The day that Christian had been waiting for and the day I had been dreading had finally were supposed to head back to Seattle and pretend to be in love.
Why did I ever get myself involved in any of this? A tiny voice inside my head tells me because I have fallen hard and fast for my bestfriend but I shut it up.
I am bed but I know I soon need to get my lazy ass up or we would not be able to reach Seattle in time and I do not want to disappoint Grace or my mom since they have been looking forward to seeing us for a quiet a while.
I was alone in my was already dressed and had apparently left the room to get two coffees, one of which he now handed me.
"You're a lifesaver." I sat up, keeping the sheet in place since it was I was feeling cold.
Christian glanced my t-shirt and then away. "Figured you'd need your caffeine.""You figured right." I smiled and then took a long grinned back, and it didn't feel forced. This wasn't as awkward as I thought it might be, after last night after the night that we could not help but kiss eachother again and again, Christian was giving it the name of practice but was that reallly it? Just practice? I don't think so and besides maybe for Christian kissing is no big of a deal since he has more fuck buddies then he can keep track of but for me kissing surely means something.
"So we just have until noon today, then we pack up what's left and hit the road."
"Sounds good. Maybe I'll even get more studying in today."
Christian was acting a little too calm and collected. Like either he was cool with what had happened between us or he wasn't planning on bringing it up.
Fine with me. I didn't want to bring it up either.
So why did I feel so unsettled, so unfinished? My stomach was in knots, and every time he looked at me with those beautiful and soulful eyes, those knots changed to flutters.
Flutters so fierce I felt them down to my toes.
I was afraid to admit that maybe he didn't think I was good enough for him. That I wasn't girlfriend material, after all. And I guess, really, I wasn't.
We were packed and on the road in a little while.
"Mind if we go to a drive-through? I'm starving."
"Me, too," I said, and got comfy in my seat by removing my shoes and propping my feet up on the dash.
He pulled into a McDonald's and we got two burgers, sodas, and fries to share.
"After that greasy food last night and now this, I'm going to have to eat salads for the rest of the week," I said.
"See, that's the beauty of working out," he said, biting into his burger. "I can eat what I want as long as I work it off at the gym."
I ended up feeding Christian my fries, only because he grabbed my hand after it came out of the bottom of the bag. When his tongue touched my fingertips I held my breath.
"More, please," he said, gobbling up the fries.
"What am I, your servant today?" Heat was pulsing low in my looked so adorable. "Grab your own damn food."
"Hey, I'm the driver so it's only fair," he said yanking the fast-food bag onto his lap and digging in
I had fed Christian food since we were little kids,We used to do everything together but now I just don't feel like my usual self around him anymore.I feel more aware of him in a way I was never before.
I wondered what this family would think of me and him together,will they approve?
I think I am going absolutely nuts why am I even wondering this? its just a pretense and nothing more after all.