Chapter3

The handicapped guy opened his mouth and looked down at the ground feeling a little confuse, a little depressed, a little happy. He didn't know what was wrong with him. His last wish was to see the blonde in a place like that. He didn't know what to do? What should do now? Return to his work and acts like nothing happened at all or stare at her and get full from her. He didn't know at all. He was so confused. Train of memory passed in his mind forcing him to return to five years ago, how they acted, how they smiled, how they laughed, how they cried. Nothing was the same at all, all he knew that he changed and believes that everyone changed too. In the moment, he wanted to do two things. One, smile at her and chat with her like they used to do. Two, to enter his room like nothing happened.

"You… stopped playing?" the blonde was the one to cut his train of thoughts as she kept staring at him. That's right, nothing is gonna be the same. Because, she didn't see him like that before, a handicapped guy. She didn't even know that he quit the basket. She didn't know that he had a deadly accident five years ago. An accident that caused him to quit his job, to quit playing his basketball, to even stay away from his childhood friends. Natsu stared at her face and realized that she had tears in her eyes. He knew that Lucy was always sensitive and knew that she was crying in anything she sees a little sad. Lucy sniffed and kept staring at the salamander. Natsu exhaled air and then inhaled air in order to talk.

"Yeah" that was his answer as he realized the pat on his shoulder from the white haired Lisanna walking over to her office.

"I will be there if you needed me" she whispered leaving the both chat as much they want.

"Come" Natsu said slowly as he moved with his chair as he tried to control his feelings and be colder than he was already. The two entered Natsu's office and he went to where desk was telling her to sit on the chair that was in front of his desk. Natsu was really acting cold, it wasn't because he was angry or anything. It was just because he changed and he prefer not paying attention to his old love, old feelings than giving it more than it needs because what if she left again! That's right that he was missing her and wanted to hold her like he used to do but when he thought, what if she doesn't have the same feeling? What if she didn't miss him like he did? What if she still thinks that she was right when she left him? What if she thinks that he is not capable anymore to act like a normal person, like human walking with legs?! Many questions were in Natsu's head that time and he didn't want to think anymore, he doesn't want to fall in love with her again and she doesn't. Natsu stared at her after she sat down putting both elbows on the desk and snarling his fingers together.

"I own this place, you knew that" Lucy's eyes widened as she kept staring at him. She knew that this place he bought five years ago, just for her. But, she never knew that he actually kept it and even worked at it. It was so confusing, meeting a person you had a relation with him after five years of missing and not talking.

"You work here, what about the basketball?" she was idiot. Anyone could see his state now and would simply realize that he quit. But, because Lucy wasn't able to believe that this really happened to him. She didn't know what she was asking.

"As you can see, I quit because of what happened" he said looking at the hard wooden table feeling a little ache cause she reminded him of a day he wanted always to forget. Natsu looked back at Lucy waiting for any other question. The blonde woman bit her lips and looked down at the ground. She knew that a miracle might happen and she got to meet him again but never knew that his state would be like that. She wanted to believe that she was in a dream and it all will end when she wakes up to find herself in her home. But, she didn't wake up.

"Then when did that happen?" Lucy asked as her tears suddenly left her place to fell down to her cheeks. Natsu paused a little looking at the wooden table unable to find the words to spell he just didn't want to talk about thing anymore. He looked back at Lucy with a serious look he got in his eyes.

"Five years ago" he paused looking at her trying to imagine what was her next question will be. Lucy's eyes widened and more tears kept falling from her eyes trying feeling the blame was on her but before she could ask another question, Natsu cut her off to answer the question she was about to ask. "And it's not anyone's fault, don't worry" Natsu then looked down. "It's been so long already, I adapted with this state" he then raised his head to look at her and speak before she speaks again.

"You… achieved your goal" he said simply catching her attention but getting no answer. "You became a writer"

"It's my second book" she said as she started to play with her bag. "I… published one before, two years ago" Natsu slowly nodded as he rested his back at the chair feeling so hopeless. The both of them were so strange. It seemed like they didn't talk to each other before. They didn't seem to know each other, as well. About achieving goals, they looked like they were delivering the banner to each other. Natsu stopped when Lucy started. They stayed silent and didn't talk.

They didn't do anything except avoiding each other's eyes and stares at something in the room.

"The place is here"

The three friends got out from the car heading to where the library/café was. They didn't that Natsu was the owner of the both of the library and café that were next to each other. The only thing they knew that Natsu was coming here for several time, that's what they read from the journal. "Excuse me" the redhead began as she went to the counter after seeing a beautiful lady stands to take orders. They caught her attention as she looked at him.

"Yes"

"Do you know 'Natsu Dragneel' I think he came here for several times" the counter lady backed as she felt nervous. It wasn't the first time that someone comes to ask for him because they were all journalist and wanted to know anything about 'the manager' or even 'the visitor'. The lady let out a cough and looked at the table in front of her; she started to think about good excuse that she says to them because it was the manager's order to never let anyone enter when they ask about 'Natsu Dragneel'.

"No, I never heard that name" Erza raised her brow realizing how much she lied and how did she pauses before telling the lie not to mention the sweats dropping from her face.

"Hey, we are not journalists." Erza spoke to her with a harsh getting no answer except for silence. "We really need to know if he comes to here or not" she continued. The lady who had brown hair and blue eyes looked at them gulping.

"I really don't know, believe me!"

"Hey, listen" Gray came to the front as he started to take off his scarf and glasses. "I'm a player and used to play with him basketball if we were really journalists, why would be there a player in their team?!" asked the black haired guy as he started to feel a little anger. The lady's eyes widened as she was about to scream because she was seeing, the handsome basketball player in front of her. She will die happy now.

"Lisanna-san" the lady came with a huge smile on her lips as she was followed by the three friends. "You can't believe what just happened!" she said whispering to her ear" the white haired woman raised her brow as she glanced at the three people who just came so sudden.

"Who are them?"

"They are Natsu-san's friends" she said melting in her place. Lisanna didn't give any attention to them because she didn't really know who they are.

The brown haired left and left the three to the white haired. "I'm amazed that you don't know us" Gray said feeling feelings the one to be ignored.

"How I should know you with that big scarf, big hat and big sunglasses?" she has a point in that. Gray started to remove them for her to know but…

"Ah, I don't know you" the black haired felt really depressed to hear something like that and wanted to dig himself a hole in the wall and cry in.

"Natsu has a guest right now and I don't know when she will go?" the three of them felt really taken by the last sentence she said and felt kinda depressed. They came all the way here and were amazed to here that Natsu was the owner of the place and they won't be fine if they left without seeing him.

"Please just tell him that there's someone wants to meet him, not a journalist because we are really busy and we can't stay for much longer." Erza said as she started to plead seeing no other way to have except for that. Lisanna stared at her and then sighed and then grabbed the telephone.

"Wait a minute I will call him"