Hey guys I am sorry that I haven't been posting often these days.I was abroad because of business,I will post more often

It was getting darker every minute and I was getting nervous,geez being alone in the park at midnight is not my biggest fantasy lets just say that but I don't know what I could have seriously done,run back to Christian's apartment and make a utter fool of myself like hell that is happening.

I curse under my breath as puffs of cool air hits my couldn't I atleast grab Christian sweater or something if I was going to run away so dramatically and now as I am thinking things through I realize that whatever he said to Sasha was a bit harsh yes but the girl clearly deserves it,I remember overhearing her conversation on the phone with her friend I think and I don't even want to think about what she was gave me the creeps and it was disgusting.

She was saying as I quote "You know it feels so good when Christian comes in my mouth and his semen is so tasty! I think that the shopkeepers should sell it in bottles" and I could here no more I went and threw up in the washroom and didn't stop throwing up till Christian came worriedly in the bathroom and asked me whats wrong?

I blushed to that but I obviously couldn't bring myself to answer that so I just told him I was feeling a bit unwell that day and he left it go,thankfully.
So you must be getting me when I say that she is a harlot actually even harlots will be offended by being associated with her.
And I don't know why but she absolutely hates me.

Even though I have tried to be polite with her over a billion times it just doesn't help,she thinks I am danger to hers and Christian's relationship like I would ever sleep with in a million we have slept together a lot of times but you know what I mean,she meant me jumping his bones.
I put my head between my legs and start to sob hysterically,this is just so shitty!
Why am I even here?

In the strange dim light,the tall pines of trees were so warmly warm damp balminess of summer encompassed me sweetly with moist smells of flowers.
I was thinking of a lot of things when I heard a voice I certainly wasn't expecting to hear over here.
"Ana!"he was shouting,his voice filled with concern.

But I did not reply.
For some odd reason my mouth was too dry and no sound was coming out,where does your voice go when you need it the most? the part was kind off dark so I couldn't see Christian properly and I was not sure about where he was standing.
A cold fright was falling upon me,all I could think of was that I loved him like my bestfriend.
I love everything about the proud lift of his head to his copper colored hair,loved his laughter even when it mystified me,loved his bewildering silences.

I heard Christian coming closer "Why Ana"his voice breaking through the roaring my ear."Are you hiding from Jose Sweetheart?" he says with amusement.
I gulped hard.
I could not speak so i pulled him closer to myself,Chirstian looked puzzled but interested,There was a tenseness about me I think that he had never seen before.
And even in this dim light he could see the rosy flush on my cheeks.

I surprised myself as much as I surprised him I think as I pulled him into a tight hug at first he was confused but then was he was hugging me back and I felt content.

You have stolen my heart,oh stolen darling what have you done? like the kohl from my eyes,like the fragrance from flowers,

I thought of these lines as I closed my eyes.