''Will you do it again Holly? Would you just pick up and leave? ''

She was surprised by the question she asked. Why did she doubt Holly now? They promised to try and work things out. She saw pain and something else on Holly's face. She looked like she was caught doing something wrong.

''I would…''

Gail tried to get out of the bed, but Holly stopped her.

'' I would pack my bag and leave as far as I can… I'm scared again and I want us safe. I want us to pack and escape this madness. I've spent most of the day thinking how amazing it would be if we could leave. I would get a job in a teaching hospital and maybe you would decide to have a baby for us. I can picture me coming back home to you and asking about your day and our kids. I would kill for a life like that. But, I know you wouldn't be happy not being here and being a cop. So, I have to suck it in every time I want to run for that door.''

''Are you happy with me Holly?''

''Oh, baby… I am so happy with you. I'm so in love with you, but I worry about you so much. I want you safe and I was calmer knowing you are in the office, but with caveman out… We are not safe.''

''I am asking you will you leave me again?''

''No, I will not. I will stay with you… But, I can't promise I will not want us to leave and have normal life.''

''I will make sure he doesn't touch you Holly, I promise.''

They got back to sleep but the reacted to every sound. It felt so weird to jump at the sound of the wind or any sound that is just normal.

''I hate this Gail… It's driving me insane….''

''I will go to the prison in few hours. I will make sure he is far from us baby…''

''I just can't do it again Gail…''

''You will not. I promise…''

Gail managed to sleep some more and Holly was awake and pretty scared. Gail got up around six in the morning and got ready for her short trip to the prison. Holly got ready for work also. Regardless of removing herself from the case, there were always some other cases she could work or help on. She knew she could compromise investigation if she kept the case, so she chooses to keep as far as she could from the body and the crew working the case. In the morgue she got some looks, but she ignored them. She had a lot on her plate now and she didn't need all the gossip. Holly had two easy cases and she was invited to join some of her coworkers for lunch. They tried to find out more about her and what is her connection to Gail. Gail kept her private life very private and very few people knew she was the wife that left her all these years ago. One of the doctors started with some simple questions like where she studied, what she loved about the job, the way she did some things, procedures she did, interns she liked to work with and these questions that were more work related. Holly answered most of them and her companions were impressed to hear what she did and how far she got.

''So, how do you know Chief superintendent Peck?''

She didn't know what to say. She and Gail never talked about her saying to her coworkers about them being married.

''Why?''

''She seems so distant and cold. She is almost never seen here and pretty unavailable to most of us. And there you are. Your first day on the job and she comes to the crime scene after you called her.''

''First of all, she is not distant or cold… She is just…Gail… Second of all, she worked the case as the rookie and we closed it together. She would have wanted to be there and see it herself. That case marked her a lot and it meant a lot to her. It's not that simple, and I don't want to talk about it…''

''She told you? Wow, that is new… We never believed she would talk about herself. We all agree that she is so high on her horse and she never hangs out with people. Sometimes she goes to Penny with some of her police officers, but we haven't seen her really relaxed or with someone. Rumor has it that she is married to some hot shot doctor who is not here. Some of the girls in the lab said her husband left her…''

''Stop it right now! You have no idea what happened and why things happened like that. Gail is an amazing officer and that is what you need to know…''

''Why so over protective? You have no idea how she got to her position…''

That was true statement. Holly had no idea…

''She took so many undercover operations that she spent about four years out of the uniform. She was the one to break one of the biggest narco cartels in country. She got promoted for it, but it didn't stop her. She reached the top after getting into the bank by herself with a sniper rifle. She killed all the kidnapers and that is when she got promoted again. We heard that she got some dirt on previous Chief Superintendent and that is how she got her spot. She got him to resign and get her to his spot. Being Peck helped her skip a lot of steps. ''

''Being a Peck was always the best and the worse thing about her. She loved it and hated it. But, Gail is a very complicated, but hard working person who I admire as the officer. She never needed connections to be good cop. She was it without her parents or any other connection she had. She always had to prove herself and work more because of the Peck name and she still does it. She is amazing at what she does.''

