity I am now officer Lukas lipanov and I want you to know I have never forgotten about you at all"

" well I'm sorry you're too late, you already lost me when you left me behind, have a nice life after all I don't know how you can live with your self after what you did" I say walking off.

" I will make it up to you" he says finally turning to walk away " Pfftt I'd like to see you try... Just stay the hell away from me" I say turning my back to him.

I wished at that moment that I had mom to talk to about this whole situation but once again I am alone in this I mean I can't really tell anyone or can I? But, who would believe a inmate over an officer? I brush the thought of telling someone away for now and decide I will try to face him alone.

Later on that day I head into the cafeteria and join the line, I glance round as I wait for the line to move and that's when I see him standing still hands behind his back as he watched the girls as they eat or passed by.

Just looking at him made me angry, I just don't know how I am meant to do my time with him in charge of me, ordering me around as if he didn't do anything wrong.

I sit looking down applying with my food taking occasional bites every now and again but I don't really eat much after all I'm just not hungry. I watch as the other girls slowly leave the cafeteria so, I get up put my tray away and walk the best I can with head held high as I walk past Alex and glanced back at him and he was watching me and I raise an eyebrow and turned my head back and carried on walking.