Hey there guys! I am so sorry for not updating lately but I just got married a week ago and I am sure you all know how hectic newly married life can be..
And we will be off to Greece in two days so I wanted to write something before I go on my honeymoon because then I will be quiet pre occupied with my husband ;) Love you all! xx
Fall was my favorite time of the year,The brutal heat of the Seattle summer had dissipated and left the air around me pleasantly warm, and more comfortable than stifling.I was taking my third walk of the day. With nothing to do other than sit and worry about my life and my feelings for Christian,I preferred to be outside, moving, rather than sitting in the grungy halfway house.
I rounded the corner of the block I had grown familiar with over the past several days, surprised I hadn't worn a path into the sidewalk by now. There was a small park across the street.
I considered stopping to watch the children playing, but kept going, knowing it would only dredge up memories that would make me cry.I couldn't quite believe things had ended the way they did.I felt conflicted being away from the compound, empty in a weird way. It was all I knew and I had never felt this way about my own bestfriend and now I just want to hold onto him forever.
I had become disillusioned with their whole way of life after my grandmother passed away four years ago. But there were certain things, and people, she'd miss.
I already missed the bustle of activity, always having someone to talk to.I missed Newyork too much and wanted to get back as soon as possible this pretending with Christian's parents was unbearable and too painful,the sun began to sink lower in the sky,I resigned myself to spending another night at the house.I'd come to despise it for no other reason than how alone I felt there which was crazy since Grace,Carrick,Christian and Mia were all there.
I turned right at the corner, surprised that I didn't recognize my surroundings.I'd been so lost in thought, and over-confident in my ability to navigate, that I hadn't paid attention to where I'd wandered.I turned in a circle, searching out a landmark, or street sign I'd recognize; but unfortunately it did little good.I was lost.I took a deep breath and willed herself to stay calm. But the facade lasted about two seconds.I had no one to call since my mobile was at home.I was completely and utterly alone, the realization was a stark one.