''You seem to know her well…''

''I do… I know her pretty well…''

''How?''

''That story is for another day… See you around.''

Holly got her things and went back to her office.

Gail's day was not much better. She spent two hours driving to the jail and she didn't find a lot of willing people to help her resolve the mystery of ''Caveman''. She was taken to his cell and one of the techs took his DNA after a lot of problems with the inmate and the system in jail. Somehow, Gail managed to get them to sign the permit for them to do it. Inmate didn't speak or look her in the eyes. It seemed odd to her. Caveman would always talk to her and make comments about Holly and that night. She had a feeling something was wrong and off but she couldn't explain what was that all about. After few hours in the prison, she headed home. She talked to Holly about meeting up for dinner. She suggested that small Thai place they always went to and Holly didn't mind it. Holly got there first and got to the table. Gail arrived few minutes after her. She kissed her wife and sat down.

''I take it you had a crappie day…''

''I did… Pretty bad day…''

''Why?''

''I don't know. Something was off.''

''O.K. We'll see what is that all about…''

''How about your day lunchbox?''

''I got asked a lot of questions about us and why you got to the scene. I guess some of the people haven't told the new ones that we are married.''

''I hate nosy people…''

''Me too…''

After their meal they took a short walk and Holly got an idea.

''Let's go to Penny…''

''What?''

''We haven't done it in ages… Let's do it...''

''Holly… I… Why would you want to do that?''

''Because we haven't been out in a long time and I don't want this case to take the best of us. I want to keep living normal life for as long as I can. I can't let it take something more away from us Gail. I want us to be normal again…''

Gail knew Holly was right. That case and all it took with it took something big from them. Their relationship failed because of it all and all the stress. Now they had to rebuild their lives and be normal again.

''Fine, let's go…''

Penny was full. A lot of their friends sat at their tables and drank their beers talking about sports or some other things. Girls were at the top of the table talking about Chloe's and Dove's new baby that was due in seven months. They just learned they were expecting that afternoon .Gail noticed that Holly's smile faded in some moments. Chloe talked about morning sickness, Tracy talked about her experience, Andy told them that she can't wait to be a mother and that she and Sam are trying to get pregnant. Holly smiled, but her eyes were sad. Gail was heartbroken. Dove made entire speech how Gail should get Chloe off the streets. She was fascinated how Dove loved to make other people's decisions and things his own thing. She understood that baby was his, but she also knew that it was up to his wife to pick would she work or not. She told him that if she wants to do the desk things, she should come herself and he shouldn't speak for her.

''Is that what she wants, or what you want?''

''I think it is not good for her and the baby to be in the streets.''

''If she wants off the streets, sent her to me… Don't make her decisions.''

''Come on Gail, you would do the same if Holly was pregnant. I know you will do it the moment she sees these blue lines… You will get her off the streets and she will be safe and sound.''

That hurt her. Dove had no idea how painful it was for them that Holly would never be able to have children. After the stabbing, doctor told them that her ovaries and uterus were damaged by some of the blows. He assured them that Holly will never have children. They repaired her organs, but she would never be able to give birth. Gail's eyes were full of tears.

''Excuse me…''

She went out of the Penny and it didn't take Holly long time to find her. Holly saw Gail's eyes were full of tears.

''What happened?''

''I will tell you, but not now… Can we please go home?''

''Sure love…''

They got home and Gail was very silent. Holly went to get some water and Gail stood in the living room looking at the floor. She took a deep breath and came to her wife. She took the water from Holly's hand and put it aside. She took her face and kissed her like her life depended of it. Holly broke the kiss when they needed some air.

''Gail? What is going on?''

''I want you….''

