I woke up to a pounding headache. I sat up in the hospital bed and asked for a nurse. I fixed my hat just as the nurse walked in.
"Sir, how are you feeling today?" I looked at her and said that I had a headache and medicine would be absolutely wonderful. When the nurse walked out I grabbed a book that was sitting on the night stand. I opened it to the front page. There was a note.
Dear double D. Kevin said that you had gotten sick so we came by to see you again. You were
Sleeping so we just left the book. Sorry that we haven't called in a long time. Come to stop by later.
Yours Ed and Eddy.
I smiled as I read the note and continued to the next page. As a read a long the nurse came back and gave me the pills. By the time that the boys walked in, I was already half way through the book. Kevin came up and gave me a hug. Ed and Eddy gagged but I knew that they were joking. We talked for a while until it was lunch time and they went to get something to eat. I sat there until I heard my phone going off. I flipped the phone open and looked at the caller Id. My mom. I sat there in a cold sweat trying to find out what she could possibly want. Just as the last ring was about to go off I answered the phone.
"Hey Eddward how have you been doing your father and I have been working all the time and we decided to go on vacation to Hawaii. We called just to let you know that we might be a little late on sending you money. Don't forget to clean the house. We love you, bye Eddward." And the sound of a recorder went off. The phone hung up and I just sat there with the phone at my ear. Are you kidding me?! They had a recording give me a call?! They love me? NO, no they don't. If they actually loved me they would be at home and I wouldn't be in the hospital because I am getting lack of sleep, depression, and nightmares! I don't give a crap that they are going on vacation! I don't even care they can't send me money right away, I just wished... just wish that would love me enough to come home. Eddy walked in first and sat down. When he looked up and was started. I could hear Kevin asking me what was wrong while he wiped the tears away from my eyes. I looked at Ed as he stood in front of me panicking.
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"I... my parents just called... they used a recording to talk to me, and still had the nerve to tell me that they love me. Ha that is pathetic right?" I said as I put my phone down. I looked at it. Frustration and irritation over whelmed me and in a split second I picked it up and chucked it at the wall. I let out a tormented scream. I hugged my arms and hid my head. I heard someone walk up to me and put their hand on my back. They lightly held up my chin and looked into my eyes. It was Eddy.
"Hey Double D, you don't need them you've got us remember? We all love you in this room isn't that enough?" Eddy smiled tiredly like he thought he wasn't good enough. I started to hear a sniffling sound. I looked over and saw Ed standing there whimpering.
"Ed why are you crying?" Ed walked over to me and gave me a hug.
"How will your parents call?" I sat there shocked than hug his back holding tightly.
"They don't need to call. I got you guys remember?" I said as I smiled. After a while we all calmed down and kelvin was sitting there moving his thumb in circles on my palm. I looked at him with a questioning look. He looked startled like he didn't want to say something.
"Hey Double D. I don't want to pressure you into saying anything because you know I love you right. I just... I just wanted to ask why would you overdose when, I love you so much, is that not enough?" He's voice cracked as he came to the brink of tears. He squeezed my hand harder and he shut his eyes trying not to think of the answer I might give him.
"Kevin I will tell you the truth. I wasn't trying to overdose," He looked up at me like he didn't believe me. I began again, "I'm telling the truth. When my parents were still here I would get nightmares every-night till one night when I woke up and I was having a panic attack. I couldn't breathe and my body was jerking uncontrollably. They had to take me to the doctors to get me medicine for it. Every now and then I would walk up and have to drag myself to the bathroom," I stopped in the middle to talk a minute. I was telling him something I never told the Ed's. They never would have been able to handle it, but I kept going. "That night I was having a nightmare. I had a dream that, dream that... I had dreamt that I had woken up in my room with my parents standing next to me. My mother came up and stabbed me in the chest. My lungs screamed out for air as she whispered in my ear that I would never be good enough and that I just understand that already. After that I woke up and I couldn't breathe. I was trying to get to the bathroom so that I could take my medicine but when I opened the bottle my hand jerked and I dropped the pills on the ground." I Looked down and saw Ed looking up at me from the spot he had been laying on my bed. He gave me a pouting looked as he grabbed my hand. He whispered for me to go on, and so I did.
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I cleared my throat and began, "After I dropped the bottle and my legs gave out from the pressure of holding up a body that wasn't working. I was choking on my tongue as I couldn't breathe. My eye sight got really black. When I tried to pick up what looked like two pills I think I picked up four. My body wouldn't stop twitching as it got even harder to breath after a while I just passed out and when I woke up I was here in the hospital with you sitting by my sit. You the one I will always love and would do nothing to try and hurt," I said as I looked him in the eyes. Kevin looked back and Ed held on to my hand as he tugged closer to him. I sighed and asked him if he could get up so I could sleep. After a while I laid back down and Kevin sat next to me stroking my hat. Right before I went back to bed Kevin leaned over and whispered into my ear.
"You didn't fail your parents, your parents failed you," With that I fell asleep.
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