Holly took her hand and led her to the bedroom. Bus as soon as they came, their dynamic changed. Gail was the one in charge. She removed her jeans and shirt and stripped Holly of hers. She kissed her lips, neck, and shoulders. She repeated all the time how much she wants her and how amazing she is. Holly loved hearing this. Gail started kissing her stomach and that was the moment when Holly felt a little uncomfortable. They had silence deal that Gail never touches place around her scars. They were place she was not allowed to go. And now, Gail was there. She was almost touching it and kissing her scars.

''I love you so much….''

''Gail, don't ..Please don't go there….''

Gail set between her wife's legs and started pulling off her panties. Holly's eyes were closed and she was trying to hide her tears.

''Holly, look at me…Open your eyes…''

Holly did it and she saw Gail's face close to her.

''I love YOU… All of you and I don't mind them…They are part of you.''

''They are horrible. I should sue the person who did the stitching. It scared bad.''

''I don't care.''

She kissed Holly's scars and she started sobbing….

''You deserve someone better. I'm damaged Gail. I'm broken.''

''No, you are not… You are amazing, beautiful, smart….''

''You saw the girls there. They already have kids, expect kids or they are trying. We will never have that. I will never give you a child.''

''We may not be blessed with Stewart DNA, but I promise us Peck are not that bad. And plus, imagine how bitchy I would be pregnant and hormonal…''

Holly wiped her eyes.

''You would do that?''

''Yes, I would.''

Holly kissed her with so much love and passion.

''Thank you Gail.''

''There is nothing to thank me for. You are my wife and I love you. It is time to share love with someone else too.''

''Let's find a perfect baby daddy…''

Gail had in mind someone who looks like Holly. She wanted the baby to be looking like Holly as much as it is possible.''

''I want donor who looks like you…If I can't have baby with you, I can have a baby that looks like you.''

Holly flipped them so she was on top of Gail.

''Maybe I can't get you pregnant, but I could make you scream my name.''

''That you can…''

''Before, during, after…. Always…You are mine Gail Stewart and I am yours….''

''Always…''

They made love entire night and in the morning they called in sick and went to Holly's friends practice to see what they should do to get pregnant. He did tests on her and after he got the results and told them that she is ovulating at that moment and suggested they try right away. They looked at each other and nodded. He showed them donors that fit category they choose. Gail picked one that looked like Holly's twin brother. Holly was amused with how much they looked like. Gail was inseminated that day and they decided to keep it their little secret. Doctor told them that it usually doesn't work out the first time, but that they shouldn't lose hope. After they left the clinic, they went for a walk and lunch. They ate at Holly's favorite Thai place. Gail felt like she was doing the most important thing in the world. She was working on becoming a mother. She was making Holly's dream come true and she was having a chance to live different life.

Without even knowing if she was pregnant, Gail changed her life style very much. She would wake up early and walk around the park with Holly, then they would have healthy homemade breakfast, she stopped drinking coffee and she took all the vitamins Holly told her to take. She quit drinking and she cut off her work hours. She and Holly were leaving for work at seven thirty and going home at four in the afternoon. Holly also made sure she was there for Gail. No matter what the test says, they are in that together. She was hoping the test would be positive and she wanted them to be mothers as soon as possible, but the rational doctor in her kept her in check and kept her thinking about how to deal with failure and what to do next. Their friends were intrigued why they are not going out with them and why none of them is giving them the answer. Holly was saying they need some alone time and Gail was saying it's not their business.

Moment of truth came. Gail was very sad because she felt nothing is changing. She was not sick, her breasts were not sensitive and she was not fainting or feeling different. She did the test just because Holly told her that doesn't mean anything. Gail was sure she was not pregnant and she was very sad. Doing this test, she felt like the fact she is not with child is being rubbed into her nose. Holly was the one standing over the stick. She was waiting for results so impatiently and full of hope. When her phone beeped, she checked it. It had two lines, it was positive. Gail and her will became parents in spring.